Sky overcast

All because of guilt

Since knowing and hearing about it, matchmaking! What's that! That's really not deceptive for me. My college hasn't even started yet. Why doesn't anyone understand now? Is my father's affection for me just a charade?

I should have been able to stay at home for a long time, but I remember my uneasy thoughts at this time. I'd rather go straight to Gina's bi.

"Nara, what are you thinking? Why are you daydreaming? They asked you to talk, but you didn't hear it."

"Sorry bi." My God, this time I won't trouble bi Gina.

"Bi, I already know about them."

"So just because you think about it? Is your father angry?" I nodded and smiled.

"Auntie, it turns out the painting was also the father who gave it. I've known for a long time." Bi Gina and I turned to those who were playing. This alone has calmed me down. A much more decent life they deserve. My job is done, just escort them to get the highest education later.

God, I don't want to get married. I don't want to live a complicated household. I just want to live like this.

"Bi, did auntie ever hear Intan's mother complain?" Bi Gina asked me to speak inside. We first sat on the porch of his house. I'm sure, if this is how many things bi Gina wants to tell me.

"Are you ready to hear it?" I'm nodding.

"Actually, your father's name in business has been a hot conversation since you miscarried. And the teachers at the school also previously discussed about your graduation. It's just that, at that last moment, you actually finished the exam. It's not wrong if you don't show up on the day of school."

I, yes I realize that I am the source of the current problem.

"Your father had asked auntie many times who the man was, she would look for him. But aunt answered not knowing. Because if calculated from your gestational age at that time. You did it before aunt worked." My God, I feel so guilty about bi Gina.

"Bi sorry for that. How could I possibly say that, that man was Adam bi. How come? And now I'm involved with her brother."

"Kinara, stop. You should just focus on your college."

Aunt, I want to cry now. How can I focus if you've planned that match? I want to be angry, but I'm sure you're acting this way because of me, and the shame you're taking on as a parent. I can't blame Adam now either.

***

The sky looked cloudy, not as bright as when I left the house this morning. Dark clouds have gathered, maybe talking will bring down thousands of water to earth. The lightning bolt grabbed anyone who was walking. I'm still in the car, and I've entered my father's yard. When I think of something heavy like this, I really want to go to the apartment. Just calm down without anyone bothering. Or get into the club' to forget the sadness.

"Have you gone home?" I asked one of the guards standing in front of the house.

"Miss, just now." I thanked him and went inside.

I didn't go straight to my dad and ask him to talk, but I preferred to flutter my body under the shower with cold water. So that the emotions do not overflow when talking to dad.

30 Minutes passed, and I was ready to leave the room. I went to see my father and asked him if it was true what my mother said this morning.

"Nara, I'm looking for you, baby."

"I'm looking for Dad too."

"Daddy's in a digazebo by the pool."

I walked straight there. Looks like mom has other business so she doesn't sit there. I don't know on purpose because I asked him not to hear anything that would be talked to me. Considering that Intan's mother is pregnant at this time.

"Dad?"

"Daddy looking for me?" Dad nodded.

"Something I want to talk to you about." Dad's voice looked so heavy.

"I also wanted to ask you something."

My father allowed me to ask first. Alright, I set my breath to speak more casually.

"So morning when I came to my mother's house. Mom said I'd be betrothed? Is that true, huh?" Dad looked at me, he hasn't answered. But I heard the breath.

"And the man who was betrothed to me was his brother Adam. How come?"

"Kinara is right." Deg. I haven't finished my words yet.

"Dad?"

"Kinara, that's Adam's request. Because he's your friend, he knows what happened to you. Then ask his mother and brother to obey this will."

"Then you agree?"

"Nara, how could you refuse? You also know how you are now, and they are a good family. To be able to accept you with pleasure, for father it is a blessing. And I can make sure you don't take any wrong steps."

Do I have to cry now?? My chest feels tight. Juanda, my son, take me with you, son.

"Well, wasn't Adam in a coma?"

"He was conscious when his friend came." Deg. Elena?? I squeezed whatever was next to me. This is really painful.

"Dad I want to be alone." I just left, running as fast as I could to get to my room.

"Nadzara?" Dad's still yelling, I don't care. So did my mother, she pulled my hand. But I immediately brushed it off, sorry only to be spoken in my heart. Because people who don't know have to take part in my current impingement.

"Baj**gan!!" I screamed and threw everything near me. "You said you loved me. Turns out you did it just because you felt guilty about me. In fact until now you still have a taste for Elena!" Hixes.. I've been sitting on the floor, everything's getting ruined now. Adam was too mean to me. My current destruction, my pain that I feel now. It sounded along with the lightning that was above the sky. The rain started to fall hard. I'm sure, my mood must be the same as the overcast sky.

"Fuck you Adam!" Hixes..

Ting.. The sound of a message from my phone, I know if not Munah or Wahid definitely Windu who contacted me at this time. Because other than family, only they have my cell phone number.

"You need to know, Adam's aware of Elena's arrival. It's not in vain that I look for her, thanks for giving her the address Nara. I'll treat you to a meal as a thank you."

I squeezed my own phone. And then throw with origin.

"BAB**SAT!!"

Beautiful words, the attention he had been giving me. I know, it's all because of her guilt. And now, everything is proven. No love, no affection. I'm more and more convinced to reject this match. I'd say I don't want to get married.

Seriate..