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Alcohol is troubling my womb

An unprovoked anxiety. I walked in front of the apartment door. Waiting for the order package to arrive. Because he said he only came in a few hours. I deliberately did not come directly to the place of sale, for fear that anyone would look and ask what to buy a corset.

When I heard the bell I opened it, but I didn't. That came, not the package I expected. But the guy who made me have to use that corset. What'd he come here for? Is it because I didn't go to school? Heh, this way I should stay inside and make sure things are okay. Before that incident, I was happy to see him come to make sure I was okay. But now it's different, I feel like I'm in a diamond, and it seems like Adam really wants to know if I'm pregnant or not.

"What do you want?"

"Nara, can you be gentle with me? Though I know my mistake is unforgivable." I fell silent, and still stood there.

"Come in." I gave up and let him in. "You yourself? Which town?"

"They will come later. Wahid drove him home first to change his clothes." I nodded, sitting on the sofa.

"Nara-"

"Stop? You must be asking me if I'm pregnant or not, right?" Adam fell silent, and looked towards the kitchen. Extend his neck.

"No one, bi Gina today did not come. Her husband is sick." Adam nodded, and seemed to want to continue with his words. I saw him reach into his pants pocket, then pull out a plastic pack.

"Try this, I gotta make sure you're pregnant or not." Deg. Whatisit? A testpack? No, don't let Adam know.

"For what?"

"You should try it, it's a pregnancy detector. If you're not pregnant then there's only line one."

"But Dam, I just finished my period. It's impossible if I'm pregnant. When Mida supported my stomach, I was feeling pain coming to the moon. Eat it the pain so many times." Huh, I've said it as calmly as possible.

"You sure?" He approached me, I silently refused. Adam stretched out his hand to rub my stomach, why didn't I refuse him? I even felt calm. Really, is it really the fetus in my stomach that wants it?

"I want to open the door for a minute." I stood up, and left Adam, my heart beating ungodly as it touched my stomach. No, I can't be like this. I need to be calm.

"Thank you, sir." It turned out to be just the parcel guy.

I walked back to the sofa, sat down and placed the package wrapped in a plastic bag onto the table.

"Nara if you're not pregnant, can you act like you normally do? Befriending me?" I'm still silent, this isn't just a request. "But if you object, then tell me what can I do to make amends?"

"Nothing." Adam breathed a rough breath.

"Nara?"

"Dam's? Let time answer, this was just a month ago. I haven't forgotten it either. You know, I still remember my childhood, my parents. Moreover, this Dam is concerning my future. I can't pretend to be good that fast."

"alright. But never stay away from me Nara." I nodded weakly, it is true that he is my friend.

"What package is this? You ordered a shirt?" Adam took my package and opened it. It's too late for me to take it from his hand.

"Corsets?" Staring at me, Adam stared at me while frowning.

"For what? Aren't you fat too?" Given my posture, I am even uncomfortable now in such a face.

"Not." I snatched it from his hand and walked into the room to keep it.

I saw Adam closing his eyes while leaning his body on the sofa.

"Nara, can you be honest? I'll take responsibility." I'm shaking.

"Adam, that's bi Gina's corset. He wanted to wear it, so I bought it." Reason again, yes you have to believe this time.

"All right, I believe." Silence, the situation went back a few minutes, and finally I could breathe a sigh of relief when Munah came with Wahid.

"North.." Munah said proudly and spread out the plastic bag he was carrying. Another thing with Wahid's lethargic face. He even directly laid down on the long sofa. Raise his leg as he pleases.

"That's what?" My toot.

"It's food, you haven't eaten, have you?" I'm shaking. "It's a snatch from the super stingy rich." Again he is proud of the results of the snatch, wait. I looked towards Wahid.

"Yes, snatch it from Wahid haha." Laughter produced by Munah like it can be contagious. Adam and I also laughed, laughing at Wahid's suffering.

"Hid, are you quiet when you're taken?" Adam asked.

"He's smart." Answer lethargic.

"Here you go, I'll replace it." I relented, maybe the money will be used by Wahid to buy other necessities.

"Eh don't-don't Nara." Munah immediately prevented me from taking the wallet.

"Don't we just eat."

"Yes Nara, just eat. After this I'll beat him up too." Wahid Glances sharply towards Munah.

"You dare?" Munah also challenged and approached Wahid. And as soon as they were on a pillow, I felt weak because I kept laughing not because I had not eaten.

"God." The pillow was right on my stomach. I immediately complained of pain.

"Nara, are you okay?" Adam came straight towards me, stroking my flat stomach. His face was panicking at the moment. The two people who were doing the act fell silent and even smiled looking at me and Adam.

"You fit in." Eh he's on a show instead of apologizing. "Well, isn't it Hid?" He sat next to Wahid.

I moved my seat away from Adam. Confused and misbehaved. Realize, we're just friends. I don't want to date, feel love and get married. No, I don't want to.

"Hey, just kidding." Laugh again.

"Munah, you guys be careful next time. Good thing it's just a pillow, what if it's a stone?" Munah and Wahid looked at each other as Adam rebuked them.

"If it's a stone, it's better to throw it at him." Speak Wahid and point to Munah.

I guessed it, if talking to them in serious mode only I could. Why that? Yes, because if I spoke in a sad state, they would not joke. In this case, free is also reprimanded, anyway I am even happy to see their behavior.

We ended this joke with a meal. Yes, eat the deprived produce. I shook my head when I opened the food, it was appropriate that the deprived one felt sad on his face. It turns out that the food purchased total price reaches millions. Crazy one! How can the King do it. Eh what don't-don't, he kissed Wahid and asked for money? Oh my God what do I think? Where possible, anyways if only kissing the forehead is also a sign of the affection of a friend right. No, I can't think badly of Munah and Wahid. Only Adam and I were stupid!

"Nara, Nara!!" I gasped in shock at Munah's scream.

"You're daydreaming! You think what's good?" I'm shaking.

"No, nothing."

"No water means?" They look at each other. Adam did too, even he stopped chewing. I who was currently loading thought, I really did not hear what they were talking about.

"Nara, Munah asked for drinking water." Adam spoke softly. I nodded and stood up straight away. Uh, just drinking it turns out. Why can't I hear it?

"It." I put the water right in front of Munah and sat back to enjoy my meal.

"If you have a problem, you better talk to us. Although it can't help, but at least you're relieved not to have to keep it alone." I nodded hearing Munah speak after sipping the water I gave.

How could I possibly talk to them? Heh, that's so ridiculous. Wherever you may not be able to help, it must be. It could have been, but my future just crumbled.

"Where? Has anyone heard from us about our departure?" I heard Wahid's words well, I don't want to drown in my daydream anymore. They are suspicious as it seems.

"I've asked, we're leaving this week. After that, there will be a poetry contest at school. Nara, are you coming?" Huh huh? Why me!

"Nara?" Adam looked at me. "He can do poetry?" Munah nodded enthusiastically.

"Nara's work is on display in the school mading. But that was one year ago, before you moved to our school. Now Nara doesn't want any more"

"Mune it!" I warned him to be quiet. "I'm not interested."

"Haa.. Nara! You should come along. Aren't you hid?"

"Yes right. Why the hell? Isn't it every race you always win?" I kept quiet and did not answer, I was lazy. One school now knows the story of my life, it's also because of Mida. Every time I make a poem will be commented on by them, which he said must be a heart expression about broken home children, this is it. The poem was made to spill the mood. Goddamn it? I hate him so much.

"We're going to the club tonight." We turned to Wahid. "Adam, don't tell me you weren't given permission with Elena!" He threatened before anyone commented.

"You too? I'll pick you up later tonight." Pointing the two balls of Munah's eyes with his finger. "And you're Nara. You just wait at home, let Adam pick you up. I don't want to happen again, you're drunk without being able to bring a car." Deg. That thing? I was traumatized to hear it.

Yeah, all because of that. Geez, I don't want a car with him, really.

"Hid, you picked me up, didn't you?" I'm pasting. Not paying attention to Adam's current appearance.

"Why did Adam pick you up?" I looked for a logical reason, thinking that they wouldn't be suspicious.

"I, I'm afraid Elena knows they can fight and break up." I finally had a good reason.

"What if I broke up with Elena?" Deg. Why did Adam ask me? That's the connection, he should know how it feels.

"Yes I just don't want that, because I'm you break up later."

"What are we going to do? Until Elena dares to decide on me?" Goddamnit! He intentionally cut me off like that. Well, if I have to go with him I can't take a drink, then I'm safe if I'm not drunk.

"You two why the hell? Like having a problem we don't know." Apparently from earlier Munah noticed. Adam and I both shook their heads, then kept quiet.

"So how? You guys don't want to! As long as I am honored to bear the cost." This I didn't listen wrong??? A Wahid wants to pay?

"Are you serious?" He nodded, Munah immediately hugged him. Hugged tightly until Wahid's neck felt suffocated.

"Geez-neck."

"UPS sorry. Hehe."

I sat holding my phone, intending to call someone who should know if I went there.

"Hallo bi?"

"Yes Nara."

"What are the aunts doing?"

"Auntie just fed aunt's husband."

"Is it better than bi?" Lama bi Gina replied.

"No change yet, still complaining of pain."

"Then, tomorrow auntie doesn't have to come first, it's okay to be bi."

"Thank you Nara."

"Hem bi's. Tonight I'm invited to go to the club?"

"Are you pregnant with Nara?" His voice is slower.

"Yes bi, I know. But I'm not gonna drink bi."

"All right aunt believes. Careful, take care of your womb. If anything call aunt ya."

Well, I'd rather stay with him, than have to stay with my parents. They might care, ah. I'm tired of thinking badly of them.

As soon as dusk changed night, I was ready with clothes. I sat there waiting for Adam to pick me up. Sit on the couch playing with your phone. Looking at some of the posts of lovers who showed off their affection, berandaku full of it all. But wait, I shifted the phone screen again. See the post I passed.

"Elena?" I saw, Adam smiling towards the camera while embracing Elena. They sit in a park. Geez, is this the message? How could I have ruined it by telling Adam I was pregnant?

I walked right away when I heard the bell ring, yes it must be Adam.

"Wait a minute, I'll get the bag." I said and put my phone on the table and walked into the room. I just picked up a little black carry bag, a bag I like. Tonight my clothes are not too open. And don't forget, I took a pack of cigarettes in the closet, put them in the bag. Then ready to go.

"Adam?" I immediately ran towards him, snatching my phone that was in his grasp.

I lost high to him, with great difficulty I snatched.

"Adam, that's my phone. Give." My breath began to puff.

"Nara, why are you so scared. Is there something you're hiding from me?" I immediately shook my head.

"Adam! That's my right, who are you? I don't have the right to know all my secrets." Adam thrust his cell phone in front of me. But he smiled and folded both his hands on his chest.

"Why are you looking at my photo with Elena?" Deg. Damn it!!! I haven't returned it.

"Nothing." I'm turning. "The social media. Yes, of course, not only your photos, but also the photos of others will be seen. Depends who uploaded it." Adam was silent and only bearded.

I walked first to open the door.

"So go or not? Wahid is waiting." Adam did not speak anymore. Along the way, he kept quiet.

"Do you know the place?" Adam nodded.

"Kinara, do you have a schedule tomorrow night?"

"meaning?"

"There's a promise to others? I want to take you out, just look for the wind." I nodded, not wrong. He's still my friend, too. Before this I also went on vacation with him, well this time I tried to reconcile.

"Tomorrow the night I pick you up." I nodded again.

The car has arrived at one of the clubs', not as luxurious as the club' that I used to rent. Ah basic Wahid, indeed he is really stingy huh!

"Is this the place?" Adam nodded, then we walked in.

"That's Wahid's car parked, too." I looked to the side. Right, Wahid and Munah have arrived first.

I quickened my pace, ahead of Adam. And arrive at a room that has been described by the club'. I went in, saw Wahid and Munah who had been sitting sweetly, waving their hands as they saw me coming in.

"Munah, I'm given a gift." He took out an expensive bag from the paper bag. I grabbed it, this is a really expensive bag. "The one who gave it." Ha's? I didn't hear wrong? I turned towards Wahid, whose face was flat. No, this must be a compulsion from Munah.

"Munah, did you take the money again?" Munah shook his head, and smiled.

"Wahid asked for my brother's number, son of my om. I give you the condition, if you want to buy me the bag I want then I'll give you my brother's number." I want to laugh now, can I?

"It shouldn't be this club' that I hired. But because my money is also drained because of this witch. Then only this club' can I rent." All right, I get it now. Basic Munah! It's smart to use a stingy guy like Wahid.

"Hey who do you call a witch? Remember, you're gonna be my sister-in-law." Wahid fell silent and gave up.

Music has begun to live, if we speak also have to use loud sounds. I just sat looking at them. Sipping a cigarette that has been exhausted, I don't know how much.

"Nara, come?" Adam stretched out his hand. All right, I'm not gonna hurt the fetus that's in my womb. Honestly, it feels like hearing music with a full bass voice. I couldn't help myself, carried away in a happy mood. Which anyone has a problem will feel detached inside here. Wahid offered one drink, only one. I drank it and went back to the rhythm by rocking with my friends. But we're not like the people at the club in general. We realized, this is just a friend.

My stomach feels so hot, my head is dizzy. Nausea also immediately whipped. My body suddenly sagged like boneless. Move me not as agile as before, slowly slowing down. And dark, I think that this is a dead light.

I woke up when I was in my room. I looked around me, all my friends were complete. Then I switched to the side. Why is there a doctor here? Oh my God, how is this? Do they all know I'm pregnant?

"Nara you don't move much first, just lie down." Munah forbade me when I was going to sit.

"I recommend, if it has not filled the stomach with any food. Never consume alcohol." I'm nodding.

Then the doctor excuses you to leave, and leaves a prescription that can be redeemed to the pharmacy. Adam drove the doctor to the front door. Now, there's only Wahid, and Munah.

"Did the doctor say anything else to you?" Munah and Wahid looked at each other and shook their heads.

"Why? Do you really have a disease?" I'm shaking.

"Lately you've been like this Nara a lot. Tell me if there's anything?" Wahid came towards me. I keep shaking.

"Where was the doctor from? Why would he come?"

"That's Adam's family doctor. He called and asked for help, thankfully the doctor wanted." I should thank him.

"You rest. Can you go to school tomorrow?"

"It can be Munah." I rubbed his arm, I worry about him right now towards me. "I've had a lot of time off, afraid he won't even graduate."

"Yes, tomorrow we also have a daily repetition." Yes I remember that, I can't miss a lesson.

"Dam's? Already?" Adam nodded.

"We'll just go home and let Kinara rest." They all nodded, then parted with me before coming home.

"Nara, should I sleep here with you? Let me call my mom." I shook my head quickly, it felt like there was no need to trouble Munah anymore.

"Hid, you go first. I'm keeping Nara here." Whahuh? Why would Adam?

"Eh no need. You go home too. Thank you for calling the doctor for me."

"Yes Nara, Adam should accompany you here. At least until you can fall asleep." All right, I'll kick him out when Wahid and Munah come home.

"Adam, we go first?"

"She be careful."

I know, after they come home, things will be quiet again. Me and Adam. Confused about what else.

"You go to sleep, I'll go home after you sleep." I just nod. I heard Adam's phone ring. He stood up and walked a little away, maybe his mother called, I thought.

"I'm at Kinara's house." He looked at me at a glance. Wh who? What Elena? There's no way she'd say my name if her mother called. Adam walked closer to me. Then he handed her phone. Whahuh? I asked without a sound.

"Elena wants to talk to you?" I picked it up and put it on the earlobe.

"Hallo?"

"Sister? You sick?" I looked towards Adam.

"Yes, Adam said that?"

"Yes brother. Get well quickly, brother. Let Adam there take care of brother." Deg. This kid is really good.

"Yes, thank you El." I returned the phone to Adam.

"Here you go, sleep." I closed my eyes, pretending to sleep so Adam could come home. Kasian too, it's already night. He should have gone home and rested.

I closed my eyes for a few minutes. I didn't sleep, but I didn't want to open my eyes before Adam left.

"Nara I'm home. Get well soon." Adam stroked my forehead gently.

"I already know about the thing you're covering up." Ha's? No, I have to keep pretending to be asleep. I heard the sound of steps away. And the door sounds closed. I slowly opened my eyes. Congratulations Adam is gone.

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