Short Story (Cerpen)

Enlightenment Love

Category: Triangle Love Cerpen

Title: The Enlightenment of Love

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At first I never thought that you and I would be us. At first I never thought that you would be the one who would always be next to me. Even at first, I thought he was the man I was hugging tightly, not you as you are right now. However, I hope you don't misunderstand me, even though I didn't expect it at first, now I realize I really love and love you as a lover, not a sister.

The night sky in my city this time is really so beautiful, the cold night breeze makes this night so tempting. I turned my face to the figure of the man who was currently right by my side, I gently stroked his face that was so cold. The man gave me the warmest smile in the cold of the night, and the warm kiss that landed on my forehead really made me love him even more. I hugged his arms tighter and tighter, so that no one could separate us, not even the night wind was reluctant to disturb our warmth. That night Bandung really made me perfect.

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The holiday is over. For me a few weeks being in California was pretty good too. The palm trees, the vast Pacific Ocean stretching almost as wide as the sky, the pastel colors that are in, all of it can make me fascinated. I hope every California semester break will always remain enchanting. It's true, once every six months me, my dad, and my mom would definitely go to Northern California to just see how Grandma is doing. It is very difficult to persuade grandmother to move to Indonesia, the reason for grandmother is simple is memories. Okay, as a young boy I understand so well that when it comes to memories, maybe grandfather's departure is still so painful, obviously my grandfather died in an accident a few months ago. Oh, yes even though I'm a granddaughter of a grandmother and a grandfather who was in California, this vacation was the first time I was in their residence. But that doesn't mean I've never met my grandma and grandpa, usually they visit us, they say they miss Indonesia, but they don't want to leave California. It may be a memory they find hard to leave behind.

Tired and drowsy so attached, I still find it hard to get out of the bed snare I've left behind while I'm in California. While outside the room my mother had been ranting because it was not only me who was still difficult to get out of the room, my father was the same as me, obviously so early this mother had been careless like this.

'yes it's dad, Vivi's mom said yes, bye' I kissed my parents' cheeks.

'please be careful' they waved and threw a smile that always managed to make me so excited, especially this is the first day where I have to go back to my activities as a High School student, he said, after we went on vacation to California.

Not too early in the morning, but the atmosphere in my class was still so quiet, maybe they were the same as me, lazy to return to activities after almost a month of our vacation. However, in addition to the warm smiles of my parents, there are other encouragement that make me always have to come to school. Even if I don't get to the hospital, if it's just the flu or the common cold I'm going to force to keep coming to school, the reason is because of them, my best friend, my brother, and him.

'hallo gorgeouskk' that super shrill voice finally back I heard, she is Susan, my only – friend. I have many friends but not friends.

'hi emass' voice I shouted right in his right ear. She grimaced, but soon she finally sat down beside me.

'ah can deh lo, uh I miss Vi, how-how you have to understand all about California the same me, MUST!' Susan pressed a voice on the word 'must' yes so inevitably I had to tell all of what I saw to my best friend.

'but there's a condition San, you have to understand what you know and I don't have a problem with Willy during my time in California, okay?' At first, Susan was so hesitant but finally she smiled and stated that her conditions would be fulfilled.

Seriously Susan listened to what I was saying, she was stunned for a while but one second after that she said 'that's normal Vi'. She was my super-thumb best friend, but she was so capable of making me laugh.

'okay, that's A to Z about California. What about Willy now? he asked me, didn't he?' I'm always excited if we talk about our senior named Willy.

'hmm during this holiday he was sick Vi, he got typhoid. But calm him today to go to school, and when I was with my brother looked up, he perfect nanyain lo kok'

I was surprised to hear what Susan said. Sick? ah I should have been by Willy's side. 10 months for me it was quite a tiring time to wait for someone. However, I was still so loyal to this exhaustion, because it was the exhausting thing itself that kept me going, because he always gave me a lot of hope.

More and more, many are beginning to find out that I love Willy's brother, and I'm sure Willy's brother knows that I love him. However, no attitude of change was seen from him. It remains the same as before. I never knew what he meant to me all this time, he was so close to me, and yet, he still hangs our closeness, he still gives me a thousand hopes, he still gives me, even though there was not a single hope that he made come true.

After hearing from Susan, I rushed to see Willy's sister in her class. Actually a bit hesitant to go to that class, obviously Willy's senior class is at the very end, and inevitably I have to pass through ten twelfth grade rooms. While all the eyes of the seniors were so sinister, let alone seeing me running and they were annoyed. There were some seniors who shouted, some were glaring, but most of them were confused. And when I got to Willy's class, I saw him being mobbed by his friends, maybe they wanted to know how his friend was doing. I can't do anything about it, though, if I suddenly knock on the door and want to ask permission to talk to Willy's sister maybe I haven't had time to ask the state of Willy's sister I've been the subject of the plotting of Willy's friends. Hih I goosebumps myself, but when I was about to leave his class, someone waved his hand at me. 'sister Ridwan' I shouted and returned a wave of his hand. I'll approach her soon. However, I guess when I ran and shouted the name of Ridwan's brother, and also when I turned back to look towards Willy's senior class, he got out of his class and saw me and Ridwan hugging.

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Finally we decided to choose a Japanese restaurant for lunch this time. Our taste is always the same, we order ramen noodles that are very high in spiciness. I feel good for Ridwan, he is so good, he always takes time for me, he always defends me, he always makes me special, and we love each other. Ah, anyway the two of us are very suitable to be siblings, but unfortunately we are not siblings, for me he is a 'grandfather'. Since childhood I always dreamed of having a brother let alone an older brother, but it was impossible because according to the doctor my mother could not conceive and give birth again, because there was malleability in her womb. However, there is really nothing impossible, however, the older brother is not just a delusion, Ridwan now he is not an ordinary senior for me, but he is my brother.

'how's Vi, California?'

'lumayan kak, brother how is Surabaya?' I'm always happy if we have this kind of time together, obviously, even though Ridwan always tries to take his time, but on the other hand I'm always bad, especially remember if Ridwan has a lover.

'congratulations' he answered flatly. 'Just good enough?' I was really confused by Ridwan's answer.

'why indeed? didn't you also just answer me kindly?'

'huh uh? ohh yes' I scratch my head, again I always look crisp in front of him. However, before long Ridwan laughed and ruffled my hair. Until finally our super spicy ramen noodles order has come.

'oh, brother, you know Willy's brother is sick and into the treatment room? I feel sorry, and I want to apologize because I didn't have time for her to get sick, what do you think?' I'm sure Ridwan is tired of listening to me always trying to talk about Willy's brother, to the point that he just answers with body language, nods, skirts, or just responds with 'hm' 'oh' 'yes'.

However, after his ramen noodles had been finished he ate, Ridwan began to open his mouth.

'do you still like Willy Vi? didn't you cape wait almost a year, hang a kayak gini? and you don't forget that he hanged a lot'

'brother, sister Willy gave me hope, he didn't hang me at will. At least I was hanging with a nice hanger, not a bad one. haha' I tried to answer it with a joke, but I guess it's really not funny, though, therefore I do not like if the problem of feeling in the hook-associated with jokes. Because somehow it's not aligned.

'you need to use a new hanger or it's rusty the same Vi, just hang it, and wait for it to dry for long'

'but if it's dry it must be out of the hanger, right?'

'haven't you forgotten again, if you are separated from the hanger all will also be removed, how is it? his certainty? and you must want him to spread the seeds of hope to all his hangers'

'oh, no, add nothing. Mening go home yuk kak' I pulled Ridwan's arm.

We rode a motorcycle, and during the ride Ridwan drove me home, I kept thinking about our conversation. Honestly, I don't understand it at all, but I was able to catch that this is Ridwan's sister telling me to be careful, he was worried if I became a victim of false hope Willy.

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'Vivy, you've been waiting for big brother for almost a year, right? why do you want your sister to hang up like a gini? is that so special brother in your eyes? mending you are dating Ridwan. Haha' I was so surprised to hear what Willy's brother had said, let alone that he said it with a loud laugh. This is no joke! I hate it when heart problems are considered to be just a joke. As my body temperature warmed, my throat ached, my eyes reddened and watering, I stood up and looked at my idol deeply. 'You think how? I waited for you for almost a year! Every day I think about you! Laugh for a while, and then cry. I'm always tough if sometimes you don't think of me! Because I'm sure you'll choose me. But now, you think this is just a joke? goddamn hick!'. It felt like saying it all, but what a force of this heart could not bear to let my mouth put out such harsh words.My mouth froze, my tears began to drip, and finally I ran away from the man I always adored.

'brother Willy Vi. Hiks hiks' I don't think I can tell you what happened to my best friend. But Susan kept forcing me to tell her. Until I finally lost, and told her what Willy's sister had done to me.

'what? that jerk is a guy! Look she's famous, she's just playing girls like you!' now Susan let go of his embrace.

'Vi, you are wrong too! I knew he was like that you were waiting for him!'

That's right, what Susan said. It seems I've never been deterred from loving, waiting, even being hurt by Willy's sister. And if I'm to be honest, with what just happened, it's not really a reason for me to stop loving her. It's just, I need a little time to recover this feeling of mine.

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The morning greeted me again. However, unlike the previous mornings, today I was so uninspired to start the day. As usual, my mother was already nagging because me and my father had not yet left the room. I glanced at a yellow-coated book that was right next to my cheek. A diary book. 'hallo mimos, thank you all you want to be my place again, you are not bored if I keep writing about sister Willy?' it may seem like a crazy person, but I always try to keep the diary alive. Mimos, I used to call him. In the book, all about the turmoil to love and wait for the figure of Willy's sister. And there's one picture of him that I'm sticking out, that really looks so dashing. But besides Willy, I also put a photo of Ridwan in my diary. I feel, in addition to the photo of sister Willy, I also have to paste a photo of sister Ridwan.

'I've heard it all from Susan. How do you want it now?' I was so surprised by the presence of Ridwan's brother who suddenly met me in the classroom.

'huh uh? mean brother?'

'you don't have to wait for him anymore'

'loh, what the hell is brother bullshit? I'm so hurt by what Willy's sister said. But now I'm not ko, brother don't need to worry, because even now I'm more sure the same brother Willy. Brother know? this morning when I opened the door, there was a rose right in front of the door. At first I was surprised, but not long after Willy passed my house, and finally we left together. Hehe's'

'continue you are sure that the flower is from him?'

'iya dong' I answered briefly.

Same with Ridwan, Susan looks less sure, if Willy's sister who has given me a flower. However, even though Ridwan and Susan didn't like Willy's sister, I was sure that one day Willy and I would be together.

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I don't think the holidays will finally come again. California will be my family's vacation destination, the same as the previous vacation. And today is the last day that I have to go to school, before tomorrow I have to go visit my grandmother and grandfather.

'iya San, tomorrow I leave. This holiday I think I will miss the same heavy sister Willy, hehe'

'ah lo Vi, not every holiday most lo kangenin tuh Willy ya'

'yes, yes. But you know this one month I've been hanging out with him again. Because the roses are San loh, you still crave?'

Yes, this holiday I will definitely miss my idol' although it's true what Susan said, every vacation that makes me want to go to school quickly, sister Willy. However, this time is different, it looks like the last day of school for Willy to formalize our relationship. I don't know if I'm so sure of today, let alone this morning I saw Brother Willy carrying a rosebud before he finally entered his class.

In the classroom I kept feeling bad, it seemed like Susan was also in a hurry, but she said she was not stubborn because Willy's sister would express her feelings to me, but on the contrary, she said, Susan's afraid that I'm just going to the geeer.

'eh let's go out, try to see on the basketball court there is a good spectacle' the voices of my classmates alternately say the same thing. Susan and I were so curious about what made almost the entire school go to the basketball court.

'I've been looking for a woman who suits me for a long time. Whatever you guys want to say I'm a playboy, a fake hopeful guy, whatever! Because honestly, it's all I do because I want to find the right woman for me. And finally I found the beautiful woman who had already stolen my attention, and that was, Princess Margaretta. Retaa you want to be my girlfriend? if you want to accept this red rose'

All cheering, saying 'accept'. Maybe I'm the only one who's so powerless to say 'thank you, Willy's sister Retta' ' I mean me and a lot of women who are feeling kegeeran by Willy's sister.

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'you're cold Vi?' I nodded and hugged his arm tighter and tighter.

'wanna go home?' I shook my head.

'brother love you Vi' he kissed my forehead.

There is nothing more beautiful than all this. I feel like I've been so stupid, because I've been acting like that before. I always wanted the figure of the man I adored to be sensitive to what I always did for him. However, I was the one who was even insensitive. Stupid indeed.

'Vi, actually besides big brother likes you. There's one more thing that I haven't had time to be honest with you' I'm now frowning my forehead.

'what is brother?'

'you still remember, right, with the roses that used to be on your doorstep?'

'huh uh? yeah I remember brother, from that jerk, right?'

The man let go of his arm which had made me so warm.

'not Vi, it's not from Willy. But it's me who loves. Sorry Vi I'm less brave to give you flowers straight away. I'm a coward Vi'

I was so surprised by what I heard. I wanted to scream, and I was so angry. Almost five minutes later I was silent and bent my face, while Ridwan now stopped crying over his regret.

'you why Vi? you're angry' that man's voice so softly sounded in my ear.

'yes, brother, I am angry. I'm angry at myself, brother. I'm sorry, brother, sorry' Now my tears are breaking. I hugged my new boyfriend.

'Vi, dear brother and love you. Maybe you used to be so less brave, that you just thought you were a sister. But know, the status of brother and sister is just a form of venting my fear to love you.'