Colorless Aurora

your world is so narrow

I looked back at all the photos framed in my mother's room, making me recall some memories of her, although most were just small talk beside where she lay.

It was as if I was still seeing my mother smile again, as she sat in the window seat and wiped the album book that I had made.

"Well, you seem to be guarding this place a lot An." Said Sina peeking at me in mom's room.

"Yes because maybe all these photos are memories that mom gave me." Answer me who's looking for something in this room.

Sina walked in, saw the whole picture framed around the wall of the room, making this room like a small gallery made especially by me.

Turn around and see all the beauty that mom gave me to remember in the photo.

"But, do you remember, when your mother died and I came to visit, you were sitting alone in this place, confining yourself to a blanket ." The word Sina reminds me in old memories, it was the day after mother's death.

"Yes you who entered without permission and sat beside me, saying that 'your world is very narrow', it makes me a little calm ." I smiled as I remembered Sina's words.

It used to be Sina who just walked in and pulled me out of this room. The shabby face and chaotic heart were not ignored by the tomboyish girl, what Sina did was very troublesome.

"Ah come on, no need to say it anymore, I'm traumatized to remember it."

"really ?." Sina looked at me seriously and smiled.

"Yes you used to lightly hit, pull and beat me, make me go up into the tree and knock me down and it's still impregnated in this hand ." Upset I said every incident related to Sina.

"Haha."

It sucks, if Sina laughs when I'm in pain.

But ever since I knew her, she had never changed, maybe now her hair just looks long, while Sina's nature remains as rough as ever.

"Well, sina, why are you lengthening your hair ?." Ask me when I see it.

A glance at Sina's red face was blushing, looking timid to say that reason.

"I want you to see me as a woman." So did Sina's response.

"Ah it turns out you're still aware that you're a Sina woman ." I said with a laugh, Sina looks annoyed, his hands clenched and hit me without a second thought.

"What do I look like before ." Sina's angry.

"Only, since long ago what you did was different from other women, not feminine, rude, self-absorbed and most importantly I assume you've forgotten that you're a woman." I am the one who happily said the other side of Sina.

"Of course not stupid ." Again he hit back.

If I still had time to count from the beginning of the meeting with Sina, it would probably have been thousands of punches that had stuck in my face.

*****

Walking side by side, I slightly remember, if two years ago, more precisely when the second grade Junior High, to first speak to Sina.

Sina pulled me rough taking me to the park after mom's death.

Sin says. "Look, the world is vast, don't put yourself in your blanket." Grasped sina's rough hand as she pulled me away.

Saw him running around and climbing a tall tree in the middle of the park.

"Well, then you'll see all the houses around here." Shouted Sina.

I tried to go up, over and over and over again, fall down and try again, bleed my knee and try again.

Without me realizing a curiosity gave me the courage to keep climbing the tree. Until the first row, I saw various forms of houses in the complex around.

All around me was a roof and an electric pole, the sky was so close for me to see, this was a sight I admired with my own eyes.

"Look, it's beautiful, isn't it, there you can see the beach ." Said Sina with passion.

"Yes you're right, it's beautiful ." Smiling amazed I saw all this.

I enjoyed it so much that in the afternoon I tried it again, the clouds and orange rays were so perfect in my eyes, carrying the camera that my mother had kept, I climbed in the hope of seeing the sky that I could capture.

I felt the warm touch of my mother's tender hand, as I admired the view from the way my mother's eyes looked from a camera.

A beauty in the form of colored sheets, shooting in all directions, with the viewpoint I wanted. Afternoon clouds, the beauty of the beach and Mount Fuji. It was the first thing that amazed me with a camera.

Although it was an old story, I wanted to keep it in mind, pointing the camera at a woman walking beside me, aiming at her smiling face.

"What are you doing ." Shouted Sina by covering his face.

"I want to photograph you and print it. " Tempt me with this camera, while he's a little shy and looks away.

"What's my picture for ?."

"To put it in front of the door so that no one would dare to enter without permission ." I said with a laugh and once again she hit me, she really is a cruel woman who can amaze me.

Running small forward, turning her body towards me, scoffing with her tongue out, in style, I asked.

"What are you doing?, aaahhh do you want a photo in that style ." Ask me with a sly smile.

For some reason I guessed Sina's way of thinking, the tomboy girl's face was red again, I wanted to laugh to see her embarrassed, turn around and not look at me, I prepared the camera behind her.

"Well, Sina, you're beautiful." This is a compliment to Sina.

With the sudden arrival of her turning around, I photographed her, a natural way to show the shy face of a girl, I got a photo of the confused girl by arriving.

"Your face is funny Sina ." I showed her a picture of her face from the camera screen.

"Awas You An ." Said sina with a embarrassed and annoyed face.

He ran after me, maybe if I got caught he would erase his picture and throw this camera into the gutter, that's what he would definitely do.

I had to run away quickly with fear because of my own fault.

With the feeling of fatigue and heat stinging the skin, the sweat that flows because pursued by women is scary.

Rushing into the cafe and locking the door, with immediate fear I sat on the chair and drank a glass of water held by Noe.

"I really won't do it again ." Said I was still scared.

"Why are you An, like running out of a marathon ." Ask Noe beside me.

With mixed feelings, I answered the question Noe asked me.

"Not running a marathon, but a crossbar." Answer me.

"Yes, but why ?."

It seemed like I didn't need to answer it, the obstacle was already knocking on the door, opened by the boss sir and walking towards me.

"Yes, as you can see". I swallowed spit.

"Eighty percent I understand you, An, so I hope you're safe." The same Noe said in fear and immediately went away.