Colorless Aurora

Unaltered

Today, after my flight home after four years of college, my whole family came to pick me up at the airport in a frenzy, carrying a large note that read 'Welcome Yoan ' when I saw the excitement to my three sisters at least the shame I was experiencing was as high as for me to commit suicide of course, Nagisa, Tita and Rin ran over when they saw me get off the escalator, Tita jumped up and hugged me, Nagisa looked angry by pulling her very tight body around me, hugging me,

"Let go of your hand, mbak." Shouted Nagisa pulling Tita's body,

"Hey, she's my sister too, " she replied with a frown,

"But keep letting go, I should have been the first to hug my brother ." Reply Nagisa angrily,

As my two younger brothers fuss over the unimportant matter, Rin appears gloomy in front of me, yah Rin has grown into a beautiful girl who has now entered 2nd grade elementary school this year,

"Rin why ?." Tanya I saw Rin standing with her face glum,

"Rin, want to hug sister, but Tita and Nagisa's mom will be angry ." Rin said cutely,

Rin who was so cute it immediately melted my heart, without a second thought I just lifted it, she said,

"Don't mind your mother, let's go home ." I carried Rin with pleasure,

"He's brother ." Rin laughed funnyly,

Just a few steps one terrifying figure with a firm look and sharp eyes looked at me, the father who stood firmly and hands crossed at the chest, he said,

"What did you get there ." Ask Dad to see me sharp,

I am sure of what I will answer, I look with confidence and answer it,

"I learned that I don't deserve to feel better or worse out there there are still a lot of people who are very extraordinary and make me understand how small I am in this world ." Answer me, answer me,

"It's good that you realize An, because that's the word your mother always said first ." Reply without smiling, though,

At least I know all this time I feel that myself is someone who continues to be tormented in life regrets but for four years I have learned many things, he said, about all the meaning of life therefore I cannot be arrogant with what I am getting right now, there are still many things I have to learn to be happy and happier,

"So An, what are you going to do after this, are you going to run the company, or ...." Said a woman who had become my mother standing next to her father,

"Before I have something to do, I want to go to my mother's grave first and meet all my friends, "Answer me a little smile,

"Yes well ." Answer my mother, this,

Looking at the two girls who were still noisily there, I called out to the two of them,

"Nagisa, Tita, are you guys still long for a storm, if that's the case, sister will go home first ." Shouted me walking away, though,

At first glance they both stopped fighting and saw me leaving,

"Wait for brother ." Shouted them both at the same time,

Yes everyone has their own life somehow, I just want happiness to always come to everyone in my life,

I have a reason why I'm here, back to where I was born, four years ago I was still hiding under a thick blanket that locked me out of the future, but seeing everyone who is constantly struggling to live life with passion, that is the reason why I have to change, in life I know those humans and I call them as a friend, a friend, I walked down the path that did not change its direction, with the same roar of waves as before, all this did not change and included for all my gratitude, he said, which until now has not changed for all of them,

The beginning of my goal was a public cemetery where my most loved ones fell asleep there, step by step which brought me closer to a tomb, a sense of cool and peace, he said, the wind that began to caress my entire body was like the softness of his hand as he rubbed my head first, even in front of me who looks like a figure of her smiling and I imagine what my mother would say if she saw me who is currently standing next to where she fell asleep,

"Ah, it's been a long time, now you've grown into an adult." The shadow I heard a soft voice from my mother,

Imagine what my mother said and I answered,

"Yes, I've come to understand what mom's life is like .",

And my mom said it again,

"An gets stronger, I'm proud to see you, An's happy mother ."

My tears were rushing, I couldn't resist, I wanted to cry and scream but I'm sure my mother didn't want to see her child like that, just the last word I have not said until now, holding back my tears I held my breath and said,

"Thank you for everything, mother, because I understand that the world is beautiful and I am happy, " cried out in a heart full of sadness,

With a sprig of lilies that I placed in her navel I left with all the drops of tears that I could not bear and restarted to see what I left behind first,

The steps lead me to a house, well a simple house that used to be with the capacity of 'S3' or 'just relax hard', but what I see today is a beautiful house, a beautiful house, even with all the renovations complete and being worthy to live in, the voices of the children who came out of the house in full school uniforms included, the little brother who was already preparing for school, the voice of the children who came out of the house with the full school uniform included, I saw him from a distance, he approached walking towards me, looking like he was no stranger to someone in front of him, I lifted him up and said,

"Fifth sister you've grown up apparently, do you remember with sister." I saw him standing in front of me,

"Yes, Brother An ." He answered her cutely, though,

The voice called from inside the house, the soft voice did not change even though I had not heard it for four years,

"Nia, where are you ." Shouted the woman,

When he came out, his eyes were on me, it might be strange if he were to see me now, perhaps considering me a stranger with all my looks and long hair,

"Yo, long time no see, "Call me with a smile,

His face looked confused, his eyes glazed over, whether he seemed to still recognize me despite all these changes,

"Welcome back An, " said Rina by covering up her grief, saying,

She was speechless after saying that word, her tears melted soaking up her make up, she said,

"So, have you found your happiness ." Ask the girl, though,

"Yes, you made me find her and I couldn't have been like this without your help ." The answer made me laugh,

I lowered the last sister and walked up to Rina in front of me,

"I'm just showing you the way, but you're the one who's reaching it ." I said after I finished laughing,

"But, still without you, I could not have become like this, and what I have yet to say is THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING An ." His shout made me a little happy to see him change from the old Rina,

I didn't talk to Rina for long, but now that she's the head of the administration at the branch office of my company located in this city, her attitude is still the same as it used to be, she's a shy girl with sky-high expectations, but now that I can see a face that's not covered in bangs, she's already changed for the better, I'm happy to see that, I'm happy to see that,

For Sina himself she is a very great woman, she herself told me that she refused to work in the company I offered, of course I myself heard it directly from her, if he became a runner for Indonesia in the seagames last year, although for myself he is more worthy of being a boxer with the power of his punch and whether this is a coincidence or maybe fate that brings me to him, when I leave from Rina's place, he said, the figure of him running from a distance I could already see, he himself might not have noticed my arrival, serious face and very regular breathing, continuously spurting both legs running beautifully, as it passed me, as it passed by, I was silent not to say hello to him, but after a few seconds a hard kick in a kung fu-like style hit my back, and he said,

"Do you think you can fool my eyes An ." He shouted annoyed,

His face was angry and his hand pulled my collar, lifting it up like it was going to smash a punch at my cheek, but it was not that he consciously hugged me straight away,

"Why are you sina ." Asking me when I get this temperamental girl's warm embrace,

"Don't ask me why, you're the one who's why, you're just going to leave me here ." The answer is a cry, a cry,

"Yes, if you ask me why, I can only answer that's my decision ." Reply I said my thoughts,

He did not let go of his embrace, even my body started to ache by this hand, he said,

"Anu I'm sorry if you don't let go of your embrace it's possible my spine could break Sina ." Shout me with the rest of this breath,

Yeah but still she didn't let go, it got stronger and I felt like she started crying, I stroked that long hair she pigtailed, she said, in a few minutes I could feel him unchanged still like he used to be, a hard but soft-hearted attitude like cotton, cotton, he said, I can still be sure she remains the Sina that I recognize not the slightest bit she changed,

While walking alone with Sina and talking about the story of the past, I realized another figure who came in the opposite direction from us, riding his old motorcycle, his figure was so great, he said, the aura of someone who was diligent in worship and always obeying by religious orders, but whether it was who with a long bald head crossed his neck, he stopped, looking at me with a strange face so moved, I felt bad about the look in her eyes and regretted it,

"monks, where is this sir, is there a funeral service around here ." I said a little stale, though,

She did not reply but the gaze of her eyes were so sad that even her tears were shed, whereas looking at Sina who was laughing with a face not shown towards me, I felt strange, strange, even when the monk otu got off his bike and immediately hugged me,

"Eh what's wrong with me, "I said in my heart, while Sina laughed until he hit his knee,

I feel like there's something strange here and I just don't understand it myself,

"What happened ." Shouted I want to get an explanation,

As things got more moving for this man and became more confusing for me, Sina said,

"He's Noe, An ."

"Eh, Eeeehhhh." Shouts I don't believe it,

I let go of his embrace, Noe's very distant face changed making me not recognize who he was .

"What's wrong with you, Noe, you've changed so much, no, you're like an evolved Noe ." I still can't believe it, though,

Noe smiled with all the crying flowing down his face,

"Finally you're back An, I miss you ." Hugs very much, miss,

"Yes I know, but why, what makes you turn out like this ."

"A lot's going on, do you want to hear it An ."

"If it's going to take a long time, then not now, you better just write it, maybe later I'll read it ." I said it because I still have so much to do,

Noe quickly took out a few pieces of paper from his pocket and gave them to me,

"This, it's all here ." Noe said with a sigh of excitement,

"Since when did you prepare it, "Ask me when you took it,

"Four years ago ." Answer,

Yes Noe has changed, maybe become a better person than he used to be, someone's life does have its own way, some choose to run, some choose to run, there are also those who just walk casually to tread it and each path is nothing more like a container in which we place all our dreams, all our hopes, problems and goals, but all that remains we alone are in control of what we will achieve, sometimes we find a bend, a path uphill or downhill, he said, and do not escape often we find a dead end in our path, until one certainty we want to achieve at the end of the journey is Happy Ending, he said,

And one more person I have to meet, yes, a very appropriate poem to describe it,

"Dragon the twilight, please,

Warm blanketed at the end of the reef,

The thirst for love from him,

Never satisfied to admire,

Hey you beautiful light from the north,

In the darkness of the eternal night, the,

Everyone makes me want it more, though,

Stay with me and live with me,

I was a lonely night, though,

Without you, "I said with a poem and walked over,

Her figure was standing on the coral at the end of this beach, I was like I had just seen her yesterday, the moment where I so admired the sky with her standing adorning it, a slender body standing facing the horizon, she said, like seeing something so far away at the end of twilight, yes she was the woman who missed the sky,

Once again I returned with the camera in my hand, walking closer, the closer I could smell the longing that was so pronounced and perhaps he himself had already felt my presence while standing on this beach,

"Do you know, when we believe that happiness is so close, then we can feel it ." He said without turning his body,

"Yes, I know that and now I can feel it, too, "Reply I saw him looking at the thing he had long missed, he said,

His body turned to face me, his eyes closed, seeing that smile I felt a joy coming over me, began to envelop me,

"I can finally see you An, " said Rea with all the tears flowing without stopping,

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting, Rea, "I answered, which is so happy that I shed tears,

"Yes, you evil An, made a woman wait for four years to be able to feel this happiness ."Reply with my arms, hugging me,

I smiled, I was happy, I wanted to enjoy this happiness longer, I did not feel satisfied to admire this beauty in the photo, I took a deep breath, she said, strengthen your resolve and don't think twice about saying this,

"Rea, will you marry me ." I said with a bracelet that he had given me,

"Yes, I want An ." Answer without thinking back,

His face was smiling, tears of sadness with all the things he had been through, I was happy to be able to feel life, living it from the lowest point to get to this place, he said, but this is only the beginning of a new story between the two of us, there are still thousands of paths that I want to go along with him, whether it is difficult or happy, as long as he is beside me, I'm sure my soul won't be daunted by it, so we'll start all this again from the beginning, with so much love that I'll drown in it,