Mentari in the Night Sky

The Past: Mother's Last Request

"Dad will be waiting for you at home."

The last words I said before leaving me alone with Ken in the dining room. Ken looked at me for a second, I think he was asking me for permission to go after Dad. I just nodded and Ken immediately ran after Dad.

I stared blankly at the place where my grandparents usually sat every time we ate. To this day, she is still hospitalized and her grandfather accompanies her. More precisely grandfather wants to avoid father so prefer to be in the hospital. It's my fault that I stayed in this house even after one week of my mother's death. I can't just leave this house, something's holding me back from staying in this house.

Unlike me, William had already returned to London one day after my mother's funeral. She said she wanted to take care of something related to her mother. I guess, he wants to rearrange the house. He will definitely put a lot of maternal relics and photos of the mother in the house. Something he shouldn't have done because it would only magnify the wound he felt. Or maybe he wants to keep dad thinking about mom.

Arthur is still here. He still accompanies me in this house even though he always leaves in the morning and returns at night. He spent the day with Olivia. He had rediscovered a figure that could make him comfortable and a figure that could make him forget for a moment the sense of loss of mother even though finally all night I could still hear her cries that missed mother.

"Some one wants to meet Miss" said one of the grandfather's secretaries, awakening me from daydreaming.

I didn't make an appointment with anyone and my two best friends were back in London right after my mom's funeral was over. I also asked them not to return to Wales to see me for the next few weeks. I don't know who wants to see me. I just nodded and asked the secretary to bring the person who wanted to meet me to the dining room.

"During time don't see you, Miss."

The Nakamoto family secretary or the secretary that the mother sent to the Nakamoto family. I saw him coming home at my mother's funeral. He and his mother came to see Grandpa. I do not know what they are talking about until it takes 2 hours but I can make sure one of their topics of conversation is related to the tragic love story and infidelity that must be felt by the mother.

"I don't think a week is a long time" I replied while fixing my sitting position to make it more comfortable.

"For you to be reunited with me might not be a long time but I think for you to go through the days without Mrs Zelia for one week is a very long time, she said, it might even feel like a year."

Is correct. Absolutely right. I smiled and asked him to sit down. He then took out and put thick documents before me, like a salesman offering his merchandise.

"Have you come as Nakamoto Family secretary or as a mother confidant?"

"Both, Miss."

"Tell me what to hear."

"Mrs Sei asked me to present Miss Zeta's spinal cord matching document with Miss Sina. If Miss wants to be angry with me, I will thank you for not having me come to discuss this while Miss is still grieving. At first I did not want to obey orders from Lady Sei but I remembered the request from Lady Zelia on the day of her death."

The secretary snapped her sentence as soon as I saw me pick up one of the documents, Sina's medical record documents. There was so much data about Sina's condition that it was getting worse and worse. I think Mrs Sei already has no choice but to beg in this way, a way that she did not even do when she met her mother.

"What does mom ask?" ask me while putting the document back on the table.

The woman in front of me pulled out a letter hesitantly onto the table. A letter wrapped in an envelope inscribed with the name of the mother on it. I picked up the letter, still sealed tightly.

"It is impossible for this letter to arrive at the day of the mother's death. At least you've kept this letter for 5 days" I continued.

The secretary was silent for a few minutes before finally taking out the recording device. A familiar voice began to fill the room, making me want to go back to a time where I could still get a lot of advice and anger from the owner of the voice. It was so sad to just listen to my mother's voice.

"Zeta doesn't know if she has a sister. If he knew he would definitely be very surprised to learn his father still had a relationship with the woman even after his birth. I ask you, come to him, give him an understanding of his sister, especially about his sister who needs her spinal cord. Don't force him to do the donor, just give him an understanding if his sister needs him. He would not be able to love his sister just like that but he would also not be able to hate his sister for no reason. Please, give him the understanding that his sister has no fault in the fate that befell us and our family. Don't make him have any reason to hate his sister."

The secretary stopped the tape. He looked at me, trying to read my mind or maybe my current feelings. Unfortunately, I'm no longer a Zeta that can be read easily. I'm no longer Zeta who wants the help of others to make me express myself. I'm just Zeta who the world doesn't want to know.

"I..," he said as silence filled the dining room.

"I know, you didn't tell mom that I already knew all about Sina. Thank you for protecting my mother. Thank you for not leaving a wound before my mother's death. From now on, you are free to become the full secretary of the Nakamoto Family or to return to being part of the Norvin Family" I said.

"Miss says the same thing as Madam. He set me free when I never felt locked up."

Just a small smile I gave in response, making her feel like the meeting this time was over. He left his phone number if something happened to me or if I wanted something from him. I think I'm gonna need it in the next few days.

I refocused my attention on the letter. A letter that I would hate and never read a second time.

'Zeta, the love that saved Mom..

I don't know what to write in such a short time. As you read this letter, I wish you had heard and known everything, especially about your sister. I hope you're trying to understand everything that's going on. I wouldn't blame you if you couldn't understand any of this. I just want you to accept all of this, accept it as part of your life.

He, your brother, needs you, dear. She needs a part of your life that is also a part of Mom so she can stay alive. I won't force you to donate what your sister needs, even to tell you, I'm ashamed. I feel like I'm currently interfering in your decision-making process.

I just want you to keep doing what's right even if you hate it.

I love you and will always be a part of your life.'

When I heard the voice recording of my mother not wanting her blood to flow in Sina's body, I decided not to donate. Nor do I want the blood that my mother passed on to me to be in the offspring of the woman who had destroyed our family. I didn't want to save her but why and how could you write a letter like this? A letter that does not show any hatred to a woman who has ruined her life and love, how can it be?

"They?" call Ken to wake me up from the daydream. I looked at him, not only looking at him but also staring at the 3 people who entered along with him. Aunt Emily, Doctor Margaret, and Doctor Esme were now in front of me with gentle smiles. Ken must have asked Aunt Emily to take the two doctors to Wales so knowing I could no longer sleep well even after taking my sleeping pills.

"Zeta hope no one asks if Zeta is okay or not because the answer is obvious."

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