WORRIED

GRIEF (CARVING OUT THE LAST MEMORY)

On the way from the old house to the beach, not a single word came out of our mouths. Only the sound of the roar of the motor that Raka put forward. Every now and then I see Raka's face from the rearview mirror. I don't know why he's so handsome today. Wearing a hoodie sweater and jeans away from Raka who always wear formal clothes when working. I don't know today where Raka will take me. All I know for sure is that he's taking me to a very beautiful beach. The beach is located in Yogyakarta. Today's weather is very hot even though the time still shows at 9 am. I do not understand why you can adapt in hot weather like this. from the cool city of Bandung inversely proportional to the hot city of Yogyakarta. Raka stopped his motorbike in the parking area of a very beautiful resort.

I don't know how long it took from the house to this beach that I know my ass feels so hot riding the bike without stopping. Raka stopped his bike at the resort area.

" wah very beautiful beach" I was amazed to see the view inside the resort directly facing the beach. Mouth gaping.

" hey shut the fuck up laler comes in" Raka giggled at my facial expression. Raka shut my still gaping mouth with her hand.

" let's go to the beach now" I pulled Raka's hand out of the resort .

" you sure want such clothes to the beach" Raka looked at me, her eyeballs spinning from under my feet to the top of my head.

" you booked the room, right?" I looked at Raka.

" not yet" plainly.

" i want to book a room first, all our stuff" I left Raka who was still sitting in front of the resort lobby.

I approached the receptionist . Ask for room availability. Fortunately, there is still something left because it is not a weekend. I immediately ordered and immediately made payment with my credit card. When I finished, I approached Raka.

" it's been dapet, here's your stuff, we'll change the clothes" I asked for Raka's bag. then went to leave it towards the room. But Raka followed me from behind.

Arrive at the room you ordered . I told Raka to wait at the door when I changed clothes. I put on sun screen and sun block first. After I finished changing, I came out in a pink flower-patterned bikini. And show me all my exotic skin.

When I opened the door . Raka looked at me unblinkingly, she swallowed her saliva strongly. Several times he swallowed his saliva. Without saying anything, he was as quick as lightning pushing my body into the room in his wake.

" hey Raka, what are you doing?" I pointed at his face with my index finger. Raka opened her hoodie jacket then threw it towards my body.

" hey do you want to show your body to the guy out there" he said annoyed.

" you mean what Raka. indeed why, this is the clothes that are indeed to be worn on the beach" I held the hoodie that Raka threw. then covered part of my body with it.

" hey megan, I don't want my woman's body to be seen by anyone else even if it's a woman. Quickly change your clothes" His eyes stared intently at my eyes. I just snorted annoyedly at everything he said .

" don't want to, anyways I don't bring another dress . "I said while singing my thin lips.

" what did you say? don't wanna. Or you deliberately want to tease me with your bikini. Alright I'll eat you now" Raka looked annoyed at my words. He walked towards me with a grinning face. I quickly took out a blanket and covered all of my body.

" fucking pervert, stop there" I threw a pillow at him.

what the hell does he want. Emang on the beach is suitable. huh if he does things that are beyond the limits of watch out.

(inner)

Tok tok tok tok

I opened the door wearing a kimono towel inside the hotel room.

"quickly change your clothes, put these on" Raka handed me a paper bag containing clothes . He closed the door and waited outside. I stared in front of the glass.

Jumpsuit with short sleeves. Should be on the beach wearing clothes like this. Basic ngur.

"have you?" he asked me when I came out of the room wearing the clothes he was carrying. His gaze thoroughly swept across all of my body. He then locked the door of the room .

"Look the way now" Raka pulled my hand gently. His hand was still warm. And my heart was still pounding when our skin touched like this. I want to enjoy my time together today. I'd be selfish. Will no longer think about the feelings of others even aunty veronica. Let me be selfish for today.

" dear" I said looking at him. Raka looked shocked to hear my words. His eyes sparkled happily. Even his smile was perfect. I'm tangled in his hands. Tighten my arms then lean my head on her arms .

" what are you saying" she was shocked like she didn't realize I was calling her with a word of affection just now.

"sadly, I called you" I sighed at my lips because I had to repeat my words.

" god what dream I had last night, get happiness like this" he said, he once again smiled happily. Satisfied to hear what I just said . Raka stroked my hair and then dyed it at a glance.

"we play there yuk" I pointed at the beach with the atmosphere of the waves rumbling. I kissed her cheek at a glance then ran over without seeing her facial expression. I caught a glimpse of Raka still holding onto the cheek I kissed earlier.

" hey kissed me and you ran away" he shouted as he chased after me.

I approached the roar of the waves on the beach. Occasionally playing water splashed it into Raka's face. Raka did not stop replying to my treatment. I ran towards the middle of the beach but Raka hugged me from behind, lifted my body and threw it into the sand. That's it, until I got tired of playing in the water, and just lay by the beach while looking up at the sky. Raka was beside me lying down looking at the same sky.

" my dear megan, will you wait for me" she asked accompanied by the sound of waves pounding. I don't answer all his words still enjoy the blue sky very much at this time.

" do you love me?" ask again . I also looked at him to the side . I saw him still staring at the sky motionless.

" i love you so much Raka" said the one I said this time, the last one she heard. Yet Raka was completely motionless she was still staring at the sky.

" i'm moving to a university in Singapore. And will stay there until I graduate . I'll be leaving in a week" he said bitterly. I was shocked to hear all his sudden decisions . My heart ached hearing everything he said at this moment . It turned out that my intention was to stay away from him, he would completely step away from me