Colorless Aurora

come to life again

This morning the eyes still feel so heavy to open perfectly, considering last night I was home until one in the morning, too enjoy the atmosphere of the beach and this is the result,

"So what were you doing last night, "The question from my sister who saw me was suspicious, ' he said,

"Ah.what ?."

I didn't really hear what Nagisa said, and Rin still didn't want to let go of her embrace, yes today Tita and Rin have to go home to tokyo because she can't stay here too long.

"What did you do last night, when I looked into the room, brother wasn't there." Nagisa said that still seeing me strangely, though,

"Ah, I'm going to the beach ." I answered her in a lacklustre tone, Tita who saw me still sleepily smiled and said,

"Didn't you meet another woman ." Tita said with a sudden arrival.

"Where do you know ." I was surprised

Nagisa and Tita were silent at my reply with eyes as if looking at a piece of trash in front of her.

"Who are you out with ." The question made me feel that Nagisa was angry, it was painful to feel that when she looked sullen, if I didn't explain what I was doing last night.

"I drove Rina home, last night sister couldn't sleep, finally sister out of the house, when stopped by the supermarket, it turns out that Rina works part-time there, so big sister is not good to see her home alone, so I'm not happy to see her, and so on, nothing happened." Clear me to make this matter straight.

"really ."

Everything looked at me sharply, even including Rin who still did not let go of her hand.

"Why do you look so suspicious, am I a criminal."

"Maybe it's because we're paying attention to "Tita's answer

They smile when they say it, though,

"Thank you for your attention ." Said me limply.

I consider this no longer the attention of her name, more to suspect, I sigh and exhale heavily, really they are very troublesome, as you as a woman.

"Come, Rin we go home ." Tita said which pulled Rin from her embrace,

Rin was still hugging and holding my shirt, shaking her head against Tita's invitation to go home, but she said, "Rin doesn't want to go home, Rin wants to play with An's sister ."

I actually could not bear to see Rin shaking her head and forcing her to stay here, but if indeed Rin did not come home, it made me confused when no one was accompanying them when we went to school,

"Rin, mbak Tita wants to go home Rin follow well, later brother also go home to tokyo same mbak nagisa ." I said I surprised everyone, though,

Everyone saw me, even though I intended to go back there but that was also because there was a certain reason,

"Tita said "Right.

"really. “Kata Nagisa simultaneously,

"What's wrong with you guys, what's wrong brother wants to see dad," replied I saw the two of them so happy, so happy,

"No, it's just ." Tita did not continue her words and smiled,

If they say anything strange, yes it is their feeling that is true and a little strange because it has been years I do not want to meet my father, while at this time I intend to meet him, he said,

"Yes, I met you because there's something you want to talk about." Explain to both of them,

Everyone fell silent, and Rin finally wanted to be persuaded, looking at their pensive faces because it felt so heavy to leave, yes even if only for a moment I understood what it was like to be apart,

"Ah, let's take a picture, "Tita's proposal,

"Ah that's a great idea, "Jawab Nagisa, you know,

Nagisa quickly went inside the house and took the camera I had stored in my room, what I saw from the camera lens was a scene called family, no need to set the effect or anything else, all looks natural with the beauty of the smile of the three of them, although limited to the sister of a different mother I can feel it, this is my family, a valuable thing, a precious thing, something in my life I'll take care of forever,

At least I understood something when I saw my three sisters laughing, no matter who we were, we did not have blood ties like siblings, but we have been bound by God with the ropes of family, what a perfection, indeed,

"I'm going to make a frame for this photo, "I muttered as I looked at this photo,

"Nagisa, now a picture of me with sister." Said Tita giving the camera to Nagisa,

Tita's request when pulling my hand, with her phone unconsciously when nagisa presses the camera, two kisses from rin and tita perched on to my two cheeks, nagisa's face flushed, reddened, a little angry and he screamed,

"Don't kiss my brother ." Shouted Nagisa running towards us,

With a laugh Tita replied. "He's also my brother ." Shouts of reply from Tita,

A little spice brother-sister quarrels like me with nagisa, yes see my two sisters go Nagisa a little mumble, nagisa,

"What's like this is gonna be okay ." The murmur that made me smile,

When Nagisa said that, I understood what she felt like, she asked because she herself knew how complicated my and my father's problems were.

"Yes, I'm sure everything will be fine and I'll do whatever it takes to keep it from happening again ." Said I was looking at Nagisa with a serious look and a smile,

Nagisa saw, her eyes were red as if she wanted to shed tears, with a mixed feeling in her heart she smiled, jumped and kissed my cheek, I was really happy with my family who was slowly coming back to life, she said,

The memory of the shadows of the past keeps me locked up in guilt, I refuse to accept reality, I take on my own sin, letting it oscillate in uncertainty.

my footsteps took me to the gallery, took a picture of my mother on the table.sitting in the chair where she spent time, looking up at the sky as straight out to sea.

I don't understand anything about myself, just live with guilt and the fear of accepting reality.

but I can no longer deny that my mother is gone, if I keep avoiding then I will only end up in regret.