Sky overcast

He called me

I who should not have run even forgot about it, after getting out of the car I immediately ran towards the hospital hallway. If you panic, you will forget anything. Like this, I forgot to ask about the room, and I had to walk back to the hospital reception desk.

"Thank you sister." After knowing I went straight to the mother's room, went through two aisles and turned to the right.

The thing that happened to my mother now made her own fears for me. Although I did not want the presence of the child I bear, I would still feel lost if he left suddenly.

"Laras, where's mom?" I saw Asraf and Laras sitting in front of my mother's room. I saw that Laras's eyes had been swollen from crying, she was crying for mom?

"Mom hasn't regained consciousness, brother, just finished surgery." I looked down, indeed I never admitted that the child conceived by the mother was my sister. Why does it feel like I am guilty. Then, where is the fetus?

"Why can?" I asked, I sat down too. My eyes are heating up, and I think it's also natural that I feel sad right now. But it's better this way, so I don't see mom crying.

"Sister? Brother why?" Baras saw me holding my head with both hands, he touched my shoulder. I just glanced and shook my head. Right now I really feel sorry to see mom.

"Say, how did it happen?" I saw Asraf sitting in silence, his face pale and his eyes blank. He is the most shocked here, losing his child candidate who did not have time to be born into the world in a state of life. It even seemed that Asraf was unaware of my presence, either he was not speaking.

"Mother fell, slipped. Then bleeding, when taken to the hospital the doctor immediately did an ultrasound. And it turns out, my sister didn't make it." Deg. Is he my brother too?

"Doctor, how's my wife?" The doctor who had just come out of the room to check on the condition of the mother was immediately asked by Asraf. He stood in front of the door of the room.

"It's better, if you want to go inside, only one person is allowed."

"Om sorry, I want to see you." I'm the one who advanced first. It is up to Asraf to be angry, his wife is my mother so he has no right to forbid me.

"Please." The doctor asked me to come in, om Asraf stood there. Then her son asked her to sit back.

My eyes are glazed over, not now! Tears had already fallen, flowing profusely past the cheeks. I walked slowly, holding the place where Mom lay.

"Mother?"

"Nara?" The answer is clear, my mother is conscious. Please, mother, don't cry.

"Nara, where's your sister?" Deg. Mama!!!

"Mom calm down, sorry." Was my birth also later like this by him? Would you feel the same way if you lost me? Oh my God, why at a time like this I still want to expect affection from him.

"If you lose a child now, isn't there still me? Am I not also a mother's child?"

"But different Nara, you're an adult. Are you far from your mother?" My body is slumped, I guess. I don't understand what I mean.

"I never meant anything to you." I said and immediately ran out of the room, that's enough for me now. Why do other people love me more than my own mother? Why God?

"Where are you going?"

"Sir Nara?" I just looked back and showed the rest of the tears. Then walk through the hospital hallway. A look full of pity from the people who were milling about in the hospital. Maybe they think I am suffering right now. Losing someone. It's true, I lost a sister-to-be, a sister I never wanted.

"Nara? Wait." Wait." My hand was already holding the car door, and one hand I used to wipe away the tears. My gaze was still blurred, I could only hear the familiar voice of a male.

"Nara? You why?" I made sure once again, that my vision was not wrong.

"Adam?" He's nodding. "I'm sorry I had to rush off?" Adam held my hand. Wait, since when is Adam here?

"I'm having business accompanying my mother on medication. And accidentally saw you. So I'm after you." I was silent, my hand was off the car door. Change position to lean in the car.

"Hey, why are you crying?"

***

The twilight sky was gone, changing with the darkness of the night side. Adam took me home to the apartment and left the car to the driver. I do need a hug right now, but I'd rather hug myself. I let Adam do what he did. He sat in the kitchen and made me some hot tea. Until he brought back a bowl of noodles.

"I don't want to eat."

"I didn't tell you to eat, I wanted to eat because I was hungry. If you want me to share with you."

"Adam!!" I screamed but also laughed.

"No, we ate both?" Doubt to nod. Damn it, I was tempted by the thin smoke coming from inside the bowl. Adam made me swallow the salivary.

"I'm sorry, I took one of yours."

"You have to replace it." I didn't mean it, anyway, the noodle stock was long ago. Before bi Gina came to the apartment.

"Now you're telling me, actually why were you crying? And why are you in the hospital?" I was sitting and watching Adam eat my ramen, his mouth open and closed because of the spicy taste.

"My mom's sick, she's miscarried." Adam, who wanted to put the noodles back in his mouth, dropped them again in the bowl.

"So you're sad because of that?" I shook my head, not because of that.

"Had I didn't want to talk about it, you better finish the ramen fast, then go home. I want a break."

"You kicked me out?"

"No, I just want to be alone first."

I took my phone and played it. There were some missed calls from Satria. Maybe because I think of heavy things I don't hear my phone ringing. Ah never mind, I no longer want to be in touch with him, be it just brother sister or friend.

"I want to accompany you here, Nara."

"No Dam. Just leave me here alone, I just want to rest." Adam was silent and finished the ramen noodles he made himself.

"Well, you're going to school tomorrow, right?"

"Well, I have an appointment with the gym teacher, too."

"Promise with the teacher?" Adam slammed the chopsticks! Staring sharply at me. My mouth always forgets to put the brakes on, don't they know?

"Eh no. I have an appointment that I won't be taking any more days off until the exam time comes." Answer me with a smile.

Adam had finished his meal and brought the bowl to the kitchen. He also washed it, he said pity bi Gina better wash it herself.

"You're careful on the road." I waited for Adam at the door.

"You careful too, huh? Don't dissolve in sadness." I returned it with a smile.

Although it was not too late, I chose to sleep. But this time I heard many times that my phone was ringing aloud. It really disturbed my sleep. No, I haven't even closed my eyes yet.

"Satria?" Worried, should I answer or not?

"Hallo?"

"Nara! I just wanted to apologize. Why won't you return the message and pick up my phone?"

Well, maybe I should have been frank with him, so as not to bother me anymore by calling and texting constantly.

"Nara?"

"Sorry brother. Don't ever call me again. You no longer need to text and call me. What else to come to the apartment."

"But Nara, I know you're pregnant."

"Sister mean?"

"I could've told someone else about this, weren't you scared?" I squeezed the phone that was stuck to my ear.

"Please brother." I immediately disconnected the phone call, blocking the number so that I could no longer contact me.

***

I looked for the teacher, after putting the bag in the classroom. I intend to give it now, a poem for his wife that's going to be his birthday. I doubt when I get into the office. Usually if so early not all teachers have come. I just stood there, waiting for the teacher to show up on his own.

"Nara, find who?" I looked up, uh there was a teacher.

"Find me Master."

"Which teacher?" Geez, I scratched my own head, doesn't the teacher have a name as well.

"I mean Mr. Effendi Ma'am."

"For a minute, he's inside." I put on a smiley lips, thank goodness I thought I would be standing here until evening.

"Nara? What's up?" The teacher looks confused. I immediately took out an envelope tied with a small ribbon. Haha, I made it myself.

"This sir, as promised." When the teacher received the small envelope, his face was a bit confused. Did he forget in a day?

"That's a poem sir. The poem you asked for your wife." The teacher immediately stroked the top of my head, even saying thank you so many times.

"Preferably you read first, I am also not a good author sir. There's an extra word you want to make." The teacher nodded.

"No, you're gone. Thank you for helping me. Oh yes, as a thank you, I will practice lunch, how? You can take your friend."

"Aren't you, sir?" I refused with both hands. Invite friends? My friend has three people, how about everyone? Isn't that her name? No, I better just refuse.

"But I'm sincere, a piece is expensive. Don't you know? Even steak can't pay for someone's work." I doubt, even all the students who were passing by looked at me with question marks, alright rather than not run around I nodded.

And this afternoon I already have an appointment with Mr. Effendi, the teacher with sports subjects. When I was not in class for long, the bell rang. I pulled out the textbook from the bag, then groped my desk drawer.

"Why isn't there?"

"What doesn't exist?" I turned towards Munah with a bent position, trying to find again who knows tucking.

"Brown, nothing."

"Well, did anyone not go to class today?" Look at the whole class, then shrug your shoulders.

"Only Adam did not enter."

"Adam?" Where could he be. I'm sure Iam is in class with me.

"Yes, why the hell?"

"Munah, I'm sure that the man who put the chocolate down didn't come today."

"You'd better put the CCTV near your desk. So that you are not curious either, I am also actually very curious. Actually who always puts chocolate in your desk drawer."

Teacher is already sitting in front, I can no longer move around looking for something.

"God."

Munah accidentally elbowed my stomach while looking down to pick up a falling pen.

"Eh sorry, sick? I didn't mean it to Nara. Sorry huh?"

"That's it, just like that you're panicking!" I smiled and stroked my stomach, it actually hurt.

"Why is your stomach so hard?" I immediately threw away the sight, the reason, I should have a reason. So that Munah no longer thinks that I'm pregnant.

"I used a corset, you saw my body getting bigger, so I used this. The price is also expensive, he says it can help you lose weight."

"You eat less, otherwise your body grows bigger like Aisah!"

"Mune?!"

"Kinara, why?" Dead me, the teacher knows that me and Munah are talking. His eyes were so sharp, I just looked down. No, why are there footsteps approaching.

"What are you doing?" I looked up, then looked at each other with Munah. I hope Munah will explain immediately so that there is no misunderstanding.

"Sorry Mom, I just accidentally elbowed Kinara's stomach, then she complained of pain."

"Is it still sick?" Huh huh? Why is his speech soft now?

"Eh no Ma." I nodded and smiled with a confused face.

"If you feel sick, then go to the UKS." I answer it no longer, just this is why I have to go to the UKS.

"You should just go, it's good to fall down." I was stunned to hear his words, damn it! I pinched him until Munah grimaced in pain. I laughed in satisfaction without a sound.

"Alright, go to page 65." Well the lesson really is already underway.

A few hours past the lesson, I was able to breathe a sigh of relief when I heard the bell coming home from school. Sometimes the waiting time can feel very long, but today even I can pass the time quickly. Ah relieved..

I was the last one out of class, Munah left me first. Since he was also going to go with Wahid, I was actually also invited, but I already have an appointment with the teacher.

"Nara?" When I stepped out of the classroom, there was already a teacher waiting in front. He waved at me and smiled.

"Where do you want to eat?"

"Just give it up."

"Why eat meatballs? You want? The weather today?" Uh I reflect instead looking up at the sky. True, the sun is invisible but also not cloudy.

"Yes sir"

We left in our own cars. A simple food stall, I went down and looked at the quite crowded customer here. My hunch says that meatballs here must be delicious. Ever since I was pregnant, I loved fruitful food. Only, I rarely eat in places like this, the first time I remember eating with my sisters. Oh my goodness, so remember them. It has also been a long time since they have lived more comfortable and decent.

"Nara, what do you want to order, and what do you want to drink." I waited for the waiter to come and give me the menu, but why isn't there. The seller was busy taking care of other customers.

"Sir, I'm the same as you." The teacher nodded and stood up from his place, then ordered a bowl of meatballs and a bottle of cold tea.

It turns out how to order not through the menu book.

"I'm sorry, you've never eaten at a stall like this? You know enough money to eat here, payday is still one week away." I laughed, honestly I was actually awkward eating with a teacher who was also the same age as my father. But his honesty made me feel like me and the teacher were friends.

"It's okay sir, I've also eaten in a place like this." When the dish came, puffing smoke from inside the bowl, ah I so imagined the ramen that was eaten by Adam last night. My saliva was almost dripping, mad master teacher poured so much sauce and chili. Was he not afraid of his stomach ache?

"Don't eat meatballs that taste spicy." Yes, I remembered eating with bi Gina that time, which I myself could not afford to spend. But it seems even more interesting, well I'll try it again.

Hu ha, I fanned my mouth that felt like it was burning. Clear liquid coming out of the nose, then I suck again. The teacher laughed at my facial expression.

"Drink Nara." He gave me a bottle of iced tea.

"Thank you sir."

"I'm so anxious to bring my son, to imagine that you're him now." Why is melow? Tears should have fallen by this time because the food was too spicy, but instead it was out of sadness.

"Prophey sir. It's one of God's living trials for your family." The teacher smiled and went back to stabbing the meatballs with a fork.

I opened my phone when I heard the message ringing.

"Yes, I'm sorry today I didn't give you the chocolate you used to. Because I couldn't afford it."

And under the message marked the sender's name. My eyes immediately rounded. Is this really Iam?? Oh, my God, my heart's pounding right now.

I'm confused, what to reply to now?

"Are you in school today?" I replied to him, hoping very much he also returned it again.

"Yes." Yeah."

Oh my goodness, I thought it was Adam. Because he's the only student not in my class.

"Why Nara?" I looked up, apparently from earlier the teacher noticed me.

"Eh no sir." I put my phone on the table. Then grab the meatballs in the bowl again, and sip again the spicy sauce. I'll continue to talk to Iam later when I'm in the apartment.

"Sir?" The teacher looked at me while chewing.

"Is there anything in our school called Iam?" He was still thinking while continuing to chew.

"Your?" I'm nodding. "It doesn't seem to exist." My heart breaks, if only I knew his real name would be easy for me to trace. Geez, I can't wait to call her right away.

"Why is Nara?"

"It's okay sir."

I picked up my phone again, then typed in a message.

"Adam, why don't you come in today? Are you sick from eating ramen? I have good news about my little friend, he just called me." I smiled as I typed in a message.

"Paul does not exist, but if Adam exists." Huh huh? I laughed a little, but I did not know what the teacher meant.

"Father often noticed, you're close to Adam huh?"

"Not just with Adam sir. But also Munah and Wahid."

"No, your closeness is different, ah young man." Did ya? Did anyone else see it too? Ah don't-don't Elena's post yesterday in the form of innuendo is true for me?

"If going to calm down is an unreasonable reason, when you see you often with him"

Yeah, I remember that Elena posted a photo of a rose with that caption. Aaahhh, my mood is changing like this!!

Not felt, the noodles and meatballs in the bowl are exhausted, the sauce is also left a little. I never thought I could spend it myself.

"Be careful on the road. Oh yes, I send greetings with your father." Before parting ways and getting into the car, the teacher gave me a message.

"Yes sir. I am also grateful to my father for treating me to eat at the time of your finances mediocre." What am I talking about, laughing again.

"Sir, have you prepared a gift for your wife?"

"This means all the way home I'll buy it." I grabbed the bag from inside the car. Open the contents of the wallet and take a few pieces of money a hundred thousand.

"Sir, I don't have time to buy something for my father's wife, nor do I know what my father's wife likes." I took the teacher's hand and put the money in his hand. "So you buy it."

"Nara, what is this?" I smile.

"Make additional father buy it. Sorry sir, I don't mean to underestimate you. I'm sure you've prepared the money by now. But that's an excess of pocket money that dad gave you yesterday." He shook his head and intended to return the money to me.

"No sir, that's your sustenance. Hehe just consider it a payment for my grades." I got into the car, afraid that the teacher would return the money to me. About the value I really just joked, I really sincerely give him. Making others smile is one of my hobbies.

"Thank you Nara." I nodded and drove my car. "Be careful." The teacher was still standing in his place. When it was some distance away, I saw from the rearview mirror of the car, the teacher counted the money and hugged him in the arms, it seemed like he was giving thanks for his recovery on this day.

I was driving with one hand, the road was still empty during the day, so I could use one hand to drive, and one hand I used to read the incoming messages.

"Ah turns out to be Adam, I guess Iam." I muttered and read it.

"I'm not in today, because there's family business not because ramen is yours. Really, congratulations."

Why do I feel like Adam doesn't? The message he sent did not indicate that he was happy. I threw that thought away and refocused the car.

Seriate..