Short Story (Cerpen)

Admiral's Secret

Category: Love Story In A Heart Submerged

Title: Secret Admiral

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I've always been watching you from afar, talking about you. I really want to know what you're doing, are you okay? I can't reach you, you're too far away for me to reach. I wanted to hug you, but I couldn't. I'm just your secret fan, the one who can only look at you, and admire you from afar. Sometimes there are so many moments where I can be close to you. But still I kept quiet and just stole a look at you.

Sometimes I hate time. Time brings us together and separates us. When I want to see you, it's rare to side with me. Whenever I don't want to be disturbed by anyone, that's when it's time to bring us together. I don't blame you and time. Actually, I blame myself for being stupid and sticking around for liking you even if you don't know me.

'He might not know Elo! Relax with Pris!' those words are what make my love for you even more burning.

My friends can only support me from behind so that I never give up waiting for you to come to me, your secret admirer. I always hoped good times would come, which is when you came and made me smile. Seeing you from far away makes me smile.

I sat alone at school, everyone leaving me in the rain. My body feels frozen, I'm very cold and need warmth or I'll freeze to death. Suddenly I felt someone approaching me, hey and it was you!

'Hello, Prisya' your broom.

'E.uh.. Hello.you. uhh.' I am confused and very groggy to answer you.

'Oh, you don't know me, right? My name is Ricky, your school is Pris.'

'Ehh yes, I know kok hehe' I replied a little embarrassed, his presence here makes me feel warmer. And it felt like a dream, when you were around me and for the first time we talked to each other.

'You cold? This is my jacket, Pris, he said as he took off his jacket and gave it to me.

'Loh..how are you?'

'Gakpapa, take aja'

He left after giving me a temporary warmth. But it makes me very happy. I waited for the rain to subside, the rain which became the most beautiful memory between me and him. On September 9th, the first time I spoke to him. Hopefully, there will be another beautiful day after this.

'This is your jacket, thank you..'

Ricky smiled at me, his smile made me float in the air and made me forget myself. After I returned to my class, I saw her walking with a very sweet girl. The girl is neat and beautiful, her hair is long and her style is also not geeky, different from me, the girl who came to school tied hair, with a geeky style.

When I got home, I tried to search the internet about the style of the present, and I changed my appearance, starting tomorrow. My hair is no longer tied, my style is no longer geeky. The moments I waited to see Ricky.

'Priya? You changed?' he was surprised to see my new appearance.

'Yeah..'

'Oh. You're getting beautiful, Pris. But I feel you're prettier with the old look. Looks more innocent, innocent, and that's you'

Those words made me shaken. It turned out that my change was in vain, and what he said earlier did not hurt me, instead making me like it even more. He's a good person, but why doesn't he look at me at all?

Time passes so fast. Until finally UN SMA arrived. It's not felt, it's been 3 years I've harbored this feeling. And it doesn't feel like 1 year we never say hello again like before, because you now have Stella. Even so, these feelings never change for you, Ricky.

When the UN arrived, I was hoping that you would come to me saying 'Happy Trials' to me, that hope just vanished, it seemed that Stella's presence really made you forget about me, you, and the rain. 4 Days passed, I waited for you to congratulate me on the test, but I never accepted it either.

It was a beautiful night, prom night. Where I was really expecting you to come pick me up and make me your partner back then, but I need to know myself, there's something else by your side, Stella. Seeing you two so close and romantic at prom night made me feel sorry for myself. I can't stand all this. I ran out crying under the stars that night, I wanted to tell the stars in the sky about how I felt these 3 years for you.

'You alone, Pris? This is my handkerchief, wipe your tears, I don't like to see the cute geeky girl crying in front of me' Ricky surprised me with his very sudden presence. 'You don't cry anymore, Pris.'

I just returned with a smile. I hope one day he realizes the feelings I have been harboring for a long time. And this, the second time you came to me, gave me something. On September 9th, 3 years ago, we first talked to each other and September 9th today, which will probably be our last meeting. I hope that someday we will meet a situation where I will no longer be your secret admirer, I hope to be someone who will make you smile every day.