Short Story (Cerpen)

Drizzly Stun Diary Brings Memories

Category: Palau Cerpen

Title: Drizzly Stun Diary Brings Memories

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When I write this story I wish you had read it, and you know that I never forget you like you forget me. I still keep a tidy record of our memories.

Tonight was the same as that night, a drizzling rain fell. But of course there are different, because at that time there was still you. This is what brings my fingers to capture a glimpse of the story about us. With tears in my eyes, I started writing this story.

Drizzly Stun Diary Brings Memories

Tonight was almost the same as that night, I somehow remembered it, and it was very difficult to forget it. Sometimes I wonder why I should remember it? why should I think about it? I also often get confused why I do it as if it has become my routine. I don't know why my brain is telling me to keep remembering it. Even though he never remembered me.

Yep. He is the one who once filled my heart, even now, may still fill my little heart. But unfortunately the person I've always been proud of goes a long way. She left because her parents moved to work. Not because of the departure and the move of her parents that I regret. But how easily he forgot me when he was in a new place there.

For a moment I thought of something, I even wished there was no tomorrow at that moment. I can't stand the loss of the person I love the most. My tears were already curled up in my eyelids as if protesting to get out, but I held it back. I don't want this to be a sad night. There are only jokes and laughter that will be the most beautiful night.

The cold air pierced my bones even more, but it meant nothing to my grief at the loss of him.

We sat together in a place where we could freely see the moon by being illuminated by night lights on the side of the road, with the ground that was still wet due to drizzling. In the shade of the moon I looked at her beautiful face which tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and so on I could not do anymore. Instantly my tears glistened on my cheeks so warm as I looked at her. I really can't afford to lose the person I love the most so quickly. With all his heart he tried to calm me down at that time 'I promise I will come back here again, this will not be long anyway. I'm just gonna spend my high school time there and go back to college here. Wait for me yes. I promise I'll come back later.don't cry ya' words that I never forgot until now. My crying became more and more so at that time. It was a nightmare I had to go through. I hugged her body tightly at that moment, I cried on her shoulder which had always been my back.

The next day I drove him to the airport, I saw he was very handsome with his purple t-shirt. The time I never wanted finally arrived. Inevitably it was a bitter reality that I had to swallow alive. I saw him clearly entering a door I never wanted, yes it was a departure gate. With all my heart I tried to hold back my tears and tried hard. At that time there were no words spoken, only a wave of goodbye. And the smile that was shed sign I would be faithful waiting for him to come back.

It's been half a year since he left and I haven't heard from him. Is this what he promised before he left? is this how he was when he was in the new world? disappointed, angry, sad, mixed longing has become my daily food if you remember. From here I realized that he would never come back. If I could just want to forget it, if I could I'd really like not to remember it. But I always fail. The shadow is too strong to haunt me. Sometimes I think I want to hate her but I miss her too much to hate her. It was the beautiful memories with him that kept me alive today.

Without him knowing I was always waiting for him even if I couldn't say. Every time there was an empty clock in class, I would always lay my head on the table looking at the beautiful sky I saw from the window, and hear the clinking sound of my watch ticking every second. From there I asked in my heart, how many seconds have you gone?, how many more seconds will I wait?, how many more seconds will you come back?, how many more seconds will you call me?, maybe it's 1 more second, or tens, hundreds, or even millions to trillions of seconds more. I don't know if I counted until I got bored and fell asleep with tears I hid from my friends. How much longer is this gonna be?

I try to smile every day to cover up my loss. Your voice, your face even I still remember it. I want to see you, I want to see you once again, have you forgotten all about me? I wanna see you.