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Aunt already know?

Sometimes something is covered and hope no one knows, it is actually impossible. God always has a way to open a person's disgrace, whether it was his own carelessness. I was wrong, so bi Gina could find a testpack with a line of two which means positive in my school uniform pocket. I'm still quiet, I'm trying to find an excuse.

"Look at bi." Bi Gina walked over towards me. His view is still full of probing. "this has my friend bi. I had a fight at school. Sorry I'm not being honest. Actually, I had a fight with a classmate, because I found out that it had accidentally fallen out of his bag." Light me up again. Although the heartbeat has been beating is not strange, the lips that seem to tremble when talking. Trying to stay calm. I myself do not want bi Gina to be suspicious when I see me.

Bi Gina who was just standing up, after hearing my explanation, walked over and finally sat down beside me. Bi Gina sat down beside me. After smiling, thank goodness bi Gina believed. I can neutralize my heartbeat and the roar of my breath.

"Nara, there's no problem that has no way out." I don't understand what bi Gina's saying. I was stunned again. "You know, the aunt who initially resigned to the situation. No money, no job. And already resigned will die together with the husband in the house with a state of hunger. But God was still willing to help, extending his invisible hand. Aunt found your father. Who accidentally almost got hit by his car that time." I tried to digest every sentence bi Gina said.

The afternoon with the scorching heat, burned the skin of anyone who would bask under it. Anyone who walks without a hood on their head will sweat. Setting a trembling foot restrains hunger, looking for a drug donor who is willing to give it away for free. All is impossible, considering the rich people who pass by the car there will be no intention of helping. And think only a liar if you hear bi Gina speak. Take advantage of the situation, take advantage of his age. Like a beggar.

"Oh." At that time bi Gina fell, not because she could no longer support the body with both legs trembling to resist hunger. But there was a car that accidentally grazed him. Bi Gina tried to get up, then helped by the car owner who came down wearing all black clothes.

"Sorry aunt, I was completely unintentional. Let me drive to the hospital if anyone gets hurt." Bi Gina shook her head weakly. He said no one was sick, only hungry and needed medicine for people who were sick.

"My husband is sick, not me." Then the sturdy man turned to the car, and left bi Gina for a while. Like talking to other people there, the black glass that covered bi Gina's gaze could not make her penetrate her gaze with just her eyes.

"My master wants to take you to aunt's hospital. Please this is an order." Bi Gina directly used both of her hands to refuse. And still insist on not wanting, just always answer that her husband is sick.

"I really need money. But I need more work. Anything, as long as I can." Has not received the money that has been deposited. Then go back to the car, talk for a while and give bi Gina a business card. Ask him to come or tell you.

"This is my master's business card. If your aunt is interested in working as a domestic assistant. Aunty can call the number already listed there. Also has a name." Bi Gina looked at the business card that read 'Renjani Adnan Husein'. When he looked up the straight man had gone, directly into the car before bi Gina could answer him.

Bi Gina was sitting limp, her tears instantly dripping when she saw the money she had rejected was already under her feet. Increasingly moved, even prostrating his happy bow.

I immediately shed tears, hearing bi Gina's story. Which turns out many people who feel difficulties, it feels very eager to help people who are in trouble. There is a sense of pride and happiness can make others smile, even cry. Because the prayers given to them sincerely will surely be heard by God. My heart also warmed when I found out that my father helped bi Gina at that time. Really, maybe my nature like this, is indeed down from my father. I want to hear more of his kindness. I'll admit he's my father in front of a lot of people, if he helps anyone else. Not successful in running his business.

"You know what Nara means by what aunt's story?" I'm nodding. I know, he means bi Gina. The problem I'm having right now, which I don't think there's going to be a way out.

"Whose aunt knows whose testpack this is." I'm quiet again, down. "Auntie has said that aunt can also massage." Meanin? I looked towards bi Gina.

"Bi, but it's not mine." Sorry bi, I'm really hard to be honest.

"What until the baby is born and you still don't admit it? You've felt the bitterness in life without Nara's parents' affection. Then you want to make your son like that too? You know what it's like." I'm nodding. "In this world, not just hundreds but tens of thousands of people who want to pet a child, one of them his own aunt. But God has not given it to us. So it's a pity that the child will be killed before birth." Deg. To kill? What does it mean I'm gonna be a killer? If he succeeds in dropping it?

"He also has life, he lives." Bi Gina held my stomach still flat.

"I don't want to marry bi."

"It's better than having to kill him for your past hatred." My God, everything bi Gina said is true. I had no choice but to be honest. Bi Gina kept stabbing me with her soft words but it had great meaning. Bi Gina, you're a good man. He's a good man. Why didn't God give him a child? If bi Gina had a child, I'm sure I would feel very happy even though her life is mediocre.

I hugged him, sobbing. My speech was also definitely not clearly heard by him. I just said I don't want to get married over and over again. "He's my own friend bi, hiks." Bi Gina remained silent, letting me cry until satisfied. It feels like I asked bi Gina to stay here with me. So that I feel calm and comfortable. "How can I hide this until I graduate bi? I'll be graduating from school in a minute. But how? Where is there a school that wants to accept its students pregnant out of wedlock?"

"Nara, we'll think about that later. The most important thing now is not to be reckless with finding a way to get rid of it." I took off my arms and wiped my tears. "It's ndok, it's cake." Bi Gina shed tears, rubbing my cheeks and my entire face gently. I heard him speak slowly in a language I did not know, the language of his own custom.

"I have to how bi? I beg bi, don't say this to anyone. Anyone including dad." Bi Gina was silent again, she seemed to think of something.

I could only cry in his arms. Lamenting the fate of my life. I have no place to complain, only have friends who are also my age. They won't be able to give me a way out. Except for two options, marry or abort. Because they must have the same thoughts as me. Unlike bi Gina, she has lived a lot longer than me. Who must have experience and travel that could have a reason for me to maintain this content. A son without a father, no! I don't want this kid to have a father. Am I going to be a bad mother?

"You said it was your friend, right?" I nodded again. "Adam?" Right, bi Gina is very smart in researching the views of others. I asked why bi Gina could tell. "From the way his eyes look at you, it's different from how he looked at the woman next to him earlier."

"Bi, I really don't want Adam to know about this. It was just a one-night mistake. We don't have a relationship too far, I love him only as a friend. But that changed in just one night." I told him everything that happened that night, exactly one month ago.

"Bi, I wanted to hide this myself, but now aunt knows."

"You should also check your content. Didn't you just say yourself that your stomach was exposed to your friend's perks during a fight?" I thought again, where is it possible and how? Will the doctor ask where my husband is?

"Auntie can help. You don't have to come to the hospital. I know the doctor, not far from my aunt's house. If you want, aunt will ask him to come here. Check it out every month here too." I looked at bi Gina. Did ya? Then I have found a solution.

"Also there's a way to cover your contents." I'm ready to hear it. "Wearing the corset to be invisible." Bi Gina's face turned sad. "But it can also harm the growth and development of the fetus." Oh God..

"I want a bi." Bi Gina was silent for a while then nodded, she walked out of the room and will help me in this.

For two hours I waited in the room, sitting with my feet hugged. Does not change at all, even though the feet already feel tingling. I still want to be this way, silent without thinking about anything, so I don't have to cry every second.

"Nara?" Bi Gina's voice came, opening the door of the room. Then came the tall white woman. Beautiful, brown eyes. She came in only formal attire, maybe it was also bi Gina's request to not look like a doctor.

"What's his name?" He's coming towards me. Her smile is sweet, I hope she is also a good person. And help me with this.

"Cinara doctor." He held my arm, checked my pulse. And then smile again.

"My name is Linda, you can call her doctor linda." I smiled at her, her name was as beautiful as her person.

And then I saw Linda's doctor pull a device out of her bag, and I knew it was useful to check my blood pressure. I was quiet, when Linda's doctor started examining the abdomen, using a stethoscope. Then lightly rub the cold gel, attaching a device that makes a sound like a heartbeat.

"The baby is healthy." Whahuh? Is that my son's heartbeat? Bi Gina gave thanks when Linda's doctor said that. "But, her mother is not well." The deg? Meanin?

"Minds, and major depression. I'd better suggest, not to think of things that could make Kinara's tension go up." I shut up, and the doctor had a slow chat with bi Gina. They're a little bit standing away from me. Bi Gina looks only beards when the doctor speaks.

"Nara, I'm going to inject vitamins huh. Slant first." I followed his advice. The piercing needle didn't hurt as much as Adam breaking into my chastity wicket.

"It." I went back on my back and folded my hands over my stomach. "This medicine is taken every lunch or dinner. Only in drinking once a day yes, in drinking until it runs out." I nodded again.

"Insense if the doctor's estimate is three weeks."

"If at the age of 12 weeks later there is already a small movement, such as feeling a twitch that means a healthy fetus." Oh so it turns out that way? What does it feel like? Why can't I wait to feel it.

Bi Gina came out to take the beautiful doctor I rubbed my stomach again, spoke to him who could not hear or answer what I said. The affection just goes away, why am I so happy now?

"The love of mother and child has been established when the child is still in the womb. Even in the form of a blood clot. There is no mother in this world who does not love her child." I was silent, when bi Gina saw me talking to fetuses in the womb.

"So does your mother. Shelove you. It's just a different way, he prefers to give a lot of money, because he thinks you'd rather be given money." Deg, really?

"Bi?" Bi Gina looked at me. "Did my mom love me too?" Bi Gina smiled and nodded.

"Nara, even though the aunt has no children at this time. But aunty has felt nine months pregnant and also still had time to pet her give affection before the aunt's child died." Why does my heart hurt? And can't imagine that in my position?

"Bi, if my stomach gets bigger later will people not be suspicious?"

"Don't wear loose-fitting clothing on the body. Wear loose clothing."

"Where is my school uniform?" That's the thing I'm afraid of. Sometimes the eyes of people who do not like us are even more observant than those closest to us.

"Later aunt bought a new, bigger one." I hugged bi Gina. He helped me a lot in this, it turns out I was wrong to think I could hide this and deal with it myself. My God, you always have a way to help people in difficult circumstances.

I'm absolutely sure by now that bi Gina is a good person. Evidently in a way bi Gina did not advise me to abort my content.

***

I, who was already much calmer now, could breathe the air outside in the afternoon. I brought bi Gina to see one more of my secrets. About the street kids I've taken for granted like my own sister. I love them, starting with compassion. Remember, love and love are different versions in my opinion. Affection is neutral, can be intertwined with the closest people. But love, we can only tether it with one person's heart. It was just my version, in contrast to the opinions of others again.

"Sister, who is that?" They all got closer to my car, then saw bi Gina who was also down. He smiled happily at the group of children dressed in Kumal.

"Call her mother." Those who did not think long immediately embraced bi Gina. Bi Gina also did not look disgusted at all, she instead joined her embrace back. Looking at me and I know, his eyes are already glazed.

"How can Nara?" Ask and shake your head. Like getting new findings in his life at this time.

"Auntie, they're just like me." I led them to walk to sit under a tree. My favorite place to feel calm with a breeze that removes sweat on the neck. Adem, along with the heart.

I just think sometimes. Not a few children of other rich people who feel disgusted if they are close to children like them. Not even reluctant to throw away if you feel uncomfortable. But why am I different? I look happy and happy to make them smile. Those who touched every outside of my car ran around. In my eyes it looks funny. They are a part of us, just with a different fate.

"Sister, is this also her mother's sister?" I nodded and smiled. I sat right next to Bi Gina. And the children sat in front of us. I won't forget to bring food before I come here.

"She's our mother." Saying again. Bi Gina's face looked so happy. I'd be in his arms, if he were my mother. Huh, why just be a housekeeper.

"I asked Dad for money. I want to build a house for them. In order for every sky to start to cloudy they don't have to find shade."

"Did your father give him? Does your father know?"

"Nobody knows about bi. Just aunty, because my biggest secret is that aunty knows. So it's just this little thing I cover from people. Better aunt knows." I smiled at him.

"So we're playing in my brother's car, okay?"

"May, but be careful."

"If you build a house for them. Who will take care of them?" I pointed at myself. Don't know, whether it is willing or not. Most importantly, I'll try it. My real delusion, I wanted to go to college, and then after I went home to teach them how to read and write, like a teacher. But when I found out that I was pregnant, I thought it was all gone. I told this to bi Gina with a quivering tone.

"Who said you can't do all that Nara. Not that after you have children you can't do any activities. While there is an aunt. Aunty's gonna take care of your son?" Again bi Gina helped me in my difficult thoughts. "Auntie knows your wish is simple, but so noble. Nara, not necessarily everyone can do this, you're special." My eyes glazed over, only this time hearing the sincere praise that was set upon me.

Silent for a while, we prefer to enjoy the atmosphere of the afternoon under the tree. Watching the children running around the car with the sound of laughter. Release without burden. I saw that for real, they never even complained. Strange, I'm the only one who does not lack often complain about affection. They are my role models even though they are children.

The orange sky made me have to go home immediately to take bi Gina. A lot of time was wasted just to be with me today. Leaving her husband alone at home. In fact, bi Gina should have gone home when she finished cooking and cleaning the apartment.

"Mother's home?" Bi Gina stroked one by one their heads.

"Mother careful. Come back here, ma'am. We must miss you."

I drove the car to Gina's house, I told her again in the car. Ask bi Gina what if she came to the apartment early in the morning. Then what if you go home.

"If it's morning, auntie's on public transport. But it has to be twice. If you go home you can take public transportation once. Because in the morning, from the direction of Simpang lemonade to the apartment there is no transportation so early."

"Can I ride a motorcycle?" Bi Gina nodded.

"It can, but there's no motor at home. All the goods are sold out for aunt's husband's medical expenses." Uh one more task.

"Bi, Adam's calling." I was confused, do I have to lift?

"Thank God. Get the car fixed." Doubters. But when he looked again bi Gina nodded. All right, I gotta go with him.

"Hallo?"

"Nara, say. Are you pregnant?" Deg. I glanced towards bi Gina who was in focus looking towards the front.

"Later the language, I'm on the road to take bi Gina home." I immediately hung up the phone.

Not felt in front of a narrow alley on the edge of the highway. If the alley goes to my brothers even though the small car can still enter. But in the alley to bi Gina's house, it was impossible. And that seems to fit only one motor.

Now, one more task is to give others happiness. I'll buy a bike for bi Gina. So that he could easily go home and leave without having to wait for public transportation.

Seriate..