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One secret is revealed

Some days I don't go to school, I'm afraid I'm sick. And ask for a sick certificate from the regular clinic. I did that on purpose, avoiding Adam's question. I have no other reason than to be honest. My phone kept ringing, Wahid, Adam, and Munah. They called me in turn, sent me a message. I told you I was okay. The apartment bell also rang, these past three days. At school, in the afternoon, and sometimes at night. I just sat quietly in the room. I can at least be urged to be honest.

And today, before the school hours come. I took bi Gina to my sisters' contract. So that bi Gina is also a little entertained by their presence. In addition to the husband, for bi Gina the children were also able to make her smile. I always say, think of me as an aunt's son. We are the same, aunt wants to have children, and I want to feel the affection of a mother.

Huh I breathed the air outside the apartment, before entering the car I first looked around. Afraid that there will be stalkers. Who else if not Adam. He always had a way of knowing about me. Sometimes it's just wonder why Adam did it. Shouldn't he just find out about Elena's life.

I just stopped by the highway, because bi Gina was waiting for me there. He smiled when he found my car stopped. I opened the window of the car, then asked him to go straight in.

"Aunt miss you Nara."

"Bi, me too. As long as my aunt isn't around, I order food online. I miss aunt's cooking." I complained when bi Gina was just sitting in the car.

"So how are they?" I know who bi Gina means right now.

"Bi, I found a catering restaurant. Which can be ordered every day, deliver it to the address we want. So, make sure they don't starve." Bi Gina nodded. He is also grateful.

I'm Kinara, I'm stubborn. I am aware of my nature, it is easy to cry. But I also did not give up, even though when I was 12 years old I was desperate to cut my veins. Tired of hearing mom and dad fight every night. If only at that time there was no housekeeper who caught him. I'm definitely not here right now, and I'll never get pregnant out of wedlock. Relationship without status. I feel even more broken now. But since bi Gina has always been motivating, encouraging me. I put aside all the problems and burdens I had. And always smiling, ignoring all the problems.

"Nara, you've got to check the contents this month."

"Yes bi. But, auntie is also still grieving now. How could I ask aunty for help to call that doctor."

Bi Gina turned her head towards me, then she smiled. "Everything's been going for aunt. Sadness is the natural nature of anyone who feels lost. For years though, aunty would still cry if she remembered it. But that's no reason for aunty to always feel the bitterness of living alone." My God, his words always touch me. You really are a soft-hearted bi Gina. If only I could protest to God. Why people as good as bi Gina are not believed to hold children.

"Bi, does the vacant lot next to the aunt's house belong to aunty?" Bi Gina nodded.

"It used to be aunty's house was actually just contracting, eating the location of the house holding each other. And aunt got the last one. Then, when the aunt's husband had more sustenance, then we asked the house to buy it. The land beside him." I must be listening.

"You know Nara, auntie knew not too long ago. When her aunt's husband was sick, she asked her aunt to get the files she had stored. It was a home certificate. It was written clearly the name of the aunt. So for years aunt stayed, aunt thought she was still contracted." Bi Gina's tone of voice was already heard vibrating withstanding the cries. I just imagine that there is a position bi Gina will also cry, cry happily because it gets a partner who is just as good, and cry sad because it has to lose it.

"Bi, did aunty keep a picture of aunty's husband? I was so curious to see his face when he was healthy." Bi Gina nodded, then took out a small photo from inside her wallet. Photograph with husband.

I held it with one hand, and one hand remained on the steering wheel. Looking at him, looking back at the streets. I feel unsatisfied. And repeatedly doing that. I'm sure I've seen it. But I don't remember where and when it was.

"Do you know aunt's husband?"

I nodded and finally shook my head. Bi Gina even laughed a little.

"I've seen it like bi, but I don't know where. I forgot."

"It's clear you've met. Aren't we still living in one city?" Yes, yes, yes too. Sometimes, even though they have met face to face, somewhere even though they do not know each other. Surely we'll still say as we've seen it. And turned again with bi Gina's answer, clearly had met because she was still one city.

"Happy handsome aunt turns out."

"You're too complimentary." Again I managed to make bi Gina let go of a smile. "If your aunt's husband isn't handsome, neither will you." Then bi Gina sighed. "You know Nara, when the aunt came to the navel to deliver her to the aunt's husband's final resting place? Aunty sensed two souls were watching aunty from a distance."

"Two souls? Mean bi?"

"Yes, aunt's son and husband. Didn't they meet now?" Deg. Right, I also felt the same way as bi Gina when she came to her father Adam's navel.

***

I parked the car in front of my brothers' contract. Bi Gina went down first and knocked on the door. This time I came to bring nothing, because I want them to ask what kind of food later, so I can order it through online ojek, delivery. All are now sophisticated.

I mean I asked bi Gina about the land I actually wanted to buy it. And build a house for them there, even safer. Because it's close to bi Gina. And the environment is also positive. So I don't have to worry about those who will play on the streets anymore. But later on, bi Gina was still in a mourning mood. It would be rude if I said this now.

"Sir Nara, come on in." They pulled me over who just closed the car door.

"Don't see this." After I entered, they lined up showing off their new clothes. I smiled happily at him. It's just something weird I think. Wait, I touched one of the clothes between them. I don't think I bought this motive, and this, and then this. I touched everything.

"Why Nara?" Bi Gina knew seeing the look on my face that had turned puzzled as she turned her head.

"You sit down." My love. We sat in an empty room, which was just a mat. This is also one of the opportunities for them to play inside the house. Run as they please. Their names are still children. They didn't go out of the house just according to my will, that's including great things.

"Bi, did auntie give them any clothes?" Bi Gina looked at my sisters. Then finally bi Gina shook her head.

"Then say, did anyone come here and give you new clothes?" One of them stood up, went into the room, and came out with a large cardboard box. I checked it out, a lot. Even more than I gave them yesterday.

The oldest of them started to open their voices. Said that during these two days, someone came. Ask who they live with, and also ask about me. How could they know me, until finally there was what I had to do with them. I know, even though the man who came did not mention his name. But I can guess. If it was Adam. Come in a black car, wear a black backpack, and wear a school uniform.

"He also gave us money." This is what I don't like, anyone who knows will interfere.

"Nara, that's even better. More and more are helping them."

"But bi."

"You can't be selfish. No one else will take them from you. They are still your sisters. You see, they seem happy to get a gift from someone else." I'm down, bi Gina's right. Why am I selfish? Who am I, who has the right to forbid them from receiving anything from anyone else.

"Is the money still there?" They nodded.

"Ari who saved brother. The money's still intact."

"Why not wear it?"

"What's for, brother? Didn't Brother send us food and snacks every day. That's enough brother. More than enough."

They don't go to school, they don't know lessons. But they know how to be grateful. My God, I'm so embarrassed that I always waste money.

"You listening? They just prefer what you give, rather than the gift of someone else."

"Here's brother's hug." I spread out my arms, they immediately scrambled to be able to hug. Their appearance is now much different. Clean, fragrant and no more stains on their faces due to exposure to sweat.

"Sister, actually I've seen that guy. I saw him with my brother, surely my brother knew him too. Because at that time he helped brother when brother fell while lifting the cardboard package."

"How can you see it?"

"I saw it from the window." Deg. Right, this must be Adam. In this case, I can no longer avoid him, I will ask this directly.

"Nara?" I looked towards bi Gina. "What's Adam?" I'm nodding. "Thank God, he's just like you. I love helping others." Oh my, I know it's bi. But aunt reminded me of that.

"Well, what do you want to eat now?"

"Sir, want a meatball that contains chili kak, last night I saw it in a television commercial."

"No donuts." Bi Gina and I laughed at it. I'll order all the food they want.

"If aunt wants what?" Bi Gina just shook her head.

"Come bi, we'll eat with them." Bi Gina still thought.

"Auntie wants you to order, whatever your aunt eats." Yes, I managed to persuade him. So break even, not only my sisters are satisfied, but bi Gina too.

Half an hour waiting, finally the food they requested came. With enthusiasm to open food, they are even excited when they know the contents are really the food they want. Mashed doughnuts and pizza. Finally I chose meatballs and bi Gina was the same. My face reddened when I knew the spicy taste I had never felt. I ran to the kitchen, looking for water. This time my tears fell not because of sadness, but because of eating food that was too spicy.

"Sir Nara's face is so funny." They even laugh at me.

"Bi, does auntie not feel spicy?" Bi Gina shook her head instead, and told me that she was still able to eat it.

"Haha." They laughed again, well I give up now. And choosing to ask for a doughnut that seemed good, I put it in my mouth. One chew has made me able to assess the taste. Really delicious.

If the stomach feels full, then what comes is drowsiness. My eyes can be compromised, hard to open. Bi Gina patted her lap, allowing me to sleep. I took the most comfortable position, then bi Gina stroked the top of my head. Gently, so that for only a few minutes I can enter the dream realm.

***

I sat in a garden, along with a dim light. I just looked at my own shadow. Waiting for the person I was waiting for to come. I asked Adam to meet me here. Because I don't want to be in the apartment. Although Adam had rejected it, saying that my condition was sick, it was not good if exposed to the night wind. If only he knew that it was just my excuse not to go to school.

The sky that does not show the stars tonight, though it is not cloudy. But there's only moonlight there. I heard the sound of footsteps walking, and looked over. I thought if it was Adam, it was wrong. Only a pair of young people would also sit on one of the park benches. Carrying ice cream in her hands, a little laugh that I didn't know what they were discussing. May they not laugh at me sitting alone, thinking that I am in a breakup.

Then I heard again the sound of footsteps, but this time I did not turn my head. I just looked down, I was afraid that I thought again and it wasn't Adam. It is better to wait in silence, driving away the restlessness of the night. To be invisible to anyone.

"When do you want to duck?" I was shocked to spontaneously touch my chest, jolting upon hearing Adam's voice. The blood flow was like being electrocuted, I was really shocked.

"Why did you choose this place?" I shook my head, and Adam sat beside me.

"You wanna shut up? Didn't you ask me to meet because you wanted to talk about something very important. Even until you ask to meet outside like this. You know, you're not feeling well." I'm nodding. Adam took off his jacket and put it on for me. I don't think it's cold, and it's still 9 p.m.

"Thank you." Adam nodded. "I want to ask you, you know about those street kids?" Adam did not answer. "Thank you for helping them."

"Why do you have to hide the good side of yourself?"

"Adam, I have a reason for that. Not all kindness should be told to others. And also no need to be exposed." Adam was silent again. I know he's sorting out a word to talk to me about this. If he blames me, he has no right. This is my life, and Adam has no right to rule it. What else I do is positive.

"I know Nara. But it's weighing on you. If you say this to me, Wahid or Munah. Doesn't that make it easier for you to realize your dreams? One of them built a house for them. And, you should know Nara too. Not only do they need it, they need to go to school. To make their lives better, don't keep depending on you."

I thought about that too? I want them to go to school. Ah my mind became chaotic instantly. When Adam cornered me. Everything I had designed from the beginning of my meeting with them was going well. College while working in a father's company or other company. The most important thing is to make money. So that I can send them to school. But this, there's a fetus that I carry. Even though I and bi Gina had planned something, covering up this pregnancy until my birth. But I don't know what God's plan was made for me. However, I never knew what kind of fate would come to me in a year or two.

If I can be honest. I love them so much. Than my own mother, even if I had to choose between my mother or my sisters on the street. I still choose them.

"Adam, humans have different minds."

"Then, what's your next move after this?" I looked towards Adam.

"I'll ask for your help." Adam smiled, and gently rubbed the top of my head. Then Adam pulled my body to lean on his shoulder. I feel comfortable at this moment. Unbeknownst to him, I gently stroked my stomach. You're close to your father right now, my inner self.

I saw some couples sitting not far away, they were running in disarray. Water fell from above the sky, since when did the cloud come?

"Nara, come?" I immediately stood up and ran small with my hands clasping each other. Adam drove me into the car. Her jacket she used to cover my head, and leave her own body exposed to rainwater.

"I'm sitting here, too, waiting for the rain to come home." I nodded in agreement. Right, the sky without stars ends up cloudy. I can't tell the weather apart at night. All I know, if the daylight is not hot means that it means the sky is cloudy.

"I still feel like I'm seeing the moon." I said, hugging my own body. My lips were trembling, but my clothes were not too wet either. But the cold burst into my body, piercing my thin skin. The car window was also tightly closed.

The rain came with a rush. Covering the eyes that can only see a range of a few meters. I turned towards Adam, then turned again towards the front. Some sellers seemed to push their carts. Penetrate the rush of rain without using any safety. It is amazing how people struggle to make money.

"I can't bear to see it."

"Then don't look at it." Heh, what the answer is really does not make me feel any relief. "Your heart is soft." I look at Adam now. He laughed, what's so funny?

"Nara?"

"Hem."

"Tell me just one of your childhood stories, I want to hear." None of it is interesting. Living in a luxurious house like a palace, having many servants ready to help, preparing food, helping me comb my hair. Just because they are mothers instead rely on it, negligent in taking care of children.

"You don't want to?"

"For me, my childhood and now it's nothing different. Same everything. Nothing interesting to tell. There are no good memories, only bad memories that always poison my mind."

"Didn't you have any friends as a kid?" I'm a little interested in this question from Adam. All right, I'll tell you.

"There was. But he's also gone, far away and has never met again since his family moved out of town. I don't even know what it's like."

"Why aren't you looking?" I was breathing rough.

"It doesn't matter anymore. My childhood was monotonous. Although my father and mother did not forbid me to play with anyone, but I myself am not interested in it. The whole otaku is about the quarrel between my mother and father. Their harsh words that I've always heard." Adam silent.

"Have it, I told you I'm not interested in discussing this."

"What's your little friend's name?" Adam asked me again.

"I don't know his full name, I only knew his nickname as a kid. Name's Iam. I always called him that. The bald little boy." I laughed remembering it. "I never knew when his hair would grow." Adam laughed, and now Adam and I are both nostalgic as kids. Talk about a little boy with bald hair. Maybe he who I don't know now will choke on because we're talking about.

"Hey, don't you want to go home? The rain has gone away." Adam looked outwards. So do I, it's been very quiet. Although it's still on the highway. The riders passing by were not many either. It was much different from the first time I came.

"Alright, then I'll go home." I nodded as Adam parted and got out of my car.

"Remember, if you want to find your little friend, I'm ready to help you find him." He said before leaving the car.

"Hey, who are you? The cops? The detective? There's just one." In the next second, I thought of Adam's words. There's a point if I find out about that kid. I also want to see her now, has her hair grown? I can also ask you this question with my father. Wasn't the father a close friend of the boy's father. All right, if there's free time I'll take you to meet and ask you this. And hopefully, I still want to give that information to me.

Seriate..