
The heart is hard to guess. The depth of the ocean can still be measured, but a heart that is only as big as a fist is so difficult to feel.
"Here .. if I knew you'd cry like this, I wouldn't take you there." lamented Daffin, he couldn't focus on driving because I kept crying beside him.
"You .. You don't know what it's like to be me." I said, still with tears streaming down my eyes.
Daffin clucked pretty hard. "you mean? I've followed all your wishes, even I let you stare at the face of another man who is clearly not as handsome as I am. Then, what else is my fault now?"
The corner of my eyeball glanced sharply at Daffin. "You always piss me off!"
"Me?" Daffin pointed his index finger at his own face.
"Yes, you pissed me off with all your behavior!" my murmur.
Maybe I was too much, I couldn't control my emotions until Daffin pulled the car over and turned his body to look at me.
"Now tell me where my fault lies, Mrs Stevano?" ask Daffin flat.
Although his tone sounded very calm, I could feel that he was angry with me. It was all visible from his stiffened jaw as well as his knuckles that were whitened from grasping the steering wheel tightly.
"Why did you pull the car over?" I asked back, to distract Daffin.
Those blue eyes were looking at me sharply. "Because I don't want anything bad to happen to you and my son."
Unknowingly I snorted. And, it turned out to be quite disturbing Daffin. He instantly removed the safety belt wrapped around his body so that he could freely move and cupped my cheek with both hands.
"Are you still hard to trust me, My Starfish? I love you so much." said Daffin sincerely.
Yes, maybe this time he was really sincere with me. However, somehow I felt something stuck in my heart as if it was holding me back from believing in him.
"You love me? Heh! But you're always trying to make Reena happy! You even indulged his desire to marry me and take my son!" hardik I was full of emotions, no longer able to I resist the disappointment that somehow began to creep into my heart.
The bad memories of Daffin entering my life revolved and formed a collage in my memory.
Daffin's big hand suddenly grabbed me and held me tightly until it felt like I was going to die right then and there.
"Stupid plankton! I'm not breathing!" I pushed Daffin's body as hard as I could.
"Sorry," said Daffin lirih while releasing his decapitation.
His guilty face made me not bear until I decided to make peace with him just this time.
"Daffin, never say that you love someone if your own heart is still doubtful." I sighed as if I was releasing a heavy burden on my heart. "Because hope hurts more than unrequited love." I said.
"No, My Starfish! I am so sure that I love you so much. Please trust me!" coax the soft Daffin.
Oh my God, should I trust the man now in front of me? I can not deny, if at any time I will always be attached to him because the child in my womb is his flesh and blood, but I also still do not understand how I really feel about Daffin.
"Lilly ...."
"Don't call me by that name!" I rebutted when I heard Daffin say that name.
I never thought, Daffin just chuckled and landed his sensual lips on my lips at a glance. "You're adorable when you're angry, and I love that. It's better for me if you keep getting angry than you keep silent a thousand languages."
My forehead shriveled in thought of Daffin's words. "Didn't you like a gentle woman like Reena? Ah, I know. You purposely asked me to keep getting angry so that my blood pressure went up and I had a stroke. After that, you can marry Reena back."
"Geez!!!" grouse Daffin.
Right after that one word slid from his lips, Daffin's hand grabbed my nape and perfectly ambushed my lips.
My mischievous thoughts began to spread and poison my senses, until I bravely retaliated against Daffin's attack.
For a while Daffin's lips deepened and demanded, but it did not last long because suddenly I felt something churning in my stomach.
I tried to push Daffin's large body so he would stop the action, but Daffin insisted on continuing the action even though we were still on the side of the road.
"Oh .. Why are you pulling my ear, Mrs Stevano?" sumpul Daffin, his face was like a child who was angered by his mother.
Actually I really want to curse Daffin, but I'm no longer able to open my mouth because of the nausea that whack.
I quickly opened the car door and half ran to the park across the street.
"Mrs Stevano!!!"
I could hear Daffin's scream behind me, but I didn't intend to turn my head to him.
From a distance I saw a chair in the garden facing the lake. If you remember, this place is exactly the same as the lake in my old home environment with brother Erlan.
Looking at the empty chair, I immediately sat down and leaned my body there to breathe as much air as possible with my eyes closed.
"You angry?" ask someone, who without even looking I already know who.
A little annoyed, I opened my eyes and saw Daffin already standing before me. "Don't you just ask me to always be angry?"
"That's not what I mean, Mrs Stevano," argued Daffin.
"Then?"
"I'm just scared. If you shut up, something bad might happen. And to be honest, your silence tormented me. If you're angry, at least you'll say what's wrong and what you want." explained Daffin, he's stepped in to reduce the distance between us.
"Oh, but I'm not angry. Yes, I was angry, but not too much." I said as I rolled my eyeballs.
"In that case, why did you suddenly run out of the car? You almost put yourself in danger." Daffin.
"I'm nauseous." My hand rubbed my stomach which still felt turbulent.
Instantly Daffin became panicked and he started acting silly by raising my body like a newlywed.
"Daffin, put me down!" I thrashed in Daffin's sling.
Of course, what we did caught the attention of some people who just happened to want to be in the park.
"No! You said that I was nauseous and I didn't want you to suffer more. We better go home and rest." said Daffin softly. However, full of affirmation.
"I don't want to go home." I refused, then rebelled.
I could hear Daffin's breath when he was forced to lower me. "What will my son be? Why is he so hard to manage?"
"I'm just nauseous, Daffin, there's no need to go back home" I said, hoping I wouldn't see Maya anytime soon.
"But you need a break,"
"I just need fresh air because I ran out of oxygen earlier," I was greeted as laughter Daffin.
"If that's the case, I can help you to replenish the oxygen" Daffin said, his hands cupping my face again.
POSTER ...
One hand landed on Daffin's cheek to the surprise of him.
"A-What's my fault this time, My Starfish?" daffin asked, he was quite surprised by my attitude.
"Because you intend to replenish oxygen!"
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