Short Story (Cerpen)
He's Not My Match
Category: Islamic Love Story
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The winter morning breeze greeted a young man who was memorizing the Quran on his way. Early in the morning after the dawn prayer, he had gone out of his flat in Matariah to Hussein. His activities began by depositing memorization of the Quran, attending talaqqi in Al Azhar Mosque and lecture muhadarah. After college he connected again with talaqqi until the time of Isya, then anchored to the flat at exactly 12 pm. Going home early in the morning becomes her daily meal, except Friday’at and Saturday.
Friday night’at is a weekly evaluation time, tahajjud and muhasabah for viki. He asked for forgiveness for the sins he had committed. Sometimes he regretted his negligence from level one to three, which he thought was no progress. Unstoppable, tears were dripping softly over the expanse of her alphabet. It was this regret that burned his spirit to spend the rest of his time in Cairo. Saturday, the day of the refresh.
This Saturday, Viki chose silaturrahmi to flat his class brother in Sabi?. There they talked warmly, really feeling the real brothers in one family. Instantly, he remembered his biological brother who was so indifferent to him, not often greeting, let alone the story. Plus, both of her parents had long since died which made her less touched by the family warmth. Moreover, in a state far like this, chat alone never, anything more than that.
“Ah, leave!!! He can't change” he murmured in his heart.
After a long discussion about daily activities. Like a man who has the status of two heads, the conversation began to fuss,
“So after this Lc, whose planning?” ask Dani, his class brother.
“Means?” viki.
“Ah, that alone need explanation, wedding planning vik!” said Dani.
“Hmm, I just graduated this 22 years Lc, why rush try? That brother who uda 25 first sana” Viki quipped.
“Kalo I have already taken S2 in Al Azhar, so must focus the thesis first two years. If you're not tied to anything yet, chance!” she seduced.
“If only finished it two years, otherwise how? Want five more years?” viki held back a laugh.
“Breaky, the prayer is not a good-good little bit that!”
“Laaah, that is already the best you know, let you quickly get married!” he was silent, then continued “But in my opinion, would like to eat what wife try later if married when we have no work,” his voice is low.
“This is it, you are mistaken vik. Allah has arranged the sustenance of each servant, so do not be afraid!” refute Dani.
The discussion continues to be exciting, a lot of wisdom surrounds their chat. I don't think time has shown at 10 p.m. Viki was too happy.
Their conversation was still imprinted on Viki's memory on the way home. His memory twirled back the story of High School first. When the viki chat with the lover of the heart, Maya, accompanied by her classmate, Novi.
“Viki take college what later?” ask Novi.
“It is still unclear, between Electrical Engineering and Informatics. Novi what?”
“Novi is not yet clear, worry between IPA or IPS lines. If Maya?”
“Novi should think about it quickly. If Maya takes psychology, college four years, work one year, continue marriage” Maya replied with confidence.
“Means Maya marriage target age 23 gitu?” ask Novi.
“Iya! You see, the age above 23 is considered a spinster in a virtual family, because the sister of all marriage before the age of 23. Oya, remember tu viki, Age Two Three!” he said with a smile.
The mood was silent for a moment. In the mind the viki continues to digest what maya has just said.
“Life 23? It's hard for me to marry” in her mind.
“Hmm, the age of 23 viki is nothing else, how to marry” said Viki frowned. Suddenly the lesson sign bell rang as well as ending their chatter.
After the incident, Viki's attitude to maya changed, he began to keep his distance, not sure this relationship would work. Maya is his first love, a love that comes from first sight. Maya reveals her love first. Viki is not the type of guy who plays with women, if once he steps up, he has to commit. Commitment in the relationship, that's what Viki always expected. But since then his commitment is fragile, he has been at the conclusion “maya is too selfish, he only thinks about his circumstances, without wanting to understand Aku”
Across the others, Maya also feels the change of Viki. He regretted his words that he should not have said, his guilt continued, until finally Maya sms viki, he said,
“Viki, maya apologizes yes, maya doesn't have to, maya knows it's too selfish.”
Maya long waiting for a reply from viki but never arrived. In school, Maya and Viki do not meet each other as usual. Their classes were neighborhood, but when they got to school, the viki went straight to class, and when it was finished, the viki went straight home.
Maya's grief grew with each passing day, her heart ached. In class, Maya seems lethargic, not as loud as she used to be,
“Why are you with viki? Any problem? Donk story is the same virgin, do not be guaranteed,” friends try to entertain.
“Not why-not dar” reply maya flat.
“Maya can not lie equally virgin, dara tau kok why” dara took a deep breath, “Hmm, right from the beginning of the virgin has said, do not pronounce love before the time comes, do not say, but leave it to the Creator of Love”
“Hmm, So now how dar? Don't pojokin maya anymore donk!” maya asked sad and upset.
“Now try Maya muhasabah herself. Rest assured that it is Taufiq and Hidayah from Allah, so that we are aware and do not continue the relationship” the advice of the gentle virgin.
“Iya dar, maya try to follow the advice of dara. And Maya also apologized from the beginning did not want to hear the advice of virgin,” maya pilu.
Little by little Maya realized the meaning of the words of virgin, that the application of love that she lived was lost. Maya mused for quite a while, comparing her current state of ‘self’ with now. He realized he was khilaf. Although late, with a strong determination, he entrusted this love to God how it should be, and after his heart was calm maya sent Viki again,
“Viki, maya apologizes, maya is wrong. Now it's up to viki, viki hates maya, viki considers virtual selfish. From today on, we live each other's lives. Once again maya apologizes yes.”
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Work in the PU office makes the days of aris walk light. This afternoon, during an office break, he fiddled with his laptop, searching and chatting. This is his second year as a PNS in the PU Office after completing his degree in Civil Engineering. His earnestness when college paid off, his monthly salary has exceeded enough to live single or when married later.
When engrossed in chatting, he saw an account with the name viki hakem was online. Yes, viki his sister, it's been two years they don't communicate with each other, since his sister went to school in cairo. His initial intention was to say hello to Viki, but he was suddenly startled by his co-worker,
“Aris! Mulu chatting. Lunch of yuk. Last night you said there was something you wanted to talk about, all while eating. Almost out of break time ni” tegur andi.
“Siiip” he almost forgot his promise, aris instantly turned off the laptop and rushed to the canteen. Then order a lunch menu.
That afternoon, Aris wanted to convey something very important. Which he could not hide for too long. This makes some of the days unsettled. Once sure he started, too,
“Andi, sory here. I want to talk to you about something, important! But I'm not a poet who can string up beautiful words so please understand.” he was silent for a moment and continued, “Two years we've been friends, during that time I often go to your house, you know, we are quickly so familiar. What I want to say, when I go to your house, I often see one girl in your house, her name is Maya if I don't hear wrong” said aris bluntly.
“iya, That's ris's cousin's sister. Tumben you are discussing this problem!”
“ariiiiis, you're serious!” cut andi.
“First, this may be because my age is already worthy to.” he did not finish his sentence. Both are silent, each one is stuck in the mind.
“Don't be too formal that's also ah. Okay okay, look, just come to my house but when I'm not home, talk to my dad first, because he's been living in my house for a long time, then just to his bokapnya. This problem I don't want to talk, besides you're a good person. If he says okay, I'll go with him. I'm just a little surprised, why love can come suddenly like this” he said long.
Aris just smiled “Thank guys, let's eat first” take her.
When the time was right, Aris stepped into andi's house, wanting to convey the heart's long-buried intent. Bokap andi also gave his home address so that Aris spoke directly with Maya's father. After a few days, he stepped into the address given. Still with the same purpose. He was warmly welcomed by Maya's father. After introducing yourself and expressing the intent. Maya's father asked her to return next Thursday.
He felt a veil of life begin to unfold, until the day in question. It turns out there is Maya and her family and and andi. After Aris conveys the heart. Her father asked for Maya's consent. Maya is downcast, embarrassed and hesitant to become one within her,
“Maya can not answer now well, maya will answer after three days”
02:00 pm
Maya honors in her Istikharah. The longing for love that used to flow melodiously. The love that he once placed on the Creator of Love. He believes, Viki still keeps the same taste, although until now did not greet him. Viki's attitude disconnects communication according to him to stem love in order to be beautiful in time.
But with this incident, Maya ventured to send a message to the viki via twitter, the only link that might be conveyed. He left all doubts and continued to write in very fine language. Then sending.
Cairo at 20:30
Friday night’at this Viki choose refreshing in front of the PC screen that is parallel to the mattress while online. When he was composing a PC, he saw a message on Twitter. He opened it and read it. “From maya”, he was surprised, “a long time ago, what is it” he said, and began to read, ,
“Then love brought us together
Then the hatred instantly destroys the taste
Tonight with all my longing, I greet you again
Greet your body that has long been far away
But I am sure your heart is still very close
Viki, maya has been proposed by someone. Maya suspends answer for three days. Maya is confused vik. He was a good friend of my cousin's brother. Maya has no idea how or why to refuse. Please speak out for me who is enveloped in longing for you”
“Finally the thing I imagined happened” there was sadness from his voice.
Soon, his phone rang a sign of an incoming message, from Aris, his brother.
“viki, I have proposed to a woman, one generation with you at SMU. But there was no answer from him. He delayed it for three days. Please pray to be accepted”
“people more specific donk bang” Tanya viki was-was.
“Maya Lestari, stay at Lamprit” message from across.
“What?!” Viki surprised. The whole world stops when the heart of the viki beats. It was a little difficult to digest the message. Silence for quite a while. Is this news true? or just a dream? “No, it's real!” his heart was fucked then. His eyes glazed over the tears of sorrow. He lay his body on the bed dissolved in grief.
“Life is cruel, so narrow is the world! Until the people in it should rotate in the same circle!” ogre.
He tries to calm down and be more mature. It's just about love. According to him, It is free for him to study religion if with love alone he is fragile. “My love has been entrusted. Maya is not who I am.” murmured.
He can't tell the truth to Aris, it will make things worse. There is also no need to say it to maya, let time be reported. “I cannot be selfish, while I myself am not ready” he said slowly. He withered.
After he calmed down he texted his brother,
“Hopefully received bang, will be prayed from here.”
Then sit back in front of his PC. Stare at the sharp keyboard, and start typing, and,
“I didn't realize when love came
But I was an active actor when the love was gone
I stayed away because the path of love we took was forbidden
Still pure in my heart that love
It's still clear in my eyes when you smile
It also still rings in my ear when you promise
But to fulfill your wish I cannot
To marry you at 23 I'm not ready
Now I try to forget everything
Forget the bitter and sweet memories of being together
My love has been given
Live in the glory of happiness with your love”
After reading the reply from the viki, maya cried, “Viki, I'm sorry, I'm just a weak human who can't rule the world, but the world that rules me. I don't want to wait for you, but you seem to have closed that hope by just leaving my life” said in his heart. He cried himself to sleep on the bed.
A month has passed, the wedding ceremony was held solemnly. Two people who do not know each other will go to a family ark. Stephen R. Covey once said, Love is a verb and love is the fruit of the work of Love.
After marriage, the nature of the cute aris on his sister changed. Her brother now often asks her news via sms and phone. One side of the viki was pleased with the change in attitude of his brother. But his mind was still frozen into conflicting feelings polarized in black and white, never imagining his own brother making him lose love. Then Viki spilled his heart on a piece of paper,
“The love I fought for in silence, has gone. That's because the world knows better ‘He's Not My Matchmaker”.
*kru el Asyi
