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study tour

Tonight, yes tonight I go with Adam. Just two. It was also unbeknownst to Munah and Wahid. After I guess my body is much better. Tomorrow is the day we go on vacation. More precisely vacation while studying. I prefer to go in my own car. And forbid Adam to come get me.

I went according to the address Adam had explained. I can also tell this place because of it, I never came here before. Mostly just a mall or club'. A wide field, but if the night will be many sellers bring their carts. Then prepare a place to eat, just potluck. Adam chose the corner spot, which was far from the crowd. I will obey, as long as Adam will not do anything reckless. Sorry, I was still traumatized that night.

"Have you arrived?" I nodded, then Adam patted the empty space beside him. I sat there, waiting for him to speak.

"Did Elena know you were leaving tonight?" And I finally gave in by asking him first.

Adam nodded. Afraid that Elena might get suspicious of me and Adam. Even before I knew Elena, I knew her first. Ah but I also know how young people think today.

"You know Nara, every night I never sleep in peace." I'm down.

"I'm thinking about you. How about you get pregnant, and my guilt. I don't know how to make it up to you. While you keep avoiding. I know, we're still in school. But, I can also think of adulthood." Honestly, I was amazed by his thoughts.

"There can be no other man who will accept you later if you are already unholy. I did too." I looked towards him. Hey, I'm not getting married! Even though I'm pregnant.

"Tell Nara how should I be?"

"Dam. Enough to be my friend. I'm okay like this. It's not your fault either. You're with Elena. Do not hurt his soft heart. I'm also guilty of what happened back then, if I hadn't been drunk." I looked down again, why should I discuss this. But I promise you, tonight will be over, with the way I forgive Adam and behave normally. Adam wouldn't suspect me that I was pregnant.

What I thought last night was that Adam knew that I was pregnant with his child, was that Adam only knew that my mother was pregnant. Since he accidentally read my message, presumptuous indeed. But yeah, I'm grateful he thought I was sick thinking about it.

"You haven't answered my question." I took a breath and stood up.

"Forget it Dam. Didn't you know I don't want to go to the household later, whatever I don't want to know love. I'll forgive you and forget what happened that night. But you also have to promise not to talk about it anymore and keep it a secret." Sorry Dam, so sorry. I can't say I'm pregnant with your child. Let this be all I'm gonna endure. I know, it's my fault.

I turned and stood before Adam. I smiled, so that he would no longer think about the matter. Lord, help me hide the pregnancy until this child is born.

I remembered the words of bi Gina back then. He was willing to take care of my son when he was born into the world, so I could continue my studies.

"Just go ahead with your relationship with Elena, make sure you don't hurt her."

I have to try to make peace with the situation. One problem could be solved with me accepting it. And one more step, I tried to accept my family. Although it was heavy, and currently it could not.

"I'm sorry." I sat back and smiled.

"Why?" I turned my head as Adam looked at me as his phone rang.

"Elena phone, just a second." I nodded and looked at Adam who was a bit away from me. I could faintly hear that Adam had mentioned my name. And as always, Adam would have given me his phone, I know what it means. I'm sure Elena can't believe that Adam actually went with me tonight. That complicated love? I prefer to live alone for a lifetime.

"Yes Elena?"

"Sir Nara? Thankfully, Adam didn't lie." He breathed a sigh of relief. "Yes, sister, then you have to be happy tonight." What did Adam say to her?

"Oh yes. You don't mind if I borrow Adam for a second?" I glanced at Adam who was also glancing at me.

"No brother." He's laughing a little. "She's brother's friend, brother is much more entitled to Adam." Ah, what is this word! Is that really so?

"I'm closing up, sister Nara, bye." I returned Adam's phone.

The situation was silent for a while. After Adam was also relieved because I wanted to forgive him. And so do I, I'm trying to accept this.

"Nara, I want to tell you something about my family." I nodded, I was willing to listen.

"But you have to promise, keep this a secret. Wahid or Munah don't know." Is it this serious?

"Say." Say and wait. Adam leaned against his body, thrusting his hand towards the sky.

"My father died a long time ago."

"Adam! What's that supposed?" I cut the conversation. How come? Didn't his father ever come to school that time?

"i'm serious. My father's death must be hidden. But, because it's clear. I dare to tell you this. I'm sure you won't talk to anyone."

"So who came to school??"

"That's my father's brother." I was quiet again, ready to listen next.

"My father had an accident, and died. And that turned out to be just an element of intent. The family agreed to say that my father was still alive. In order to investigate everything, and it turns out that the person who made my father died. He died a few months ago too. So, I can't make demands. I'm also sincere."

"I still don't believe." I shook my head slowly.

"Huh. I'm not sure if that person did it. But seeing that mom is sincere, I'm going along too."

I nodded again, only able to stroke her shoulders to stay strong.

I did not expect this, it turns out that Adam also has a very difficult problem. All I think is that I'm the only one feeling this. Apparently not.

"Are you really guessing who it is? Why are you still not sure? Didn't you say there's evidence?"

"Yes, I thought that one of our families did it." Just-there! I protested as soon as Adam said it.

"Your reaction is just like my mom." Speaking of mother, I have never met her mother. We never played at Adam's house. It seems he still keeps a lot of things secret. It is only fitting that whenever Wahid or Munah wants to visit his house, Adam always has a reason. Which he said his mother left, or also his house is crowded, there is a family event. Yeah, I'm pretty sure Adam still has a secret.

"You have a sister, right? That time you mentioned his name, I forgot?"

"Yes, Brother Windu. He is continuing his studies abroad. Soon it will be done, and he will be the leader of the father's company."

"So this is why you moved here?" Adam nodded.

"Actually not really, since childhood me and my family did live in this city. It's just that I had to move back then for my father's business reasons. But because of that incident, I asked to come back here." I'm mangosteen.

"Hey, we've talked a lot. But don't order food or drinks." Suddenly Adam reminded me of that, too. I am neither hungry nor thirsty. I've been feeling a little relieved just because Adam believed I wasn't pregnant.

"It's better not to Dam. We'll just walk, enjoy the night." Adam nodded in agreement, but he still bought a bottled drink, then gave it to me. We walked under the moonlight, surrounding the vast field of this field ground. Dragging your feet while talking.

"Nara, since that incident my mind has been too perverted." I stopped my steps.

"meaning?"

"Yes, no matter how I've always been in the curves of your body. Eh sorry!" I reflexively hit him, Adam even chuckles amusedly. As if my body shape is just a joke.

"I've forgiven you." I looked at him sharply. He repeatedly apologized again. Alright, I've made peace so accept the joke now.

"You want me to take it to the navel? I'll introduce you to my father." I don't know what to answer yet. "Relax, my father is in town. The mother who requested that father remain buried in his hometown."

"All right, I want to."

"After we get home from the study tour?" I nodded again.

I need to get busy now. I need to find someone who can build a house for my sisters on the street. The money is already there, dad has even added my monthly money. And tomorrow I'm leaving, a chance for me to ask for more money with dad. Not bad, it can be additional to buy home appliances later.

It doesn't feel like it's 10 p.m. I haven't even prepared for tomorrow's departure.

"Dam, I have to go home now." Adam nodded.

"I'll drive you."

"Eh no need. I'll take the car."

"Yes I know. But at least I can make sure you get there safely." I'm laughing a little. It is not just Adam. Wahid always does, if I go home even if I bring my own car, he will still take me home. For the same reason as Adam.

"You sure you don't want to eat first?" I nodded again. I'm not hungry.

"All right, let's go home."

***

"Wound"

The fire did not burn

Sweat also does not wash out..

But why get tired?

Lord..

Can you show me something?

Which makes the heart satisfied

No one has the right to control who..

Just trying to plant hope

Which will one day grow..

Remember how life processes..

With the sun coming every morning..

Kinara's.

When I got to the apartment, I cleaned up everything that would be brought tomorrow. But I don't want to go straight to sleep, I prefer to pour my current mood through poetry. Sipping a cigarette, I wrote it. Observing every incident I went through. Then I pour it on paper. I put it in the bag. Fold it into a small fold, and then tuck it between my books.

After I lay down, I saw it was 23:30. I picked up my phone, and sent a message to Dad. I'm sure tomorrow will be read by him. Ah come on, I don't expect you to pay him back tonight either. Most importantly, I have expressed my desire.

Just about to close my eyes, it turns out that my father immediately called me. Then you're not sleeping tonight?

"Hallo yeah?"

"Nara, is this Auntie?" Deg. Why should he! Dad where?

"You asking for money? Howmany? Let Auntie transfer now." Whahuh? Where might I say it.

"Nara?"

"Eh yes. No need. Let me talk to you tomorrow myself."

Honestly, making peace is not as easy as being said. What else to try familiar snobs.

"Your father's sick. You can't come see it?"

"Dad sick?"

"Yes. If you want, I'll ask the driver tomorrow to pick you up, if you're home from study tour." I shook my head slowly. I'm not that special!

"No, I'm going there tomorrow."

"Thank you, yeah." I did not answer and immediately turned off the phone.

I did not go to sleep, I could just sit and bend my legs and hug him. Dad sick? Why can't I know that.

Ting.. The noise on my phone. Ha's? Really transferred by Auntie Intan? The number is also very much. This is not pocket money for a study tour. But it can be used for holidays abroad for one week or even more. Ah but never mind. I should be grateful for this. In this way, I will not be short of money for those I will help.

***

I'm ready to go. When I was about to walk towards the car, I recognized the figure standing near my car. Wh who? A woman, but she turned her back on me. I keep walking. Until I arrived, I rebuked him. Asking her to shift a little so as not to block my way into the car.

"Mother?" Mom smiled, why did she come so early?

"Nara, aren't you in school? Why wear house clothes?" I expressed my intention to leave.

"Yes, today's study tour." My answer.

"Today, I intend to take you home."

"Sorry Mom. But I'll look at Dad later too. I'm sick." The silent mother did not answer and gave no response at all. Is he happy to hear that my father is sick? Crazyhead!

"Did mom come just for that?"

"Ah yes, actually it was because it drove Laras to school. So all of you dropped by." Wow amazing! Can I clap for a mother who is in front of me now? Even as a child, I never felt it. Just a driver every day driving me with my nanny first. At least with my father, all of you go to work. Mom always had a thousand excuses when it came to taking me to school.

And all I remember is, the last time I had to take a school report. I begged mom to take it, but she said no time because there was business. Until finally his mother Munah who became my guardian, he took two reports at once. Apparently, the mother was busy because she was preparing for her wedding with Asraf. It hurt me when I knew.

"Mom I'm leaving now, afraid too late. If there's no need for more, I'd better go home." Mom's face changed pias, I didn't mean to shoo. But it's true, I have to go right now.

"Mom hope you come tomorrow. I'll pick you up after school." I didn't answer and got into the car.

Eh my phone has been ringing many times it turns out, there are messages and also missed calls.

"Mune you? What's up?" I stopped my car for a while before entering the highway, then called Maemunah.

"What's wrong? you sent me a lot of messages?"

"Nara, can you pick me up? My dad's car broke down." Oh my, what's wrong.

"You wait in front of the whispers? Let's go straight away later. Afraid of being late and being left behind by the bus."

"Yes-yes, I'm waiting."

I drove the car a little fast. If it is too late the apple will be left behind information later.15 minutes trip, I can already see Munah who stands with his backpack. If you see it funny, many times refuse public transportation that offers it to ride. I'm sure, if that's so sure the driver is not reluctant to swear because it is calculated that Munah took public transportation selectively. It will not take public transport. Luckily the road to school was still one way, if I turned around I was sure we would be late.

"Heh thankfully. Good thing you read my message." As soon as I saw my car Munah came straight in.

"So your father went to work on what ride?"

"My father asked permission, you'll take the car to the garage."

After arriving at school. I went downstairs, I heard Munah screaming for me. I stopped walking and turned around.

"Why the hell?" Munah shook the bag he was carrying. Oh my gosh, I patted my own forehead. I even forgot my bag.

"Good thing is still in the car. What about being left in the apartment?" I smiled, it's common to hear Munah grumbling.

"We're going to class now. I'm sure they're all gathered." I nodded, Munah walked faster and pulled my hand. I almost fell because my feet were tripping over rocks.

"Finally there." We sat down, even when we entered the room with the teacher.

I put my bag on the table. I'm lyrically toward the desk drawer. Right, there's chocolate in here every morning. I looked around. What time did the guy who put the chocolate in here come? I even tried to come very early in the morning, but it was still there. So I'm sure that guy put it here when he got home from school. All right, I'll take a peek at it if I don't forget. I put chocolate in the bag. Didn't want to ask anyone again, because that time even became a commotion even to quarrel with Mida, only because I asked about this chocolate.

"Why Nara? Is there a problem?" Oh my, am I that sad? Until the teacher at the door notices me?

"Eh no Ma'am." I smiled clumsyly. All eyes were on me, including Mida sitting across. He glanced at me cynically then smiled mockingly. Uh is it possible that he's the one? Intentionally make me feel special, then end up laughing at me?

"On the mother group for now yes." I have to listen carefully.

"Mom? Can't our own group decide?" Wahid raised his hand and protested. Followed by the other students, the situation instantly boisterous. I agree with Wahid anyway, how about Mida's one group with me? Oh no! There is no learning, but instead becomes a record winner in fighting.

"Hush still!" His shouting. "Well, then, you decide for yourself the problem of the group. One group consists of 4-5 people." Free, will cheer. Whatever the reality is basically the students will remain excited!

"Now you can go directly to the bus that is waiting in front of the school." Some run first, some relax. Including me, I am also relaxed at this moment. Why try running? Like an elementary school kid.

"Nara, you go first. I'm going to the office, because my dad left me the tuition. Otherwise I pay now fear it will be used."

"Oh yeah, that's it."

I walked alone, the school seemed calm. All students have started studying in class. I walk while looking down.

"Nara, will you sit with me?" I looked up, then looked to the side.

"Adam? How's mune?"

"She sat down with Wahid. Let it be, maybe they'll discuss an arranged marriage with his brother Munah." I laughed a little, yes. Wahid was busy approaching his brother Munah.

When entering, the empty one is only the back seat. It is good to sit two people. Where will Munah sit?

"Dam, how's the Munah?"

Adam pointed to one of the seats. Heh my goodness, it turns out Wahid has been sitting there casually while using earphones in his ears.

And right, I just sat down with Adam. Munah came in and sat down next to Wahid. Why do they seem to have planned? I stood up before the bus walked, it turned out to be true my guess. Munah and Wahid are watching the movie Drakor. Hey since when did the two of them become so crazy?

"Hihi, how handsome geez. If you were like that, I'd keep chasing you."

"And if I were like that, I wouldn't be friends with you. Or just look and greet you I don't want to!"

"Basic!" I shook my head and sat down again, a few minutes along and the rest of them squabbled.

"Kids, we're absent first huh. After that, go straight away." We answered in unison.

And, all have answered present. Then the bus drove, ready to go to the study tour this time. About where yes, unfortunately the teacher kept a secret about the place. Usually, if this is definitely going to an atmosphere that makes it comfortable, for example, mountains.

I took out a chocolate bar from my bag, gulped when I opened it. Why do I like it so much, no-no I like chocolate. But not to this extent usually.

"You want to?" Looking at Adam who kept watching me move open the chocolate.

"No, eat. Looks like you'll be less if I eat."

I laugh. "You know." But I still broke the chocolate in half, revealing the seeds of Mede beans, I can't wait to gobble them up.

"More." I hesitated to give it. I swear, I don't feel ready.

Seriate..