WORRIED

LYING (FOR A LONG TIME)

" you've never been wrong, in my eyes you're a perfect woman, even too perfect, all this is my fault, not your fault" Rasha still clasped Desti's hand.

" then why do we have to end it all" Desti sobbed. Desti really doesn't understand why Rasya can do this. Rasya did not answer it just silently saw Desti getting sobbing. Rasya felt guilty about everything he said.

" is there another woman" Desti looked at Rasya with her reddened eyes filled with tears. Rasya tried to calm Desti by hugging her, but Desti refused by pushing her.

" des calm yourself first" Rasya forced hugging desti finally fell into his arms. Rasya continued to hug desti let him cry in his arms.Isakan desti finally began to faintly sound, desti had started to be able to calm himself. Rasya rubbed the tears that flowed on the cheeks of Desti.

" i'll be honest with you, can you just calm down and listen?" Rasya looked at Desti, the cries of desti began to stop. His eyes.

"well, speak up" Desti looked at Rasya, sighing in his heart to hear everything Rasya would say.

"long before I knew you, I already liked a woman, I even always wanted to take care of her" Rasya stopped his talk, staring at the desti who was still staring at her pushy eyes.

"i don't understand how I feel about her, but until one day I saw her kissing another man in front of me, my heart was so broken, I was hurt to see it all right in front of my eyes" Rasya laughed, his reverie back then, desti still endured his pain he wanted to hear everything from Rasya.

"at that time, I only realized that all this time my feelings for her were deep affection, me...."

" who's that woman?" desti cuts Rasya's talk. Desti held back his anger, his eyes were red from his cries, his white face was instantly flushed with anger.

" megan "rasha said softly, in her chest crowded with regret, sorry for never understanding megan even loved her very first, sorry for having to hurt desti. Desti just kept quiet and said nothing .

"I don't want to lie to you, hurt you even more. I want to end it all so that you can find a better man than me" Rasha held the hand of Desti, desti still digested everything Rasha said.

"does Megan know how you feel, does your love clap one hand?" desti raised her already heavy voice because of her crying.

" yes, he knew it, and again you're right he's with another man now" Rasya's voice stammered with the pain of his heart.

" then why do we have to end it, and you can't be with him now" Desti doesn't want to end it, he just wants to be with Rasya, Desti even loves Rasya very much, everything is embedded in the heart of Desti

" i can still take care of you, although it's hard, I want to fix everything, reclaim your heart as you expressed your feelings for me" in his heart tucked in disappointment ', ' he said , but Desti was reluctant to agree with Rasya's unilateral decision.

" des, you are a good woman, many men are after you, selfish if I hold you back while my heart is entirely for megan, sorry if I hurt you ,but I can't have to go on with you it just hurts me more" Rasya looked up at the stage, where Rasya used to express his feelings with confidence, but it just now boomerangs for him.

"all right, I'm not forcing you, if that's the decision you're going to make now, if you know, I'll always be waiting for you, come back to me if you're tired of chasing him. " There is a sense of relief in the heart of desti, he realized if he continued to force the existing rasha would ignore him, and would further make him suffer. Desti will accept everything, even if it is very heavy for him.

" thank you desti" Rasya stared at the desti with grief.

"let's go home it's too late at night, I don't want to worry mamah" desti saw the clock that has shown at 9 pm. Today his eyes are very careless, hopefully his mother has slept , desti does not want his mother to see his current state.

After closing the bill at the cashier, Rasya and Desti leave the cafe. Rasya put his jacket on Desti. Desti's wearing his helmet. Rasya propelled his bike. Desti hugged Rasya tightly, she wanted to feel this moment one last time after it was all over. Desti can only pray Rasya that he will always be happy.

Arriving at the house of Desti the state of the house is already very quiet, the old man desti already rested. Desti entered his house with a chaotic feeling. Lying her body in the mattress. Desti is tired today, already crying during the day in addition to now . His eyes are really swollen.

He opened his hape, saw his photos with Rasya. The moment they started it all, at the cafe, at the birthday party, the dinner, the streets. So many memories with Rasya, he could only save her now into a sweet memory.

Desti opens his instag**m app. Name of meganallaizkya. Clicking on that name.

In her last feed, there was a photo of megan in a Japanese restaurant, her picture was candid, megan smiling happily looking at the flowers in the room. Megan is not as beautiful as she is, but the smile that is inferred on her lips can make anyone feel comfortable. In every photo feed Megan always looks cheerful. There was never a look of sadness there. In the caption, his last photo is written

if my happiness is you, then remain my source of happiness

" it's worth it that you like rasya, she's an amazing girl" her inner self looked at the smiling photo of megan

Desti kept his hape, gazing at the sky of his room. Rasya has loved megan for a long time, why when he was with desti, rasya just realized it.

If only Rasya had realized his feelings from the beginning, perhaps desti would not have felt disappointed. But Desti is grateful for all this, even though only a year he can get to know Rasya, at least desti ever together with the people he loves so much. He was always sure that one day Rasya would come back to him. Megan's been with another guy. Desti will wait for rasya to return to him. Would wait for him even though it was a very long time, until his heart would give up on its own.