
"Miscus?" Aunt Ratih just emerged from the house with a glass of tea for me.
"Yes, Tan," I answered, taking the tray from the hand of my aunt Ratih.
"The man didn't come again?" ask Aunt Ratih, before she drinks her tea.
I shook my head. "No, Tan, maybe he's tired and tired of persuading Aca."
Flashback...
I could hear Daffin screaming from inside my room. This is his new habit, he comes every day. Morning, afternoon, or night with flowers in her hand.
"Go home, My Starfish!" I write for the umpteenth time, but I still give the same answer.
"No, Daffin! You and I can't be together. I can't live with the man responsible for the death of my husband and children." I replied in anger.
I don't know why, even though my lips are always saying accusations and anger. However, Daffin seemed undaunted to persuade me and ask me to come back to him.
"Well, assume I'm wrong! And I beg you to forgive me with all your sincerity, but I also beg you to come back with me." said Daffin, I could see despair in his eyes.
I can what? Ersya says that it was Daffin who was responsible for Erlan's death. If what Ersya said was not true, why had Daffin never told me that before. It also made me think that Daffin was guilty. And for my two twin sons Daffin is not entirely wrong, but if he does not trap me in this marriage then I will definitely live happily with my two handsome sons.
"No!!!" I rebuked Daffin's apology. "Go, Daffin! A lot of people need you, except me!" my firmness.
Although my lips asked him to leave, but strangely my heart always hoped that Daffin would come back again and again to persuade me.
Flashback...
"It has been more than a week that the man has not brought you flowers" said Aunt Ratih, glancing at the pile of withered flowers.
Every day, Daffin always brought me flowers of different types and colors. And I'll always put those flowers in one corner of this house.
"Yes, that's it, Tan. His love for Aca was like those flowers, which would wither away in just an instant." I said, realizing that Daffin had never really loved me.
"That's because you don't take care of her, but if you take care of her, those flowers will live and grow beautifully that will make you happy every time you see her" Ratih said.
I'm observing Aunt Ratih's slightly changed attitude right now, but I don't have enough courage to be sure.
"Do you love her, Aca?" asked Aunt Ratih suddenly, making my pupils instantly enlarged.
"Aca doesn't understand what Auntie's saying," my dear, trying to shift the conversation.
Breath ejected from aunt Ratih's mouth. "I'm sorry Auntie, Aca! Previously Aunt asked you to marry Ersya in exchange for Erlan's dead children, but Aunt was too selfish for not thinking about your feelings."
"Don't say that, Tan! Aca doesn't mind marrying Ersya's sister." I smiled as sincerely as possible. "Again, brother Erlan or brother Ersya, they are the same." I said.
Aunt Ratih looked at me. "But Ersya is not Erlan! Both are very different. And Auntie also knows that you've never loved Erlan."
My heart breaks hearing Aunt Ratih's statement. "August ...."
"Don't deny it! We all know, you're just used to living with Erlan and your heart never accepts him as a couple." Aunt Ratih held my hand.
There were no tears on my cheeks, before my lips that could not say anything.
"Sister Erlan ... Is he too?" I stammered, powerless to say what I imagined.
My heart is getting claustrophobic hearing Aunt Ratih's words. My dear Erlan brother, all this time he knew that I only needed him instead of loving him. To be honest, I also only realized that after Erlan's departure.
"I'm sorry, Auntie!" I was in the midst of the cries that accompanied my words.
Aunt Ratih's hands clutching my body. "No problem, don't think about it again! Auntie sure, Erlan would want the best for you too."
My cry broke and became so that I didn't realize when I started to change dimensions.
***
"Amaziah ... Alyssa ...."
I heard someone calling my name from a distance. After I listened more carefully, I only recognized whose voice it was.
"Sister! Brother Erlan?" I shouted as I continued to run in search of the figure I missed so much.
"We're here, Ayasya." Brother Erlan smiled and nodded his head.
I saw him holding our two sons on the right and left sides of his arms. They look so happy. The smiles of the three of them even defeated the warmth of the sunshine that illuminated this beautiful garden.
My footsteps were getting closer to them, until I was now faced with the face of Erlan's brother who was getting handsome.
"Sister? Aca longs," I wail along with endless tears.
Brother Erlan smiled and lowered our two children before he hugged me. "I miss you too, but trust me I'm always by your side."
My body shook violently because of the crying that I intentionally could not stand. This is who I am, always crying in the warm arms of Erlan's brother and always leaning on Erlan's burly shoulders.
"Listen to me, Ayasya!" Brother Erlan let go of his embrace and looked at my bead of eyes. "Never blame anyone else for what's going on in your life! My departure and also the baby has been predestined by God, not because of the fault of others" said Erlan.
"But, Brother"
"Run your life well and achieve your own happiness. Never remember things that will only hurt you!" sergeant Erlan before I could finish my words.
I nodded slowly. "But Aca has no reason to be happy anymore, sister,"
Erlan didn't have time to answer me because suddenly one of my sons pulled his hand. And brother Erlan also raised the tiny body to be carried.
"Life well, Ayasya, God will give you a reason to stay happy and move on with your life." Brother Erlan smiled and walked away with a child in his cradle.
"Sister Erlan!!!" I shouted with blurred vision from the puddle of tears.
"Mother ...," The voice of a child distracts me.
I looked over and saw one of my children was still with me. "You? Why are you still here?"
The handsome boy smiled, just like his father. "Because I want to remain your son, Mother."
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