WORRIED

DILEMMA (treason)

That day I heard Alex's statement. I'm trying to neutralize the atmosphere. I forgot what Alex said. I assume everything is unheard of in my ears. As much as possible my usual attitude towards Alex. Before the incident that night. The friendship I built would not be ruined just because of feelings . We'll always be like this even if there's pain in our friendship. I was heartbroken when Rasya rejected me, and who would have thought Alex was the one who suffered the most among us. He was so good at keeping his feelings to me. I even just think of Alex as a cold guy with no feelings. Well the last time I heard her love affair ran aground halfway. I heard that from the iko story.

I'm still busy with tour events and album promos with my band . Last day after a month we could take a few days off . As usual sir Hendrik will take us home after a month-long tour .

" is Alex coming home ?"mr. Hendrik looked at Alex who had not yet left his chair

" i'm coming, sir. Mr. Santoso seemed to be hit by a traffic jam "Alex glanced at his watch.

We go in, me and alex sit in the backseat. I was wondering how Alex got that cold after the incident a month ago. It seems that he is still the same as before, unlike me who is trying desperately to neutralize the atmosphere while with him. It's nice to have a cute personality like him. Can control the situation. It was me who was made uncomfortable with Alex. Not fair indeed. Want to be wrong, want to be ordinary also afraid of wrong. You misunderstand me again. I decided to go to sleep. I don't want to look so wrong sitting next to Alex like this.

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Before closing my eyes, I heard a hape vibe in my bag. Raka called.

" assalamualaikum" said.

" waalaikumsalam, where are you?" tanyak .

" on the way home.why?" my many.

"which way?stop there baby" Raka told me to come down.

"i was on Soetta street. Where are you again?" my question does not understand.

" i'm at jl. jakarta you stop there well, I pick up now "his order.

" where are you going?" my many.

" i want to take you somewhere, but stop by the apartment first.I want to change clothes" behind the phone Raka's voice sounded noisy .

" i go down in front of the apartment if so, so you don't have to go back and forth." I suggested.

" yeah wait there, you go straight to my unit. " Raka decided on the call.

" why are you going to Raka's apartment" alex glared at me.

" what the hell is alex. none of your business" I replied rudely

"megan don't get to you macem-macem yah" alex pulled my arm roughly.

" you why the hell is alex ?" I pulled my arm because it was in pain .

" you don't have to go there, I don't want you to why" he said, confirming his seat.

" pack down at the grand royal apartment yah" I ordered the driver .

" where are you going" Hendrik turned to look at me.

"i have business, sir "I answered briefly

" yeah, be careful you rest well megan do not be too soy sauce . You wear this same mask hat do not let your fans swarm you. "pak Hendrik gave a mask and hat to me. I took it and wore it. I saw Rasya and Iko falling asleep .

" megan remember my words lest you exceed your limits" Alex whispered as I got out of the car. I just looked at him with a sharp look . He takes too much care of my life .

I stopped in a tall building. I entered the lobby of that apartment. I asked security to let me into the elevator. After a long time, I was finally able to get to the apartment elevator and press the floor button to Rika's apartment. Well it's Rika's apartment, Raka just occupied it for a while .

I went through some hallways and arrived at the apartment unit . I didn't hit the bell first. I opened the door to the apartment. The door is unlocked. I went into the living room but no one else was there.

I ventured into the unlocked and wide-open main room. How surprised I am at this moment.

" Raka" I said softly when I saw such a vulgar sight there.

Nanda was in Raka's lap kissing affectionately . His hands were coiled around Raka's neck. So intimate, that I can no longer say. Even Raka did not reject him at all. Raka saw me staring at him. He forcefully pushed the nanda to the floor. Nanda grimacing in pain . My tears are dripping down my cheeks. Hit, yes I was very hurt to see such a sight. Raka, who I believed so much, had betrayed me all this time. My mind is so fucked. I couldn't move my body just tears running down my cheeks.

" megan this isn't what you see" Raka held my arm. I just kept quiet without saying anything. I'm shock. I'm very disappointed at the moment.

I turned my back but Raka pulled my hand. I let go of his hand firmly. And ran away from Raka. But Raka managed to catch up with me. I occasionally wipe away the tears dripping down my cheeks.

" i can explain megan" she said with teary eyes. Raka clasped my hand tightly . Again I just silently heard everything Raka said.

" please give me a chance to explain" Raka clasped my hand.

" well" that's the only word that comes out of my mouth .

" we chatted at the cafe below" Raka led my hand . I follow him, I don't want anger and emotion to overwhelm me right now. I really want to hear his explanation at this time . Although my trust in him is starting to erode .

We sat in the corner of the cafe, Raka ordered a drink for us. And sit facing me. I stared and held the glass in front of me. Raka clasped my hand but I brushed it off

" explain" I looked at him with careless eyes. My heart still stings especially when I look at it . The shadow of that scene instantly flashed through my mind .

"so he came on a mami's errand. She was given the address of this apartment by mommy. And today was the first time she came I had absolutely no idea she was coming" Raka looked at me deeply, swallowed her saliva but I just lowered my head, I didn't want to see her face. I just want to hear without seeing it. It's true there's no way Raka would have told me to come if she knew she was coming. I began to accept the reason

" i forgot to lock the door when it arrived, she came when I changed clothes and immediately pushed me then kissed me all of a sudden" Raka still looked at me. There is a lot of interest in every word. Or I love him too much. When I see him like that, I still believe in him.

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