Short Story (Cerpen)
End of love story (part 1)
Category: Love Story
Title: End of Love Story (Part 1)
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Love is a gift from God. We deserve to love and be loved by someone. But is the person we love and love the right person and comes at the right time? Does love come at the wrong time?
I'm the kind of girl who falls in love at first sight or first impression. Either during the first introduction or the first chat. A funny and pleasant start when that impression was present in my heart. At that time I was looking for a computer that I could use to work close to my office friends because I was making activity reports. The computer of the office friend I was using was slow. I finally called the IT company - Helpdesk - to check the computer.
“Mas, this computer is very slow loading huh? Objection file or how anyway, please check dong.” said me with the style of ceplas-ceplos.
“Oh yes Mbak, where here I check” legit helpdesk. While the computer remote chat for the sake of chat also occurs. We laughed at whatever we were talking about.
“Mbak, mas Iwan where?” a guest looks for the owner of the room.
“Oh again out mas, I also do not know where to go because it does not leave a message” I replied.
The conversation on the phone continued. Somehow, there was a feeling of great pleasure talking to him and was reluctant to hang up the phone. After how long, the computer remains checked, suddenly the guest was nongol again in the room to check whether mas Iwan had returned to his desk or not. I'm directly saying.
“Not yet back also nih mas Iwawan, try calling to HPnya aja mas.” Aril passed by and said,
“oke deh Mbak is okay.”
Because the coworker next door heard me laughing on the phone, he asked me something about the report from his room. I'm telling you, it's done by Ma'am but while checking his computer. With a little annoyed and unpleasant feeling I finally ended up calling her. Deep in heart, his voice is very soft and calm must be a good and patient person. There was also a question mark, earlier on the phone when he did not decide the phone, even though a helpdesk can still work on our computer without having to wait on the phone. Hmm, does he have the same feeling? Equally happy to talk together and fun.
The workday has passed, I've returned to my bedroom. Because it's Sunday - it's September 29th - and I haven't been to church in my neighborhood since I moved to work. I want to enter the church, Deniz happened to be diligent in the Church with his friend. How do I make a deal when I don't have his HP number. Hemm, I'm not out of my mind trying to figure out his number through an office friend who I have his HP number with and wishes he had Deniz's HP number.
“Goodnight sir, I want to ask. You have a HP Deniz number?” ask me politely.
“Wah I don't have his HP number. What's wrong? Later try to find if I can call back” continued Mr. Lexi. Finally I said, if I want to make an appointment to the Church and I also thanked to end the call.
That day actually I was not feeling well aka heavy flu and it felt a little feverish. I also rest in my room. And suddenly my HP rang and when I saw the HP number, I knew it was a Central Java number. Who do you think I am, but I don't think I answered for long. I didn't think it was the one who called Deniz, he told me that it was after dinner to meet with Mr. Lexi and Mr. Lexi said that I was looking for his HP number.
He asked “What's Ma'am looking for me?” so the greeting to me because of the habit in the office calling with the name Mbak or Mas.
“Mas Deniz, to Church tonight?” ask and he answers.
“Iya Mbak to Church, Mbak want to go to Church too?” I was silent for a moment.
“You are but not feeling well. Again a heavy cold, fear ntar even sneezing again in the Church. Hehehe.” Then he asked me if I had dinner or not. How to find a meal, body lemes males out the room taste.
“Loh, Maem hasn't maem yet? Want me to buy maem? Ordinary Pesen where maemnya?” Wouw, it feels really cool, just known not yet close but he has been attentive to me.
Yes without further ado, I asked you to buy fried rice at the cafe where I used to eat. And he promised to take her to my boarding house. So I just wait. “Kok a long time yes whereas the cafe is not far away and may not eat a long time deh but why long ya?” I asked in my heart.
“Mbak, I'm already in front of the cost yes,” finally came too because indeed I was hungry and wanted to take a break, it doesn't feel good if it hurts again. I rushed down to see him.
“Thank you for buying.” I said and connected to him.
“Iya Mbak both. Now Maem and rest yes. Get well quickly, ma'am. I went straight to the Church because it has started hours,” because I asked you to buy automatically I prepared money to replace the money used. He refused to accept it because it might not be much to him. But for me if nitip yes have to replace dong. I forced him to accept. And want to not want him to accept my money with the answer, “ku use to make an offering yes Mbak, Okay thanks ya” ended the talk that night.
Today's impression is so much fun. For the umpteenth time I looked at my cellphone clock, thought about the church's clock and wished I could call her again. Hihihi my laughter in my heart, about 21:30 that night I also sent a message, asking whether he had arrived or not. Several times the text he finally called, the reason is cape non-types on hp mending directly phone so can chat. It was our first night of calling and continued for several days in a row and was a long chat.
The first night chat 1-2 hours, the third hour on the next day and the most frenzied almost 5 hours until 3 or 4 am we call. Didn't know the time is very tight and our chat is really good quality not only does it not seem obvious. And from that conversation I can judge that he is the type of guy who is calm, patient, humble, understanding and caring is also smart, good for being a sharing friend. Time passed by very quickly as our relationship grew closer.
Somehow that day, 1 Oct I suddenly felt sad because of something. If our working hours still like chattingan while working so the day does not feel. Deniz could make me laugh when I was sad at the time, he asked: 'Deniz:
“Mbak why? are you ok?”
“no,” answered.
“do you mind to share with me?”
“ini I again share with my brother” and finally kebawa emotions so not aware of the real cry.
“be strong yes Ma'am.. I know you can. Do not forget to be brought in prayer well do not cry. Dear tears, the important Mother calm the mind first yes Deniz call ya”
Because it is embarrassed and not good to confide in because it is still working hours as well, I said that my voice was again shady. That night was the first time we went out together on the bike, we went to eat together and he tried to calm me down because it was still carried away by the sad feeling that day. I also ventured to share what made me sad. Incredibly, she was very calm, attentive and understood how I felt even though she had not experienced it.
Our friendship relationship is getting more intense, yes how not our office hours work while chatting and continuing if the phone mall is also for hours. Surely a lot of chatter and just flow like that afternoon.
“aku again seneng nih.. can meet, road and phone with Deniz.”
“iya Mbak, I can also be close to Mba. Hehe”
“funny also yes we are this?” connect me with a smile.
“funny what try? Because you can get along with Gini? I don't know.. What is clear is that the people are good to be invited to share limited edition. Seriously it's heart revealed.”
I feel something after saying it. But somehow, since close to him I feel my communication is better, I can be more open and honest for everything I feel we can talk about. It is not usually difficult to express something.
At first our commitment is just friends, yes friends but friendly to care for each other and love. Yes yes yes, it was originally but it is true people say. “Witing tresno jalaran soko kulino” originally became friends, confiding places, streets together but after that? Can it still survive like that? Apparently not!!! Our relationship is getting more intense. We often make arrangements for lunch, dinner and even a walk together when we have a holiday - off duty.
Actually, I have guessed his heart, yes, he was friends but I could TTM and not maybe if I did not have any feelings. “Yes that I keep in my heart and while walking will also be caught” I thought.
The holiday arrived. We made a pact to go together and make an appointment.
“where are we going Mbak?” tanyanya.
“we're going to see the cinema? At that time we promised to watch with”
“iya may also Mbak, but we maem yuk first. Laper nih” while smiling sweetly.
It turns out our dining options are the same, Pizza Hut. Yeah, haven't been there in a long time. It was really fun because it was the first time we could walk all day from day to night. After eating we go straight to XXI watch. We just watched it together just keep not knowing why suddenly he touched my hand and held it tightly. I just stared while asking in my heart how gini huh? He said friend but why is he holding my hand so lovingly? Does he have more feelings? Wow the question is in my heart. But I let it go while enjoying the togetherness the movie was finished and it was still afternoon.
“Where else are we going?” My toot.
“Terserah Mbak. We go for a walk yuk”
“OK, let's find a place to hang out for chatting.” And I know one place is located at the top and the view of the sea. Fun to hang out while chatting
After we got to that place, it turned out that he liked the place because the air was fresh and could bathe the sea.
“Deniz, can I ask you something? While looking for words for my question because confused to say how? Hemm, that was in XXI what does it mean?”
“which one is Mbak?”
“hemmm, muttering for a moment you hold my hand? MH isn't?”
“MH?? What is Mama? While trying to guess. He mentioned his guess until he finally knew MH I mean ‘Main Hati’. Hem, with weight he revealed it.
“Yes, I think so Ma'am. Sorry Ma'am, Ma'am don't like ya?”
“No, I just asked and wanted to make sure. Honestly, I like it and am glad we got together today and I don't know but I think my feelings are the same.” Heart-to-heart chatter just flows. And I know that he truly loves me.
My hands that were drooping over my thighs were held by him as he brought me closer to his shoulders. While his other hand held my head and stroked my cheek. Her face was held close to mine until I felt her lips touch mine. We kissed. I didn't move at all due to the shock of his sudden attitude. But I enjoyed it. And repeated for the second time.
We were silent for a moment but his embrace could not be separated still embrace me. We stared at each other and didn't know what to say because of embarrassment and confusion. We didn't realize we were talking until night and had to go home. Funny, when I drove him home. Her parents were waiting in front of the house talking. Yes I know the cramping system yes I greet his parents.
“Night om, night aunt” OMG replied his Father.
“Iya it is already night” Shocked and funny also new this time, usually also the guy who interchick girls home but this is the opposite.
“I'll go home Om, Auntie. Good night.” I wish I could get a kiss on his forehead but where is possible. Haha, there are my thoughts.
Tomorrow we'll make an appointment to come out again. Anyway during the off duty several times we go together. If you can't at most text or phone calls. It's crazy how it feels to feel this feeling but I try to live and follow my heart. He is so, even though we both know we should not be this close because we already have our own status.
Still in October, she took a leave of absence to attend her sister's graduation. Yes, because the city I want is the city I like. I was hand-picked to treat my missus on that city of memories.
That day, the last day of October on the 31st, I also arrived at the location because it was on duty again. It was so sad that the man had come again. But baby, that day his face looks tangled and cape. Naturally, I thought maybe soybean because for 1 full week of the mulu streets in Jogja. Come on, he's back, I'm happy. Although it crossed my mind it seemed like he had met his girlfriend in Jogja and maybe he deliberately kept a distance from me so as not to get too close and cause more flavor. That was my feeling at the time.
In the afternoon he was cheerful and did not expect also we made an appointment to come out with the night. Waw! Something really felt, which I thought we would be far away but it turned out to be wrong. Even that night we went for a walk and let each other miss because long time did not meet -hihihi when only a week not found.
After the meeting that night our relationship felt closer and involved their feelings. Conversation after conversation and question after question were thrown from me and from him as well. Until one night, the night before he was on duty to the location. Wednesday night on November 20th, I called her but she was walking with her sister. So just a text-only but how does it feel different yes, I felt there was something strange that night. Didn't know it turned out that night he said that this relationship could not continue.
“Kak, I'm sorry but I don't think we can keep this up. We have to go back to the beginning of our commitment if we are just good friends - pure friendship - without playing. I don't want to ruin sister's relationship.” That's a short message sent via sms.
It was like being struck by lightning that night. Tears are not stoked anymore, OMG why it should be like this at last. “At the time I felt there was someone who could understand me, care and love me, our communication was good but why should it end like this?” I asked in my heart.
“Den, why did you suddenly say that?” Still sms-an. I don't know what to say because it really hurts that feeling.
Not long, he called. I knew he would want to calm me down because he knew I must be in shock. Yes surely who is not in shock, again his gnarly eh suddenly he talks like that.
That night I could only cry and cry sobbing until my eyes felt swollen and forgot that tomorrow I had to go to work, in my body state that was tired due to the preparation of activities at the office as well. Tomorrow I decide to get sick and just lock myself in the room.
That day he was on duty. I wish he'd come for me but where possible, he must be busy because the first day on must be a lot of work. I'm so sure. I tried not to contact her but my heart forced me somehow. Again, there is a reason to contact him. By having no idea to ask for help buy medicine and lunch. I said that he took it directly to the boarding house and permission to the boarding house if he wanted to see me sick again.
My looks are crumpled, haven't had a shower, my eyes are swollen. Shame, but for what reason, he also knows why.
“kak, here I bring medicine. Maem used to take medicine. I know my brother really doesn't hurt but it must be because of me right?” he stroked my hair and rubbed my back so I could calm down.
“no, I am sick. Because how many nights to the office go on and go home the mall so tepar deh” my heart rages. Wanting to hold her tightly wanted to get angry but I couldn't. I can only hold back my emotions from showing the truth. I could only take a deep breath and cry in my heart.
“kak, I go home first yes. Because I also have not eaten and want to buy food first keep going back to the office again. Sister rest yes, fast heal.” Just a thank you I can tell him. And let it pass home.
The day goes on. Our relationship is arranged in order to maintain distance and neutralize each other's feelings. But it's hard, not easy. No, we are still 1 location and the schedule is also almost the same. Yes again he made me calm, slow down, those are his words. I told him I couldn't go that fast because I had to get used to it again. He understands and tries to make a deal for us to go through together in order to get through the days ahead.
