
The sense of loss is indeed so torturous to the heart and psychic of a person. Habits may even depend on the presence of others on the side making themselves unable to stand alone. Such helplessness is currently being faced by Daffin.
Since our return from the hospital, I saw Daffin constantly pondering on the balcony of our bedroom. He also ignored me who missed his presence so much. To be honest, I felt at least jealous of Daffin's attitude of thinking about Shaka rather than me, his wife who almost had a heart attack because she thought that he had died.
"My husband Darling ...," I stepped closer to Daffin who had his hands on the balcony railing.
Daffin remained silent, as if he didn't hear me. So I decided to touch her shoulder until she turned her head and forced her smile on me.
I breathe deep. "You haven't eaten since, Daffin, I don't want you to get sick."
"I'm not hungry, Mrs Stevano," replied Daffin with a glaring gaze.
"I know you're not hungry, but you should also know that I haven't eaten since." My lips pursed together with the movement of my eyes.
Daffin. "Why haven't you eaten yet? You don't pay attention to our son? She must be hungry."
My face is perfect. "If you know she's hungry, then accompany me to eat."
"All right, I'll accompany you to eat."
***
I really don't believe this, in the dining room Daffin really just accompany me to eat. He did not touch the food in front of him.
I put down my spoon, then clucked in annoyance. "Eat, Daffin, do you want to torture me?"
"Whatchu mean? I can't possibly do that, Mrs Stevano," argued Daffin with a frown.
"You don't want to eat, and it torments me! I've been holding back hunger ever since because I want to eat with you! I know you're sad, but don't you think I'm sad? I'm sad, Daffin! I also can't bear to see Shaka's condition like that! But what can we do now but pray for him? Would if you went on a hunger strike like this, Shaka would open his eyes and bribe you? Nah! And if you get sick from your behavior, won't you just add to the problem? Anyway, who's gonna find the shooter if you're sick?" my ocehku is non-stop.
I stood up and prepared to leave Daffin, but Daffin's big hand held me back. "I'm sorry, Mrs Stevano."
There was a very deep sadness from Daffin's voice. I know that, but I can't let Daffin down because of Shaka. He had to stand tall as a Daffin Stevano. Not a friend who lost a friend.
"I know you're sad, but you can't ignore me, Daffin! I need you too." My breath was heard in the midst of Daffin's silence.
A single stomp of Daffin's hand made me fall on his lap. She loved doing it even though my pregnancy was already growing.
"What did you say?" daffin asked, his blue eyes fixed on me.
"You sad?" I asked back with raised eyebrows.
Daffin shook his head. "No! What you just said."
My eyeballs are moving upwards, looking for an excuse to dodge. "You gotta eat?"
I heard Daffin snort in annoyance and then turned his face away from me. His behavior like that makes me anxious and want to kiss him, then I will do it too. Without hesitation I cupped Daffin's cheeks with my tiny hands until those blue eyes were focused on me again.
One small move risking my high self-esteem was my decision. My lips immediately landed on Daffin's lips, making the owner of the sensual lips jerked with wide eyes.
Not getting a reply from Daffin, I stopped my actions and immediately bowed down to shame for what I had done. I foolishly acted pervertedly while Daffin was in grief.
"I-I asked ma-ummm ..," I couldn't finish my words because Daffin had already ambushed my lips.
Next to Daffin's hand was coiled around my hip with the other hand holding my head so that I could not rebel. I felt the heat start to overwhelm us when Daffin's naughty hands started to target everywhere. Actually, my desire was to follow Daffin, but my common sense rejected him. There's no way we're doing it in the dining room like this. What if someone suddenly comes?
"Daffin ...," called me in breath as soon as Daffin let go of his lips.
"Hemm ..," Daffin's hand tidied up my messy hair. "You want to continue?" tanyakanya.
Daffin's gaze began to change. He is starting to look back on being him. I could feel her hand on my hip. My guess is, Daffin is holding back his desires.
If a kiss like that alone can change Daffin's mood for the better, it's possible that a more sweaty gesture could actually make him come back to himself and could just be more excited.
Daffin chuckles. "Sure, My Starfish! I'll wait for you to eat, after that we'll continue what's delayed."
"You're wrong, Daffin! You won't wait for me to eat, but you'll feed me to eat." I said spoiled.
Looks like my efforts worked. Daffin pulled my plate and fed me. And when Daffin intended to feed me again, I immediately pushed the spoon into his mouth.
"Slow down! You have to eat to have the energy to defeat me." I always laugh and change my body position.
I forgot that I was still on Daffin's lap until I felt something stuck. "This Daffin -"
"Hussstt ..," Daffin put his index finger on my lips. "You shouldn't keep teasing him. I was sad, but Jhonny wasn't." whispered.
I have trouble swallowing my saliva. I was determined to give myself up to Daffin, but why did my heart keep racing even faster than time.
"Then I'll go down." My body was inching to get off Daffin's lap, but he held him back.
"Be quiet! Or you'll make it grow faster" whispered Daffin again.
I looked into Daffin's eyes that reflected my face. The aura of sadness was still clearly visible in her eyes, but I knew she was trying to cover it up. So I had to help her through her sad days before she turned into a hungry lion.
***
By midday, Daffin and I were still wrapped in blankets on the bed. Sometimes Daffin calls Rei to ask about Shaka's situation.
"All right, thank you, Doctor Reinhard. I entrusted Shaka's safety to you and your hospital." Daffin decided on his call even though I had hinted to him that I wanted to talk to Rei. "Why is your face tangled like that, Mrs Stevano?" ask Daffin.
"I want to talk to Rei, why are you so stingy!" sulku.
"What do you want to talk to him about? About Shaka or about the company?" daffin asked, his gaze turning cold. "If it's about Shaka, I'm telling you that there hasn't been any visible change. The conditions are still the same as when we left them. And about the company -"
I cut Daffin's words. "I'm not interested in the company. I've given everything to Rei and Dad. After all I have a rich husband, so what am I thinking of the company for. Am I right, my handsome husband?"
"You're right, Mrs Stevano! Your job is only to serve me." said Daffin, with a sly smile on his face.
And that day, we spent exercising in the room. In order to restore the mood of Daffin.
***
In the afternoon, my mother knocked on my door. Luckily I cleaned myself up, and so did Daffin. It was just that we had just finished getting dressed so were a little surprised by the arrival of mother.
"Is Daffin sick, honey?" ask mom as soon as I open the door.
I drew a smile on my lips. "No, Mom! What's the matter you ask like that?"
"That's because you guys haven't been out since morning. I'm worried that something might happen to Daffin, honey," she replied as she stroked my hair.
"Daffin's mood was bad before, Mom, but now it looks like he's better." I started to feel uncomfortable looking at my mother.
"May?" call Daffin who's standing behind me. "What's wrong?"
"Are you asking a detective to help you investigate this case, Daffin?" mother asked, his face worried.
"Really! I want the man who shot Shaka to be caught, Maya, he has to pay for what he did to my friend."
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