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Warm love of mother

I, who was currently pregnant, covered it from the people. But instead I had to keep mom in the hospital, accompany her, feed her. In fact, I myself have felt unable, one daily wearing a corset, pressing my stomach. Oh my goodness, it feels good. The breath was already very tight. I can't imagine sleeping here tonight. Husband and stepson, where are they? They should be here, not me! My mother also forbade me to tell them this. I don't know what that means, but mom's definitely weighing on me right now.

"Nara, you're full." I still feed it, even though my mother has said many times that she is full. I kept quiet not speaking anything, but I kept taking care of her as long as she lay weak at this moment.

"Nadzara?" He touched my arm. His hands that felt so cold right now, I could feel them. Like coming into contact with a living corpse.

"Go home. Let mommy be here." I'll just want to! But that's very unlikely I'll do.

"No, no one's keeping mom here."

"It's okay. It's appropriate for me to get Nara." Deg. He realized that?

"Mom doesn't want you to be here just because you're forced to."

"Here you go, I'll just rest." I walked towards the sofa, putting back the old bowl of porridge that mom ate. I took a breath and slowly threw it away. My eyes are so sad because I am sleepy. Whatever it is, I'll close my eyes for a second. Eliminate fatigue today.

***

How long have I slept here? The pats on my face woke me up, rubbing my eyes.

"You slept here last night?"

"Everynight? What time is it?" I feel confused, Munah also came here? Looking towards the mother who was silently staring at the ceiling of the room. Then switch again to Munah.

"You take a shower, I came by your apartment on purpose. Asking bi Gina to bring you a change of clothes. And here's your breakfast cooked by bi Gina." My God, bi Gina always remembers me.

"Alright, please take care of my mother for a moment. I'll take a shower." Munah nodded, before I closed the bathroom door. I took another look to ask Munah.

"You didn't go to school today?"

"I asked permission. My dad called our homeroom teacher. I'm worried about you." I smiled warmly, even though it made me feel surrounded by good people. But wasn't I also troublesome?

"Here is the shower, what else do you think." I went in and closed the door.

There is no soap here! Oh gosh. I just clean my body with water. If for three days here this continues, I will not feel at home either. Hospitals are everyone's biggest enemy.

After cleaning up, I walked out. Seeing the woman talking to my mother. Along with me who walked over, the door of the room also opened. A doctor and nurse came in. What I hope is that my mother's condition will improve, so I can go home.

"In the meantime, doctor, we're going out."

"No, just sit there." The doctor pointed at the sofa. Munah walked over and pulled my hand to sit down immediately.

"You feel at home in the hospital? You even slept too soundly."

"actually no. Maybe because I'm tired."

Our eyes were both fixed on the device opened by the doctor. Then the infusion in the mother's hand was also released, which means this mother can go home today.

"Doctor, can the patient go home today?" I asked, not forgetting the smile I gave.

"The patient can indeed go home today, only he remains in the treatment period. Severe depression needs a reinforcing figure next to it." Whahuh? Not me, right?

"Are you his son?" I'm nodding. "You'd better take care of your mother yourself, until she's fully healed." Deg. Goddamnit! I don't want to. Ah no!! Then I have to stay at my mother's house too. It's good, why did this come and I even have to take care of it? It should be Asraf! When I went on vacation, I never remembered me.

"Wait until there is information, can go straight home and take the medicine."

"Didn't the hospital admistration paid yet?" I immediately stood up, as far as I know the hospital administration fee has not been paid.

"It seems like it is, because there is nothing else to delay about the return of the patient." I looked towards Munah. Ah no, how could Munah pay for it.

"Okay, then I'll excuse you. If anyone wants to ask again. Please come to my room." I'm nodding.

Mother called out to me with her hand language, waving her weak hand. If it is still like this, why should I be allowed to go home?

"Is it really the mother who asked to go home?" Mother nodded. Heh, I'm throwing a rough breath. "Why Ma'am? Isn't mom's condition still very weak?" Mom shakes her head, just talk she's hard! Then why ask to go home?

"Munah, please take care of my mother for a moment. I'm gonna go to the doctor's office, and I'm gonna pay for the hospital."

"Go, your mother is safe with me." How arrogant he is, uh even my ration bread he eats.

I walked through every hospital room in this magnificent hospital. Every room that has a patient, I'll turn my head, look through the glass slit of the room door. Not expecting to meet Satria, it's just that I want to know who's sick. Didn't he say that his brother. But when I got to the doctor's room, I didn't find Satria. Is he home yet? Or another hallway with mom? If so, why did Satria find me here last night?

"I'd better go to the hospital receptionist first. All looking for information about Satria." I initially wanted to knock on the door of the room, but went back and continued my steps again.

There are still some people who are completing the hospital admistration there. I waited until they were done, and it was my turn to ask.

"Please, can I help you?" I'm nodding.

"Patients on behalf of Namira's mother, how much does the hospital cost."

"I'll check in soon." I waited while looking to the right and left, to the back too. Anyways, whenever anyone passes by, I'll see it.

"I'm sorry, but the patient on behalf of Namira's mother's admistration has been resolved."

"Who paid him?"

"Father Husein, he paid by transfer after contacting the head of the hospital." Deg. Dad why are you. Is it true that my guess is that my father actually still has a taste for my mother. Then why did you choose the divorce path?

"Is there anything else I can help you with?" Eh I daydreamed it turns out, thankfully no one else was waiting in line.

"Look at the nurse, is there a patient here being treated but who warrants or whose guardian is named Satria?"

"Wait a minute." Again, I have to wait.

I knocked on the table with one finger while waiting, I noticed someone who seemed familiar was walking.

"No one is named Satria-"

"Yes thank you." I just left right away. Chasing someone I see is not foreign. I didn't realize I was running at the moment. Until I slipped myself.

"God." It hurts my stomach. Everyone who saw it came straight to me and offered to help, including the person I was after. When I saw his face, I immediately regretted what I had done. Damn, I thought this guy was Satria, it was just similar.

"You okay?"

"It's okay, right?"

"Next time be careful." They asked, I shook my head and thanked them so much for helping me. Then walk back to the doctor's office. My feet don't seem okay. I walked with a limp, it hurt so much. Not to mention the pain in my stomach. God, I hope the child in my womb is okay.

"Doctor." After knocking I was immediately welcome to go inside. A companion nurse came out as soon as the doctor asked for it.

"Sit. Are you Namira's mother's son?" I nodded, and he recognized me.

"That means, you're also the son of Mr Husein?" I nodded again, so much as he knew.

"Doctor, I just want to ask you more details about your condition? Isn't he still so weak! Why are you allowed to go home?" The doctor in front of me smiled.

"Your mother is actually just depressed, as a result of losing her child-to-be. Treatment can be done by visiting a psychologist, the drug alone will not have an effect. And I suggest you take care of your mother. You've been away with her all this time, haven't you?"

"Huh? Where does the doctor know?" Obviously I'm surprised, I think he's a stranger, but why would I know.

"I dare not say it, the most important thing is that someone tells me. If that's the case, then your treatment will be faster than a psychologist."

Cloud overcast, come. Just hit me with lightning. I've resigned, just thinking about my situation I'm confused. How do I take care of my mother? Oh my god, give me the way.

I walked around holding my leg and stomach in pain. I don't know what to say to my mother, if I want to take care of her, would you like me to take care of her? Ah I don't know.

"Nara?" Munah must know, just by looking at the look on my face that has no spirit of life at all. Honestly, I'm tired. Shouldn't pregnant women do a complete rest. And a few more days, I also have to drain my brain by thinking when the graduation exam arrives.

"Your mother slept after I gave her the medicine." I nodded, Munah patting the empty space next to him. Withholding my tears I told her everything. Whatever the doctor told me.

"Would we call your mother's husband?"

"But the doctor asked me to Munah."

"Do it, I'll help you." Heh, what can I do now?

***

"Auntie, I'll keep going back to the apartment. Aunty doesn't have to come every day." I took the time to call bi Gina. Truly, my heart even felt slipping away from him.

"Repair your relationship with your mother. Aunty would be happy if you already thought of him as a parent." Can I cry and hug her? Thanking him for always teaching me good things?

"Auntie?"

"Here you go, remember aunt's message. Take good care of your bladder, right? If there's anything don't forget to tell aunt."

I hung up the phone by dropping a single point of tears. Silently holding the phone in my hand. I wish, if mom could heal fast. Come back like my mother before me, let it be if her thoughts can't change about loving me. But at least I can feel free again without having to live in this house.

"Kinara, is this over?" Munah sat next to me. Sit in my old bed. "You should be able to ask the waiter for help in arranging your clothes."

"Heh, stop. I won't be here long either, so I don't want to trouble anyone."

"You look so tired. You better get some rest, I'll have the waiter deliver tea here." I nodded, and laid my body down. I have to put in a lot of energy. Mom is also resting in her room.

I just let Munah do what, I just wanted to close my eyes for a moment. I will wake up at the right time.

"Sum tea first." Munah offered him a glass of warm tea which he brought from the kitchen.

"Thank you. You want to go home?"

"No, I'll accompany you here first. I'll be home in the afternoon." She looks very compassionate with me, from her gaze I know that Munah is very worried about me not my mother. Where will I find another good friend like him?

Pray, extend the age of the good to me. Until they and I can always meet in distress, shoulder the burden together and help each other when in need.

"Your father was good to me, to my family. If this is all I'm doing to you. I don't think it can pay off all of Budi's debt."

"meaning?" My eyes did not close when I heard his words.

"Yes, it turns out my father rose to the post because of your father's help. And several times my tuition has paid off and your father paid for it. And other help, like the pocket money he gave me every time he met. You know Nara, your father has always been kind to those close to you. I know what it means, so that those close to you, including me, can love you and take your father's place away from you."

Daddy's? I'm in my heart.

"I'm sure your father was a good man. And he made one mistake, failed to make a household. There may be something behind your father and mother's story. So there is no more reason to survive. From there you think your father was a bad man."

"Yeah, you're good at thinking." She smiled and stroked my arm.

"Indeed, my father said yesterday that if there's anything I want to ask, you better ask my mother."

"Is it still a wonder how your parents got married?" I nodded, Munah's exact answer as well as the question was indeed true.

"But seeing the condition of the mother like this, it feels impossible."

Honestly, even though I haven't graduated school. I can also be said to be an adult. And I deserve to know.

"Repair your relationship with your mother." Yes, a few minutes ago bi Gina said that. Is this really the time? When is there no one else in the house?

"Here you go, rest first." All right, I closed my eyes. And Munah also walked towards the balcony of the room. I don't know what he's doing, but I vaguely hear him laughing, and there's also a familiar male voice. I'm guessing he must be making a video call with Wahid.

I pricked after being content to close my eyes and penetrate other realms, giving rise to some beautiful dreams by meeting Adam again. Then also dream about a mother who is healthy and back like before. When I opened my eyes, it was just a dream.

From the gap curtains are no longer visible light or the sky looks bright. Even the twilight had disappeared without being able to enjoy today. The earth and sky became dark. I woke up, which I thought I was sleeping for a few minutes. Crazy one! That's when I slept in my old bed.

"Mune it?" I screamed for his whereabouts. He was clearly on the balcony again. I set foot on the floor, looking around. Did Munah come home waiting for me to sleep too long?

I intend to clean myself up immediately. And he arrived in the bathroom. I was again surprised by the blood on my underwear. My eyes are round, why? What's the matter? My heart began to pump along with the gasping breath, I was so scared.

"How is it? If I'm here isn't it hard to check my contents?"

Usually every shower, I always spend a long time, what else considering yesterday I took a bath not using soap. But it feels different this time. I was really overwhelmed with fear.

After the shower, I immediately used the corset because I had to leave the room. And grab the phone that's on the desk by the bed.

"Nara, I came home because my mom called me. If you need any good help, you call me. I came home with Wahid, he picked me up."

After reading the message from Munah, I prepared to leave the room. Walked and locked my room door. I saw two maids waiting in front of my mother's door.

"Is mom still sleeping?" They simultaneously shook their heads.

"The lady won't eat." I fell silent and opened my mother's room door. Once it opened, the tray containing the food was completely untouched by it. I picked it up, approaching the mother who was sitting quietly by the bed.

"Mom eat, I will feed." Mother just nodded. He really wanted to open his mouth when I thrust out a spoonful of rice and chicken.

Up to a few mouthfuls, the mother said that she was full.

"A little more Mom."

"No Nara." I took the plate from my hand.

"You should eat too." I was stunned, staring at the food in front of my mouth. And the reflex of my mouth opened immediately, my smiling mother saw me willing to accept the bribe she gave. And not felt until the last mouthful, the food on the plate is gone.

"Drink." After mom drank a few gulps, she returned to thrust them at me.

"Mom take your medicine first."

"No Nara. I'm tired of having to swallow bitter pills all the time." I don't know what way I'm gonna use to seduce mom.

"I'm here, I'm accompanying mom. Please don't disappoint me for the umpteenth time." Mom was silent, the next second she snatched the medicine from my hand, and took it without asking for help.

"Do you want to rest?" She shook her head. Even patting her on the lap, asking me to sleep.

This isn't wrong? I hesitated to put my head on my lap. But finally falling too, there was a warm feeling I had never felt. Although I have often been treated like this with bi Gina, but it feels much different when sleeping on my own mother's lap.

"I'm sorry Nara's mom. I'm sorry, mother." Tests, someone fell on my face. Mom crying? No, don't. I don't want to see it.

"Mother? If you want to talk, please don't cry."

"Why? Is the trauma still on you?" I nodded in his lap. I didn't even dare look him in the face.

"Do you want to forgive me?" This is a question I've been thinking about for years.

"All wrong mom. I never thought about how you felt." Deg. You're right Mom! You right!

"But your paradise lies only with mother." I was silent not answering.

"Are you away from mom okay?"

"No." My mouth says what my heart says.

"I'm sorry mom." Again he repeated a sentence I could not answer.

Is the sky clear tonight? Is the sky not cloudy tonight? I wanted to see her, but why did this comfort lead me to want to stay in my mother's lap. Andwhat? I feel that the child in my womb moves several times, are they also happy?

Mom talked a lot about me, about her guilt about me. And I just kept listening. While enjoying every soft touch at the top of my head. And lastly, my mother kissed my face many times. Treat me like a child, ah I never got this before.

"I forgive you Mom. Therefore, promise me to heal." Mother asked me to hug her, complete already. The desire to be hugged, kissed, I feel tonight.

Until the bright light that entered behind the curtains, woke me up. I feel like I'm hugging my bed. Realize, if this is my mother's body. God, what dream did I have last night to sleep with my mother by hugging her? It's worth the night I didn't wake up, I should be able to stay up tonight because in the afternoon I sleep until evening.

"You're up, my son?" Mammy? Is his voice not as weak as yesterday? Is it true the doctor said, if I can cure you?

"Mother, I'm sorry I fell asleep here."

"No, won the mother who wanted it." Deg. How did I sleep last night?

"Wake up, after that we have breakfast together. We're having breakfast at dinner table."

"Can you already?" Mom nodded and smiled. Very warm, my spirit in the morning.

Thank God for your gift. It's far and away from what I imagined. There's only one thing I haven't been able to do, get me used to being close to mom. The awkward feeling was still there, unlike the other children with his mother. Maybe because all my life I just got mother's love sincerely. I don't know, maybe God has given her a disease so that mom can realize that there is still me in this world that she has.

Seriate..