Short Story (Cerpen)

I See Love in the Eyes of My Husband

Category: Love Story

Title: I See Love in My Husband's Eyes

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Being between two loved ones. Blissfully. But I had to choose one for a reason. My love is just as great. I can't choose one. Because nothing deserves to be thrown away. I can't live without one of them. They play the same role in my life. Loving me. Loving me. Watch me. How could I choose one of them?

I only live with a papa. Without mama.mama left me and papa after giving birth to me into the world. Until now, papa has never sought a replacement for mama. Therefore, papa no longer need to doubt his loyalty. He said only three women he loved in this world. My mom, my mom, and me. I salute papa. I hope that someday, I will be reunited with a man like papa.

I'm growing up a teenager now. I am now 19 years old. I have a boyfriend named Arya. However, my love story with Arya can not run smoothly because of papa. I don't understand why my papa is so overdone when it comes to protecting me. I'm an adult. I can pick and choose what is best for me. But papa's reason was that he just didn't want his little daughter to get hurt by a man.

'Papa, I know Arya is loyal. We've been on the road for 2 years pa'

'Shil, Arya is a widower! Do you want to be a widow because Arya is not at home with you?'

'Papa, is Shilla wrong to love a widower? Arya will definitely learn from your experience, everyone will not want to experience failure many times. Especially failure in marriage. Therefore, Shilla believes, Arya will mature in building her household later. After all, Arya divorced his wife not because Arya was bored or not at home with her marriage. But because they did not love each other, they were married as a result of pa's betrothal'

'If you keep going on with everything, papa will be hurt', Papa passes by leaving me.

I'm speechless, papa's too stubborn. He was filled with his words. I can't hurt papa, but I can't just let Arya go. Arya has lived in my heart for too long. It would be hard if I killed Arya in my mind. I also have the right to live with a husband I love. But I have no right to hurt Papa. I have no right to live with a husband I love without my father's blessing.

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'Shill, tomorrow night I want to go to your house, see your papa?'

'Arya, you know for yourself right? papa still has not approved of our relationship. Though I've asked for blessing repeatedly papa'

'If we keep going, we can't do anything. I'll try to come to papa and talk again for his blessing. Hopefully he will if I speak directly. Aren't you?'

'Aren't you afraid of what happened one year ago to repeat itself? When papa kicked you out raw?'

'Are we dating a child? Cats are just like gini. We are getting older, baby. We must fight. Okay?', Arya looked at me with hope. He pulled my cheeks wide so I could see a smile, 'Smiling dong, we will definitely melt the heart of Shilla's papa'.

That's how, Arya always keeps me calm. His maturity made his motivation and passion in my life. With him I will not feel lost. Every day hearing his voice, is happiness and it is a gift.

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'Shilla', there was a sound of papa banging on my bedroom door.

'What the hell is pa? How can I not wait so much?', My protest when the door of my room was perfectly open.

'The widower is coming', Papa's attitude looks cold. I know he doesn't like it. But, inevitably, all this we have to live to fight for our love.

'She's Arya well, she's got a name. Come on, now we're out meeting Arya', Papa's following me. I saw Arya sitting in the living room. This time there was progress. A year ago, Arya just came directly told to go home by papa.

'Let me make a drink, what do you want Arya to drink?', I asked Arya after papa sat across from Arya.

'What is Shill'

I passed by leaving papa and Arya. I don't know what the two of them are talking about. To be sure, after I delivered a drink, Arya had already moved from her seat.

'Lho, Arya, how do you want to go home anyway? The drink just got so', I said in a panic. I looked at papa, but papa threw away his face.

'Thank you Shill, I go home first yes, I'm in a hurry. Call from the client', that's all Arya said. Arya passed away. I didn't think it through. I soon found out what Arya and papa were talking about.

Since then, Arya has never seen me again. I was desperate to contact Arya. There was not a single message from him before it completely disappeared from me! I don't want to know anymore about Arya who suddenly disappeared swallowed by the earth just like that. Maybe I can only love papa. I don't want to love anyone but Papa.

Now I'm close to a papa friend, but he's not the same age. Only 4 years between my age and his age. I don't have any feelings for him, but since I love papa, I will try to make Papa happy by accepting the man of my choice for my life.

'Aryaa', Shout. Arya had a look and she was running fast wanting to avoid me. I also ran to catch up with him.

'Shilla, Shill, where are you going?', I stared at the origin of the voice, Reindra stood up, she also wanted to catch up with me. But I don't care about Reindra. All I have in mind is to hug Arya. Wanting to ask her all, why would she leave me without leaving a single message.

Akaakkk!!!

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I know I was wrong. I know I shouldn't act stupid like that. Now my future husband, Reindra, will suffer permanent blindness. I shouldn't have run after Arya and stayed with Reindra. Papa always calms me down so I don't feel too guilty. However, every time I saw Reindra, my heart was slipping. I made his world dark because of me. The only way that can pay for everything is that I will be willing to be the light of his world.

All the arrangements about my marriage and Reindra were in order. Soon my relationship with Reindra will be formalized. I'm sure love will come from getting used to it.

'Shill, are you sure you're willing to marry this blind me?', Reindra's face shows a veil of anxiety and worry.

'Don't worry Ndra, I'll be willing to light up your world to make up for it all. Although not as bright as when you can see, at least I can be the sun for your heart', I said sincerely as sincerely as possible.

When the wedding plans stay another week, there is news from the hospital that Reindra can donate corneas to the eye. I'm so grateful. However, the hospital kept the identity of the donor secret. Amidst the astonishment, I was quite happy because my future husband could see again.

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Now I'm officially a wife of Reindra Permana. The feeling of love I was waiting for never came. However, every time I looked into Reindra's eyes, there was a strange feeling stirring in my heart. As if my longing could be channeled there, I always found peace when I looked into those eyes. Every time I look into Reindra's eyes, I feel like I always want to be with her, not want to be far away, not want to be separated. I found my love in my husband's eyes that I didn't love.

'Shilla's'

'Papa, just ngagetin'

'Again what?'

'Watching TV, why?'

'Where's reindra?'

'For work, pa'

'You love Reindra, honey?'

The deg! I'm speechless. I don't know what to say to papa. I'd love to answer that I don't love Reindra, but I can't let you down.

'Why shut up, son?'

'Love you', I'm trying to smile.

'Good then. Love your husband as you love papa. Love your husband like you love papa, Shilla. It's for you, but promise me, after reading this, you don't act weird enough to make your husband hurt again, dear papa you dear', Papa handed me a piece of envelope, he kissed my forehead and walked out of my room. I was surprised when I opened the envelope.

Dear, Shilla, I'm sorry I just left you without a word of goodbye. I know how sick you are, baby. But this is all I do because I love you so much. I don't want to confuse you with choosing between me and your father. I also do not want to make you as a dissident papa you who has taken care of you as a single parent in this world.

Shilla, I love you more than anything. I leave not because I do not love, but to keep our love. I realized after your father spoke to me. That if I love you I must go away from you. You're a young girl who deserves a bright future with Reindra, not with me a widower whose age is 10 years away. There may be a mistake between our love dear. I'm sorry I had to go.

Don't look for me again Shilla. Look into your husband's eyes, that's where you'll find love. Take good care of your dad and don't disappoint him, baby. I love you, too, your father. Don't look for me anymore, stay by your husband faithfully. Love him as you loved me. You will find love in your husband's eyes. And you will have the heartfelt love of your husband. I know he loves you very much, Shlla.

Ilove you.

Aryans.

My tears can't be stopped. Now I understand everything. I looked at my bedroom door. My husband was standing there with a tired face. I looked into his eyes. It was like Arya was looking at me. I found shade there. I found love in my husband's eyes. I love my husband. I got up from my seat and hugged my husband tightly.

'I love you, my husband. I'm sorry'