Colorless Aurora

apologise

Seeing it as if it had not changed for the entire time. The face that always bowed in the class crowd, swearing between the piles of library books or behind the thick bangs that covered his eyes when he looked down.

looking at the silent Rina on her stool with the book in hand, walking slowly towards her..."Hey, how long are you gonna sit, I'm jealous of that bench."

"What do you mean..."

"Don't forget it, I'm just kidding."

"how can I forget it, why do you feel jealous of this bench." that's obviously a strange question.

"please sorry, don't talk about the bench."

"alright."

I intend to take her to the library to continue what I taught yesterday. But from the beginning of the lesson, I saw him speechless and just sat down to cover that face with a chemistry textbook.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't dare to see you in 'class ." Lina kept saying sorry.

Indeed he considers me what, even my face is not so scary. If he thinks of me as an astral being then he should just wave at the camera.

What a strange woman, since yesterday only when she was in her house could she speak fluently...."Hurry up, before the fifth hour of lesson begins "I'm standing next to Rina's desk to take her out.

"What are you going to do."

"just follow...."

I walked in front and he followed me from behind, at least I saw the way he walked, with his head down like counting the floor, I was a little upset to see this.

either what happened in her life, or she was cursed apologizing all her life?, I didn't think of anything else about this one girl, because she was quite different.

"What am I feeling, why at school you look so awkward ."Ask me when I see him looking down.

"I'm sorry...." Rina said without forgetting her usual apology.

Once again he apologized, is now an apology being a topic trend for today.."Why are you apologizing ."

Ask me who saw Rina walking with her head down.

"I'm sorry ." That's the answer from him.

"Have forgotten ." I said I thought of something unimportant.

I saw that indeed Rina was not a woman full of optimism like sina or rea. It's just that he has a definite purpose for what he's doing this, it's just that I don't want to feel sorry for.

I wanted to see what kind of struggle he was doing, walking not so far to the library, in a step that he said something and I noticed.

"Sorry An, why do you want to help me ." Said he who arrived suddenly stopped, and that was what he asked.

Despite asking that his face did not dare to look directly into my eyes.

"Yes, I can say I want to see someone fight and that I think is so amazing ." Answer me who stopped and stood staring at each other.

"So did you want to give up before you even filled the answer."

A slightly smiling me looked at the eyes behind his thick bangs and he saw me standing as I looked at the face covered in hair.

"No, I want to see what kind of results I get later." replied Rina with enthusiasm and without apologizing, very rarely.

Of course I smiled a little at the spirit of a soft but firm voice, remembering his words when he said it was useless if it was only hope.

But for me, the person who still has hope in him is greater than someone who has got something to be their desire.

When that hope is still flowing then in his heart, he will continue to fight and step when fighting that is what makes him look so great.

"Oh yeah, why are you working part-time at that Cafe ." Ask me after remembering that he worked at the cafe that time.

Still following the flow of our conversation, with footsteps passing through the various classes he replied...."I want to help my father, at least to just give him that lightness on his shoulders ."

Without apologizing, but his words invite a sense of sadness to be heard.

Yes, obviously, without having to ask. Looking at the face that was still bowed in shame with a slightly pessimistic aura. The wind blows strong, yes this is the wind of the turn of winter into spring.

I didn't realize that when I entered March which meant that the final exam of the semester would start in a few weeks, the straight hair unraveled to open the bangs that covered the beauty of the shy girl's face.

"You should be more open don't keep closing yourself in the cage of your own world ." I said with a slight smile.

His eyes looked, his face reddened, I myself even said something unthinkable to me, it could be said 'I did not look in the mirror' when saying a wise word to him.

"I'm sorry I didn't think you could say such a wise thing" said Rina with a smile, though I did say unnecessary things.

"What do you think I'm a human being." I feel insulted by this girl.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but I don't think you're human." The more clearly he spoke.

When Rina said that, it was like I thought of myself as a back-boned creature in the back. Walking on both feet because it has been able to pass through and survive natural selection, you think like Darwin's theory, so what is true is we are the descendants of an ape.

If I believe so then we do not believe that the father of mankind is the Prophet Adam, it is like he is looking at the conspiracy of the realization of the opinion of 'who the real man is '.

It's just that I myself have believed it a long time ago, if the humans in this world are not from the evolution of apes, but the humans are descendants of the Prophet Adam, yes it is true.

"You joke hurts a little bit ." I smiled painfully, and he lowered his head and said the same thing as usual.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry ." Keep apologizing.

I've been listening to her apologies since, and it only comes to my mind that I get tired of listening to people apologize, please forgive this servant of yours.

"You're apologizing not for something that made you guilty, but you're blaming yourself ."

Just like me, I don't want to see that, because I myself am fed up with myself, at least other people don't become like me, whereas to whom I'm going to apologize is really the irony of life.