Colorless Aurora

Secret

For two and a half days, Rina had not come to school or been seen at her part-time job. Every night I try to see Rina in the supermarket where she works, but it's been two days that she's not in.

I began to think that if Rina was going through a difficult time in her life, even the bench in this class I still see, she said, right inside the drawer full of piles of books and tearing paper looked dull full of dust so messy without him reading again.

"Didn't Rina come in today An ."Noe asked by standing next to my desk,

Seeing as I knew the reason why he didn't come in, when I was thinking about Rina myself, but it wasn't that close to knowing why. where in a few more days the class exam will start, and that is the final stage of whether he will get a scholarship or not. The scholarship is what he wants, he said, but after I saw some sheets of letters that accidentally fell down yesterday, I started thinking back about Rina's resignation.

"Nah Noe, if you want to get out of this school what's your excuse ." Asked me without looking at him,

"Try me think ."Noe looked serious to think.

And I just say, though,

"Yes, most probably because of money, continuing school or even school here requires a large fee so maybe it's one of the cliche reasons for everyone."Noe answered that was in line with my thinking,

"Yes it seems so." I answered him in my heart and laid my head on the table.

Because so far seeing what happened in his family, it is very stacked all the problems about finances, his siblings are so many could be the reason why Rina thinks again, he said, if he doesn't get a scholarship for class, maybe that's why he made a letter of resignation,

"Yes, you may be right ." Mumbled me resignedly.

"Indeed, what happened to Rina, "Inquired Noe,

Do I have to tell that to Noe, whereas I myself feel that Rina herself does not want others to know about the things that are happening with her right now, she said,

"Ah no, I will go to his house after this return." I replied.

Noe did not say anything after I answered that question, indeed every student in this class must have asked, about what happened to Rina, but if I said anything about resignation, then, I'll feel guilty, Rina has kept it a secret, because it probably doesn't want to see everyone worried.

For me who was waiting for school hours to finish, the time felt so long turning the needle, that too long waiting I was tired of paying attention to the lesson with the writing of chemical formulas that continue to grow on the board.

Everyone seemed to calmly pay attention and take notes, it was because they were not thinking about any problems in his life right now. As I was thinking so, I realized, I was too selfish to compare the problems that Lina had with all of them who could only sit sweetly before the teacher of this class,

"Yes, they must also have their own problems ."

It was my murmur that was watching everyone with a lazy and limp look, I sighed and exhaled.

The sound of the clock bell coming home has reverberated through the silence of the school, all who had been calm now changed like the burden they had been released from the top of the shoulders.

But before the teachers disbanded the class, a closing word for the day was referring to the school's final exams, which will be held in two days,

"Well for now we end and remember to work on the final exam later, good afternoon ."

The words did not make me feel relieved, even making me feel a tension about how Lina will face.

Slowly after I left school my feelings felt so hard to walk towards his house.

I was thinking about whether she was home, if she was home, why the other day Rina didn't come in, I went down the same road if I came home, it's just that Rina's house is a little further away than my house, as usual, I can hear the sound of waves with a strong rumble when hitting the reef on the shore, the place where Rea used to stand there still seemed empty.

Although this is not the hour I saw him standing there, I miss that woman.

"If there's him I'm sure, my feelings are a little calmer ." I muttered as I watched the large, sturdy coral on the shore.

My hands were clenched, I was angry at myself for not being able to do anything when I knew someone needed help now, I realized at this moment I could not do such a big thing that could change things, but I want Rina to get that scholarship, by fighting for what she has, all the hard work she's done these few weeks is proof that she has strong expectations in her life.

I can't let that shy girl's hopes be shattered, the path of life she's so hard to show, I want to change this life too.

But what I saw in his house was the atmosphere as usual, a house that was crowded with the sounds of small children and the commotion like yesterday alone, I was with a usual attitude of approaching and looking, seeing,

"Excuse me ." I said I was standing at the door,

Everyone was looking at me, out of all her sister Rina, she was the only one who was not in this room.

While from one of her sisters Rina walked over, maybe she was the fifth sister who was slowly and asked me to carry her,

"Sister friend mbak Rina, why come here, not together mbak Rina ."

What does that mean, I thought he was home or doing something, but he wasn't here,

"Ah, it seems so ." I replied with a smile, though,

The second sister approached and said something,

"Mbak Rina is driving mom to the hospital, so Mbak Rina is not with An's sister ."

I understand, yes that's the reason why he hasn't been able to attend school for the past few days.