Short Story (Cerpen)

Happiness is Simple

Category: Love Story

Title: Happy is Simple

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The warm feeling of feeling special, catapulted my dreams so far as to be untouched by any human eye. The courage that seeped from the deepest of hearts denied the doubt of the feeling I was feeling now. I tried to stop for a moment and I didn't want to go anymore. It still stays even though it may not be visible. You can only pull over and hide behind walls called secrecy. I really know this is not easy, but I have already been carried away by the flow of his beautiful figure in my view. I feel happiness. Simple happiness when feeling special.

But sometimes there is something I feel. Sometimes there is a little happiness I get. How can I use it and to what extent can I endure this unrequited feeling. I am only a human being who has a heart and happens to feel a special taste in humans who also have a heart. The difference with me, a human named Diraz has no special taste in a human named Micah. Now I am stranded in the sea of his heart. I was drowning in the valley of my feelings. No one will be able to take me to land because of the great waves of love that are rolling over me. But I really feel happy. Happiness is simple when we fall in love.

'Ouch, sick!' I grimaced as my legs clasped against the chair in front of me.

Slowly I sat down and began massaging my legs that were hit by the impact of the chair earlier. As I was stunned to see Diraz, my feet felt the pleasure of coming into contact with the chair. It was painful on my feet, but I was happy, still seeing Diraz today.

'Your college card, Kha. Uh, why are your legs sorted like that?' sonya asked watching my hands dancing on my feet.

I smiled withstanding the pain, 'Bashing on that chair, Son.' I said as I pointed at the chair in front of me.

'Could you? There is only you Micah. I helped massage your legs huh.'

A few minutes later after I felt like my legs were getting better, we stepped out of the room and headed to the cafeteria to fill up the tummy and ask for energy. Again, the figure of Diraz passed in front of me. This time I tried not to stumble over a chair or anything else that could inflict harm on my limbs. A little nervous I tried to calmly bring the bowl containing my favorite meatballs to one of the tables that Sonya had occupied. So did the hate on Diraz's face when he accidentally turned to me earlier. I don't know what to do, apologize, but I'm afraid I'm gonna make her mad

***

The routine thing I do every eight o'clock is go online and then log in to my facebook account. Then open the Diraz facebook profile. Just by looking at it I feel happy. Even though almost every day we meet and see Diraz because we are always one room at college, I never get tired of watching his facebook just want to know his condition or what he did all day and of course do not forget to see the comments of every status he wrote there. Actually until now I was still afraid to explore Diraz's facebook profile, afraid if caught by others. Therefore I only open the profile if it is already at home Now I am no longer a close friend as well as a friend on Diraz's facebook account since the incident two weeks ago. Diraz who has managed to steal my heart, he also managed to make me feel a considerable shame at the incident two weeks ago.

I was pensively reading the comments from her status 15 minutes ago.

'I'm sorry, I'm doing this for your own good'

Comment:

Clarabela Assyifa: 'Pardon the yank, :D'

Diraz Pranata: 'Hahaa Bela.'

Clarabela Assyifa: 'Why laugh yank?'

Bela calls Diraz 'yank'? Is it true that rumors I heard a few days ago that Bela expressed love to Diraz and Diraz accepted. But why are still single, there has been no change in relationship status on Diraz's facebook if they have been officially created. A drop of clear water came out of my eyes. Accidental and I didn't want to. I wiped the clear water from my eyes and smiled. Micah, you are already stranded and drowning in his heart. Right now there is only one thing to do. Single-minded. That way you will feel happy without having to have heart and love. I said those words in my heart to comfort myself. In front of my laptop that was still on, I daydreamed and reminisced about what happened two weeks ago. Things I can't forget.

'Guys, look at this. Mikha again opened Diraz facebook profile!' bela shouted while grabbing my laptop.

I was anxious and tried to take the laptop back from Bela's hands. But, the crowd of curious friends got me into trouble. I just fell silent. Shortly after, Diraz came and immediately dragged Bela to see my laptop.

'Mikha really likes you Diraz. Just check in the documents, your photos on facebook almost everything is downloaded. You shameless girl, ' said Bela while looking cynically at me who can only be bowed down.

Suddenly, gubraakk…!

Diraz hit the desk so hard that my laptop shifted and almost fell. 'Delete all my photos! Don't bother me, I don't want to be liked by a girl like you!' snapped at the emotion and immediately stepped his feet away. Bela smiled mockingly at me and then followed Diraz who was no longer seen.

I regret what happened to me at that time. What a shame I felt at that time until now I am still haunted by shame and guilt. I dare not look at Diraz in person or meet him. It's true what Bela said if I don't deserve to like let alone love Diraz, the guy who has a lot of advantages and idol girls in my college. So I had to forget how I felt about Diraz. However, Sonya told me that love or liking is the right of each human being. So it's legal and no one can ban it. I prefer what Sonya says because I can't kill this feeling. I will try to keep this feeling well awake so that no one else knows.

I am an ordinary creature who has a love for someone. It is not wrong to love someone. But why did Diraz hate me so much for loving him. To this day I have not found that answer. But I won't be dizzy. It was enough for me to just feel this love, to admire from afar and most importantly Diraz was happy and well then I was happy too. Love cannot be forced, love must not have and love is still love that can only be judged by the heart.

'Mikha, you're fine, right? I have noticed you daydreaming all the time. Is there a problem my friend? Just story!' sonya said in a soft voice because we were in college and the lecturer again gave an explanation in front with a loud voice.

I just shook my head and smiled and turned my eyes to the right slightly forward. I looked at Diraz from behind.

'Oh, 'Ooh, I know. About Diraz, right? Hehee..tell me after college, Kha!' sonya said as she pinched my gnarled cheek.

Only grimacing can I do as a result of Sonya's pinch. It's been his habit of pinching my cheek which he says makes me anxious. Usually I will reply to pinch his cheek as well, but I remember the condition if we are currently following the lecture. An hour later the teacher left the room. I took the bottle from my bag and sipped it little by little.

'Come on story, story, story!' Sonya flipped the chair and faced me. Her cute face looks even more cute if her eyes radiate curiosity.

After Diraz and the rest of my friends came out, I told them everything I felt, I couldn't shake my special feelings for Diraz, I'm confused as to why Diraz seems to hate me and is so annoyed that I have a crush on him.

'That's, Son. I just hope that right now Diraz, Bela and the rest of my friends think that I've completely forgotten Diraz and no longer like him,'

'I pray it is Micah. Be amazed at those of you who can deal with this feeling. Keep it and hold it until now. I'll help you figure out why Diraz behaved like that to you. My best friend is a beautiful, funny, kind and smart girl. When compared to that evil Bela, you are more everything than him. Rest assured that Diraz would prefer you over Bela. Before that incident because of Bela, Diraz will be fine with you as usual, sitting close to us, still chatting and he still often jahilin you. Maybe there's something that makes Diraz turn out to hate you all the time Micah,'

My mind glared and digested Sonya's words. Right, ever since Diraz knew that I liked him that's what made his attitude change and hate me. I deeply regret Bela's actions which at that time embarrassed me in front of Diraz and my college friends. If that had not happened, I would still be friends and close to Diraz. I feel proud to be closer to Diraz than any other girl. Bela who has liked Diraz for a long time is not too close. Even Diraz once said that he was a bit uncomfortable with an aggressive Bela.

'Only with you do I feel comfortable with Micah, ' Diraz said about a month ago when we were still close friends.

I smiled considering the memories that we had spent about two years together, who initially knew because they entered the same organization to make very familiar friends. I fell in love with her about six months ago. The love that I just keep and try no one knows even to Sonya, my best friend from High School. However, I did not expect to be caught by Bela who did not like me because it was close to Diraz. There was something I feared, the fact that I was far from Diraz, someone I loved.

Always trying not to cry over this fact because I still feel happy. Unconditional holy love will always create happiness. Even though Diraz was far away, I could still look at his figure silently, it was a bliss. Although I did not communicate with him anymore, I still know his activities from reading his facebook status, it was also a happiness. Even though he didn't smile for me anymore but I could still see his smile when he smiled at Sonya, it was also a joy. Even though his attitude towards me seemed to show hatred, I was still happy because it meant that he still thought I existed. Happiness is very simple when I feel love for someone. Holy love is unconditional and without expecting anything.

***

I'm looking for Sonya because I didn't see her in this lecture hall when her bag was already there. I set foot into the backyard of the campus which became a futsal playground. It turned out that Sonya was there again sitting alone with Diraz. I stepped quietly closer to their back and listened to their conversation.

'So that's why I was so angry when I found out Micah was really in love with me too, Sonya. I tried to kill my love for him after knowing the harsh reality. I never thought Micah would love me too. I want to be angry, I don't want this fate!' diraz stammered explaining to Sonya while wiping her watery eyes.

'I understand Diraz if you act as if you hate Micah, so that Micah also hates you and forgets you. But, your ways didn't work because Micah still loves you. I think you better tell me the truth if you get HIV, I'm sure Micah understands and won't look negatively about you,'

My tears are falling slowly. I cried knowing the truth why Diraz changed his attitude towards me. Know that Diraz, no matter what your condition is, I will still love you. It is enough that by loving you I can be happy. Whenever and no matter what the circumstances, unconditional sincere and holy love is only for you.