Short Story (Cerpen)
GAME OF LOVE(PART 1)
Category: Triangle Love Cerpen
Title: Game of Love (Part 1)
_________________________
“ really love is just a game for you, I was one of the games you played” I asked Kiran the girl who was right in front of me.
He smiled “a wound that will forever imprint in your heart, I was the cause?, thinking of me all day must have been a great pain for you all your life, I never played your feelings, I never did, you're the one who pulls me into your heart, I always warn you, but you never listen to me, you're too busy inserting my heart that you think is right, it hurts so much, love but can't have, like my heart that you always forced to accept you”.
I strengthened my heart and spoke to him “thank you for giving me a wound that is still open until you die and always haunts me, you are right in front of me, come to me”.
He retreated backwards staring intently at me “no, I'm just a shadow that you created, I've long since died you killed with your hand, forever you're my killer, Robby”.
I called him “Kiran”.
february 28, 1998
I met Kiran, 10 years ago, I was thinking about my future, my father wanted me to go to business school in Italy, so that I could continue his company, but I was still confused and chose to sit in the city park, behind the big tree I sat in, I heard 2 girls talking, white girl, skinny, skinny, long hair his curls left unraveled, my eyes say to the girl with a slightly black skin, her hair short black, somewhat containing his body, height “home, grandfather not really serious with his words”.
The girl in rather black, short black hair, tall replied with teary eyes “you know what Kiran, you are just a child adopted by my grandfather, you are, I'm not like you who always obeyed the words of grandfather, I'm his grandson should not treat me like you, I don't want to take ballet lessons I don't like ballet, I prefer to play ball, I prefer to play ball, you also know that right!!!, you did not help me for what I obey your words”.
The girl named Kiran seemed to hold her hand firmly, she smiled faintly “iya you were right, my position will never be the same as you, that's why I chose to be a submissive child, she said, you'll never know what it's like to live alone without a family, I won't cry for my life, I'm now fighting for my own life, what's wrong with just taking ballet classes, I can replace you you just say you want to come, later I will tell grandfather that you take classes diligently, you can be free to play Bola”.
“that must be so, you are my guard, am I right? Kiran I'm sorry I said things I should never have said, thank you, you always helped me.
Kiran answered “it's my duty, let's go home grandpa must be anxious looking for you”. When they came home, Kiran looked at me, her eyes implying that I was caught, she knew I was eavesdropping on them.
june 29, 2006
I was 17 years old, I was on vacation and I went back to Indonesia, I remained in business school in Italy, thanks to him, and I saw him again, I still clearly remember him, I still remember him, she was walking maybe just came home from school, I greeted her “hai, you still remember me?”.
Kiran replied confusedly “sorry who are you? I feel like I never knew you”.
I'm disappointed he doesn't remember me “aku..”. I haven't had time to continue my conversation he cut it “ I was in a hurry, sorry”. then he walked quickly ahead of me, I was curious to follow him he walked to the caf' near the library he approached a boy in an high school uniform, his hair full of hair gel in disarray, his clothes taken out, Kiran smiled at him, handing him a book, the man who had a sour face looked happy to receive the book, they were both engrossed in chatting, before long they moved to the library where Kiran worked as a library employee there, the guy was always sitting next to him, they looked comfortable together, I just looked at them from afar with a strange feeling, it was fitting that he forgot me that easily there was apparently someone else's name, in his heart. I should have given up on him but I kept looking for information about Kiran and that guy, that guy named Vasto, not much about his family, he just lived with his brother, he just lived with his brother, neither does his relationship with Kiran nobody knows, he's a notorious delinquent, loves brawls, why doesn't the kid obviously get to know Kiran, he's not Kiran's schoolmate, Kiran, kiran's friends no one knows, except for Kiran's foster brother, the girl who used to be with Kiran, I met her he was practicing football alone on his school field, I waited for him to finish, he noticed my presence, he asked “look who mas?”.
“you named Sania Nillamy?”.
“call me Sunny, what's looking for me?”.
Sunny has changed a lot unlike Kiran who has not changed much, Sunny's skin is now white, her hair is long straight black, Only her body is now more energetic maybe because of frequent sports “aku Robby, a, you're Kiran's best friend?”.
“not only are our friends brothers, you look for him, usually he is working in the public library, just search there..”.
“you want to go home let me take you?”.
I drove her home she asked “why are you driving me home, aren't you looking for Kiran?”
I was busy looking at his house, oh so this is his house.
“you didn't listen to me, I'd most like not to be heard, how long have you known Kiran, Kiran never told me that she had a male friend”.
“she never told you?”.she didn't tell her own brother either.
“iya, Kiran is only friends with books, she also really likes to keep her own secrets, uh how can you know her?”.
“ah, I'm a new borrower in the library where he works, I lost the book yesterday, and have not been able to find his book in any store, I want to apologize to him but it will definitely make it difficult”. I lied to her.
“that problem, you don't have to worry, Kiran won't be mad at you, you just have to talk honestly to her about the problem, the borrowers in the library often eliminate books but Kiran is just plain, just plain, the owner of the library did not care about the collection of books there, in the past he even wanted to sell the library, if only Kiran did not come”.
“why Kiran wants to work there”.
“Kiran fans of old books, in the library it's all his collection of books old books, that means he is only friends with buku”.
“oh”.
“thank you for driving me, I won't tell Kiran kok”. After Sunny enters I see the house again, it belongs to an old employee in the company of father, grandfather Harno, I know him. just as I was walking, Kiran came home, she was alone, she didn't see me.
On the way my car was blocked by someone, uh he was dragged, I got off and Kiran was blocking my car.
“why are you blocking my car?”.
“you son of the owner of the company where my grandfather worked right, please tell your father, do not stop om Rahmanto, I know he must not work well, you guys hire him because grandfather Harno right, I know, grandpa works very well in that company, don't stop Rahman, let him work there, I'll obey all your requests as long as you allow om Rahman to work there”.
“you will do anything according to my command?”.
He's nodding.
“follow me”
We headed to my house, Kiran I told you to stand with an apple on top of her head, I would shoot with an apple knife on top of her head. I asked her “what are you afraid of?”.
Kiran replied flatly “I've never been afraid of anything again”.
I smiled, Kiran was standing straight at the end of it, she was standing straight without fear, why was it that I was afraid of her, her sharp face made me tremble, I finally threw her and did not miss, she said, right hit by the apple, his face remained flat, no sense of relief, he said “you won't lay it off?”.
“be my girlfriend, and I promise I will never fire her, until her whole life”.
“you really promise?”.
“iya”.
From then on Kiran became my girlfriend, just being by my side made me happy, but I had to go back to Italy to go to school, I invited Kiran to come with me to school in Italy.
I'm a little mad at him “your grandfather is more important than me, I don't like to be told”.
“my grandfather was the one who first found me looking for food in a garbage can, you can imagine what if grandfather didn't find me, maybe I'd already died of starvation, you know, since adopting me grandfather was infuriated by his own family, but grandfather never left me, I can't leave him like he never left me, do you understand”.
“I don't understand, because I don't live like the life you live, but I accept it if you don't want to go, I'll come back because that's why you have to wait for me, I'll call you often, I'll call you, you have to reply to him, then I kiss his forehead.make sure my phone and email are always you reply”.
Kiran nodded.
I left him, Kiran turned around.
that's how Kiran feels I'm the person who understands her best, but the longer I realize that I never knew her.
December 12th, 2010
I knew that when I returned to Indonesia. Kiran wasn't waiting for me at the airport, who was waiting for me only my personal assistant took care of it since I was a child, I asked her “where is Kiran?”.
“mba Kiran can't come, her grandfather is sick”.
I quietly held my anger, then walked forward, Mr. Karna followed from behind, I went to his house, but I did not want to go in.
“why don't you come in, surely mba Kiran will be happy to see you visit her grandfather” sir Karna told me to come in.
I turned it down “we just go home”, we go home.
Tomorrow I wait for Kiran in front of her house, Kiran comes out to see me and gets into the car, she asks “have long waited?”.
“Just 5 minutes, is your grandfather sick?”.
“iya”.
“sick what? severe?”.
“the diabetes relapsed, the sugar rose, but now it is rather good”.
“hm. means you're not busy kan”.
“after college no schedule”.
“we can watch film”, Kiran does not apologize, she acts as if nothing happened.
After Kiran came home from college we watched a movie at my family's cinema.
Kiran wonder “where are the other spectators? why are there only two of us?”.
“this is a special cinema for me, of course there is no one else except me”.
“if it is special for you, why invite me?”.
“because you are a special person for me”.
“more special, if we watch together, when there is a new movie grandfather often invites me and Sunny to watch the movie, many people come to watch, every exciting scene they follow screaming, and, it must be more fun”.
“that's more fun for you?”. I asked him.
“iya”.
“so you think watching both is not fun”.
“iya”.he replied without burden.
“you sit in the middle seat, soon the film will start”.
Kiran said, she immediately sat right next to him I also sat, I told her “I used to watch alone, not used to watch rames, you also long ago will get used to”.
Kiran still did not answer I turned to her, her eyes focused on the big screen that plays movies, movies played are my favorite titanic romantic movies, even though watching hundreds of times does not make me bored, he said, I shed tears as the film ended, I looked to the side to ask her opinion, Kiran fell asleep.
He woke up after the lights were turned on, he then erased the lights.
“film how?”.
He replied “pulling”.
I smiled he was so funny, I drove him home, he thanked me and went into his house.
The following days when Kiran and I had a time when we went together. I think Kiran had started to accept me but the assumption was wrong, a week later I realized that Kiran's heart still holds someone's name, and he is Vasto, a delinquent who was close to Kiran.
I became reminded of my conversation with Kiran 4 years ago after we dated “do you already like other men?”
“answer yes or no it won't be important to you, I'm right kan”.
Kiran's answer wasn't entirely correct because I actually never liked that there was someone closer than me, I left them, tomorrow I kept looking into Kiran's eyes, looking for me there, looking for me there, but Kiran turned her face away, a sign that I had never been in her heart.
January 14, 2011
The day I saw 2 different faces from Kiran, and I couldn't help it anymore.
Kiran begged me “this is all my idea, don't blame Vasto she doesn't know anything”.
“you think I care? I will still hand over Vasto to polis”.
“how about me?, you'll let me?”.
I saw his face, your feelings will never be the same as mine “your punishment is a lifetime of suffering seeing your loved ones punished because of you, fair enough isn't it?”.
She smiled coldly at me “you who will regret”
I didn't understand his words until he saved me, I would have been hit by a car if it wasn't for him saving me.
