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I'm pregnant!

One month has passed, I already have a maid in the apartment. And my eating hours are much more regular. Every morning breakfast is available for me, every school has food. And, before I go home, the one I call auntie will go back to cooking for my dinner.

He's bi Gina. A middle-aged woman whom I had seen all this time had a tender and loving heart. I don't even want to be called Miss, I'm asking her to just call me by name. I'm Kinara! Bi Gina had no children, but she had to take care of her husband who was sick because of the stroke. And can only sit in a wheelchair. Before that, her husband was a driver. His name is Suryo. That's what bi Gina mentioned to me.

Bi Gina's life changes after her husband has to stop working as a private driver when his master gets into an accident and dies. That was about two years ago. And before long, her husband fell in the bathroom. And suffered a stroke. Paralysis in his leg. Making bi Gina have to work, for her daily needs and also therapy for her husband. Bi Gina was eager for her husband's recovery.

"Auntie loves her so much?" Bi Gina nodded.

He came back to tell me about his only child, who he said died at the age of 2. Because of having seizures during high heat. Since then, God no longer gave the couple the gift of a child.

"Well, we really hope we can hold the child." Say it with teary eyes. Maybe if remembering events decades ago makes him always sad. I tried to cheer him up by saying I could consider me a child from now on. That way, I can also get love from a mother. Even if it wasn't my real mother.

"When, if the family of the employer's husband's aunt knows aunty sure they also want to help. They're a good family. It's just, aunt's husband never wanted to tell me where the address is now and also the name." Given the cost of each therapy is great, bi Gina sometimes willing to eat only with eggs ceplok. Most importantly the recovery of her husband.

"Didn't your aunt know how that guy was? You mean aunt's ex-employer's husband?" Bi Gina shook her head.

Bi Gina told me, she said her husband never allowed bi Gina to come to his employer's house, even though they had asked bi Gina's husband to introduce her.

"At that time, the aunt's husband was not allowed to drive her out of town while taking care of work. It was also an order, although at the beginning of time the husband of aunty felt bad because it was his job. But after a few days later. Aunty's husband heard the news that he had an accident and died on the spot. Aunt is sorry, but she is also grateful. Because you can't imagine if your aunt's husband delivered that time. It could be, aunt's husband will also die in the accident."

But the strange thing is, after hearing all the stories about bi Gina and her family. There's one that I hear it's like an awkwardness. Bi Gina said, if you do not tell anyone about the sad news of death. And actually bi Gina's husband was not fired, just resigned because their family moved out of town. So, it's like there's a problem of its own.

"Bunty will not tell anyone. Aunts can only know their kindness through the stories of aunt husbands. They often give extra money or groceries to the aunt's family. Therefore, the aunt thought that if the aunt asked for help they could. At least aunts can work at their homes instead."

I gently stroked bi Gina's wet hands after washing the dishes.

"Bi, there's no need to think about that anymore. My aunt works here too. So if you need money or something in the form of help. Aunty can ask me."

"Thank you a lot of Nara." I hugged her, and then immediately left to go to school. Today there is a daily replay he said. So Munah warned me many times to keep coming to school.

***

It's been two days, every time I come to school. There's always chocolate in my desk drawer. I grabbed it on the third day, before putting my bag inside. It's true, there's chocolate. Who gave it? If not accidentally where possible up to three days in a row. I spread my eyes around the class. Everyone is busy talking and there are also those who are writing, I am sure it must be a cheat of tasks that they have not been able to do.

"Hey!" Munah came and patted me on the shoulder. I'll ask him. Because yesterday he said maybe it's just people who forget. Deliberately put it down and forget to take it back.

"You see." I shook the chocolate right in front of his face. Munah was also astonished, now that he was conscious. Someone must have deliberately put this on my desk.

"Hey all! Please pay attention." Everyone looked at me and Munah. Look, his behavior is annoying. Can't talk later.

"Who put the chocolate on Kinara's table? Or did you forget to take it after you put it here?" Silence, silence no one answered.

"Oh, it doesn't matter. I should be thankful that someone loves me. Even screaming!" Mida, she has always been jealous of me. Like always looking for trouble, but I don't care. "So someone still cares about your friend, but his parents would never give him chocolate." Further again. Brak! I stood up and kicked the table.

"Don't bring the old man!" I pushed Munah aside and walked towards Mida's desk. He even smiled mocking to make me emotional, why should bring the parents.

If all this time I've been patient to hear him say this it's about me. But now he dared to say it blatantly and embarrassed me.

"What?" He stood up and pushed me like a challenge.

"Hey, that's it." Munah pulled me, but I threw Munah's hand. I pushed Mida back until she sat down. Don't think I don't dare to fight back and just shut up when self-esteem has been trampled on like this.

A fight ensued, when Mida started pulling my hair. His words were also clearly heard in my ears. Said I was a bastard. Whatdoes thatmean?

I got more emotional, I slapped her face. He paused for a moment, holding his hot cheek in a slap. Then go forward and support my stomach until I fall down. It hurts, I'm holding my stomach, it really hurts.

"Nara?" He screamed in panic and helped me stand up.

"What the fuck!!" Wahid went in with Adam. They immediately pushed Mida and told me to sit back.

"Well, what's the matter?" He pointed towards Mida.

"He supported Kinara. And he started."

"You!" Adam pointed at Mida whose current appearance was already strained. I groaned with the pain, and Adam asked to take me to the UKS immediately.

I lay down, and still moaning in pain. One of the teachers came in and asked me how it happened. I told him from the beginning, there was not a word I added, and I admitted that I slapped him.

"Nara, you better go home and rest at home. I suggest you go to the doctor too, afraid that there's nothing." I nodded weakly. Then Munah also left me to take the bag that was still left in the classroom.

Munah helped me walk to the car park. He was very worried about my situation.

"Can you get home with the car?" I'm nodding.

"It could be slow." Munah waited for me until I drove the car, the pain was less like at the beginning.

I stopped by the road, pulled my car over. Just to answer the phone from my mom. I didn't want my trip to be interrupted by driving while taking a call. I forgot to bring the earphones.

"Hallo?" My voice is still soft, this is also the influence of my stomach that hurts.

"Nara, I have good news." I'm ready to hear it. "Mother's pregnant Nara." He even shouted in excitement. "You're gonna have Nara's sister. I'm pregnant." He repeated his words again.

"Congratulations, ma'am." I hung up right away. I kept quiet for a while, not intending to drive my car. Then I went back to the date. God, I should have gotten my period 5 days ago. But why not yet? My mother's words reminded me. I drove out the car and searched the nearest pharmacy. Drive the car very slowly. Until I saw there was a small board that said pharmacy. I immediately turned. Get down and walk around with a slight bow, so that the pain in my stomach is not like trying to kill me.

"Sak testpack any brand, two yes." The seller hasn't moved, he's looking at me from head to toe.

I smiled and answered. "For my mother, brother." He's nodding.

"Wait a minute." I paid without asking the price. When the seller turned back to call me, and shouted "back" I turned and smiled.

"Take a sis." I close the car door and start the engine.

I put it in the bag. I'll try it later when bi Gina comes home. Anxious, that's how I feel.

***

"Nara, why are you home? You sick?" I grimaced and held my stomach, sat on the sofa and leaned against my body.

"Bi stomach pain." Bi Gina walked straight towards the kitchen. Back with ginger wedang. It's so good to smell. Bi Gina asked me to drink it immediately.

"Why does it hurt? Is it late to eat?" I shook my head, even if I told you the truth I'm sure bi Gina was worried.

"You want a little massage aunt? You see aunt can also and know about veins, if the stomach can also." I nodded, and laid my body on the sofa. Who knows, the pain may diminish, I thought. Bi Gina started unbuttoning my school uniform, so it wouldn't be hard to massage. At first touch I felt amused, but also comfortable. I believe that bi Gina did massage.

The next second he fell silent, as he touched my stomach on the right. He looked at me and then back to button my uniform, and asked me to just rest.

"Do you want my aunt to call a doctor?" I shook my head quickly.

"No need to bi. Is this already?" Bi Gina nodded, but she kept quiet and did not speak anymore. When bi Gina went to the kitchen, I walked into the room. Then lock the door. Curiosity that could not wait for bi Gina to come home, I went into the bathroom. Bi Gina can't go into my room either.

I collected my urine, then followed the instructions on how to use the testpack. I dyed and waited a few minutes. I flicked it so that the results would quickly be seen. My eyes examined before my body finally relaxed. Looking at the results that are currently in my hands. So I not only have a sister but also a child. Oh my God, how is this? I walked around in the bathroom. Bite your fingers, then walk again. Until I heard a very loud knock on the door. Bi Gina shouted to me.

"Nara, are you okay?" I put the testpack in a uniform bag. Hurry out and act like normal.

"Yes bi? Why?" I opened the door.

"Take a change of clothes and rest Nara." I nodded and closed the door again, this time I did not lock it.

I opened the school uniform and put it down. My habit is to sleep only with hotpants and T-shirts. It's even more comfortable like this.

I squirm as my cheeks clap, stretching out the muscles of the body. Aw, I still feel pain in my stomach when I'm moving.

"Nara?" I opened my eyes and understood who was currently beside me.

"Mune it?" He nodded, I glanced towards the wall clock. It's still 01 in the afternoon. Means Munah just got home from school.

"You alone?"

"No, I'm with Adam and Wahid. They're outside chatting with bi Gina."

They also know Gina. As soon as with aunt, they even quickly familiarized. Maybe because they play here a lot. It's just that they don't know what bi Gina's background looks like. Actually this afternoon I intend to come see the street sisters. But looking at the conditions and reality that I just saw, it felt like I still wanted to be alone.

"You can walk out, right? Let me help you." I tried to get up, not because of the pain in my stomach. But it's because I just woke up, so my muscles aren't completely synchronized yet.

"Munah, I can walk by myself." I smiled, and I was worried about it. Would you do this if you knew I was sick? Ah no way. My mom asked me to go to the doctor. Eh just wanted to make peace with the circumstances but there was only the problem.

"Adam took Elena." I stopped my steps before leaving the door. Looking towards Munah, but he did not mention Elena's name. "He asked to come. Because it was a big time when you were fighting with Mida."

Mida, how is she now? Women who have no heart. I hate him so much.

I smiled at all of them sitting on the sofa. Elena sat down next to Adam, their hands also clinging to each other. Heh, I'm not jealous to see it. But what's up with the fetus in my stomach?

"Sister, is it okay?" I replied with a nod and a smile. Adam looked at me like he was feeling sorry.

Elena, she's a beautiful good girl, and also friendly. That's my opinion, besides he's smart. No wonder Adam liked him. His name is so striking at school. Her face was as cute as a child. He's still under us for a year.

"It's a drink first, tired of just coming home from school." Bi Gina carried a tray filled with fresh drinks.

"No bi, the school is tired. The tired one's aunty at work, where to bother making another drink." Wahid, it's true what he said. "But if there is a snack that is okay bi, all at serve." Munah pulled Wahid's hair. It also represents my current annoyance. I was in vain to praise him in my heart.

"Hehe, wait a minute. Aunt get it."

"Basar you Hid. Look at bi Gina so bothered!" Munah still judges Wahid.

I glanced at the two cool lovebirds talking together, whispering and occasionally smiling. Oh so beautiful the world they both seem to be. Haha, I stroked this flat stomach, lest you be born and become miserable like me. Yes, after this I have to find a way how to abort this content. I don't want to, I'm not ready. Whatever the story is, I'm not ready to be a mother. I don't want to go up the stairs.

"It's to be eaten." Said bi Gina who came with a snack, it seems like she made it herself. I'm sure, actually it's just for me. It's just the arrival of an uninvited guest. Ah, but it's okay they're good to me too.

"That's Adam's girlfriend, right?" Elena blushed in embarrassment, her face flushed red when she came face to face with Adam. Then he nodded again towards bi Gina. I'm not actually envious. It's just, maybe because I'm having this with Adam. And worse, I was pregnant.

"Have you read the flyer on the school notice board?" Adam asked, I was just eavesdropping. Really, I'm still limp. The shock that happened to me has not disappeared after seeing the testpack earlier.

"What indeed?" While chewing, open the lid of his hot mouth. I did not think to see Wahid's behavior.

"I don't know either." Answer Munah and follow Wahid eat snacks provided bi Gina.

"That's an announcement about our practice later. The theme is vacation. We're in for some group. Such as touring and uploading videos to YouTube. Well later about the assessment at Bu Rania's own value."

"It's about nature, right?" Adam nodded. I want to see him tomorrow too. Looks like it's gonna be exciting.

"About the selection of the Bu Rania group that voted or us?"

"We heard from another student. But I don't know either."

"Can I come along, brother?" It's Elena's voice. But why would I even want to vomit to hear it, as it was made up.

"Come on El. But you're just going alone with Adam." They can laugh, but I don't.

"Party tomorrow, will you?" I offered you something else, discussed another matter. They still did not answer, silent. I glanced at Elena who shook her head slowly. Ah I know what that means. He must not have given Adam permission.

"You can go with Elena, too." Eyes sparkling. This time it was Adam who nodded. Ha, it's hard to have a partner like this.

"Nara, aunty want to clean the room?" Bi Gina always asks permission first, but I don't care if bi Gina comes in. I nodded and smiled.

"I'm if tomorrow night, hem." Munah still thinks, Wahid doesn't care and just chews.

"Are you in trouble? You always do that when there's a problem. You're not too healthy, Nara." I heard Adam talking. Others even agreed.

"Eh, how was Mida?" That quickly diverted the conversation. They disagree with my request. Hem okay.

"He's on the suspension."

"really?" I was shocked. "Then, am I also suspended?" Wahid shakes.

"You are the victim. I don't actually like him either."

"It's also because you were rejected, right?" I held back a laugh, indeed Munah could not keep a little secret Wahid. "How could Mida want to be with you? You're just a stingy!"

"Mune it!"

"What?" Challenge back.

"They're funny." Spoiled on Adam's arm. Cih, I'm not jealous. Nah! I don't have any feelings for Adam. I hate him now.

"Ohhhhhhhh!!" We turned to the connecting door leading to the kitchen. That's bi Gina's voice, why? Wahid and Munah stood up from their seats. They run small to look back.

Then come back with a face of no expression.

"Why?" I asked.

"There's only cockroaches." Sit back, I wonder. Never been in my cockroach apartment.

They say no to going home, and say there's no party tomorrow night. I need to rest at home. Well, they also did this for my own good. I returned to the bed. Look at the sky with a blank look. My mind floated far away thinking about how my future would be.

Recalling again the message of Munah before they went out the door. "Don't forget to let me know if you're okay."

Should I tell him this? I can't possibly keep this big secret to myself. It can't be!

The sound of knocking on the door made me have to throw away everything I was thinking. "Nara, can auntie come in?"

"Yes bi, come in. Not in the lock." Ceklek, the door sounds open. Bi Gina's sad face. He even looked down when he met me.

"Why bi? Is aunt's husband sick?" The first thing I thought. I changed my position to sit and patted the empty space. Permit bi Gina to sit next to me. But he didn't move, and just stood up. Then show me something oadaku.

"Is this yours, Nara?" Deg. I'm speechless. Bones don't work at this time. My tongue was lamenting, I hoped my sight would not become blurred. Bi Gina knows? He found that? Mom, dad, God what am I supposed to do now?

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