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Can't resist Satria

I'm like a dazed person now, I don't know where I came from. Sitting with a strange family, because I only met them once. And luckily I didn't go here by myself, I was accompanied by Munah. Ever since she found out that I was pregnant, Munah was more attentive to me. Long before I even experienced this.

"Are you healthy?"

"Healthy sir."

"I deliberately asked you to come here, thank you Munah for delivering my message." Munah. "Wait, I'll call my wife and my son." I smiled in response to his words. Ah he's my teacher, the teacher he said he had a scandal with me. I didn't know how that guy who was said to be Elena's uncle could take all my photos secretly, without me knowing.

"Where is Kinara?" A beautiful woman, just her appearance is simple. If seen, surely he is also the same age as mother. I smiled and nodded, then said that I was the one named Kinara. Without further ado, he sat down next to me. I rubbed my arms, and then her eyes glazed over.

"You're a good boy. You just helped my husband give me a birthday surprise. But why would anyone spread a no-no rumor about you."

"It's all God's fate aunty." This time he embraced me, a warm smile coming out of his lips. So too with Effendi.

"This is my son." She embraces a beautiful woman, I know it must be her son who can't see. Not like me and Munah. She is beautiful, just like her mother. Smile at me, even if the direction is not on me. I can understand that.

"Kinara, did your father know about this?" I nodded again.

"Dad knows. I also know who did it, sir. But I asked you not to sue."

"Why? Doesn't that include defamation, by slandering someone?"

"No sir. Let God rebuke him."

Mr. Effendi and his wife smiled at me. Me and Munah looked at each other. How long am I gonna sit here? I've been feeling pretty claustrophobic.

"The next few days are your graduation exams."

Time is too fast, not felt. And I hope that when that day comes I can still see Adam. To this day, Adam has not contacted me. He's avoiding me, is it because I already know about his illness? And to think that I would also stay away from her after knowing her illness? I'm not that kind of person!

"Have you learned anything about the exam?"

"Already sir, Munah helped me with that." I glanced again at Munah, come on take me home or at least give me a code. I'm not at home.

"Dad, is sister Kinara pretty?" I almost laughed when I heard it. He wasn't wrong to ask that, not at all. I know, he also wanted to see firsthand. Not only see my face, but also want to see the beautiful world, right?

"How do you think?"

"Beautiful, I can guess from her voice."

A crisp laugh just came out of my mouth, how could anyone guess what it looks like just by hearing his voice. Ah the son of Mr. Effendi turned out to be really beautiful, and not just beautiful. He is also sweet when he laughs. Beautiful so natural, if laughing will look cakil teeth.

"If I how?" Munah signed up, eh does he think Mr. Effendi's son is a psychic?

"Hem, if brother is also beautiful. But brother's a nag."

"Ahhhhhhhhhh why is he right?" What was predicted was even protest, even struggling with me again. Munah, do you not realize that carrying my own body is already heavy.

"Sister, can you make me a poem?" Deg. How does he read? "Hehe, sorry brother. But I also want you to read it for me."

All right, this is a request. He who has never seen the world, if only one wish is obeyed is not there a happy created even though only able to hear?

"You now?" I could think of it so quickly.

"If you don't mind." I nodded, Mr. Effendi's wife immediately prepared a paper and pen for me. Deliberately left us here, just three. Munah moved to sit next to Mr. Effendi's son. I started to focus on the paper, only my mind wasn't here. I had to create a poem that could make him hear that as motivation.

Munah asked him to speak, asking a few questions. And I, still think. Even though this time is still filled with longing with Adam.

I spent a few minutes, just getting four lines. I held my head, feeling dizzy.

"My son, help me think." I spoke slowly while stroking my stomach.

"Nara, is it over?"

"Eh yet. Just wait a minute."

"Hope"

Mumbled in prayer..

Grateful for everything..

Never saw the beautiful sky..

Never seen the beautiful world..

Grass, I want to touch you..

Feel the tickle on the finger..

The wind blows on my face..

Show how the world is..

Feeling a warm embrace..

Feel the soft touch..

Touch leads where I want to go..

The feeling I have without being able to see..

My pulse is a sign that I am still alive..

Struggling to see the world and talk to the wind..

Lord.. Can you show me just one of your beautiful creations..

Holding the hands of those who always touch me..

When I feel the darkness..

I read it with a quivering tone, holding back tears. Although the poem I made is not too touching for anyone who does not know for whom I wrote this poem. But I know, if the guy in the poem I'm making right now, he's dying to see the world. Watching the sun sink, seeing the moon decorate the night beautifully. And the stars, which always accompany when the night sky is bright.

The paper I handed over to his son, Mr. Effendi, I saw that he had shed tears. God, though he did not see, but he could hear. She can cry too.

"Sister, thank you." His words were sincere, he extended his hand asking to be hugged. With pleasure, I gave up my body. I pat her shoulder warm.

"Sister, have you ever been to a poetry race? All your works really touch me."

"She was just doing art at school a lot, and she always won." Proudly showing off the achievements I have.

"really? Well, hopefully in the future brother becomes a successful person huh?" I smiled, didn't she know that somehow my future was now.

As footsteps approached, we turned our heads. Both of his parents came clapping and smiling happily.

"What a great poem you've made."

"No aunt, it's just a normal thought. I poured it through paper and pen."

"You're too low." He stroked the top of my head. Why do I always get love from other people's mothers? Why isn't my mom like this? God, forgive me for protesting so much with what I have.

Me and Munah can't just go home. Refusing the offer to eat together is difficult, what else is available food at the table. And plates for me too Munah. How can we refuse it? These two old men would look disappointed if we just left, without tasting the cooked dishes.

After eating, Munah and I just decided to go home. This time they did not stop him anymore. A thousand thanks I heard for a few minutes in this house. Ah although I exaggerated by saying a thousand times. And the last thing I heard was an apology from Mr. Effendi's wife.

"If you hadn't made a poem as a birthday present, you would still be able to go to school now."

"No aunt, never mind." I smiled again. They drove me and Munah out of the house. Stand in his house waving when the car has moved forward.

"Nara, your phone's ringing." Right, I didn't realize it. "Thank you who knows it's important."

"I miss Adam."

"Yes I know, pick up who knows it's Adam." Ah yes Munah is right. I pulled my phone out of my sling bag. I looked at the phone screen, then turned towards Munah.

"My father." I slide the screen with one hand, then stick my gear.

"Yes dad?"

"To your mother's house now."

"What's wrong, huh?"

"Come by. Listen to my father's words this time. He needs you right now."

"All right." I turned towards Munah after hanging up the phone call.

One more thing, a problem that never runs out. Make peace with dad why not difficult, but with mom. I was too sick to imagine it. Honestly, I had to do this, Dad ordered me to come to Mom's house. I had to do it!

"Munah, if you want to go home I'll take you."

"No, where are you going?"

"I'm going to mom's house."

"I'm coming along." I nodded, and actually I really wish Munah would come with me.

"Your father asked?"

"Yes, I'm just obeying her will."

The last day when I met my mother, I left her while she was still lying weakly on the hospital banker. That same day, I cursed him. Today, I came again. I don't know what to behave later. But, if he kicked me out I'd go home and never see him again in my life.

"Here you go, let's go down. What are you thinking now?" I glanced at Munah. This is my home too, right? But I'm a stranger to this house. Ah why the hell! Not to mention having to meet my step-sister.

"We'll just go home, okay?" Munah immediately held both my hands.

"You're crazy! Remember her your mother. It's time you asked me what the trouble with your mom and dad was. Maybe it's Nara's time. You're an adult too, and won't you soon be a mother too?" Deg.

"All right."

I went inside, asked the guard or the waiter I met. But their answers were all the same, mom hasn't been out of the room since last night. The door was also locked, which meant that the mother also did not eat anything. But the one that stuck my mind, where were the son and the husband? They're not visible here. And if mom had been in the room since last night. Doesn't that mean you're alone?

"Wait, where are Asraf and Laras?" The two servants looked at each other. Her face made me guess that something was going on. Is this why you asked me to come? Ah basic, means I'm only needed when he's alone.

"Mune it?"

"No, I'll just wait here. You're the one who went upstairs." I'm nodding. Stepping up the stairs to my mother's room.

Geck.. Geck.. I started knocking on the door.

"I'm coming!" There is no sound inside. At first I was ordinary. Not having any worries. But after a few minutes I stood up and knocked, still no answer.

The feeling is getting worse, which I'm really worried about right now.

"Mother open! I'm coming." If I wasn't pregnant, I'd break the door.

"Munah, please call some house guards, now." I shouted from above, and Munah who heard also immediately immediately stood up. He walked outwards. I walked around uneasily. Biting one of my fingers. If mom killed herself? Ah maybe he did that! What exactly is going on now?

Daddy's! I need to call my dad!

"Ah shit, why not be active anyway!"

"Nara?" Finally, Munah came to bring three guards of the mother's house.

"Please, just break down the door I'm afraid something's happening to mom inside."

"Well miss." Munah pulled my hand a little away from my mother's bedroom door. Those who are ready are already making a fuss.

"One, two." Simultaneously shouted and broke down the door. No, the door hasn't been opened yet.

"Try again." And bruk, the door's open. Munah held my hand back so as not to run.

"Remember you're not alone." I understand what that means, just walk as many children as I have in my womb. I looked towards the bed. There was no one there, even the blankets were still neatly arranged.

"Nara, the bathroom." Uh yeah, there's the sound of a live water tap. I switched to the bathroom. I turned my head and the three guards were still faithfully waiting at the door of the room.

"Mother!" I called many times, but there was no word. My hand was already holding the door handle, and luckily it wasn't locked.

What am I looking at now?

"Mother?" I screamed, looking at the mother lying in her full clothes, but all wet because the water was not turned off. Again the Munah forbade me to act.

"Please." Munah shouted, for the guard to come. Really, my body is squeezing now. I don't know why I'm so scared now? I'm afraid I'll lose my mother.

***

I was sitting on a soft chair next to the bed. I'm falling asleep here. I'm gnawing, looking around, I'm in a hospital room right now. I saw a pale face sleeping.

"Mother." I called him out loud.

"Nadzara?" What I thought was mom calling me, it was Munah sitting on the sofa in the room.

"You tired? You even fell asleep?" I'm nodding. Turns out Munah is still loyal here.

"Munah, you go home. You also have to rest, don't you go to school tomorrow? It's been enough to trouble you today." He nodded and smiled.

"You're so worried about your mother?" I looked again at my mother's pale face. Some hoses are attached and needles are in the mother's body. Yeah, I'm worried about him.

"So while you were sleeping, your father called. So I picked it up."

"Did you tell my father?" Munah.

"Your father will come here." Deg. Daddy coming? Is he worried too? Then what if Auntie Intan knows? No, you shouldn't have come here, isn't it enough that I'm here. If you knew, she would be angry too.

"Your father's intentions are good, he just wants to see." I fell silent, once again I thought of Aunt Intan.

"Ta-"

"Nara?" Me and Munah turned to the door. The one we were talking about had already come, standing by the door gallantly. Two guards came with him. I was still dumbfounded, seeing father walking closer. And leave the door of the room closed by itself.

"Dad?" Like not feeling awkward at all, I touched my mother's hand and gently rubbed the top of her head. No, I really didn't see it wrong.

"Dad, what about Auntie Diamond?" Dad sighed heavily, putting both his hands back in his pants pocket.

"Don't let her know, and never tell her anything about your mother's current state?"

"Then you mean you came here?" I walked and sat on the sofa.

"Kinara, I'm home. I'll come back later, so you won't be lonely. You wait here, fuck your mother. He needs you now." Munah whispered softly, she was smart to deliberately give time for me and my father to talk more seriously without anyone else.

"Om I'm going home." I nodded, and I don't know what else my father would do. He chased Munah to the door.

"That's a lot, thanks." Ah I know, I must have given him some pocket money. At a time like that father still had time to remember Munah. Oh my God, always deliver my father's sustenance.

"Kinara, tell dad exactly what happened?" I just shook my head, I don't know. All I know is that my mother is lying unconscious.

"What is the explanation of the doctor?"

"The doctor hasn't said anything." Dad rubbed his face rough. What exactly are you thinking about right now? Does he still have a taste for mom? So why should they get divorced?

"If your mother is conscious, then ask what you've been wanting to know all along. I have to go back to the office now, there's work still waiting for me." Dad stroked the top of my head, I nodded.

"Here go, hug me." I hugged her, dad patted my shoulder gently.

"Hopefully what happened to your mother first, will never happen to you."

"meaning?" Dad just left, without first giving me an explanation. I stared at him until the door closed. I walked closer to where Mom was lying at the moment. I hear the heart's detection device keep ringing, a sign that mom's still alive.

"Hallo bi?" I received a call from bi Gina.

"Nara, where are you? Why haven't you gone back to the apartment?"

"Is aunt still there?"

"No, aunt is just delivering something." Something's! What's something?

I also immediately told where I am now, bi Gina also expressed her condolences for the incident that happened to mother. Praying well for the recovery of the mother. The call is over and I haven't had time to ask what bi Gina bought for me.

When the doctor came back, I was asked to leave the room. And sit in the waiting chair outside the room. Sitting alone, it feels very uncomfortable to be around the hospital. Places where many germs breed.

"Nadzara?" I looked up, saw who came to greet me.

"Satria's sister?" I looked around. There's no one I know, why is he here? Does she also know my mother is sick and intends to visit, is not possible right? Ah is this just a coincidence?

"I'm just dropping off my sick brother." He was sitting next to me. Without asking, he also answered what was on my mind.

"You how are you?"

"I'm good."

"Who's sick?" He pointed to the door of the room.

"My mother."

Silent again. I told him many times not to rebuke me. Ah but it seems like this Satria is a very stubborn type of person.

"Nadzara?" I glanced at him. "Come with me again." Deg. I've been lazy to think of anything else, Adam, mom, I'm pregnant. That alone has made the memory in my brain full.

"At least be friends with people who know how you are doing now."

"Sister."

"Yes I understand, your answer will definitely remain the same. But that kiss, just a sign of my love for you. Just Kinara's friend."

"Why brother? Didn't you say yourself, that your girlfriends are also many? Why only lose one do you feel lost? And did you do it with all your girlfriends? Kiss them without asking permission?" My breath started going up and down uncontrollably, I was emotional.

"No, I told you you're different from them." What else does that mean? "Didn't you remember what I said back then? I told you you were different."

I avoided meeting him a few times. And a few times I made it clear to her, I didn't want to be friends anymore. But, God's destiny always brought me to him, in certain places. And always meet when I'm feeling upset.

"I'm worried about my mommy sister."

"That's natural, because you love her." Really am! I love mom?

"Is he healthy?"

"Him? Who?" Satria's eyes were on my stomach. I hold it straight with one hand.

"Eh he's healthy." Get another chance. I'm afraid if someone suddenly sees me.

"When he's born, let him call me father."

"Huh?"

"Friend only, so let him call me Dad." Why am I feeling happy? If my son is born, there can be called a father.

"Jua brother. Her name is Juanda."

"Name's good." Sweet smile. Why the hell, a second can change his mind about interpreting someone.

I saw the doctor who had left the room immediately stood up, I wanted to ask how the condition of the mother.

"Kinara, so how?"

"Yes, brother, I accept you again to be my friend." Satria besorak without a sound. Clenched his hand and said yes. Successfully made me let out a crisp laughter on the sidelines of the mind that was not okay.

"Doctor, how's mom doing?"

"Your mother is awake. You can see it for yourself. So far, things have improved. He was just dehydrated because nothing was consumed for two days."

Two days?? Goddamnit! I really don't get any attention at home.

"Okay, doctor, thank you." When I looked, Satria was gone. He may have returned to the room where his brother was treated. And stupidly I forgot to ask where his brother's room is, if only I knew. I want to see him too.

Seriate..