WORRIED

LOVE (WHY?)

Crazy Fans

Megan, what else?

To Crazy Fans

At school, why?

Crazy Fans

*Work later I pick up yah, we together?

To Crazy Fans

I can ride the angkot. Don't bother. How can you know my phone number, I want to ask you this from yesterday.

Crazy Fans

Easy, you are the drummer with the most ig followers among the celebrity hits in this bandung. And yesterday's festival, one of the sponsors was my parents' company. It's not hard for me to know everything? many ways Megan, even to get your heart easy for me are a lot of ways to get into it, a lot of ways to get your hands on it

To Crazy Fans

just dream.

I closed my WhatsApp app. But my phone shook again. IDIOT PATRIOT Group. I think I miss these friends of mine.

@alexdn: rasya I want to borrow your guitar.

@rasya: take aja alex at my house, before the afternoon I have a house

@alexdn: okay

@meganAA: I miss you guys so much

@ikorahmasnyah: I don't miss you

@ikorahmansyah : huh just look after my jailin

@rasya: get together at megan's house this afternoon

@meganAA: sorry ,gue can't, starting today I've been working parttime at foodcourt mall xx

@alexdn: foudcourt what?

@meganAA: Prambudi foodcourt

After that conversation no one responded to my chat. It's just .

Alexdn called

What Alex is, just interview me. I lifted.

"How far have you been in contact with Raka?." Without further ado it was Alex. Well I should have gotten used to alex's nature like this.

"We're just friends." Answer me

"When did you become friends?." Alex asks like a cop interrogating a newly arrested criminal.

"Yesterday at the job interview he said I went home, why the hell Alex?." I don't understand Alex's attitude like this.

"Don't fall in love with her." To the point, with a straightforward tone Alex answered him

"We're just temen, you really why? answer honestly." I'm getting curious about Alex's nature.

"Whether you don't see him chasing you, you don't be so innocent Megan." Alex's voice was high.

"No way lex, I know who he is. There's no way a Raka falls in love with me . I am quite self-aware of who I am. He just wants to be friends, is that too much?." My answer.

"Maybe you never realized Megan, but you should know this is her playboy, she's currently dating my cousin Nanda. I don't want you both to be disappointed with that jerk." Alex's tone was getting higher.

"Gue don't become the destroyer of other people's relationships, you're too worried for something impossible to happen. I was lex again at school, chat okay?." I turned off the call without Alex's consent.

And it happened again . For the second time I was disappointed. It may be true that I fell in love with Raka, but I can't believe Alex looking at me would destroy a relationship for my ego.

Why does God always test me ?

Why did it have to happen again?

Why do I have to keep hurting?

For love today may not be as deep as it used to be. But God never gave me a chance.I don't feel my tears falling. This chest feels tight. I tried to calm my heart. God will give you beautiful things in front, I just need to accept everything sincerely.

(Inner Alex)

Megan you misunderstand me, I just don't want you to be disappointed like when you fell in love with Rasya, I know it's really heavy until you heal all your wounds. I don't want you to be disappointed a second time because I don't want you to cry anymore. I love you, even though you never realized it.

*Flashback on*

It used to be when they started Rasya's friendship so close to Megan that Megan misrepresented Rasya's kindness and warmth, only Iko and Alex noticed. Rasya never knew Megan's feelings at all. Not realizing Megan is in love with him.

When that day Rasya took all his friends to the cafe. There's Desti's boyfriend right now. There Rasya says love by singing romantically to Desti, giving her a rose. Megan immediately left the cafe. Crying without stopping. Alex, who knew about the incident, runs to calm Megan down .

After the incident Megan kept her distance from Rasya. Rasya is unaware Megan's change is due to her feelings. Until Alex and Iko managed to persuade and bury all his feelings to Rasya. And Alex doesn't want that to happen again. Looking at the fragile Megan, her cheerfulness disappeared instantly. Even Mama Megan was worried about the incident.

*flashback end*

After school I immediately searched for angkot to mall xx, because I had brought a change of clothes so no need to bother going home.

"Megan get on here, we go together." Raka called me behind the wheel of her car across from my school. I approached him.

"Sorry sir please go ahead, I still have a need. My work hours are still an hour away." I'm trying to avoid it

"Why so formal. Usually you call me you-gue." Raka scrunched her forehead.

"It's very disrespectful to the director to call such an informal language." Answer me while sitting down . I can't put my face on. And I'm gonna be even more tormented to see his face.

Raka got out of her car, half running after me. Again he pulled my hand.

"Megan we're friends why are you acting like this. I just want to take my friend to work, is that wrong?." Raka looked at me sharply, the grip of her hand making me grimace in pain.

"Can't you take my hand off, everyone is staring here. Please don't force me."

He let go of his hand, hurried away from me. I saw him slam the car door hard. Why is he so angry I just don't want to get hurt anymore . Trying to get away from him. As much and as hard as you should get away from it..

#Mall xx#

Today was my first day working . I was not excited after this incident. I'm wearing my work uniform. Because the time shows at 3 pm today is not so crowded visitors. I cleaned the tables, wiped them. After I tidied the table I wiped the glass in the foodcourt. Sometimes I look into the manager's room if there's Raka there. I feel guilty for him today. My attitude today was indeed outrageous, he just wanted to be my friend.

krekkk

The sound of the door opening. The room is open. Is Raka? I dare not look at that door anymore. There were visitors coming, Because Sindi was preparing to go home I approached the visitors.

"Good afternoon, father please this is the menu." I'm handing out the menu book .

"What special menu is there today?." Ask the man sitting looking at the menu.

"Today there is a special menu of fried duck geprek, and hot jeletot oncom sambal. Please if you are not interested can see the list of other menus." I smiled kindly.

"Bak I want rice plus 2 fried duck geprek do not be too spicy sambalnya well mbak, drink mango juice." The sitting mother pointed to her menu.

"I'm the same as mom." Answer his father

"Okay sir, is that enough? or is there something else?."Manya make sure.

"Enough mbak." Answer the father.

"Please wait sir we will immediately serve your order." Answer friendly.

Already at half-time 7pm, the foodcourt employees took turns taking breaks. My prayer and rest schedules were put together, while other employees had eaten this afternoon. When customers are quiet. Just me alone .

After the prayer I sat in the employee's canteen to eat my dinner. Suddenly someone was sitting next to me. I looked towards him, it turned out Raka. I just caught a glimpse of it and then ate my dinner.

"Are you avoiding me." Ask.

I choked on hearing it, why did he know. Damn grumbling.

" Slowly - slow down to eat, you get so crowded." Raka gave me some water, I took it.