Colorless Aurora

memories of the past

I don't know why, a nostalgic sensation so peaceful, what I'm seeing right now is like I'm going back in time, every side of this house I can see, a small garden with a fish pond and a swing beside it, I was thinking a little bit whether I started to forget that I used to love sitting on that swing with all the books piled up next to me from physics, biology, math, novels, even about social science, more related than that, I could see it, the figure of myself sitting swaying and covering my face with a reading book, about the age of 9, he said, yes already seen from the hairstyle 3/4 pieces like going to take pictures of school albums, like,

"Sister, let's play ." A little girl said to me,

A little girl approached, carrying a teddy bear she held in her right hand and a cute white dress outfit standing next to the swing,

"Play yourself Nagisa." Answer me without paying attention to Nagisa,

Yes it was Nagisa when she was 6 years old who was about to turn 7 years old, still busying herself with the book in front of me and Nagisa was still silent looking at the fish pond beside her,

"Don't get close when you fall Nagisa." I said I was paying a little attention to my little brother,

Although I didn't play with him very often, I never let go of my guard so as not to happen to Nagisa, which Nagisa did not want, I could see he was so engrossed playing the wooden twigs he found to play with the fish in the pond, he said,

"Maggio ?." Said I saw it, man,

I looked a little, yes her little legs were beside the pool so close, I realized she would definitely fall if she continued to play beside the pool, I walked over to her and indeed she slipped, and I'm going to get into the pool, but I can guess, the body I caught before I fell into the pool,

"Nagisa, if you want to swim, don't go in the fishpond and the fish die ."

"Sister, don't want to play with Nagisa ." He shouted a little furiously,

"Just get in there ." let go of the handle.

He ran into the house, I realized in my memory, I had never played with him, even though I was always watching him, he was my little brother who never left for me to see, many years ago, my memory had forgotten some things that should have been a warmth to remember,

Moments later, the man I called my father always came home with a warm smile welcoming the presence of his son in the house, coming in and approaching me who was enjoying the swing and soft air this afternoon, my father said,

"Have you learned An ." He said with a serious face,

"Yes dad, "Reply me without expression,

Nagisa ran with her spirit closer towards father and she also welcomed him to lift and carry him, for how many years I do not remember him, a family warmth before it was all destroyed, he said,

Even seeing the mother smiling loosely looking at us with the old camera in her hand was a happiness that I had gained all this time, Nagisa was so feeling it, she was still stuck in the past like me, she was still stuck in the past like me, As a brother, I don't want to see my sister become like me, she can't give away anything precious in her life destroyed, although I am actually the same as him who is still haunted by the past, it's just that the mistake I have done this, do not let it be repeated by my sister, he said,

"Hey, you guys, don't just stay outside, hurry in and we eat ." My mother said with a beautiful smile,

Warm, yes so warm as I recall these memories, my mother's voice still I can remember it, a soft voice with her independence, but because of this we are both still lost in the dark of the past, for some reason it is so hard to make a change, Nagisa and I cannot continue like this,

The hand with the bracelet captured the happiness he gave the frame and placed it in the corner of the room, until now I can still remember, why I was here, why I was here, yeah, because I know I don't want to lose this, the precious treasure my mother gave me with all the love in her portrait,

Maybe that's what I remember when I was unconscious, when I opened my eyes, the morning atmosphere with the blinding sunlight made my head hurt,

"Are you up ?,"

Yes that's what I understand as long as I'm unconscious and someone who walks comes from the kitchen, he still uses aprons, hot pants and tangtop, really urban women are very scary in fasion, really, while she was the woman who came from the city to pick Nagisa back there, when she came gently propped me up to be able to lift the body that was still in pain, she said,

"Sister, don't get up yet, your wounds haven't dried yet ." Said he who I certainly did not recognize, yet,

Yeah, he said that when I was trying to get up and he helped me, he said,

"Please get me my phone." Pointing towards the table,

With all her zeal she picked up the phone on the study table close to the laptop, while her face was still embarrassed to look me in the face, I still wanted to ask her myself,

He was surprised when indeed a charred smell came and gave an alarm to immediately lift his cooking, he ran over in a hurry, hurrying,

"It's really troublesome ." Mumbles at me,

I opened my phone, with the intention to call someone, until something wriggled in the blanket next to where I slept,

"What is this ." I asked and I opened it,

A beautiful little girl who prettyly fell asleep next to me, so cute as a doll, a few moments later the woman came back and now she had taken off her apron but still with that skimpy shirt, she said, but I was calling noe to tell him how I was, when I connected,

"Yo, An is that you ." Answer,

Even before I said anything she had already asked first,

"Yes, it's me, "

"So why did you skip school ."

Hearing what Noe asked me, she woman still faithfully stood waiting for me to finish what I was doing,

"Ah, look, all the teachers must have asked why and you have answered no idea, so I want to confirm that I was in an accident last night, so I'm not in for today, "

"Ah, if anyone can harm you, I should thank him." It was Noe's answer and it pissed me off myself.

"Ah, I accidentally deleted the folder not to open ." Reply to me threateningly,

The woman beside me, slowly walking to my side, raised the little girl who was slowly waking up and cutely approached towards me,

"Ah don't be so you're An, all right, I'll tell the homeroom."

"Thank you, "

As I hung up my phone, yes she slowly looked a little embarrassedly at me,

"Sister, it's okay not to go to school ." The woman said without looking at me,

"Lifting now is considered not to enter, "I replied with a dizzy feeling,

"Yes, it's true, too ."

The woman gently like a mother calmed the little girl who woke up and looked at me,

"Ah, sister Tita is already cooking, does sister want to eat here or in the dining room." He said by saying his name,

"Ah let it go, I am still not hungry and why did you call me with brother?,"Ask me in wonder, and I myself saw his face and body shape that should be his age above me, but he denied it with the nickname 'sister' to me,

"Yes, it's because that brother is your brother and I am your sister, Brother An "that's a very logical answer,

"I myself don't remember having a sister like you, ...." Ask someone who understands the situation,

A little thought why, yes indeed it should be very clear why he called by the name of brother, brother,

"Perhaps, you're my sister who disappeared years ago ." I said with surprise.