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That handsome brother is Satria

Crying is the satisfaction of the heart when the mouth is no longer able to speak. To express what is felt, in the form of disappointment or pain that we feel. It was enough to feel like I was dropping tears. With Adam, he didn't take me straight home to Mom. But Adam deliberately took a tour of the city. He talked a lot about the progress of his father's company. It is as if forgetting the disease that he said was just waiting for the day of death. There's one thing I have to admit right now. I love Adam. I really acknowledge that feeling now. Somehow in the future, I just hope God can be fair to my heart and my life.

And now, I can go back to the apartment. After seeing that my mother had recovered, she asked me to come back here. Maybe you know if I miss the bed that always bears witness when I'm crying. Honestly, today I am happy, because there is Munah and bi Gina who are bothering to clean my baby clothes.

"You just sit down, let me and bi Gina clean up." I'm like the queen of today. I could only sit looking at them from the edge of my bed. The most excited here is Munah. It's like he's the only one who's gonna have kids.

"Nara, this is too much." Bi Gina asked me to look at the baby cupboard that I had bought, even the place was not enough.

"That's all Munah bi. He's the one who's shopping without knowing the rules." I laughed a little, but the insinuations were proud.

"It's okay bi, finished wear can be donated to others." Ah yes, Munah is right.

It felt like this heart was almost out of place, when it heard the sound of a bell ringing. Who's coming? I stood up and looked at each other.

"Bi?"

"You stay here, let auntie open."

"Calm down, bi Gina can definitely give a reason to subtly expel who's coming." Munah turned to sit next to me, stroking my arm so I wouldn't panic.

If that comes father, it's very unlikely. Because at noon like this must be busy dad in his office. Or Adam, didn't he tell me that two days before the graduation exam, he was going to be on medication.

"What Wahid? He knows you're here, right?" Munah immediately shook his head.

"Wahid was sleeping, he said he wasn't feeling well anymore." Heh, I can only sigh. Tired of guessing it's better to stay still waiting for bi Gina back.

"I want to keep putting the baby clothes on, a little bit more."

I noticed this big cupboard, all brown. Just as I would like, this is already too much if it is said to place baby clothes. And I'm sure, not all pregnant women buy a place for their children's clothes this big.

"Ah very funny.." Suddenly Munah shouted, I immediately asked him to shut up.

Krieks.. The door opened, bi Gina walked in with her confused face.

"That's the number?"

"Who bi? Did your aunt ask him to leave?" Bi Gina shook her head, then stared again at Munah.

"Adam bi?"

"No, aunt doesn't know either. He said he knew Nara. He also said." Bi Gina seemed to have once just to say it. "She said she knew you were pregnant." Deg. Deg. No!! Who's coming? I immediately walked towards the door, ignoring the ban on Munah and bi Gina who asked me to stay in the room. I was wondering, why would he know? Means bi Gina already had time to throw him out earlier, I'm sure that.

I could only see his back when he came out of the room. Walked slowly, so I could see his face.

"Satria's sister?" Shocked, swear. Because he dared to come to the apartment, desperate to stay in?

"Sister, what are you doing here?"

"No, I just miss you." He even smiled sweetly. God, I forgot that I promised to be friends with him again.

And with a friendly welcome, I sat across the sofa.

"Sister? Why did you say that to bi Gina? I mean to the guy who opened the door for you?" I have to ask this. Wh why? This is very dangerous, if not bi Gina who opened the door and Satria casually said that she knew that I was pregnant, wouldn't that really make me embarrassed and threatened?

"I know, I know if she's a maid here. And I'm sure he knows it, too." Deg. It's just a coincidence, it's impossible if Satria finds out everything about me.

"But brother, have we not also agreed? To be friends again, without having to discuss my pregnancy?" Satria nodded, and apologized to me. I got up from my seat, went back into the room. Ask bi Gina to prepare drinking water and snacks. Because after all Satria is a guest, although previously had been refused entry by bi Gina.

"Come on? Come with me, aren't you also curious to see who that man is?" I pulled out Munah's hand that was lying on my bed. Several times he yawned, complaining he said it was quiet if there was no Wahid.

"You only. I want to take a nap."

"You sure?"

"No!" Munah immediately got up, laughed a little and finally wanted to take me out. Wouldn't it be if Satria was my friend, and she also had to be her friend Munah? I have to introduce them.

"Sister?" I asked Mum to introduce myself.

"He's my friend."

"Mune." Munah smiled kindly at him.

"Satria?" They shook hands for a few seconds, then sat back down. I saw the eyes of Satria who was still observing Munah. Ah does he like Munah from first sight? No, how will Wahid's fate be? Is it not that if seen from the face alone it is much more handsome Satria than Wahid?

God, why does my brain think like this!

"Have we met before?" Munah looked at me, I knew he was confused right now. Then shook his head again as he stared at Satria.

"Looks not. Maybe because we live in one city, so it's natural to see a familiar face." Answer's relaxed. He could even take the snack that bi Gina just put on the table.

"Oh yeah, maybe." Silence, what else is there to discuss now?

"Are you not tired of being at home? Especially you Kinara, aren't you currently still undergoing a suspension?" Deg, and he knows again.

"I? Uh no."

"Yes bored. You better take Kinara for a walk." Munna!!! Goddamnit!

***

And finally, I ended up sitting in the car. Towards the parking lot, I resigned if Satria took me anywhere. I looked outwards. I didn't see it wrong, did I? This sight really cools my eyes. The white sand of the beach really makes me want to run there immediately. I looked back at Satria.

"You like it, don't you? Don't worry, didn't we promise to be friends again?"

"Thank you brother. But, still I can't move as I please." I'm down, aren't I? My pregnancy is getting older, if I'm too tough that there is even threatening two lives at once.

Before going down, there's something I want to ask him. If he really thinks I'm his best friend, I should know where the house is and who his family is, right?

"Sister, actually when I was in the hospital I fell. Because seeing someone I thought was you, brother. So I'm after him."

"Then you fell?" Satria immediately tilted her body, her face instantly turning worried.

And I nodded too.

"Then what about your body?"

"Until now it's fine, brother. After I fell down just felt a little pain."

"Have you checked with the doctor?" I'm shaking. "That's Kinara hospital knock, you should"

"Sister!" I spontaneously cut off his words. Why is he, doesn't he know that I'm hiding this!

"That's very unlikely. Which there's everybody gonna know."

"I'm sorry, I forgot." I'm nodding. "So, are you going down now?"

"Yes, brother." That fast Satria got off first, ran around the car and opened the door for me. As soon as I stepped on foot, I was greeted with an endless beach breeze. Fly hair until irregular. The heat during the day is no longer felt.

"Come?" I welcome his hand. Following in his footsteps led me to a hut. Just the two of us. Other beach visitors are far away, because it is not a weekend day. Obviously, the tourist attractions are not so crowded.

Not only me, everyone loves the beach. I had a dream as a child, running along the beach with my mom and dad. Chasing each other with laughter that disappeared carried away by the wind. Ah but it was just a dream. Even though my mother and I are much better now, my father belongs to someone else.

"Kinara, you wait here a minute."

"Sister, where are you going?" Satria smiled at me, and said she just wanted to buy a drink. I nodded and did not look at his steps. I am more interested in the waves of the beach that hit the reef. That endless blue sky, made this all like a painting.

A few minutes later, Satria returned with a young coconut. Which can be enjoyed directly through the fruit. There are only straws and oranges that become decorators. I swear, I swallowed the salivary. Imagining freshness.

"It's yours."

"It's the same, brother."

"Different Kinara." I frowned, is mine any cure? I hesitated to enjoy it.

"Your own is not mixed with anything, it's pure coconut water. Because pregnant women are very good if you drink this?"

"really?" Satria nodded.

"You're too offensive to me, brother."

Young coconut water, ah fresh. Get in the thirst, glek. It even sounded when I swallowed it.

"Sister, aren't you having any activities today?"

"No, my mom's in the office. I did ask for a two-day leave. I'm tired, besides, I just learned to be a leader. So naturally, if I still feel stressed when facing company problems."

"Well, you've managed to be a leader, brother."

"Yes. It's also a favor from mom." I want to know his mother. Uh I'm thinking good now.

"Nadzara?" I turned to her, drinking my young coconut water.

"Are you still on good terms with the father of your son?"

I nodded, confused to answer. Not just a good relationship, even better. But there's no way I'll say it, because Satria will judge me for sure.

"And you're still hiding this from him?" I nodded again. "What are your plans going forward?"

"Birth." Satria laughed and rubbed my head.

"Yes I know that, people who are pregnant will also give birth. I mean, your plan after giving birth, are you going to college or not? And what about your son?"

"That's it, bi Gina will take care of him."

"Can I help?" Huh huh?

"helpful? Meanin? Help me give birth?" Satria immediately let out a laugh.

"Not, but it helps keep your son."

"No need brother. You want to make people suspicious, what if you think you're the father?"

"I don't mind, haven't I asked you before? Asking to be his father." Crazy one! He said it casually. Isn't it hard to find someone like Satria? Why do I realize it now, I found no movement or gaze in his eyes stating that he was joking.

"But brother. It's all so impossible." I'm down. "Actually I'd really like to study abroad, but if I did, wouldn't I go very far with my son. I don't want him to feel the same way as me."

"You? You need some affection?" He patted her shoulder. "Look away, I can give it to you."

"Eh no brother."

"We're friends, right? Why are you even doubting?" He still wished I would wake my head. And I feel calm, very calm and even comfortable when I wake my body up to him. We fell silent, Satria said nothing more. This silence, however, made me even more soluble in comfort. The wind was also very supportive for me to close my eyes, ah well this is only for a moment. There's no way I can fall asleep fast in a position like this.

****

Where did it come from, a few minutes could change so quickly? Where did Adam come from? And why is it all getting crowded? Adam and I stood in the crowd, receiving congratulations from all of them. Taking pictures with my family, I looked around again.

No, I'm married to Adam? A party? Again, I want to make sure, and there's Munah there. Stand with Wahid. I looked at Adam. She smiled sweetly at me.

"Are we married?"

"Why? Don't you also want this, so that our children have complete parents." Deg. I was weakened immediately. Spontaneously I looked at my already enlarged stomach. This is not wrong.

I want to scream now!

"No!! It's impossible."

"Cinara? Kinara, what's wrong with you?" I round my eyes when I see this man in front of me, Satria.

"You dreaming?" I'm trying to get up. Wasn't I just leaning on her shoulder? Why am I sleeping on his lap?

"You dreaming?" He asked me once again. There is no marriage. The wind, and the atmosphere of the beach waves as well as the hut are all still the same. Oh my god, I really dream.

"You slept so well, did you? Until you dream?" I'm nodding.

"What dream are you?" There's no way I'm gonna give you that, right? In the meantime, there is something to do with Adam. Not likely. Satria does know that I'm pregnant, but she can't know who the father of the child I'm carrying. He could have been looking for her, right?

"No brother. Forget it." I look again at my appearance. "Sir, what time is it?"

"It's five o'clock." Huh huh? I immediately took my phone. Oh my God so many calls from Munah and some messages. Bi Gina also called me.

"Sister, we're going home now, okay?" Satria nodded, she helped me to get down from the hut. Ah vain came here, I haven't even wet my feet with water. So my arrival here was just a sleep ride?

And along the way home, that should be when I can close my eyes. But not a single bit of sleepiness came to me. I can only have a light chat with Satria. He who does not hesitate to tell his love story that once loved a woman his age. And I just respond normally, not excessively or inquiring. Because my mind is still full of Adam's name. What would that mean if I married her?

"Nara?" I directly looked. Just as the car stopped at a red light intersection.

"Yes brother?"

"You didn't listen to me talk?" I smiled, then scratched the nape that was not itchy.

"Sorry, I was daydreaming." Satria then went silent. I feel guilty. Every time I spoke he always heard and responded, but in turn, I was impressed. Ah yes, this is unfair.

"Hem, then how does big brother feel now? What if I see him again, brother will declare love?" Satria immediately laughed, did I ask wrongly?

"Why brother?"

"Ah no Nara. How could I possibly declare love to people's lovers? Even the one who's gonna be somebody's wife soon." Satria let out another crisp laugh.

"That means if she breaks up with her boyfriend, you want dong?" I purposely teased him.

"That's not what I'm thinking of." Haha right, the proof is that Satria until now has not had a boyfriend, even until she graduated and studied abroad. He still remained alone, did that not mean it was because of waiting for the woman he admired?

And when things went back to silence, I also no longer wanted to discuss the matter of Satria. What else about romance, because I myself am still confused about what love is.

Until the car reached the apartment, I immediately went down and forbade Satria to open the car door. And also refused his offer to take me to my apartment doorstep.

I walked casually towards the apartment door after exiting the elevator. All the lights are on, because the night is coming. The sky is really dark. Which means I've been gone hours leaving the apartment. The beach world made me forget everything that made my mind tired.

"Where have you been? You're crazy, aren't you?" I just opened the door, it was set by Munah. My eyes caught another male figure sitting on the sofa. The Munah? Did he really not come home? Intentionally waiting for me here?

"Where's Gina?" I asked and did not answer her questions. My eyes still glanced at the sofa.

"Bi Gina just got home. He also said his head was dizzy. Maybe it's because I'm thinking about you." Geez, I feel guilty for not picking up the phone from her.

I noticed Munah's appearance from top to bottom. He smiled and held out his two fingers.

"I borrowed your clothes. I'm sorry, I didn't get permission because you didn't answer my phone. I'm worried, I thought you'd be run by that handsome brother." Again, I glanced at the sofa.

"Adam, since when did you come?" I switched the conversation, better to say hello to Adam than to continue the discussion with Munah. At the end of which Adam will ask who the man in question Munah.

"No, it was about half an hour ago. It's also because Munah called me and asked me to come here, he said you were taken away with a handsome man." At the end of his sentence Adam seemed to emphasize the word handsome. Is he jealous? Oh my God, my heart is not as relaxed as it used to be when I met him.

"I'm gonna take a shower first." I immediately left them on the couch and went into the room. But it doesn't seem that easy to avoid. Munah followed me and asked for answers.

"Say, where are you from? You're all right, right? Did he hurt you and your son?" Heh I can only sigh.

"And exactly what happened, how did she know you were pregnant?" I carried my limp body to the edge of the bed.

"Kinara, say."

"You seem very worried, even more worried than my mother." I'm laughing a little. "I'm fine, I'm fine. And the matter of how Satria knows if I'm pregnant, it's because she's too observant to see anyone else."

"Huh? Is that so if men are adults?"

"Not really, not everyone. Which means, Satria is smart." I smiled and got back up from my seat.

"Hey, don't tell me you like it? Crazy one! Remember Nara, there's Adam." Deg. I immediately stopped stepping. No right? I don't like it, I'm just happy to be friends with Satria. Because he's a lot older than me. He can motivate me.

"Then you go out now. Stay with Adam, he's all alone." I closed the door and no longer paid attention to what Munah said. Ah must be she was grumbling and accusing me of having feelings for Satria! Crazyhead!

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