WORRIED

SUFFERING (going far)

I still cannot digest all the words uttered by Raka. I took a long breath. Trying to calm my heart now. I gripped the sand with my hand.Hold everything that is raging in my heart at this time.I see hell just silently looking at the blue sky at this time. I would love to ask you this time not to leave me and stay by my side forever. But I'm not alone as selfish as that, I have to release Raka to reach all her goals, to give her free so that she can boast of her parents who have grown up. I want to scream as loud as possible that forbids him from leaving my life.

(inner)

Raka please stay here, you don't ever leave me, even if I ever want to stay away from you, but it just wants to see your parents happy .

"would you wait for megan?" Raka looked at me. Our faces were fixed at such a close distance.

"then I will never promise for the impossible I can keep, but trust me my heart will forever love you" I felt no tears on my cheeks, the thing I was afraid of all this time. The short happiness made me realize one thing that the reality and destiny of God is the most powerful way of human life.

(took my tears)

"wait for me. I'll come to ask your parents' blessing to give you up for me. You don't have to promise anything. Just forever love me and it's enough for me to fight for you" Raka still looked at me with her nanar.

"promise to always be happy Megan, don't worry when I'm away from you. Don't ever once again cry for me or I'll regret it forever" Raka sat down holding both her legs. Look at the waves in front of him.

"are you really going to Raka?" I asked to confirm it again.

"excuse me Megan, but this time I did have to go to convince mommy and stop mami so she doesn't try to match me with nanda" Raka looked at me who was sitting next to her.

"if it's your decision I'll always support it, you don't worry too much about me. I'll take good care of myself and achieve everything I've wanted all along". I lift up my already fragile heart. Raka's departure this time was what messed me up the most.

I know one thing now, we know something is valuable after we feel the loss.Even in this world I do not believe in a smooth love story without any problems. About the love story of an ordinary woman like me married to a rich Raka-like man, because it was impossible. In the Sunda tribe, the seedlings of bebet weights are still valid to continue the relationship to the level of marriage. Just like Raka's parents who still uphold the custom. Even though his son was unhappy with their decision. But, once again, God's destiny is far greater than man's plan and I believe it. In my prostration only Raka I mentioned in my prayer.

"2 years isn't a thing Megan's for a while but I'm sure I can still love you and for that long I'll keep my heart just for you" Raka looked at me who was still down .

"give me your last hug" Raka spread out her hands. Hinting that I bring my body closer, I hugged Raka tightly. Buried my face in the chest of his field. Long time we hugged.

" dear we go to the room yuk, my body is very sticky, the sun is already very hot". I pulled Raka's hand. Raka finally stood up.

We walked to the resort room. Although I only booked one room, I have a limit not to do anything out of bounds . So did Raka, although several times she could barely control herself, but Raka could maintain my chastity. Raka was waiting for me while watching television, while I cleaned myself and changed my clothes in the bathroom. I came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around my hair.

" hey, your hair's gonna be broken . Dry with the hair drayer" Raka pointed at the hair drayer that was near the glass.

Raka's turn to clean up. After 10 minutes he came out with his wet hair. And he bare-chested entered the room. His attic body shows his perfect abs. Raka took the bag and took out a t-shirt then put it on.

(inner)

" megan I want to sleep for a while well. I'm so tired" Raka laid her body on the bed. It's lunchtime. Tapai looks like he's exhausted.And already asleep in his sleep.

My stomach is also struggling to fill. Finally I decided to find a restaurant not far from the resort. I wrapped the food and took it to my room.

Raka is still asleep in her sleep . I can't bear to wake her. But I know he must be hungry like me.

(piercing Raka's cheek with my index finger)

" Raka woke up" I woke him up in a slow voice, but he just spoke hemm.

" hey get up, have lunch first" I wiggled Raka's body. And succeeds him a little bit of his eyes.

" eat first still warm" I opened the food. Then present it at the table .

Raka headed for the bathroom with a wedge. Maybe he's still sleepy.

" eat first you will get sick" said I who saw Raka walking towards the sofa I was sitting on.

" i'm so sleepy for megan" he said in a still hoarse voice.

" i'm bribe. But you have to eat first okay?" I asked while bringing the spoon closer to his mouth. Raka finally gave up and opened her mouth. After almost running out, I thrust a glass that was filled with mineral water. Raka drank it then leaned her back on the back of the sofa.

I ate my food that was almost cold because I had to feed Raka. When I finished I tidied up the table .

" i sleepy megan" Raka laid her body on the sofa and made my thighs a cushion to her head.

It didn't take long, Raka fell asleep. His face was calm, Raka's firm face line made her more authoritative. But when he sleeps he is this funny.

I rubbed the hair that was blocking his eyes. He rubbed his tired face. She was really very tired, only to see me to yogya she left her job. I know how deep she feels about me. He even dared to oppose aunt veronica. He worked too hard for this relationship. While I have nothing at all to defend me just makes it harder. Should I let it go .But I'm not willing.

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