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"NARA!!!!!! WAKEUP!!!" I was shocked to hear the sound of Maemunah sound like a trumpet in my ear. I hit him in the face with a pillow. "You forgot? Shouldn't we go to the salon today? What time is it?" I looked towards the wall clock.

"Geez, why are you waking me up now?" I protested and ran straight to the bathroom.

"A thousand times I woke you." Grunts again.

"Hey, I'll borrow your clothes! You guys, I didn't bring it." He's still yelling there.

"Geez, why don't you just put on your new clothes!" My face is full of soap, where I might come out again.

"Eh good! That's to go to the party! What kind of party is your mother having!"

"Get it in the closet. Choose what you like." I screamed again, we were both like kids screaming at each other. Uh if only I lived in a rusun house. Neighbors will be disturbed.

Today, I'm not just accompanying Munah to the salon. But I also want a haircut. Turn it short, yes if people say shit. I don't know why I feel so excited. Is this because you're my son? I stroked my flat stomach.

When I came out of the bathroom, Munah was sitting holding a small piece of paper. I walked closer, it was not paper. That was my photo as a kid. Where'd he get it?

"Why did you find this?" I immediately took it.

"It's like I've seen that picture, but where is it?" He's thinking.

"Don't think of anything unimportant. You better take a shower now, we'll leave right after this.

"Yes-yes." He got up from his seat, then stopped stepping and turned towards me. "Nara, bi Gina didn't come?" I nodded while combing my hair.

"If it's a holiday, bi Gina comes if I ask for it. Her husband is still sick." She nodded and went into the bathroom.

***

Finally finished with the business to the salon, I was also more fresh after getting a gentle massage. My hair is as I wanted. Although Munah had banned me, with a pity excuse if you have to cut my hair. Here, there. He just doesn't know how I feel right now.

"Nara, why did you say you didn't want a massage on your back? You're like a pregnant man. I even vomited again."

"Huh? His name also gets in the wind." Why can you say that?

When I got home, the gate opened. Without much question, because this is my home. Me and Munah went straight down. Looking around the house, quiet. Did they all leave? But why did you ask me to come?

"Is mom home, sir?" I asked one of the gardeners at my mother's house, and I knew him too. He has worked here for a long time.

"The lady's out, maybe she'll be home soon." Me and Munah looked at each other. Why invite me here! Honestly, I'm even happy that I and Munah can go straight home. Spend one day in the apartment.

"Oh then, I'm going home sir. Please tell mom I've come here."

"Miss?" His face was like a glare as I looked at him, I stopped stepping.

"Why sir?"

"Why not just stay here?" Deg. I smiled, even though my heart was filled. They're all good to me, the housemaid and everything, they're good. I miss Asih as well. But unfortunately I can't stay here just because of them, right?

"Sir, sorry. I can't." I say goodbye and pull Munah's arm, walking in a hurry to get into the car. Before mom comes back home and keeps me here.

"Didn't you tell your mother you were coming here?" I shook my head slowly.

"I told you I was coming here. The basis of my presence is nothing special. So yes it is." Munah let out a heavy sigh, this time he did not protest. Maybe he thinks this is true.

"We're going back to the apartment, right?" Munah nodded in agreement. I know, so that Munah does not get bored I will buy food before going home to the apartment.

"That's enough?" Munah. Then take a plastic bag containing food.

"It's too much too. Maybe one month I stay with you, I can be fat." He said and left me first in the car.

"Munah, you're the one who's driving." He glanced at me sharply. "You don't see how tired pregnant women are?" Ha's? Why can I talk like that? Oh my God, how.

"Haha, that's funny your reason. Just because I thought you were pregnant and then you brought it up is the reason!" Eh he just thought this was a joke thank God. Almost my heart jumped from its place, when Munah asked this question.

"Why are you sitting in the back?" I just smiled, then laid my body in the back seat. Bend both feet and play the phone. I was stunned when I saw so many notifications on my phone.

"Nara, do you really not want to take part in the poetry contest at the art show tomorrow?"

Ha's? Damn, group chat why even so much talk about me? I sent Munah's picture last night.

"Nara!!!" Munah yelled, his bad voice almost broke my eardrum!

"What the hell?"

"You're deaf! I asked you not to answer?"

"You've focused on driving."

Ting.

Adam's?

"He did not want to know love, but he finally did." Whatdoes thatmean? I reopened my group chat message. Goddamnit! Munna!! He secretly took a picture of me exchanging mobile numbers.

"Mune it?" I called out to him very gently while clenching my teeth.

"What?"

"Why did you secretly take my photo last night? And why did you send in our group!" If he hadn't been driving, I'd have made sure I strangled him.

"Hehe." He laughed without feeling guilty and guilty.

"It was Nara, the man was very handsome. I deliberately pretended not to know, and asked you. Turns out you didn't even admit to exchanging phone numbers."

"No, I didn't exchange phone numbers, only he asked for my number."

"Well, if he calls you, don't forget to tell me." Cih, you kepo???

Before I knew Adam, he hadn't been in our school. I have also met men and exchanged phone numbers. It doesn't matter to me if it's just friends. But in fact I was just friends, but Wahid and Munah always mocked me, making me even more lazy and prefer to block the number, so that I can no longer contact me.

"Nara, Cie's finally gonna have a boyfriend." Those words ring out, I even get goosebumps if I remember them. A boyfriend? No, I'm scared. And it looks like I'm going to do the same thing to the guy last night who asked for my number. If they keep mocking me. In fact, I didn't think about it at all. Still have to take care of it later when he's born into the world. I stroked my stomach with a smile.

"Hey, are you really pregnant? We've arrived, but why are you so cool about stroking your stomach?" I woke up, looking around. It's right it's in my apartment.

"Why didn't you say it!" I opened the door and went down. Ask Munah to park the car, and I walk first to the elevator that will take me to the floor where my apartment is.

"Lately you've been really weird." I pretended not to listen and walked straight.

When I got to the apartment, I was surprised that Adam was standing at the door of the apartment. What's he want? Why don't you call me first?

"Adam?" Adam looked.

"Don't you say Munah's staying here? Why is there no one."

"You just don't want to call me first." I'll open the door immediately. "So we went out, went to Mom's. Just because mom's not around, so come back."

"Why not wait until your mom gets home?"

"For what? Even if you wait, don't you have to wait here?" I sat on the couch, left the apartment door unlocked any minute and Munah would come in.

"Yes, anyway."

"Wahid why not come?"

"It will soon follow." I shut up, and looked towards the open door.

"Adam, are you here? Isn't Elena's birthday today?" I looked at Adam. Whatdoes thatmean? Adam's face was also very uninspired. It looks like it's sick.

"That's why I need your help." Heh, thank goodness. I think he broke up. "I want you to help me come up with a surprise."

"Surprise?" Adam nodded. Munah was already smiling meaningfully, he must have been thinking about things we were not thinking about at the moment.

"Nara, you're good at poetry, right? Do a love poem for me, right? You want to, right?"

"meaning? You want to surprise me with poetry?"

"No, no. It means to be more touching, when we come later do not need to sing a birthday song. But just use poetry."

"It's interesting." Answer Munah. I'm still quiet.

"Wahid has also helped, he's the one who booked the cafe for the meeting place with Elena later." I nodded and went into the room. Take a cigarette, take a sip. Then come out with a piece of paper and a pen. They're staring.

"What?"

"Ah no." Adam and Munah looked at each other. An idea I poured. Slowly write every verse, ah why am I good at making this poem, damn it! I myself know nothing about love. Throughout the writing of the sweet words my heart continued to grumble. So it's not good that I'm in Elena's position right now. Will I feel very happy? I've never felt it before.

"He does not know love, he does not know love! Why do you make this poem? Haha." Munah to hold his stomach, may feel cramping because it continues to laugh.

"I'm the same, just like you are Munah." Adam scratched his head.

"Is this the result of last night's meeting?"

"The meeting last night? The guy in the picture, right?" Munah nodded, they gossiped not behind but directly blatantly in front of his person.

"But I agree anyway, he's handsome. It is similar to the Korean Oppa. At first glance, his style is the same as yours, Dam."

"really?" Munah.

"I saw it when I chose clothes. It turns out that he's even acquainted with Kinara."

Adam smiled, then looked at me.

"Is he better looking than me?" Ask Munah or me? Why did Adam look at me without blinking, while smiling anyway.

"I think he's more handsome that guy." Munah said very honestly when viewed from the way he spoke.

"This is why anyway? It was just a short meeting. Now, what am I asking so or not to surprise Elena?"

"Heh yes-iya. So when's Dam going?"

"So soon, wait for Wahid to come." Me and Munah nodded.

Circumstances are silent. Until Munah says he's going to the bathroom. I was silent and Adam was silent too, just playing the phone. I remember that guy last night, why didn't he call me? Why did he ask for my mobile number? Bizarrely.

"You're waiting for that guy to call you? Haha." Adam laughed again.

"Yes." Yeah." He stopped laughing, his face instantly stiffened.

"You better be ready now. So Wahid till we go right away."

"Pregnant for what? I'm wearing clothes too, right?" Adam remained silent.

"Well phone call, just a second." I nodded, which made me weird. Why does every person who gets the phone call have to excuse me? Gotta say it first. Yeah, should just lift it up.

"The answer is already outside. We'll just go." It just so happened that Munah had also come out of the bathroom.

"You saw my appearance, not yet." When walking out, Munah can ask me for an opinion.

"What the hell is it! Who wants to surprise Adam."

"Yes I know, but it must be more beautiful we dong! Are we the upperclassmen." Heh, I exhaled. I could think that far. "After all, who knows I met a handsome guy there. It'll be like you're being asked for a phone number." I nodded and accelerated my pace. Leaving the city and walking beside Adam.

***

The atmosphere is nice, the cafe but it looks beautiful. Cafe located on the edge of the lake. Me and them could see clearly that Elena was sitting alone, at the place Adam had ordered. Munah began to design, set in such a way how the story will go. As for me, I only served as a bodyguard. He taught Adam how to read his poems correctly. I don't think a married person would get this serepot if he gave a surprise to his partner. Why are even young people like us who are too excited huh?

"You read it when you sit down. Otherwise, you're not the only one who's embarrassed. But we all." I laughed at Wahid's words. True, the cafe is also crowded. Even though the place Adam ordered has been made sure it is empty of other visitors.

"Come on." Adam walked first, trying to memorize the poem out of his head. Me and Munah walked in the back. Bring a gift that I don't know what it is. That was Wahid who bought it. And Adam, he's bringing birthday cake that's been specially ordered at the bakery. And what I heard, the cake was ordered from Elena's own parents' bakery.

"Hey, happy birthday." We applauded, and then we spoke after Adam. Elena stood up straight away, staring at our faces one by one. His eyes began to run down the river, I could see that. Then Elena smiled and hugged Adam. I immediately threw out a glance, why do I feel pain? Envied? Or what! Ah no, I can't.

Adam could not return Elena's embrace, as she was carrying cake in her hand. I smiled as Elena looked at me.

"Sir Nara, thank you." I returned his embrace. And turn towards Munah, the last Wahid.

"Oh no." Adam pulled her not to cuddle with Wahid.

"Geez, everybody's hugged Dam, too." I was more focused on seeing the scenery around the lake. Instead of having to watch the love story of the father of my son. Crazy huh, my skit seems really good. Can I ask for an award? I don't even want to ruin their happiness. Heh, making peace with the situation is indeed very not easy. Always use feelings. It's not about my feelings for Adam. But, every time I knit a good relationship with Adam, I'm getting messed up by myself. Pretending to smile, pretending to know nothing. Forgetting what happened that night, it actually really tortured me.

"Cut the cake." They are all still selfie. Munah with Wahid, and Adam with Elena. I moved from where I stood. Leaning my body on one of the bars of the cafe. Seeing the green lake, I looked down. Directed my eyes to the little fish. I'm more comfortable seeing them. For some reason, I prefer things that not many people know or like. I also prefer to do things no one else has tried. Do I have any specialties? Like some people who praise me?

I'm just a stupid woman who can't keep my chastity.

"Who is this?" I saw a new number coming in, just sending a message with a smile sign.

"Who?" I repay.

"Satria." Same, still with ending smile smile.

"Oh yes."

And, I myself do not feel lonely among all of them. I replied to Satria. Smile to myself, but I never use my feelings. Just a friend, yes I'm on that behalf.

"Nara, don't you want to order food?" I was shocked when Munah patted me on the shoulder.

"Eh, don't I need to be full." Munah looked at me from head to toe.

"You're chatting with that guy, right?" I smiled, then accidentally hit Munah's shoulder. I laughed in satisfaction as he began to curse in annoyance.

"Where's Nara going?" Wahid and Adam also looked at me.

"You go to the bathroom, just a minute. You guys eat first."

"To the bathroom? How do you bring a bag?" I still hear that, but I keep going. I was right to go to the bathroom. But to clean my face. And, lipstick and powder in the bag, there's no way I'm staying.

When I get to the bathroom, it's time I bring out what I can't get out in front of people. Tears, yes I cried without a sound, therefore I have to bring foundation here, so it can cover my shabby face. I squeezed my own stomach. Hit him very hard. Between conscious or not, but for a few days I did not hear the advice of bi Gina even more demons approached. Always haunting me, blaming everything on the fetus I was carrying. Oh, my God, I don't know what to do. I can't imagine, if one day my son asked his father. Am I being selfish? Thinking of myself not wanting to get married?

I was in the bathroom for half an hour. During that time, I took the time to cry. This time, and so on I could not cry in front of Munah or Wahid. They will ask later. What problems I am facing. I washed my face, after feeling satisfied and relieved. Then smear the foundation. I forgot the lipstick. Done, I went straight out of the bathroom.

"Mother?" Cellphone's ringing. I again expressed my intention to go out. Closing back, and sitting on the wall in closed.

"Yes Ma'am?" My voice was a bit stingy, probably because there was still a clear liquid that clogged my nose after crying.

"Nara, did you come here? I'm sorry, I thought you didn't come because there was no news. So mom's gone."

"Yes. Where did mom go?"

"Mother and om Asraf went to the beach, it was also because of Laras who asked. And mom wants to." Deg. Why does it hurt? Mom's not showing off her familiarity to Laras, is she?

"I want Mom too." I spoke softly and softly, I'm sure you didn't hear.

"Nara?"

"Yes, Mom."

"Tomorrow if you come here, I'll pick you up at school. All of you also pick up Laras."

"Subject mom. Yes, I closed, Mom." Hiks, dad??? Will you also show off if you have children from Aunt Intan later? Then what am I? Hixes..

Breathe in, throw out slowly. I did it up to three times. Then get ready to go back to the place where my friends gathered.

"Nara, did you go to the bathroom in your house?" Munah immediately judged me as soon as I came, but I also had no time to sit down. I smiled, and stroked his arm. I know, then Munah would stop babbling.

"Eat. You haven't eaten, have you?" Adam thrust the fried rice at me. I looked at him, then looked at the plate.

"But I'm full. You guys just eat."

"Whoof? You haven't eaten Nara!!" Heh, Munah. She's more chatty than a mother.

"Do I need a bribe?" Adam!!! why are you talking so casually in front of Elena??

"It's okay brother, as long as brother wants to eat." He knew I was glancing at him.

"Here, aak." Everyone looked at me and laughed, crazy. All my friends are crazy.

"No, I eat." I give up, what the fuck. Where might I want to, even though Adam has done it often. Tear the current situation differently. Elena's here.

One mouthful goes into the mouth. I chew. Two mouthfuls, and my stomach's nauseous. I feel very eneg. Wanting to vomit, I held it in my mouth. Stop chewing.

"You why?" Wahid asked. I just shook my head. But this time I couldn't stand it. I stood up and spewed his food into the lake.

I hope they never suspect me.

11

Otherwise they would feel disgusted.

"You why? Nara?" Huek, nothing's coming out. But my stomach is still nauseous. I know, these must be the cravings symptoms of a pregnant person. I didn't mind Adam asking me questions. He stood beside me and massaged my neck. I grabbed the bag and left in front of them. A little run to the car. Already, I can't stand it if it continues like this.

Seriate..