Colorless Aurora

Pretends

The way to chew and swallow everything seemed rhythmic, sequential and beautiful, but during that time the gaze of his eyes was so empty .

"Sorry lady, what do you see from your sight ."

"The light of my cold world."

"Moor."

Unknowingly, I replied to her directly .

"Yes, but I'm lonely, because in this place only I can see it, it's sad isn't it ?".

He said with a smile, but a smile so pitiful .

For some reason I enjoyed this conversation, I realized she was a girl always standing at dusk, I could still smell the scent of sadness between blank eyes.

But it was not a sadness because of those eyes, something else, deeper than a pain when he felt lonely.

"Is everything over ?."

Ask the lady with a blank look towards me .

"Ah, it's all over."

Reply I was just conscious of seeing the plate in front of me no longer contained, he looked disappointed, maybe because what he ate did not make the hunger go away and I heard the sound of the stomach ringing, ' he said, the face is flushed and I am blown away .

"So are you still hungry, miss ?, "

"Yes, but I don't bring any more money."The lady replied with a shy smile .

"Well, I won't have the heart to see a woman starve to death. "

"Just because I'm hungry I can't die.". He said he smiled back .

"I'm sorry then, please choose what you like, let me pay."

Maybe I never thought about doing this, it's just a reason that makes me want to sit together a little longer .

"I don't know what's on the menu, but pick it up for me, anything as long as it's apple-related. "

“Alright, I choose the mainstay menu, which is a complete set of apple trees with pots and also fertilizer."

Said I who was trying to make the atmosphere for the two of us become filled with laughter .

Understand one thing that makes us move in life and it will lead to another destiny. From the beginning, I just assumed that the things I did just made me look like a fool.

If only Sina hadn't made me accept this promise, I probably wouldn't have known the woman and seen all the magic from her empty eyes.

I was fascinated and wanted to sit together even longer, hoping for time not to move into the future .

*****

I can't imagine what yesterday was like. But for me all the feelings of being one, between shame, confusion, fascination, amazement, anger and all that are mixed up.

I still remember the way the girl chewed, the rhythm of her mouth motion was so smooth, so beautiful, so disappointed that I didn't bring a camera .

A book was thrown on the table, a book more than four hundred pages thick, like a sign of the attention of a teacher to his student's son ,

Looking at the teacher who was ten meters away from my seat, it would at least take extra effort to throw a book four hundred pages thick from the front of the blackboard.

It would certainly be even more terrifying if the teacher's mother deliberately threw it up close and pointed right at the head.

"An, can you tell me the sound of the first kirchoff law ."

The mother teacher who was ready with the next book, I could not resist and said 'no' for now, hence in order to save the situation I had to answer.

"The total current entering through a branching point in an electrical circuit is equal to the total current coming out of that branching point."

No need to bother to be surprised after hearing my answer, because there is nothing wrong in my brain of course, although the question is not difficult to answer.

"If you can use your brain more useful, then don't waste it that way, or you want to subvert it to the research institute to dissect Yoan san ."

Said the teacher to me, really from his words I can conclude that he does not want to see me lazing.

While others have to work hard and give offerings to get mediocre value, it is very ironic in this world.

It is nothing more than a situation in which to carry out symbiotic mutualism in the community system, where the subject is a group of young people named students and the object is a place called school.

It could be said that students need schools to be smart and schools need students to be said as schools.

What a natural dependence inherent in human life, nothing has changed since the past until now, of course, nothing strange, if I have to argue with my words like that.

It can be said that the reason in the outline, why I have to go to school is to follow the flow that exists in the majority society, to be smart, to work as a civil servant and to be required to advance the morals of humans, he said, while those humans don't care, what a bleak future it is, if I say so.

There is no harm in being different .

That's what I said in my murmur when I saw some people taking notes on the lesson .

"Boring."

In the frame in front of the school information, I did not always pay attention, because it listed the top ten names of the brightest students in this school.

I don't know what the school wants, just to show how big the line is between the two worlds, namely the intelligent world and below average. It's discrimination, though,

One name listed in the top ranks of the several hundred students, would only make everyone ask .

'Is there nothing wrong with this calculation .'

It had happened even when the first semester started, they saw that there was nothing wrong, just coming to school, sitting down, laying down on the table and waiting for a teacher to say .

'Do you not have a boyfriend so use the table to help you lean from all the problems you face .'

It was a painful word and I could not avoid it. In their view, I looked lazy, but I just became myself without deceiving anyone .

Pretending is useless, they want to get the attention of others, but forget about themselves.

If I had intended to do it, I could have pretended to be president, a lawyer maybe even a doctor.