Colorless Aurora

finger touch

I did not dwell, dead of style, shame, and confusion, as if all the confidence I had had was gone.

Where to see Sina waving, pointing to the next table. I laughed, laughed at myself, for it seemed foolish to do something not funny at all.

"I'm sorry I was wrong to deliver this." I said with a sense of shame.

"Not what." Rea smiled beautifully.

Rea smiled perhaps to stifle the laughter, I myself restrained all the remaining confidence with all the strength in my soul.

One by one, I pulled back all the food and delivered the next table.

"I'm sorry about that lady, " said I, who was standing next to Rea and still laughing.

"You're a strange person." Rea said with a sweet smile, the radiated beauty was able to dazzle everyone's eyes, especially to me.

My breath went up and down uncontrollably, as if half of my life had already been taken away by the smile from Rea.

"Yes maybe that's already one of the advantages that I have ". Reply I answered Rea's question as a joke.

"So what will you order miss, what will it be like yesterday." I said by preparing the notes in hand.

"Yes as always, because it's been my favorite." Rea answered in a soft voice.

"Well, one apple tree with a pot, need to be added urea fertilizer, or manure, I recommend using manure only, so it is more nutritious." I said I repeated the joke at the last meeting.

Rea laughed, I could feel the warmth from her soft voice and the hand that was trying to cover that beautiful mouth.

For a moment I pointed the camera at Rea, I photographed Rea, the beauty of the smile from the woman I admired, like a laugh that had been held back for free.

It took some time to pick up Rea's order, and it was ready to be put on the table.

"So why do you only work on Sundays." Said the Miss who asked without looking at me.

"Ah I don't work here, just help, forced by someone to help, rather." Answer when delivering food to Rea.

"It seems heavy to you." Rea answered with a sweet smile that was able to make anyone diabetic see her.

"Yes, like romusa's work of course."

Still with Rea's smile, I photographed Rea again, again and again, all about her, making me wonder, little did I know that she did like apples.

"Please help me again, but adjust your size to put it in the mouth don't get me wrong, my chin can be sticky later ".Said Miss with a slight frown .

"Just calm down, at least the worst thing is to get to your nose ."Answer me making Rea laugh with satisfaction.

I do love every behavior of Rea, the way she chews, the rhythm of her teeth, the colorful smile, the soft but beautiful voice, and the slow breath that indicates that she is trying to enjoy life, he said, although it feels heavy.

"Since I heard the camera noise, what are you doing ?." Rea asked after chewing the cake out of her cute little mouth.

"Ah yes, I'm sorry, I took a picture of you without your permission ." Even if I say that, I still take pictures of Rea.

In Rea's eyes, he looked at the sky and smiled, what he saw from behind the eternal darkness.

And I did not move every time I was fascinated by Rea's beauty, for a moment I understood about the life she lived, what her life had been like, I wanted to see it all.

*****

Rea wasn't much different between me and all my problems, about what we both missed, of course, she was the woman who missed the sky and I missed happiness.

I have never missed a small moment of my admiration for Rea, the dim end of the light between the waves, the shouts of the seagulls and the haughtiness of Mount Fuji.

I always look at it, photograph it and capture it into a picture frame. The footsteps made me want to meet Rea.

Even though I was able to help Rea eat and see a small smile for me to remember, getting closer, so that I could feel the smell of a dry body due to dusk, she said, footsteps halted behind the thin body against the tightness of the wind.

"I know if it's you, weird waitress ." Re said as his body turned towards me.

"Since when did Miss know it was me ." I was a little confused to hear Rea's words.

Rea smiled and walked over slowly, as if he could see with his bare feet and now stopped right in front of me.

"Yes, ever since I heard the footsteps you made on the cafe floor, I can recognize. " That's what Rea said.

Although it felt strange, he could recognize that it was me, just because of the footsteps. But I still believe in him.

Before long Rea pointed her hands at my face, gently and rubbed every corner of the face, then smiled.

"What did the lady do ?." Ask me who was amused by his touch.

"I'm trying to describe the shape of your face ". Answer Rea.

The longer Rea rubbed, the softer her thin hands, I could feel, the warmth that kept me from moving.

"You look so sad, what are you thinking ?" Said Rea who was still touching the face.

"It looks like you can feel it." I said as I looked at Rea's face from the lightless eyes.

He did not take off the tiny touch from his fingers, he painted my face with his fingers, drawing it in memory, so detailed from every curve of this side of my face.

"It's clear you're locked up in all your problems, I can feel it, your face describes something that makes you miss." The more clearly Rea describes how the image of the expression stored in the face.

"You're not wrong, this is what I have as a human being and more than that I can't abolish it." Said I was smiling.

Most of what I do is just a matter of time, and hoping that it will destroy my problems, a prison full of falsehoods, a moment where I lose my sense of happiness.

The twilight slowly disappeared into the night, the wind was blowing hard leaving us both in trouble that could not be lost.

Between me, Rea and the world, both lost light, cold bone-chilling, dark shrouding the horizon, the touch of a finger that could not be separated from the top of the face.

Until Rea left when night fell, I fell silent, and was again fixated in the old memories where all my life began.

When there's nothing left for me to keep from family ties.