WORRIED

THE WORLD (SWALLOWING MY HEART)

Rika prepared breakfast, while Raka was still asleep because they talked late last night. The aroma of cooking from the kitchen to the living room. Raka opened her eyes. Raka approached towards the aroma of the cuisine.

"wow since when can you cook" Raka siphoned the food on the plate and then tasted it. Rika looked at her sister

"hey's slovenly, wash your face first, we have breakfast later" Rika prepares food at the dinner table not far from her kitchen. Rika then makes Raka's favorite mango juice.

After washing her face, Raka approached Rika. Then sit at the dining table.

" sister are you going back to the field? " Raka devoured the food that was on his plate

" well my business there is no one to take care of" Rika poured water and gave it to Raka.

" before going to see mami papi, they miss you so much" Raka said carefully not wanting to offend her brother.

"wait a minute, I still need time" he said.

" well I won't force you, oh yeah I want to stay in your apartment. I can't go home with my mom. I want to solve my problem first" Raka looked at Rika for her approval.

" it's up to you alone Raka" Rika emphasizes intonance

When they were eating the bell rang. Rika scrunched her forehead staring at Raka.

" i asked my assistant to buy me a shirt" Raka went and opened the apartment door.

" thank you jim for having breakfast with me" Raka picked up some paper bags containing her clothes and shoes.

" no sir, I'll just go to the office" jimy turned his back and left the apartment.

Raka kept the paperbag on the sofa, then went back to the dining table to finish her breakfast.

" sister, I'll go to megan's house after I've promised her, brother where are you going today?"

" i have some business outside, go explain all your relationships, I hope you guys will end this relationship" Rika looked at Raka who was still eating her breakfast.

" no going" ketus Raka.

Raka goes inside the room then takes a shower and rushes off to megan's house .

Raka called me before driving off.

" hello dear" he said

"yes " answered me

" don't you forget today we met?" asked Raka in a soft tone.

"i don't forget, come "I replied in a hoarse voice.

"i'll be there soon, see you dear, assalamualaikum "Raka hangs up after I answer his greetings.

Today was the toughest day, because I had to meet her when her parents asked me to leave her. I've decided for my relationship with Raka.

" you yourself dear" he asked as he sat on the living room sofa.

" yes" I answered.

" sitting here, I miss you" Raka hinted for me to sit next to her by patting the sofa.

(sitting near Raka)

"what do you want to drink?" I looked at Raka, but Raka quickly hugged me tightly. Until I had trouble breathing

" i'm sorry I made you cry, but when I promised I wouldn't make you cry, I've reneged on one of my promises" Raka said in a slightly stammered voice. Raka held me tightly, not feeling my tears falling on my cheek. I immediately rubbed it.

" let go of your arms I can't breathe" I pushed Raka's burly body, and Raka took off her arms. Raka looked at your face.

"do you want to go for a walk?" Raka looked at me gently.

" i'm tired of being at home" I refused Raka's invitation because I didn't want to make too many memories with her, I even wanted to end my relationship. Because the longer it takes me to be more tormented

"please, we just walk away and lunch is over again if you are tired" Raka pleaded with sincerity. I actually want to spend time with him. We hadn't seen each other for nearly a month and maybe this was the last time I could be with him.

" all right I change clothes first" I agreed Raka's invitation to leave. I left the living room, but I heard footsteps following me. Sure enough Raka followed me from behind.

"why do you follow me" I scrunched my forehead . Raka just smiled.

" jeez wait there fast" I pushed his burly body. I don't understand what's in his brain anymore. I immediately entered the room and locked it. After changing into a knee-length dress, I approached Raka .

" yuk" I pulled Raka's unrelenting hand at me.

We rushed out of the house, and in the car I kept quiet. Didn't say a word . Raka was just quietly focused in her drive.

Raka parked her car, she took me to a game place in the mall area. Lots of rides there. I look around him. There are many children there who play with their parents. Happiness on their faces. Have a perfect and harmonious family. I still look at them with happiness. I remember my childhood. Far from happiness .

" honey yuk there" Raka pulled my hand into the arena.

" why did you bring me here?" I still can't believe Raka would invite me to play like this.

" we're having fun here. If you're tired of saying the same to me. " Raka pulled my hand again to the crash car arena (you know what the vehicle is). We entered the arena. I was driving that little car, and so was Raka. This game makes me laugh . We played the whole game on this show. All the sadness and burden of thoughts I felt disappeared instantly.

" i'm glad you can smile and laugh again baby" Raka clasped my hand tightly. Today he can really bring back my laughter again.

" thank you" that's all that came out of my mouth. I don't want to play too far with my feelings. From now on I want to get used to it without Raka. I realized my world and his world were very different. There is a sharp barrier between our relationships. If we continue to force him maybe we will both be seriously injured by it.

" let us eat, when you are hungry the sound of your stomach sounds from earlier" Raka smiled at me who was holding my stomach.

Raka took me to a restaurant, she booked a private room there. We sat a long distance in the room. There was a quiet atmosphere there. I can't say anything either. And Raka just silently looked at the atmosphere outside with a view of the garden filled with flowers .

" will you always sit far away like that?" tanyanya looked at me with annoyance. I'm not getting out of my place. Raka finally approached me. And sit next to me.

" megan I know you're trying to get away from me, you know I hurt your attitude so badly like this, it seems like I've ruined all your cheer" Raka looked at me with annoyance, in the corner of her eyes were tears that she held back . I can't say or see it anymore. All this is so breaking my heart.