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Fetus weakens

I was the one who almost got caught, I almost gave up covering up this lie. But bi Gina saved me by telling Munah that I and bi Gina were discussing my mother's pregnancy. And Munah just believes, without asking anything more.

What I'm asking is Adam's absurd reasoning. He said it just because he missed his father. Father who has not been back to this city for a year. I too could only duck when Adam explained that. Only I know. Although Munah had asked me something that made me choked after Adam realized.

"You're sure, we've never seen his father, have we? Is it possible that Adam's father is dead? And, and their families cover it up? It could be! Sometimes the events in those movies can be real in our lives Nara."

Ah I'm dizzy, let it be just Adam's problem. And now I'm getting ready to go to one of the cafes, to meet Satria. My chat friends. I was busy wearing a corset, wearing it very tight. Until my stomach feels throbbing.

"Geez, that's so hard." I opened it again, took a breath and threw it away. All right, don't be too tight. I'll set the time, just an hour. So that I don't get too tortured either. I wear my toad pants, and I wear regular sweatshirts. Then coat it again with a knit cardigan. Don't forget I brought a sling bag measuring 20 cm. In order to be able to slightly cover the stomach when I carry it.

The first night I met Satria. No, this is the second one. This time it was all with a plan. Satria has just returned from abroad. Even though I talk to him often. But I also don't know how it works. All I know is, Satria is more mature than me.

Ting, incoming message notifications.

"I've arrived."

I immediately stepped out, locked the apartment and put the cell phone in the bag. Hah, it's been a long time since I've been out at night. Feeling the cold air, that's for me.

When I got to a cafe, the music softened. I'm looking for Satria's whereabouts. Where's she? I open the phone again, I'll text him.

"I've been"

"Nara?" I looked up, my message hanging. I can't lie. Satria is handsome.

"Satria's sister?" I pointed at him and smiled. He nodded and asked me to come in.

"I haven't gone inside yet. Intentionally waiting for you to come. So yeah I was in the car first." I just nodded and followed in his footsteps.

"That's it?" I nodded, sitting at the very corner. You can look around the cafe, staring at different angles. Including the cafe stage which is currently playing music. A couple of teenagers who filled out the show sat there. Her sweet voice can make me fixated, I like music too.

The cafe waiter came, brought her the menu book. I'm really not hungry, because I've been eating bi Gina's food that I brought home.

"Sister, I'll just drink." Satria was stunned to see me. "I ate my sister." He nodded then he also just ordered a drink. I also felt bad, thinking because I didn't want to order food, and Satria followed me.

"Are you on a diet?" He smiled wickedly. "You're fat now, much different when we first met." I myself became insecure hearing it. Honestly, when a man says that, I feel ashamed. How will my body shape after giving birth?

"Eh calm down but you're still pretty."

"really?"

"Are you happy to be praised?" I smiled and nodded. Not really, but my mind says something else.

The drinks came after 10 minutes of ordering. I only drink lemonade. I came here, just didn't want to see Satria disappointed. That's the absolute reason for me.

"Where did you go to college?" Uhuk, I immediately choked while drinking. Fortunately it did not gush into Satria's face.

"Eh slowly. I'm not gonna ask for your drink." I smiled and nodded. Satria thrust a tissue for me. Uh, if Adam must be the one who wiped my mouth. Why do I think Adam now?

"I'm just asking where you're going to college, why are you so shocked to choke?"

"Yes, I don't know where I want to go to college. I asked as soon as I remembered."

"Huh? You should have thought about that from now on. Won't the graduation exam be done in two months?" I shut up and thought, if only you knew what I am currently experiencing. You're not gonna ask me this.

"Nara?" I looked up again.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" Ha's? Why ask that? I'm sure the edges are definitely not tasty. Is Satria willing to express her feelings. I just want to be friends.

"No brother."

"Good." Well, he said good.

"Indeed you shouldn't have dated first. Think about the future, college and learning. That's number one. Because young people today, if you're dating, you'll definitely forget the purpose of his life." Geez, it turns out I'm just a puck.

"Sister never dated?" He sipped his drink and shook his head. Not ever? Where possible!

"You know, I have a lot of girlfriends. But on average they date, and make me a place of complaint. There's only one person who's never done that to me, as long as I know him."

"Who's brother?" I asked, if it really means he's just like me.

"You're Nara." I looked down, what is being praised now? Why do I feel like I was being misbehaved when I heard it?

"Sister, I really don't want to feel the name of dating. I don't want to fall in love, and one more. I don't want to get married and have a household." I purposely said this, just to make him understand. What I really am.

"You're serious about what you say?" I nodded again. "Why?"

"Sorry brother, maybe I can't give that excuse to brother. Enough I know, about the bitter past I've had."

"I think your life is pretty heavy?" I'm just smiling. I got the lyrics on my watch, there's still 20 minutes left to talk to him.

"You've your parents' permission to go out for the night?" This is one of the questions that trapped me. If I say yes, then I'm lying.

"So I like this song." I switched topics and pretended not to listen.

"Yes, do you like it?" I nodded, turned to him and smiled.

"Nara, do you have a brother? Brother or sister?" I shook my head, it turned out that Satria was very smart. He even found out about me and asked directly. So I can't think long to answer.

"Single child?" I nodded, smiling this time. I only have an adopted sister, and I don't consider a stepbrother living with my mother.

"Become brother?"

"He has, he's the same age as you. It's just, she's got a boyfriend, too."

"Why isn't my sister?" He smiled at me. Duh, why this?

"I? Hem, I have a commitment. If it's established then I'll find a future wife, not a girlfriend." I can hear it.

"Where will you work after this?" I asked again, it was cool to also meet directly with people we have never met, just reply to messages via chat. Want to ask or answer must also type a message first.

"I'll run the father's company."

"Oh, is the father a business man?" Satria nodded again.

I glanced at the watch again, it was time for me to go home. Although there are a few minutes left, but it feels like my stomach and my breath are already very tight. I think it's enough to have a question and answer session with Satria. After this I don't know either, he still wants to be friends with me or not. Because what I heard just now is that he's looking for a future wife after he's established. And I think, before he ran his father's company, he was well established. Even from birth, it is so if the child of a rich person, the treasure is not necessarily exhausted if eaten seven derivatives at once.

***

I went to school this morning, as usual. There's chocolate under my desk drawer. This time I directly ate it, the state of the class was still quiet. I came here early on purpose. I took the photo out of the bag, examined it carefully. In the bottom left corner, there was a very small hand. It will not be visible if only seen at a glance.

"No way, I'm looking for whose signature this is! How could? Is it possible that I should ask for the signature of every student in this school? Just because I want to know where Iam is now. It's not funny!" I spoke to myself, answered myself. Let it be, no one is listening so no one will think me crazy.

The class gets crowded, as the minutes go by. And coming to the first lesson, I glanced towards the place where Adam usually sat. But he wasn't there, Wahid sat there alone.

"You looking for Adam?" I nodded when Munah asked.

"She didn't come in today, maybe sick. Would you like it not if we came to his house?"

Didn't Adam say, if you want to come have to contact him first? Later there Adam was even angry if he came not to give news, even though just to visit him.

"Hey, you want to?"

"Huh? Uh, we better ask Adam. Who knows, he just needs a break and doesn't want to be disturbed. Isn't our arrival bothering him?"

"No way." I'm quiet again. Typing a message under the table so that it is not visible to the teacher. Ask about Adam. Ah should have called her from last night. Who will I tell you about this photo?

"You really don't want to?" Heh, I can only sigh. If I come out and say I don't want to be sure Munah will still force me. Alright I nodded in agreement.

***

"Nara, you're the one who pulled the bell." That's all why I have to.

"Sorry, find who?" We turned at once, a flier at Adam's house, who also wanted to go inside. Looks like I just got home shopping.

"Eh mbak, sorry. We're Adam's friends." Again I must be the victim, I speak.

"Oh his friend young master. I'm so sorry Adam and the family are out of town. Don't know when they're coming home yet." Deg. Why didn't Adam say? Not even my message was answered, nor was it read.

"Then excuse me, ma'am." The waiter nodded, and disappeared behind the gate after he entered. I stepped limp towards the car, as well as Munah.

"That's right, Adam really misses his father. And maybe his mother took him there so that Adam's longing could be cured."

"Eh, why didn't Adam ever tell you about his family? He should be able to tell us, so as not to be a burden alone."

I stayed focused on driving, not hearing what Munah was talking about. But all I know is that right now he keeps babbling.

"Nara!!!" I was shocked and looked.

"Why are you quiet?"

"I'm just worried about Adam."

"Not you, but me either." Silence, until my car reaches the front of Munah's house. I don't want to stop by, because if her mom finds out I'm coming. It's not that easy for me to go straight home. I can't stand it anymore, using this corset. Not only does it feel tight, but it also itches and heat. It's so hot my son.

I have to go home now, because I didn't check the contents last night. And finally, make a promise today. Ask the doctor who used to check on me to come to the apartment.

"You didn't stop by?"

"I just go home, because I also have other business. Say hi to mom, huh?" Munah nodded, but his face looked at me like it was curious about me now. Change, always refuse when invited to go or gather. Sorry, this is all I have to do. I miss them so much, miss their laughter. Wahid, I miss him a lot.

"Yes, you're careful." I nodded, and waited for Munah to close the car door.

"Eh, Nara. You don't hide anything!" He even opened it again. I smiled and nodded again.

"Yes." Yeah." Munah waved his hand at me. Heh, I feel very uncomfortable. Why didn't Adam tell me. What exactly did he see at bi Gina's house last night? Is it possible that bi Gina's husband was the one who had made her father die? It could have been, and finally Adam was shocked when he saw the photo. Uh but hearing bi Gina's story, her husband was a good man. What possible?

I'm just trying to speculate on my own, and relate the connection of the stories I hear. Didn't Adam say that the driver ran away after the incident, and lived a hard life with his family. It all has to do with the life of bi Gina.

"Adam, come on. You have to reply to my message!!" I hit the steering wheel, saw a cell phone that turned out to be Adam's number was off.

Without notice, the car arrived at the apartment. I quickly walked to the elevator. And when he arrived, bi Gina immediately opened the door for me. I barged in right away, bi Gina just shook her head.

I sat on the couch, leaning against my body. After opening the belt in the school skirt, and unbuttoning the corset.

"Huh, jamming bi. I can't stand it. How can I survive another two months. While those two months my stomach's getting bigger?" Bi Gina sat beside me, gently rubbing the top of my head.

"Patience, auntie is sure you can. You avoid walking long distances, you no longer need to go to the cafeteria. You just sit in class. If you feel bored. Excuse me to the bathroom, and then open for a second." I smiled, but I complained about Bi Gina. They always have a way out.

The sound of the bell rang, me and bi Gina against each other. Then bi Gina asked me to quickly enter the room. After that, bi Gina opened the door.

"Nara, Linda's doctor has arrived." Bi Gina shouted from outside the door. I quickly changed my clothes.

"Yes, just a minute."

After I've put on a loose negligee, which bi Gina bought. Ah it feels so relieved, and definitely much more comfortable.

"Doctor." I smiled opening the door. And bi Gina let Linda's doctor in.

"Let's lie down." First thing first, check my tension. Then doctor Linda touched my stomach. What I expect is good news, my fetus is healthy despite daily pressure.

"The height." Doctor Linda turned her head towards bi Gina, seeming to deliberately want bi Gina to know and hear.

"So how's the doctor? Is that a danger?"

"If it continues to be high, it is clearly dangerous. I suggest, for Nara do not think too much about the things that make her emotional. Get out of the house often, usually it can neutralize emotions. By looking at the outside scenery that is not boring." No wonder I never left the apartment. All I saw was the school wall and the bedroom wall.

"I opened it." I nodded, as Doctor Linda flipped over the negligee I was wearing. His eyes immediately rounded, like shock upon seeing my stomach. Wh why?

"Nara, are you wearing a corset too tight?" I can't answer, bi Gina help me.

"Doctor, the doctor knows. Nara still has to finish school. Two months later, I also did a graduation exam. If you don't do that, what if someone knows? It's not like Nara has to be kicked out of school either." Doctor Linda immediately sighed when she heard bi Gina's words.

Yes, since the beginning of my examination, Linda's doctor has understood. Circumstances and situations, but seeing my fetal development, Dr. Linda was afraid to always say that the fetus I was carrying was healthy. Doctor Linda just kept quiet, and put a stethoscope in her ear, applying a cold gel over my stomach. Next, he took out a fetal heartbeat-stimulating device inside the stomach. Turn around the stomach area, and get to the bottom. I heard it too. There really is life in there. Months later I will be a mother. When she finished, Linda's doctor removed the stethoscope.

"This is what I'm afraid of." What, I want to hear the doctor.

"Near his heart was weak, because every day had to be pressured." Doctor Linda sat on the sofa in the room. I got up too, and sat down on the bed.

"I suggest, to wear a corset do not be too tight. Although it shouldn't be wearing, how else." I looked down, only able to stare at my feet now. Hope the floor will find the answer soon. My eyes are heating up, I'm holding it. Don't let this fall, even if I know what Dr. Linda is thinking. It's all bad about me, a pregnant schoolboy. And don't have a man who should be responsible for this. Me alone, if I saw anyone else in my position, I would definitely blaspheme him. Say whatever I deserve to say. So do others, thinking the same about me, about the ugliness.

"Doctor, shall I ask you?"

"Say Nara."

"When I give birth later, can I ask her to give birth in the apartment?" Doctors Linda and bi Gina just looked at each other.

"Doctor, please. I don't want it all to go to waste." Then Linda doctor nodded. He even smiled, and walked towards me.

"If what bi Gina once said is true, I'm sure you'll find happiness later." I looked down, how could I possibly be happy after this. Without being able to feel called mother by my own son in front of people. Covering up his identity, my God. I don't want him to suffer like I do.

"Thank you doctor."

"Together." I'm like a kid now, which I'm going to have kids with right now.

"Nara, the vitamins must be taken until they run out, right?" I'm nodding. "Are you ready to do USG?"

"Bi? How's it?"

"Doctor, just wait until seven months."

"Yes already. Then excuse me."

"Let me take the doctor." I lay back on the bed. It is time for me to rest, sleep during the day is like an obligation for me.

Sleeping on my back is uncomfortable, I prefer tilting while hugging the bolster. I smile when my son kicks, every school I never feel. Being stuck with a corset.

"Nara??" I looked towards the door, that voice!!

"Nara, are you sleeping?" I pretended to close my eyes. I know, it's Munah coming. Gawat, I have to pretend to be asleep and stay in this position. Why did he get to the apartment so soon? Didn't I just take you home?

"You really sleep?" Munah started with the action, touched my ears, then pricked my nose with my fingers. Oh my God, I can't laugh. And lastly, I feel like my stomach is groping, don't!!

"Mune it!" He was shocked, and hit my arm.

"Well, you're not sleeping! Why is your stomach so hard?" I'm holding.

"Yes, I got a cold. Didn't you see that the doctor just examined me?" Munah.

"Yes anyway. But you were okay." I'm silent. Still in the same sleeping position. "When I say, you don't hide anything! What else is health!" I smile.

"You want to rest?" I nodded again, and made my face as clear as possible.

"Yes, you rest. I went home, I just stopped by for a while. Because it was accompanying my mother shopping, it just so happened that the place was not far from here." He patted my arm slowly. I still see Munah walking towards the door. Then Munah also turned his head, I waved my hand and smiled.

"Huh, almost there.."

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