
It's been a month since my breakup with Daffin. The last time I saw her in the apartment of om Rei and it ended in a tear drama.
My regret is endless for having made this trivial matter into a boomerang that ended up being the reason for the destruction for my household.
"Your breakfast, Madam." Rania put a plate of chicken porridge on the nightstand with a glass of milk.
The corner of my eye glanced at the chicken porridge and made me recall the memories of the first time I met Daffin near the lake. He paid chicken porridge for me and Erlan's brother, but I gave the chicken porridge to the two scavenger children. Without feeling like a circle of tears following each other on my cheeks. Since the beginning of the meeting, Daffin was a good man. However, unfortunately, he always wrapped his kindness with a hard attitude and arrogance so that the impression that was caused was always bad.
Suddenly, I felt something strange in my heart. I want to meet Daffin right now, but I'm sure I won't be able to. Dad has prepared strict guard for me. He didn't even let me out of the house even just to the yard. All my access to the outside world is closed, even if I want to check my womb, then my obstetrician will come home.
"Rania, how's the female octopus doing? Did he make a move?" ask me after I overcome my sadness.
"No, Madam," answered Rania briefly.
A few days after the commotion between Daffin and Rei, Ersya actually arrests Reena with a fake arrest warrant. Ersya then handed Reena over to Rei to take her to village x. Actually I wanted to see for myself how Reena's face was, but mother forbade me on the grounds that it wasn't good for me to be near Reena.
I was thinking of seeing Reena in the near future if my father or mother gave me permission, but it seemed impossible. Given the increasing number of bodyguards in this house.
"Mrs ...," call Rania, she lowered her head.
I looked up and looked at Rania. "What's up, Rania?"
"Sorry, ma'am, this is something for you." Rania gave me a small box.
"What's this?" askaku, while watching the box.
"Mr Daffin gave it to you" replied Rania, pointing to the box now in my hand.
My eyes are perfectly round. "Daffin? Where's she? When did he come here?"
"Actually, ma'am, every day the lord comes here, but the great lord forbids everyone to tell you." explained Rania, her face bowed in lethargy.
I breathed deeply. "All right, thank you, Rania. At least I know if he's still expecting me."
"Sure, Mistress! The master had even spent the night in the courtyard and the master had only left after the great mistress had spoken to him." Rania's hands were fused together like begging for forgiveness. "I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to tell you, Madam." she said.
A faint smile adorned my face. "It's okay, Rania, aren't you telling me now?"
Rania nodded her head and smiled. However, before long his face turned moody.
"Is there another problem, Rania? Why is your face sad like that?" my question is, worrying about Rania's situation.
"Master said that Mr. Shaka still hasn't shown any change. It's been over a month, but Mr. Shaka hasn't opened his eyes yet." Rania's hand rubbed her tears that began to fall.
Something hit my chest until it felt so tight. I feel guilty for Daffin for leaving him in this condition, but maybe it's a punishment for me and Daffin for the mistakes we've done in the past. A mistake that has accidentally been fused in our love.
"I'm sorry, Rania, because of me you can't meet and accompany Shaka. You must be so tormented?" hisisku, the nurse with this complicated love situation.
"No, Madam, I'm just sad because Mr. Shaka still doesn't want to open his eyes. If this happens first, maybe I will be destroyed, but now I just feel pity as a friend, Madam." said Rania, at least to my surprise.
"Mak-You mean .. You don't have any feelings for Shaka?" I just can't believe it.
"Yes, Madam." Rania nodded her head. "As time went on, I understood that Mr. Shaka's love would never belong to me" he said bitterly.
Rania's words made me feel very guilty about her. He doesn't know if Shaka put his heart on me. If Rania had known, she would have been very hurt.
"Sorry, Rania ...," My esophagus choked and could only say that.
"For what, madam? You didn't do anything that hurt me or hurt me." Rania shook her head strongly.
My face covered a wry smile before hugging Rania. In my heart I was so grateful because among all the bitterness of life I lived, I found Rania as my friend.
***
"Mom, please help me ask Dad for permission! I just wanted to see Shaka, Mom. I want to see how he is right now." I whine all day at mom.
Holy jeez!!! How else do I have to get out of this house? Doesn't anyone believe me if I just want to know Shaka's condition? Yes, indeed, behind all that, I intend to meet Daffin. Especially when I received the box that Daffin gave me through Rania. I feel like I miss the annoying Plankton that always fills my heart.
I rushed back to the room and picked up the box that Rania had given me. My hands trembled as I opened the small box in my hands. There was a letter and also a pendant that contained portraits of myself and also Daffin.
How are you, My Starfish?
I'm sorry for my inability to resist your father's power, but what can I do? If I fight back, won't things get harder for both of us? I know you're mad at me right now, but please never stop loving me! Because I'm here to love you more. Every day I live my life in solitude, but it all makes me realize how precious you are to me. I won't ask you to come back to me because I know it won't be easy. I just want to wish you one thing, let me remain your husband and father of your children.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, MRS. STEVANO.
I don't know how many times I've read this letter. The more I read it, the more I miss Daffin.
Amidst the excitement of my heart, I felt a small movement in my already enlarged stomach. Looks like little Plankton misses his father too. He felt a strong inner bond with this letter. Maybe!
"You miss your daddy? Me too! But I'm sorry I couldn't bring you together with her." I said as I stroked my stomach.
No more movement, maybe he was disappointed in his mother. Never mind, I was disappointed in myself especially my son. For now, I just wish there was a miracle that could make me meet Daffin.
***
Towards lunch time, I chose to get out of the room and eat with my mother. I wish I could talk to him from heart to heart.
"Mom .." I tried to open the conversation when I saw that she was in a good mood.
"Eat your food! Remember, you're pregnant, don't torture your son, honey!" sergeant mother, as if to understand if I was looking for an opportunity.
Even if I had to, I still finished my meal before mom left the table.
"Mom, I want to talk!" lontarku, just as Mom is about to stand up.
Both of mom's eyebrows swooped sharply. "If you want me to persuade your father, I'm sorry, honey, I won't."
Destroy my hope!
"No, Mom! I just want to share my grievances with you." my dear, trying to find a gap in mom's heart.
It seems that my efforts are paying off because mom is sitting back and smiling at me. "Mother's here, honey,"
There was a feeling of relief in my heart when I felt the warmth of my mother's hand sweep over the back of my hand.
"Mom, I know what I've been through all this time was a mistake. Relationship wrong. My marriage was wrong and my decisions and anger were wrong. But, Mom, love is never wrong! I'm sure Mom knows that. Back then, when I asked Mom to marry om Rei, Mom told me that one day I would understand why Rei didn't get married until now and why can't you ever leave me? The answer is because of love. Is that right, Mom?" I put a face in front of my mother. "The same thing happened to me, Mom. I can't part with Daffin. I want to be with her because I love her, Mom, and I know my love is never wrong."
Mom's eyes turned sharp. "You sure? He's the same guy who's been luring you into a miserable life."
"But, ma'am, he's the same guy that I raised with Mom's own hands." A smile expands on my face.
The look on my face changed immediately. The tension on his face slightly loosened and implied sadness within his eyes.
"I raised him. That's why I never expected him to do such a cruel thing to a woman." Mom stared blankly at me. "Moreover the woman is my own daughter." he said.
My hand held the clenched hand of my mother. "Mom, it's just the past. I've forgotten everything. Although Daffin did use the wrong way to marry me, but in the end he still made me happy and also gave me honor."
"A building erected on the wrong foundation can never stand for a long time. Even if you try to repair the building, but the building will definitely be destroyed over time. You have to build on a solid foundation, honey, so that no storm can bring down your building! Understand that, only then make your choice!" say loving mother.
Mom's right! Daffin married me on lies and deception, maybe that's why we can't pursue happiness to the full. So, I had to destroy the old building before I built a new building that was sturdier and built on love and honesty.
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