Colorless Aurora

Motivational

I was a little relieved even though there was nothing that could be considered fine over Rina's condition.

"Sister, please sit down ." The second brother invited me to sit down,

As if I had always seen this kind of thing, a house crowded with laughter and family happiness does have its own privileges, he said,

Not so long for me to wait, Rina came with the old woman where she looked so limp, Rina tried to bring the mother to walk, I came to help, Rina looked at me with her head down.

While the mother in such a weak voice said,

"I'm sorry son, this old lady is troubling you ."

"Ah, it's okay, it's natural that I should help when I see the state of aunty like this ." I answered with a smile,

Slowly and very slowly, the steps of this old woman seemed to be unable to support her own body, her legs were shaking and her breathing was so weak, after lying down to the bed in the room, she said, I remember this as if I were seeing my own mother.

Really, this atmosphere scares me, every time I hear his breath, my body feels a great trembling sensation where a memory I want to forget begins to recollect, he said,

"I'm sorry son, I can't entertain anything ." Said the mother with a face with pain,

"What's wrong, take a break ma'am ." Answer me who is still trying to smile,

I tried to calmly smile when I heard that voice, she tried to hide the pain she had with the lip arch meaning fine.

but I didn't want to see this, I immediately came out of the dark room so narrow for me to feel, that in the end I walked out which was followed by Rina.

i asked..."What happened ."

She seemed to be unwilling to answer anything about all this, even her expression did not want her to show me, after waiting for a while Rina finally replied,

"Mom has had hepatitis for a long time and now she is in critical condition ." Said Rina with a limp face.

I was quite surprised to hear Rina's explanation, certainly a word without apologizing first, but what can I say for her, I hesitate to say anything, no matter what, looking at all the circumstances in this house I should know that there is nothing good for me to give an opinion on.

"You must not waste your chance at achieving what you expect ." I said seriously,

His face grew even more lowered as I asked that..."I don't know, "The answer I got from him was like a doubt,

"Why don't you know ?."

With a little hard I again asked, even all the younger siblings around saw us who were talking about the problem of school.

"Because I don't know what to do now ." Lina replied in an angry tone,

"Bad brother, don't make mbak rina cry ."

But I ignored the little one, I smiled at him, although in the end the second brother carried and took the little one away from us both,

"Don't tell me you don't know what to do, "I said with a slight annoyance,

Rina sobbed as she held back her cries from being seen by all the siblings.

"You still have that chance, don't stop here ." I'm mad, man,

"I don't know ."

I didn't let go of Rina's hand, that sad face I didn't want to see, I hate to admit it, but I kind of saw the past for myself.

"The hope that you have is also the hope of your parents, do not make that hope crumble ." I said a little calming down, though,

He did not answer, kept shaking his head and avoiding to look me in the eye, I was angry with myself, why at a time like this, only limited motivation can I do.

"I lost my mother three years ago, my family was falling apart and my hopes were falling apart, I felt like I had no reason why I was still living this life, but after seeing you I seemed to know what I should do." answered me who wanted to make him change his mind,

She was still silent and biting her lips, released my hand then ran out, I tried to chase, she did not stop running, kept me chasing until Rina stood on the shore, I saw from a distance, I saw,

"What should I do ." He shouted loudly.

The sound of a loud shout roared into the high seas, I understood all the burden of thoughts he had, like he was forced to come out, bearing the heavy burden of every problem, I understood, but the truth was that the matter continued to bind his body, a rope of fate that he wanted to decide, and he could do nothing about it.

I walked over, I stood right next to Rina, she the shy girl crying with all feelings, complaining of a fate she did not want to accept.

"If you want to cry right now, cry, but what with giving up everything will be fine, "Said I saw all her tears spilled,

He did not answer, I did not want to see him give up and become like me who has no purpose in life, but it would be more wrong if I allowed himself to be crushed in despair,

"Tomorrow, you must decide what you must choose ."

It's okay that he's still silent at the moment, hoping that he understands what I'm saying. Even before I left I said, "Your spirit, the hope that you're fighting for, has made me understand what I'm going to do in this life, no matter what it's going to be like, no matter what, but the struggle is real, you should be able to do it."

I left behind Rina who was still crying by herself, she looked at the high seas, a face full of confusion, a choice that would determine the future.only she and destiny would answer, he said, about what life he would choose.

I'm sure, all of this can be changed by him, I go further and further, hopefully Rina still wants to keep fighting for that hope,