Short Story (Cerpen)

Is it Happy for Me? (Part 5)

Category: Sad Love Story

Title: Is It Happy for Me? (Part 5)

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'Congratulations…'

'thank you. Without your support, I would not be able to be here, Dicka replied as he greeted the people surrounding him.

'You are great…'

'If you may know, whose victory are you offering?' ask the reporter for a local newspaper.

Smiling, he replied, 'To my father who always supported me and someone who was always in my heart.'

'Who is he?' press that reporter.

'Sorry, I can't say it.'

'One more question!'

'Yes?'

'How do you feel when you become a champion in this year's race?'

'Of course I feel very happy. Now, my dream has come true. Again, thanks for everything.'

The racecourse was still clamoring for his name. However, Dicka seemed to have sunk into his world. Among the rumbling of the spectators who crowded the arena, he felt extremely lonely. The smile she had always been smiling for so long was just a smile of falsehood.

From that day on, she couldn't smile the same way she used to. The girl he always expected every night, might never come back into his life. Yeah, he's gone.

One week before…

'An, you know what? He's so cute, cool, cool…'

'What are you talking about, anyway?' asked Ana did not understand.

'Now, look at yourself, ' answered Leni, her boarding friend, thrusting a local newspaper into her hands, 'but, you can't go along with her. He is already mine.'

'Okay, Leni. Never knew either…'

'Makanya, next week I'd like to invite you to meet him. Well, at least I can take a photo with him. Then, I'll put the picture in my room, and I can dream it every night.'

'Nga.'

'Wild. It's up to me, dong.'

'Len, it's nothing yet…'

'Belgain.'

'To meet the artist, you have to make an appointment first. Well, where could they possibly be ngijinin you cheering on?' ana protest.

'Lho, who said he was an artist?'

'So.' Ana said as she continued flipping through the newspaper. Finally, he gave up, 'What page, Len?'

'I think the picture was on page 7. Find another meticulous, dong.'

'Yes, yes. Trus, what were you talking about?'

'Oh yeah, almost forgot. He's not an artist, but a racer.'

Almost missed the newspaper Ana held in shock. He hadn't heard that word in a long time, since…

'Ka, if I could meet you, ' Ana murmured.

'An, what did you say? I'm not being horrified.'

'Oh, there's nothing, ' Ana replied lying, 'I went back to the room first, yes,'

'Kok, all of a sudden.' said Leni puzzled.

Even more confused when he saw the water pooling in Ana's eye pelupuk.

'Have I said anything that hurt his heart?' leni asked not to understand, 'entare, deh.'

Leni also gradually left, leaving her newspaper open…

Dicka Hermawan S, a talented newcomer who enlivened the tight competition in the world of racing, managed to hold the title this year. Noteworthy is that he has reached the finish line eight times in thirteen matches. He seems to be unable to be blocked by his opponents. What an amazing achievement…

'An, why were you yesterday?'

Ana just kept quiet.

'You sick?'

Ana shakes.

'Did I do something wrong to you?'

Ana nodded again.

'Then, what's up until you cry?'

The deg! Almost dislodged Ana's heart heard Leni's words.

Turns out Leni saw him yesterday, Ana's inner.

'If there's any more trouble, just tell me. Don't be held alone. It can be stressful, you know.'

'Oh, I'm fine, really. Just…'

'Just.' said Leni mimicking Ana's speech.

'No. Just a little lightheaded, but it's healed. Just relax.'

However, Leni could not be that easy to believe Ana's words.

Something must be wrong, I don't know what. Ana is hiding something from me, Leni thought.

However, Leni does not force Ana to tell him the 'something', because she believes that one day Ana herself will tell the truth.

Finally, the following week, Ana was already at the racecourse. He couldn't resist when Leni was insistent! Leni forced him to come along.

'Come, An. Than today there is no activity, mending we watch. Definitely exciting.'

'Do you know where the race is going?'

'Yes, from everywhere, it's.'

'No.'

'Kok, so.. Masa sama temen itself tega, anyway?'

'Up to me, dong.'

'Come on, dong, ' Leni's sulking.

'Why not watch it with your girlfriend? Than me?'

'Which girlfriend is it?'

'That, that's his name…'

'Oh, Andi.'

'Yes, right. Andie.'

'He had me broken up a month ago.'

'What? Just two months of dating too.'

'It's okay, dong. Andi tuh his man is very childish, not like the adult.'

'Oo. your bad luck prince.'

'Don't hide, yeah. Later on, if not come.'

'…'

'By the way, I never saw you with a guy, did I?'

'I don't want to 'just.'

'Why? Mmm. You must have a boyfriend, yes. Where is he now?'

Ana shakes. And, that was when Leni saw Ana's sad face. But he is not usually sad like that.

He understood and immediately switched the conversation.

'Anyway, you have to come. Later, I buy meatballs in Pak Paijo's stall.'

'No need, I'd like to go to the boarding house.'

'Okay, this is the last way. If you can't answer my question, you have to go. Easy, really.'

'…'

'Tell me the reason you don't want to go. That's aja.'

And that's the question Ana can't answer.

'Jawab or follow.' Leni gives two equally difficult choices.

'I'm coming, deh, ' Ana replied at last. Limply.

'Why don't you answer? I-i know. You see, your girlfriend who didn't say where it was, was also a racer. Is that really what I said?'

Actually, Ana knew if Leni said it half-jokingly, but that was it. What he said.right. And, he didn't want to tell Leni the problem. Not for now.

'If you want to leave, now, yuk, ' Ana said as she tried to hide the sadness that suddenly invaded her heart.

And, here he is. In the actual racecourse he wants to avoid, because it always reminds him of his precious memories, as well as often makes him feel empty.

Suddenly, Leni surprised him.

'An, you know what? This match is the last. That's why I want to look.'

'Then?'

'Just know, you. Actually, I just want to see my prince. When I saw her, I fell in love. Is that his name? I love in the first sight.'

'Wait first. So, you've been here before?'

'… Yeah, anyway. Sa.. same Andi.'

'Oo. You killed him because of your prince in the middle of nowhere.'

'You know it's the end too.'

'You're doing it anyway, Len. Love is made a toy.'

'We live in this world only once. As much as possible, I'll enjoy it. I don't think you're waiting for him to continue. Uh, until the jambul uwanen you can only bengong doang.'

'You fucked me, yeah. Where's your head, I'm telling you not to feel.'

Right now, Ana is really grateful to have a friend as good as Leni. Leni who always looked at the world positively. Leni is always cheerful, and is able to cheer her up with her words.

'Don't joke around, ah. The race will start soon. Later, I'll show you where my prince is. Just be patient, ' said Leni turned towards Ana. And, he was surprised when he saw Ana was reading the magazine casually.

'What the fuck, anyway? Magazine reading in a place like this?'

Then, Leni immediately snatched the magazine from Ana's hands, and immediately put it in a bag. Regardless of the protest from Ana, Leni shouted in excitement, 'That's it, An. Who wears the same helmet red clothes. Kyaaa.., he's a top.'

'Yes, yes.., no yelling has also been heard,' replied Ana finally took notice of the man appointed by Leni.

'Why 'Certainly? There is nothing special about him.' Though, inwardly, Ana felt curious as well. The way he speeds. Ah, but where could he be here, Ana thought.

'Yes, it is up to you, if you want to stay loyal to your girlfriend who is not discovered. Importantly, you will have to accompany me to ask for a photo with him.'

'Lho, why didn't you take me? You are an adult.'

'Been already. Come along, don't protest too much.'

Ana gives up, and follows Leni into the player's dressing room.

When we got there, there were already a lot of people swarming around that racer.

'An, you wait here, huh?'

'Quietly, I can't go, really.'

Ana sees Leni nimbly slashing forward and seconds later she is covered by a sea of humans. He just nodded his head looking at it.

Ana then spread her eyes around. The racecourse was no stranger to him, but this place always reminded him of that figure, who filled his days with a sense of uncertainty. Sometimes sad, sometimes happy. And, he understood that that was how the flow of life flowed.

As Leni leaves, Ana's grief returns. He feels alone…

I don't know how long he waited, when finally Leni ran around a little while screaming calling his name.

'Ana..., I've got it!'

Ana smiled from a distance and waved her hand. However, suddenly, he felt his hand tighten. Ana was surprised to see him. He who had always appeared was only a shadow.

Dicka's heart stopped beating when he heard Ana's name mentioned. Could she be her Ana?

All this time, her name's been haunting wherever Dicka goes. She must have looked over when there was someone called Ana. After that, he must have been disappointed. They are not the Ana. They are just people who have the same name as their beloved.

This time it's the same. Dicka turned his head, and found himself almost fainted from disbelief. She saw Ana looking at her…

God, am I looking at a mirage? thought Dicka. However, a few seconds later, he was convinced that it was not an illusion. His eyes were still the same as before, and he couldn't possibly forget them.

Dicka immediately ran away. Just left by the girls who had swarmed him. Also, he ignored the cries of protest from them. Yeah, Ana can't disappear back from her life.

Time seemed to stop for a moment. They look at each other. Longtime. Not a single word came out. However, the longing eyes were enough to convince them that the love between them had not changed in the least.

A while later, when they were conscious of the magic that seemed to sedate them…

'An.' said Dicka, who then took Ana's hand and took her away. Ana nodded. He forgot when a few steps next to them, Leni stared inexplicably. There were a million feelings filling his heart.

'Come on, we're home. I don't want you to be cold here Dicka said.

'Let's just calm down, there's you, ' Ana joked. In his hand was clutched an object that had only been a piece of a dream. They smile together, as a sign that they understand each other.

In the distance, the waves are increasingly licking the sand.

Dicka takes Ana home to her room. However, how surprised they were, when they saw Ana's father was standing waiting in front of the fence with a huff.

'Why Dad can know.' Ana's inner wonder.

But, suddenly he was very understanding when he saw Leni's eyes. That look said everything.

'An, come with me!' force her father, 'Dad should say something to you.'

'But…'

Dicka, who was beside Ana, finally spoke.

'Om, sorry if I was presumptuous. I beg you to respect our relationship. We love each other.'

'Can't! Ana has to continue her studies first. Besides, you don't deserve to be next to my daughter.'

'Dad!' ana protest.

'Be quiet! I will definitely find a man who is on par with our family!' Ana's father shouted. At that time, they were on the side of the road.

'An, have you dared to go against Father?'

Ana is really confused. What decision will he make? Father or his girlfriend?

'Sorry.' Ana muttered while holding Dicka's hand, taking him away.

'An... are you sure of your decision?'

Ana nodded slowly. Her tears fell.

'I'm not okay. Come on!'

Then, they immediately left from Ana's boarding place. To the point that Ana's father was shocked to see her. He would never believe if his gentle daughter could oppose him.

After being able to overcome her shock, Ana's father immediately ordered some of his men to chase after them.

'Quick! Don't let them get away!' his yell.

'Ka, we're being chased, ' Ana said, as she looked at some of her father's right hands.

'Yes, I know.'

At that time, the road was quiet, so Dicka also increased the speed of his motorbike.

'I believe in you. I believe we'll be happy, ' Ana murmured.

Dicka did not answer. He focused his attention forward. Suddenly, a car cut off the road. Dicka who was riding his motorbike at high speed immediately braked. But it turns out everything is too late.

Dicka felt himself soaring into the air before hitting the road. It was already inconceivable how the stinging pain all over his body was. However, amidst her dwindling consciousness, she was still searching around for Ana's figure. Where is he?

Her eyes were already getting blurred, when she saw Ana bleeding, and she did not move. Dicka immediately panicked. Dragging her feet in pain, Dicka headed towards Ana.

'An, wake! I'm right here!' dicka said while shaking Ana's body.

A ring fell from Ana's hand.

From a distance Dicka heard people start crowding and screaming.

'But what are they shouting?' ask Dicka. Everything seemed like a dream to him. Is this a nightmare? But, why didn't he wake up as well?

The sound of the waves breaking the coral like the singing of a chanter longs for them.

Dicka reached into something from his pocket. An object that has never been detached from him, and has become a part of his life.

'This!' he told Ana, 'sorry there's no wrapper,'

The thing glittered in the twilight sun.

'I'm afraid I didn't get to give it to you.'

Ann smiles. So sweet.

Dicka woke up with a pounding heart with a dizzy head. Why am I here? The smell of this hospital was well known.

Suddenly, he felt he had lost something. Where's Ana? There was only my father beside him.

'Well, where's Ana?' dicka asked uneasily, clutching her father's arm.

However, his father did not answer. He put his hand on Dicka's and smiled bitterly. Dicka felt that something was wrong.

'Ana... Where is she? Dicka didn't kill him, did he?'

'It's not all your fault, son. It's not all your fault.'

Instantly, Dicka's world collapsed.

'Dad?'

Dicka was crying in his father's chest.

'Been already. All this is not your fault, ' replied the father trying to calm his son.

Dicka no longer had the passion to live. Someone who always filled the halls of his heart, now disappeared. Disappeared forever. Disappeared, never to return. Yeah, Ana could really leave him here alone, not bring him in.

Today, he really can't face today. All day, he just shut himself up in his room. He doesn't eat, doesn't drink, doesn't want anything. The nurses were confused. Although her father always said that all this was not his fault, Dicka still felt himself sinful.

Supposedly, Ana didn't need to run away with him. Supposedly, Ana is still alive today and has her happiness. Supposedly, Ana could still enjoy her days. He killed Ana.

'Lord, take this worthless life! But, give Ana back for me. Why did You choose him and make me tormented like this? Why did I have to lose her again? Isn't it enough if you just took Mom from me? God, I don't understand any of this!'

Eventually, Dicka decides to go to Ana's house, though he knows her presence will add to the chaotic scene. However, he doesn't care. Being killed is okay. Dicka just wants to see Ana for the last. Her pretty, kind, soft…

It would be pointless if he was only in the hospital like this and pondered over his memories with Ana, and cried until his tears dried.

'Ana, do you feel lonely being there? Really, I want to keep you company.'

Ana's father welcomes Dicka's arrival hysterically.

'Would you come here? Just go! You killed my daughter, ' cried Ana's father.

Plaque! A hard slap landed on Dicka's cheek. However, he felt as if he had felt nothing.

'Patience, Sir!' said someone while trying to calm Mr. Budi.

'Release! Let me kill him.'

'Alright, Sir. All of this is a sign of destiny. You must declare the departure of your daughter.'

'What? Suratan destiny? If that jerk hadn't approached my daughter, it wouldn't have ended like this!'

'Release!'

By then, Dicka had heard nothing.

'I'm coming, An. I'm here with you. Why don't you wake up too? Don't you love me too?' dicka kissed Ana on the forehead.

People started screaming. But Dicka heard nothing.

'No, Sir! What are you going to do?'

But no one dared to come closer. Mr. Budi brandished the knife he carried in front of the people present. And, all could only be stunned, speechless, when Pak Budi approached Dicka.

When she turned around, Dicka felt a cold object piercing through her stomach. He saw blood flowing down his clothes. It's red…

Everyone was shocked to see the incident. Dicka's body collapsed. Blood flowed quickly inundated the white-colored floor.

'An, I knew this moment would definitely come…'

Until the end, Dicka never understood God's plan for her, and he smiled.

That day was an unforgettable day.

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