WORRIED

DILEMMA (runaway marriage)

I still look at Rika's face. Could have told Raka to take me eloped. If I'm selfish, I'd like to say yes. Because I knew I had no expectations about my relationship with him. Even if complaining pleads to God I am pessimistic, given the distance between us. But I never give up, I always ask God to keep us together. Despite the many obstacles we face. I always pray that it will be Rakalah who will be my priest. To be the father of my children in the future.

" I'll never agree to Rika's crazy idea either" I took a rough breath.

" it's up to you, brother is sure that wherever your relationship can never continue" Rika leaned back. He closed his eyes.

" i just don't want to know what I used to do. And especially you Raka I don't want to see my beloved sister suffer. I think this is the last road. " Rika opened her eyes looking at us .

(hugging Rica together)

" sister don't think too much about us, megan is sincere if Raka is not my soul mate" I hug Rika's arm. But Raka pushed my hand .

" so you don't want to be with me" Raka asked glaring at me.

" that's not it, I don't want to fight against God's destiny, I once said to you . If God never allows us to be together, we can only be sincere" Surprised by Raka she looks insistent on marrying me. If you think I just knew him.

"until anytime I'll never let you go with anyone. You keep that in mind" Raka's tone of voice turned into a circus. I just kept quiet, no longer wanting to argue with him under these circumstances, let alone trying to advise him that he was in a fight. I know his nature .

" well I have a little business, you were escorted with Raka well" Rika took her jacket and then passed away leaving us both.

" let me go home anterin, tomorrow morning I have to go to brass" I pulled Raka's hand, but Raka pulled my hand so I fell on her lap.

Raka looked at me with a sharp look. I can't even guess his mind. I wanted to stand up and get away from her arms. But Raka's power is so strong I can't even hold it . He hugged me very tightly.

" why look at me like that" asked me who felt uncomfortable with his current treatment.

" you're beautiful" she whispered. Instantly my face flushed.

" i want you to kiss me, like the women who chased me first they always kissed me first" she whispered. I was upset to hear his words. Why can Raka think like that.

" don't want to, take your hand off, I can't breathe" I thrashed around trying to let go of Raka's embrace. But in vain her burly body was much stronger than my tiny body.

" come on just this once, I beg you" he asked whining.

" don't want to, take your hand off" I shouted. But Raka did not budge just shaking her head.

" pleasee" please. I saw the clock was almost 8. He's not gonna let me go. I better follow her request. My kiss was taken.

cuupp, (kissing his lips at a glance)

When I let go of her embrace. But again Raka pulled my hand away , I was back in her lap she was******my lips softly. Then release. Raka smiled at me who was still closing my eyes.

" your lips make me addicted dear" reflex hearing her words I opened my eyes and stood away from her.

" my anterine spit came home, before mamah ngomel with you" I was near the door. Do not want to linger close to him fear of Satan controlling the lust of Raka and nafluku..

Raka walks and locks her apartment. We walked side by side to the parking lot.

" how can I, does aunt veron allow you?" I saw Raka nod her head.

" you can play here often if you want to see me" Raka smiled at me.

" don't want to" I replied quickly

" why not?" tanyanya scrunched her forehead.

" don't want to be alone in the apartment like that, I'm afraid you're kilaf" I replied with a pouting face. And Raka pinched my cheek with anxiety .

" it's true that anywhere near you even I can't resist my urge to eat you" he said with a sly smile at me.

" that's right, "I said pointing at him

" well in the car I was not strong, especially in the apartment kayak earlier" he chuckled at me who had been flirting with him. I pinched his waist.

" awwww tau tau pasang" Raka rubbed her waist which I pinched . Reflex I rubbed it .

" it hurts, huh? you said "I was singing my lips. Raka just smiled at me and ruffled my hair in a frenzy

" dear you believe in true love?" ask her seriously

" i can't believe it" I answered briefly

" why?" tanyakanya.

" God turns back the hearts of men. Unless I experience it until I get old and close my eyes I will believe" I answered at length. Raka just kept quiet hearing my words

" do you believe in true love?" ask me with curiosity

" i strongly believe, you are my true love. I'll prove it to megan" he said with confidence. I smiled looking into his eyes, there was absolutely no lie in his eyes. Raka is indeed the sincere man I've ever found. His figure is able to strengthen me to live a very heavy life.

" thank you for loving me Raka, I love you so much too" that's the word I can say right now. I don't want to promise like Raka who always convinces me with her heartfelt feelings. I'm not like Raka who straightforwardly conveys her every feeling to me. I was quieter than him. I only occasionally express my feelings.

I got out of the car, Raka just kept quiet in her drive . Because I forbid him to come down to see Mamah. I don't want you to ask Raka a lot of things. That will make us harder.

Raka drove her vehicle away from the road where I was standing. I walked towards my house and into an unlocked house. It's been very quiet like mama has rest .

I took my hapeku . I opened a photo gallery on my phone. I looked at the last photos taken. There were pictures of me at the gig and tour yesterday. I looked at Alex's face and rubbed him

(murmuring in the heart)

"alex I hope you can forget how you feel about me. I'm not even aware of you and your feelings. I gave you too much and hurt your heart. Thank you for your love. Hope you can find someone who can love you more sincerely"