Short Story (Cerpen)
Now My Job Is Done (Part 1)
Category: Sad Love Story
Title: Now My Job Is Done (Part 1)
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“why do you wish me? why did you hurt me? why did you betray me? what wrong? what are my flaws?”
“no, you are completely innocent.You have absolutely no flaws. I am the one who has flaws, I cannot be with you anymore.”.
“why?”
“understand me, I can no longer love you. Can't I?”.
“why? give me 1 reason.”
“don't force me.”
“I will continue to force you until you give me a reason.”
“I just want you to be happy.”
“what is the reason?”
“iya just that.”
“do you know where happiness lies? it's in you.”
“aku? no. The happiness that is in me will only be temporary in your life.”
“I don't care.”
“but I care.. understand.”.
“for what do I understand that happiness?”
“for your future.”
“ future I just want to be with you.”
“I can't. go..”
“what because you love him?”
“don't force me.”
“well may you be happy with him.”
“iya.”
I cried, I hurt even I accepted all this God, but I know it's the best.I can't force this heart, even though this heart sincerely loves it.. maybe I was wrong from the beginning, but this feeling? I know it's not God's fault.I don't want him to hate me..
“don't cry anymore. You can definitely.”
“thank you for helping me.”
“sama-sama.. remove your tears.”
“but this hurts.This heart is wounded..this heart is fragile.”.
“trust me, your sincere intentions will surely be helped by God.”
“asick this? is this how it works?”
“all will run beautifully..all will be fine.”
“I want to be alone, please leave me here.”
“well. but promise me, if you need a shoulder, contact me. anytime and anywhere this shoulder will always be there for you.”
“iya.. thank you.”
I walk among the cold of the night.I am like a dry leaf, ready to fly anywhere if there is wind to take me.. sometimes I look up at the dark sky, feel something I might not be able to say?. Rainbow at night? does that exist? can it be real? I want to see it even if only 1 time..
My footsteps led me to a house that at once belonged to my foster brother..
“kakak, I've run it all. I managed big brother.” my tears fell while I was still standing in front of Ricko.
“don't cry sweet sister. You have to be strong. sacrificing something it takes patience.The tears you drop will never be able to make you sincere, remember what you did all this for.”
“but this torments me too much brother. I'm afraid he hates me. I'm afraid brother.”.
“trust me one day he will understand dear. Never regret doing something good.here we enter. later you catch a cold if exposed to rain water continues.”.
“iya kak I'm in. accompany me kak.”
“mana maybe brother let you alone in your time like this.”
“thank you brother.”
“don't thank you too much brother.. I'm your sister dear.”
“kak, how is he?”
“trust..”
“believe what brother? surely she is sick, surely she is crying. surely she is injured sister.”.
“it must be sister, but you have to remember, all your goals.”
“view all the contents of the message sis..”
“iya later sister see, you just rest. don't cry anymore. tonight sleep in sister's room.”.
“iya sister.”
I saw her footsteps begin to leave me alone in this room.I don't know why these tears still want to drip.. Lord, if this is beautiful in Your eyes, please strengthen my fragile heart, Lord, only you know how great this feeling is for him..
“morning sweet sister.”
“morning sister.”
“your body is hot again.you have breakfast first, finish it take medicine and you rest again.”
“I don't need any food, I don't need medicine.I just need a sigh of relief..I want to go to the House of God sis..I want to pour out all my heart to Him.”.
“kakak will take you but you have to eat first, let you have energy.”
“well brother.”
Thank you, brother, for taking care of me. already want to make me look tough, my lips are no longer able to say it to my brother..
“wait for me here brother, I go in first.”
“iya sister.. smile.”.
“:)”
Father, I'm sorry, I want to apologize to him and tell him everything, but I, I can't afford Father.. I want to be strong and stay strong in carrying out all these plans.don't let there be hatred for him for me Father.. I know I was wrong but I did all this because 1 thing, I love him but love his future more.I hope all I do this is never in vain Father.
“kakak, I'm done. Right now please take me to our favorite dining place sak.”
“good sister.”
My sister and I went to our favorite food.When I got there, my sister immediately ordered the food and drink we used to order..
“how, have you been happy?”
“as you see..” reply me
“oh well.. sorry if I bother you.”
“iya.”
These tears fell again..
“kakak I can not, until when will all this happen brother? until when does this bitter smile hold back this wounded heart sis?”
“adik, remove pin dia..”
“I can't sis.. I still want to see it even if only from this blackberry.. understand sak..”.
“doesn't understand but please don't cry anymore.it will make you more hurt.”.
“hai.”
“hai also..where did you come from?”
“from home, just wanted to eat, happened to see your car here. so I stopped by dech. it turns out there is Fay here.”
“iya... You want what message?”
“what an important dech bang just like Faya.”
“oke wait here.”
“oke thanks bang.”
“do you hurt Fay?”
“no, just a little unwell.”
“what's the difference with pain?”
“?”
“don't think too hard. I know all the pain but remember, remember your purpose Fay..”
“Andik's right.”
“iya.. You two can only talk but I feel it.”.
“who said?” andik
“aku.”
“that's just your feeling.”
“has not been discussed let's eat first. The order has come.”.
I enjoy the food in front of me. Sometimes I look at Andik.not because I like it just I don't know why he wants to help me..
“and..”
“iya Fay?”
“aku want any.”.
“was what?”
“why do you want to help me?”
“feeling.”
“means feeling how?”
“you eat only.. don't talk too much.”
“answer.”
“later I reply.”
“oke.. I wait for your answer.”
We finished our meal and left the place..
“Ricko, Fay I'll take it for a while.”
“mau where? my sister is sick.”
“i'll take her home.”
“all right, take good care of him.”
“oke..”
In the car
“you why are you crying?”
“you see this and.”
“Revealed many pel*cur”
“ini him?”
“iya.”
“now he considers me nothing more than dirt and. pain.”
“here's your blackberry.”
“what do you want?”
“I want him to think more mature.”
“do not.. I do not want to make him angry. if this is what he has in mind. fine.. I accept”.
“aku you can't accept.”
“must and, here's that risk.”
“iya” replies
These tears are dripping down more and more. Do you know what my purpose is? do you know why I did all this? I want you to be happy. Our differences are too far apart.Your age with me is much different.I can't see your future ruined mess.It should be if you love me sincerely, you love me sincerely, you'll never think of me like that. You know, I'm hurt here too. Even more than a knife to my veins. I love you more than you know.. understand that I have to do all this..
“if you keep crying, I make sure he is no more in this world.”
“and why are you like that.”
“I don't want to see you cry.”
“please I won't cry. but never do that.”.
“what are you crying for? he will never understand..How long have you been with him? did he ever meet you even if only 1 time? are you sure he was always honest with you there? are you sure he loves you sincerely? if that's true, why did he consider you despicable so quickly? why can't he cover his wound with a firmness? you're here crying for him, but he's there insulting you. Enough Fay, I don't like your way.”.
“but he is so because he is angry, he is hurt and. not because he is insincere.”
“to where else should you be aware? where else are your eyes and heart open? until you shed your tears as high as a mountain? you and him different beliefs, different cities. different future..you and he are different 5 years...He is still in school while you? realize Fay, your future is different.You can't wait for him. And he can't marry you after school, I know you love her but do you want to sacrifice her future? how's family? how would your family know you love someone with a deep difference?”
“aku know, but hard and.”
“fast or slow all will be fine.”
Suddenly my blackberry rang..
“even if I get hurt, even though all this is painful.I will always love you.wait for you and I will always prove I love you more than him.”.
“don't.. don't wait for me. go.. There are still many out there people who need your affection.. you will definitely be happy.”.
“I will prove to you. I am waiting for you.”.
“whatever.”
Somehow after I read the message I was a little relieved.I was hoping for something? do I hope the wait will be sincere? I leave all this to You, Lord..
“we go where and?”
“walk..if I take you home for sure until home you will cry again.”
“you know too well.”
“because of feelings.”
“feeling?”
“what?”
“I mean you. You even call me back.”
“iya no need to answer.”
“whatever you are.”
“don't contact him again.don't let me know.”
“why?”
“what to contact him? make injured?”
“noisy and.”
“oke.. until he hurts you with his words, I make sure this land his bed.”
“stop and.”
“do you like this place?”
“iya, cool and comfortable yes..you can be romantic too?”
“can if it's for you happy.”
“means?”
“it's too late, I have to drive you home.You're not very healthy either.”
“iya.”
In the car, sometimes I look at Andik. somehow that makes him continue to help me. May God repay all his kindness. I do not know who else to ask for help if not him.. he's all I trust..
4 Days without him without the person I love.. Rian's name. 3 days that I went through without the chandelier, but the attention, but reportedly. But Andik who accompanied me. All that was replaced by Andik, I still love Rian. Between me and Andik is only a friend who has been established for several years. Every time I see this blackberry, I hope there is a message from him..
“why do you keep daydreaming?”
“And.. since when are you there?”
“about 15 minutes ago.yes more or less. It has been 4 days, are not enough tears you let out?”
“And understand, it's so heavy. I'm afraid I can't deal with it.”.
“Fay listen to me. You are too soft, too follow your feelings.”
“continue how should I? smile strong? it was already done in front of you guys, but here, deep in it. I was hurt. it was too painful.” I bowed my head while crying.
“I want to ask you, do you love her sincerely?”
“very And.”
“what do you think love should be selfish?”
“not And. cannot.”
“if so, why are you crying again?”
“please take me home And.”
“please.”
“kakak.. I say goodbye first. I want to rest at home.”.
“you sure?”
“iya sister.”
“if there is anything, or you need something.contact brother.”.
“iya sis.”
“I beg you stop shedding your tears Fay. I can't watch you cry.”
“I've tried it And, but still can't. leave me alone And.”.
“oke..”
“thank you for the ride.”
“remember Fay, I'm there for you.”
“?”
In this room, I shed tears again.I looked at the picture.You know I miss you. I miss when you ask me what happened with today.. but I know this miss will make you even more hurt.. Rian, if we live on the same island, even though it is different city. Right now I will step there, looking at you from a distance to make sure you are well me, that is enough.. I was unlucky.I drowned all our hopes and dreams? ii'm sorry..
“i miss to Fay?” a message from Rian
I unconsciously hugged this blackberry and replied to her message..
“i miss u too Rian?”
“what are you doing?”
“aku again in room.”
“what are you crying?”
“no.. I just went to bed.. What are you doing right now?”
“missing you.”
Rian, if you know.The taste of this kangen is deeper than this hurt..
“sleep, it's night.”
“no.. I still miss you.”
“tomorrow I must be there again for you. Now you rest.Now don't sleep too late, I don't want you to fall sick.”.
“appointment?”
“what appointment?”
“tomorrow did you send me a message again?”
“iya I promise.”
“good night Fay.. I love you?”
“night also Rian.”
Thank God, he still trusts me. He still loves me. Thank God..
“good morning Rian.”
“good morning Fay..”
“how are you doing this morning?”
“a little unwell.”
“you sick? eat and drink.”.
“aku no taste..”
“aku please.”
“better I fall ill so I can keep close to you.”
“you mean?”
“you haven't noticed me in a long time.Your affection I can't feel anymore.but I know you're doing all this for what.you purposely avoided me just to make me hate you.. you know Fay, until whenever I can't hate you. Even though you keep doing this silly thing. Because I know in the depths of your heart you still love me.”.
“already Rian, I don't want to discuss it. I want you to do what I want right now.”
“if I recover, you will never pay attention to me again.”
“you are wrong big.. I will always be here for you.”.
“promise?”
“as long as you still want then my job of keeping you unfinished.”
“please I eat first and take medicine.You do not forget to eat.”.
I immediately rushed to take a shower and after everything was over, I took my motor key..
“Kak.. have you eaten?”
“already..you?”
“astaga Fay, your face is pale once.. Go inside.” while pulling my hand.
“I'm fine brother, don't spoil me.”
“what looks good? from the outside it is like this, what else is inside.”
“trust brother.”
“I've done everything you want.. Now what are you doing?”
“please.. I'm sitting.”
“where? same who?”
“comfortable place, same brother Ricko.”
“greetings to brother Ricko.”
“iya later I say..how, have you felt a bit good?”
“not yet.”
“you have enough rest and you should not go to school first.”
“no.. I don't want to skip.”
“not truant.. You will be sick again. multiply rest at home.”.
“I do not want.. I want to finish school quickly. I want to go there to see you.. I want to prove everything.”.
“please I am not forcing. The important thing is that you take care of yourself.”
“Fay, how are you? you are sick but you are trying to pay attention to him. Remember your condition Fay..”
“turned brother saw the contents of my message.”
“iya.. don't let brother throw away your blackberry.”.
“brother I beg you not to keep pressing me. I am tired brother. I have followed all the advice of brother.. I tried to stay away from him brother, but I need time. This is the feeling of brother, this heart is not a toy that can be casually removed.do not make me more wrong brother. now he is sick, all because of me brother, because I.. can't I watch him? I'm more sinful, I feel more guilty, brother. I know I have to do this all, stay away from him so he forgets me. But please don't be this fast brother, even all these feelings are still the same brother.. understand how it feels so I. please sis.” I immediately went to leave brother..
I didn't mind it anymore when my brother yelled my name so I would stop running my bike.. Does God know how much this hurt? Lord I hate all this.I hate all this destiny.I would rather die alone than this heart be tormented.. God help me, tell them I'm hurt..
