Short Story (Cerpen)
My Job Is Done (Part 3)
Category: Sad Love Story
Title: Now My Job Is Done (Part 3)
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I tried pressing the buttons on my blackberry. I put my social email. I tried to see what Rian was doing, and it turned out that all his status made me want to cry, I saw it, I saw it, yes look at it all. It turns out that it is true that you are cool with your friends, unfairly. I wait for you but you laugh up there..
“why are you crying again Fay?”
“And.. why did you come so soon?”
“I read your message, and I asked my boss for permission.I know you need me, not not me but my shoulder.”.
“you're right And. I really need.”
“And, can you drop me off somewhere tonight?”
“please Fay.. Right now I want to treat your wound..”
“don't And, let me alone. It's dirty, I'm not feeling good.”
“listen to me Fay, no matter how dirty this wound is, I still want to treat it.”
“let me alone And.”
“for this time only.”
“please.”
I see, slowly he treated my wounds.. Even though it hurt a little but I tried to cover up the pain..he was really sincere to me... While Rian was there? but I can't hide this feeling, this feeling of wanting, the person in front of me who was treating my wounds was Rian not Andik..
“do not be frequently exposed to dust Fay..”
“iiiyaaa.” His words woke me up from my daydream
“if you are so obedient like this you add sweet.”
“And don't joke.. Who wants to follow your word? you think, everywhere there is dust.”
“I mean, don't wander around outside the house often.”
“you think I'm not bored in the room continue?”
“you pinter answered everything.”
“aku is more pinter than everyone.”
“iya pinter replied, right Fay? said Ricko
“kakak, instead of defending me.”
“haha.”
At that time I had forgotten for a moment my feelings of sadness over Rian's treatment. This laugh made me stop letting out tears that I felt were almost dry, And and brother continued to joke with laughter, until finally the workshop was closed because it was night..
Me, And and brother decided to look for food outside, because brother lives alone so there is no food supply.. since long ago I wanted to have an older brother, until finally God brought us together through an accident 2 years ago.I was lucky to have a brother like him, even though we are not blood, but we are not blood, but I felt a blood bond between the two of us, but between us there was never any other feeling than a brother.. honestly, my sister cares more about me than my parents.so when my sister feels upset, sad and restless.. never could I have imagined what would happen to me right now if my brother wasn't next to me. I might have ended my life..
After dinner together, me and And went to the place I wanted to go. While brother, went to return to his house, When I got to my favorite place, I got out of the car and I sat on top of the car..
“And, beautiful no?”
“very Fay..”
“that light, that light..the dozens of rays will be extinguished when the world is bright.. Can I be like that?”
“no Fay..”
“why?”
“you are not only used for darkness. but also for everything.”.
“you mean?”
“love you, your feeling so soft, your heart filled with all love will always be needed Fay.”
“but not for him there And.”
“Rian?”
“iya.”
“what else did he do to you?”
“no, but he didn't give me any news at all. I felt something.”.
“what is it?”
“dia forgot me here.”
“relax, there I am.”
“but I want him And.. And.”
“apa Fay?”
“what's all this for?”
“feeling.”
“why are you so sincere? is it just because of a feeling? then why don't you force me?”
“what am I forcing you to do? see you crying? I found you, when you showed me a sincerity.”.
“I'm confused by all this And. I don't know what I should do..”
“I believe you can Fay..”
“do I really have to forget about Rian? but I can't.”
“listen to me. The doubt that is now in your heart is because of my concern.
“aku, do not doubt my feelings for Rian.”
“tell me honestly Fay. I've seen it..”
“no And. You are wrong, I doubt what I have done this, can all this make Rian happy? you know I deliberately arranged this affair just to end this relationship, but I did this all for her future.When I looked with logic, I didn't deserve her, and he's water.we can't be united.My age, my religion, my life, everything is different with him.just love and compassion are united, but I can't be selfish, I can't be, not only do I have to be happy, but he. especially he And. knowing he can play back with his friends, that's a sign of me. me..”.
“already Fay.. Now I want to ask you.”
“apa And.”
“how exactly do you feel for him?”
“love him sincerely.”
“then what do you expect?”
“ingin with her forever.”
“then pursue your desires.Pursue all your dreams.if you taste yourself oil and she is water, then need each other Fay.”.
“you mean? I have to keep fighting?”
“iya Fay..”
“though that's not logic?”
“you said earlier, you have love and affection that can unite. then use it Fay..”
“do not mind my feelings Fay, I have loved you for a long time even before she loved you. But I want you to be happier with the one you love, I see there is happiness in your eyes Fay. I can't force you. I just want you to do everything you want.fight him with your sincerity.”.
“then what about this family? what about brother?”
“I am in front of you, there is nothing for you. I am ready to hinder those who want to destroy your dreams.I alone will lead you to find him there.. ”
“setulus is it you And?”
“that's what Fay loves.. keep excited and believe you can destroy that difference.”
“thank you And.”
I felt a warm embrace from Andik. A hug of sincerity as an angel, he roused me from a confusion. I felt my energy to survive back present..
“till at home later, call him. and be frank with him all your feelings Fay.”.
“iya And.”
He drove me home, and once I got home, I saw his car slowly leaving me. He was getting invisible and I immediately went inside the house and headed for my private room.. I can't wait to tell Rian everything, I'll fight back again, until in my room I immediately lay my body on a soft mattress while hugging the doll, I pressed the button on my blackberry.I tried to find the contact, but I saw something I never wanted to see until anytime, he wrote down a call of affection for someone and in a dampingin emotion hug.no it's not a call of affection for me. No, no, it's not for me.. the tears that kept dripping accompanied my hand pressed a button to send a message to Rian..
“gebetan new?”
“iya dong.” replies
“so you've forgotten everything?”
“don't remember that one again.”
“as simple as that?”
“iya as easily as you do this all.”
“really? can he make you happy?”
“iya.”
“what have you stopped wishing for me?”
“iya.”
“turns out all your words are lying. You can't wait for me. You can't prove that you really love me sincerely.”
“are you not happy?”
“what are you looking at? from outside only? can't you see it from the heart? this fast?”
“you're faster than me. If you can why can't I?”
“alah..then, I stop expecting you.I stop being present in your life.I stop at a beautiful hope.all dreams that will not come true.. I will never come again. will never disturb your life again.I hope you are happy with him.I hope he is better than me. Goodbye Rian. Thank you for everything.”.
“iya.”
Is that your only reply? that short? you said that you wanted to wait for me but why is that? the promises and hopes you've given me have only lifted me so much higher for a while? Rian, I love you. But now that I hate you, after I know I have to fight for you, it turns out you destroyed me. Do you not know what news I will give you? this heart is broken, more broken than a glass that you throw on the floor until it breaks. I was stupid to believe all your words..
“And.. Can I borrow your shoulder again? just a moment.. although this is the last. I'm tired And.” message for Andik.
“wait Fay.. don't do anything weird there. wait for me, I'll be there soon.”.
Only tears kept running down my face.I left the house, I walked alone.I don't know what I'm doing right now, because all I know is that it was so deeply broken.The night was so cold, the pulsation of the wound on my leg I no longer felt. Even though my foot was limping, I kept walking.. I'm fragile, I'm really fragile God.Is this my karma? is this a reply for me?
“Fay, what do you do, quickly get in the car.. You know it's already night.. It's not good you walk alone outside the house.. didn't I ask you to wait for me at home?” while hugging me
“I don't care And. I'm stupid, I'm stupid And.”
“enter first Fay..”
In the car I could only shed my tears.. Andik tried to calm me down, but he didn't force me.. You know, I'm the most stubborn girl, Andik also knows with me crying I can be much calmer. occasionally he rubbed my hair and said you calm first Fay.. but I did not care about it. I asked Andik to drive me to my favorite place earlier..
“And.. I hate it.”
“tell me what happened.”
“read all these messages And.”
I saw him reading that message..
“I understand your feelings Fay..”
“I stopped wishing And. big brother was right, I shouldn't believe the words of someone who was already hurt at all.. all this time I've been dreaming with the hopes and promises he's been telling me. It's too deep I'm dreaming and I finally fell into a bitter reality And. I backed away from him And.. I don't want to know him anymore.just this feeling is all I know.. And, heaven is that how far?”
“I understand your pain Fay, but I want you to be more rigid. Don't do anything that is forbidden by Religion.”
“i will not do anything bad And, I just want to meet God.I want to make sure this is the reality of hope? pain And, peri.. do you know what it feels like? can you understand? when I should have felt doubt begin to cover my life, he did not leave me like this. I knew from the beginning I was wrong, brother Ricko asked me to do all this so that I know who Rian is, so that I know and can prove all Rian's words.. although I regret doing all this because I lost her, but there is a truth revealed And.”
“please Fay if you already understand. You must remain upbeat and firm.”.
“I no longer want to believe in the same hope And.”
“what if it's a feeling?”
“just like you, the hope of a feeling. It is not easy for me to believe it. It is no longer easy for me to love others.I mean to open my heart to others.”.
“then I will be patient.”
“patient?”
“be patient until you love me. I am showing you a wish which feelings are sincere and which ones are not Fay, which has been months even count 1 year Fay.”
“until when? until you're like he's gonna drop me again?”
“no Fay, because I'm not him. and he's not me. I'm different from him.
“what if it takes another 100 years I can just give an answer?”
“not only 100 years I wait for you but 100 years I can Fay..”
“And.. I know you're sincere, but I don't want to hurt you. I don't want you to think of me as a no-no.”.
“assume what?”
“assuming you are my escape.”
“no Fay.. never crossed my mind like that. All I think about is seeing you smile. leads you to him. But if this is what he did to you, I will never give you even deliver you for him. 1 time will never Fay. I believe slowly you will love me as time goes on.. most importantly I want you to be happy in a way that doesn't force you.”.
“then what if I forced you?”
“force to leave you? that would never happen Fay.”
“not.. but force you to wait for me. I will learn to love you And.”.
“really Fay?”
“iya And.. I have wrongly seen everything.. You are so sincere, while she? And, will you wait for me until I really love you?”
“for sure I want to wait for you Fay. And from now on stop blaming yourself, stop crying just because of all this. Open a new page with me. We are both without him or anyone.”.
“thank you And. Can I hug you?”
“please..”
“And thank you for such a long time.thank you for never forcing me to accept your feelings.I promise you this second I will learn to love you.. loving you even spent my whole life with you.. You should know And.. Now, my Job is Done for him but I have a new task. namely “Learn Love You” I want to be the best for you in this life.”.
“I love you Fay. and I will love you forever until whenever Fay.
The hug made my feelings that were injured and destroyed back intact as before? I don't care anymore about yesterday.I know today Now, My task is Done for you Rian.May you be happy with the path you choose and so is I.. I'm sure this is the best thing for us forever
