The Light of ANAS

Double Clutches in the Room

“I want us to break up,,, “, Naz said in a firm tone, it made Arfin very surprised and his smile disappeared instantly, he just silently stared as if getting a shock so terrible that it broke his heart.

Blam,,, Naz just shut the door. “All is over,,, hiks hyks,, this is the best for us,,, forgive me,, forgive me.. “, Lirih Naz slowly while reducing his body to sit on the floor by attaching his back body to the door.

While Arfin who seemed still syock with the words of Naz still stood silently in front of the door of Naz's room with a sigh that sounded so heavy, as if the broken words were ringing in his ears, “I want us to break up,, I want us to break up, I want us to break up, I want us to break up”.

His chest felt numb as if numb, his lips felt stiff as if unable to let out a single word, he said, his legs felt limp as if he could no longer support him to stand up and he dropped himself to his knees with his hands held back to the door in front of him and lowered his head, then he sat with his back body against the door just like Naz, and now they were sitting back to each other only blocked by the door as a barrier.

Arfin hoped this was a dream and not a true reality, “Naz,,, “, the flow is slow ,,, “Naz,,,, “,Arfin calls him back, “Naz,,, !!”, he also screamed. “Naz open the door Naz,,, “, bugh,,,bugh,, Arfin banged on the door slowly using his fist. “Naz , dear , open the door,, you are kidding me right, you are not serious about talking like that,, open the door baby,, “, Arfin yelled softly.

Naz who was still crying continued to wipe away his falling tears, he sighed for a moment and then strengthened himself to speak, “I am serious with my words,,, This is the best for us,,,, this is the best thing for us,,, you should just go home,, “, said Naz from behind the door and smothered his mouth with tears flowing back on his cheeks because he did not want Arfin to hear the sound of his crying.

“My fault what's Naz,,,? why did you suddenly ask to break up like this,,,? I love you so much, I love you so much, please don't be like this”, Arfin said as he wiped his tears before falling down his cheeks.

“They need you far more than I do, you better go home and forget me...”, cried Naz.

“What do you mean Naz,,,,?? “, asked Arfin astonished.

“Go home, before Father and Mother come,, from now on our relationship is over,, “, Naz said.

“Gak,, no,, I don't want to break up with you,, I can't accept this,, “, I can't break up with you, Arfin then got up from his seat and knocked back on the door until he banged so Naz would open the door, “Naz, open the door baby, I beg you, we can talk about this well,,,,,,, you know, this,,, “.Arfin kept trying.

“Nobody should be talking again, go,,, go, go there,,,”, said Naz then got up from his seat because the shock from the blow on the door made his back hurt.

“Open the door dear,,, “, Arfin still keeps trying and keeps banging on the door.

“Do not call dear, we have nothing to do,, go there leave me alone”, Naz yells again.

“No, I don't want to,, you can't shut up unilaterally,, come on baby open the door, if you don't open it too, I'll break it”.

“Mother will be angry if you break this door,, already there go, I don't want to see you again, “, cried Naz.

“No, before I talk to you I won't go,, “, Arfin is still tight.

“What do you think we did again,,,,? Another rocking of dombret hah..?? From earlier we also talked to each other.”, Naz began to lose his patience.

“Yes but not yelling at each other like this talk,, I'm really going to break down this door Naz”, Arfin then a little bit away from the door and he started to break down the door with his body, a bang,,,, Arfin,,, the first break has not succeeded, “I did not play Naz,, if you do not open the door I make sure this door will be destroyed”, he said threatening.

Naz who was sad now turned to be upset with the behavior of Arfin, when Arfin back to shake the door, finally forced Naz to open the door,, pecklek,,,,,, and finally,,,, “Ngapain is playing break-down everything, people the door is not locked,, “, said Naz annoyed.

“What,,,?? So from earlier the door was not locked?”, asked Arfin upset because he felt he had done something silly.

“Iya”, Naz replied briefly.

Arfin who was about to break down the door, he immediately walked quickly despite a little difficulty with his limp legs, he immediately hugged Naz tightly.

“Detach,, release me”, Naz rebel ask his embrace be released.

“No, I will not let go of you, before you pull your words”, said Arfin.

“Iiihh.. loose,, release me,, later Daddy same Mother see we can be scolded”, Naz continue to rebel.

“I don't care,, let me raided all of you I don't care”, Arfin continued to hold back Naz's rebellion and hugged Naz more and more.

“Let go of me,, hiks hiks”, finally Naz came back crying.

“Darling,,, I love you so much, I love you so much, I don't want to break up with you,, I want to always be with you, Naz”, Arfin spoke softly as he sobbed, Naz, who heard those words, was still stunned as if hypnotized mixed with guilt for making Arfin cry.

“I'm sorry, but it's really hard for me too, but it's best for us, and they need you more than I do, come back to him,, hiks”, please, said Naz who was still in Arfin's arms, then Arfin let go of his embrace slowly and held both shoulders Naz.

“They?? Back her? Returning to who” was, Arfin asked with a feeling of wonder and bewildered by what Naz had said to her.

“Back with your ex”, replied Naz while sobbing and lowered his head for not daring to look Arfin in the eyes.

“What?? An ex? “, Arfin felt even more astonished.

“Naz, all the ages I've never dated so I don't have an ex-boyfriend,, I'm dating for the first time in the same time as you Naz”.

Naz released both Arfin hands from his shoulders violently, “Lies,, stop lying to me,, your high school friend friend once knew it if you had dated when you were in high school?”, you know, but you know that you used to be in high school, naz said then he turned his bandants back to Arfin and now they were in a room with a door that was wide open.

Arfin stepped up and walked over to Naz until they came back face to face, “Who said? Where did you get your information from? It is impossible if from Dandy or Hardi let alone Bang Evan, they know very well me how when SMA first”.

“Yes said your High School friend, he said you once dated and often picked up your girlfriend with your favorite motorcycle while still in school, and now your ex-boyfriend has come back to your life, and,, she needs you much more now, you better come back with her and be responsible for marrying her”, Naz said.

“What, responsible to him? Marry her?, you say what the hell am I getting confused?”.

“You don't need to pretend, I already know everything, even your ex already has a child from you right ? hiks hix,,,”.

“Astagfirullah Naz, I used to be a wayward child, likes brawls and hangs out with thugs, but I'm not that depraved to impregnate people's children,,, have I ever been like you?”.ucap Arfin denied, "You get unclear information from where the hell?”, he asked again.

“At first I knew from my friend who likes to see you piggybacking on your ex first, then from your classmate saying the same thing, even after you had an accident he also took care of you right,,, and one more thing, I have met your ex and his son who is also your son kan”, said Naz at length .

“Ya Ampuun,, the former continued to be discussed from earlier,,,, Who is my ex you mean?”, Arfin felt frustrated.

“Sister Maira his nephew Bude Hafsah”, replied Naz.

“What,, you mean Maira,, Humaira ?”, asked Arfin in surprise.

“Yes,,, Brother Maira, who else,, it is better that you return to her and take responsibility to marry her, pity Shanala, she never knows who her father is, she also needs mu” more, decreed Naz.

“Naz, my dear, I have not lost my mind and am still sane, if you tell me to marry Maira, you are more insane”, Arfin said.

“What do you mean ? I'm still sane in his right mind, so I ask you to take responsibility for marrying Maira”'s sister, Naz said upset.

“Where might I marry my own Sister-in-law whose husband is obviously still healthy life wal’afiat,, if not sane what try his name.........??”, asked Arfin.

“Hah,, that is,,? Sister-in-law?”, Naz is now the one who is surprised.

“Yes, Humaira is my brother's wife, Arsyad Nervan Akbarsyah,, who for three years now disappeared somewhere”, Arfin explained.

“Quite,,, stop lying to me,, you think I don't know,, Dad once said his wife Bang Evan was Salma, and you also said so I”, you know, naz said annoyed and then turned his body back.

“I'm not lying,,, Humaira is his wife Bang Evan,,, his full name is Humaira Asalma Pratiwi, and Bang Evan often calls him Salma, because he wants to be different from other people's calls to him,, he said,, you could say it was a call dear maybe”, Arfin continued to explain.

“Keep if he's Bang Evan's girlfriend why do you like to take him to school? I'm sure you weren't working as an ojek” handyman, Naz asked.

“That's the shuttle also Bang Evan but using my motor,, which really looks handsome like this so a motorcycle taxi,,, already called a licksmith now in the case of ojek again”, Arfin so discussed the lizard.

“So, is it true that Maira's sister is Salma his wife Bang Evan,,,,?? Then Nala's son Bang Evan also”, asked Naz.

“Iya,,,”, replied Arfin briefly.

“I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean to lie to you,, when I walked I would tell you everything, but Mami asked me to take her to Depok, and,, then when we went to the cafe I also wanted to tell you, but I got a call that Nala was sick and kept delirious calling my name, so I had to leave you at that time,, and I'm really sorry for that”.

“So now tell me everything”, Naz said.

“Alright, I will tell you, but we should sit down, my feet ache if I keep standing like this”.

Then Naz and Arfin sat next to each other on the floor beside Naz's bed so that they could lean on the edge of Naz's bed, as there was no way they could sit on the bed, it could happen that yes.

“When I picked you up at the parlor, I was very surprised to see Maira standing at the door, I kept looking at him because I couldn't believe he was really back after disappearing for three more years, because I was curious, I decided to go back to the parlour, and,, and I'm sorry that I had to lie to you, because I didn't dare say anything before I made sure of it myself,,, on the way I bought 10 dozen D. Donut for the children of the orphanage and after the magrib prayer at the mosque near the home I went straight back to panti”.

Flashbacks

Tok tok tok,,, I knocked on the door of the house while saying greetings, then after a while someone opened the door while answering my greetings and it turned out that it was Mina.

“Ehh, Arfin,, tumben to here night-night,,,?” tanyakanya.

“Tadi on the way I bought a little food for the children”, I said by thrusting three bags of crackles containing donuts in his box.

“Wah a lot,,, thank God, must be happy children, thank you, please enter”, he said and received the package I brought earlier. ”Please sit down, I get you a drink first yes all give this to the children”, he said and went to the back.

Suddenly the sound of the door opening and someone came out of the room walking with a cane aid, I was immediately surprised to see it, “Humaira,,,”, I said calling him.

“Who is it?”, her question was shocked.

I approached her with great surprise, “Humaira, is this really you?”

“A a a Arfin,,, you Arfin?”, her question was surprised.

“Yes, I am Arfin, his sister Nervan”, I replied and he looked very surprised and frightened.

“Humaira, so all this time you disappeared and stayed away from Bang Evan because you couldn't see?? Is this because of the accident?”, I was curious and Maira instead cried while smothering her mouth.”Maira,, you owe me an explanation”, I said and he was crying even more, “Who we sit down and explain everything to me?”, I said, my words continued to force and he was willing to take me to walk to the living room while he was already memorized, we also sat in a different chair.”Where have you been missing all this time? Why did you leave Bang Evan just like that?”, I kept asking questions.

Maira started to stop crying and calm herself,” After the accident, besides having an injury I also lost my vision and the nurse said that Nervan was in a postoperative coma, at that time I felt very guilty and useless, tormented, then your grandfather came to see me and asked me to leave Nervan because I was blind which would only trouble Nervan,,,,, you know,,, hyks, and he also said that if Nervan survived only because of medical aids, if I didn't leave him, then all the tools would be removed, I don't want that until Nervan dies, I want him to stay alive even if I can't be with him, so I follow your grandfather's wishes, hiksh”.

“Grandpa,, so all this because of Grandpa?”, you were surprised.

“Yes, and at that moment I was transferred to another hospital so you couldn't find me,, and after my injuries recovered my mother and I went to Jogja to where my parents lived and we stayed there”.

“Then what about that video you sent?” ask again.

“It was also your grandfather who asked me to make a confession that I asked for a divorce because I already had another man whom I had loved and was my college friend, as if I cheated on Nervan during his college in America,,,hiks hyks,, “.

“What,,,,? how could Grandpa be so cruel?? and you know Maira, after you left her when she woke up from a coma, Bang Evan is like a madman constantly asking you questions and after he is completely healed he continues to look for you in all the places you have been, even in Aceh for days just to look for your whereabouts, until he got the video submission he was almost depressed and his attitude changed drastically, he no longer believes in his name love and his work is just toying with women, as if he returned his heartache to another woman”, I told Nervan at that time and Maira was crying more and more to hear him.

“M…. Mama...”, suddenly came a small child approached Maira, it seems she just woke up, Maira immediately wiped her tears with her palms and she stopped crying.

“Nala,, you are awake?”, he asked while holding the hand of the boy who pulled his shirt.”Here Mama gendong”, he said then Nala climbed into the chair and sat on Maira's lap.

“Nala want bobo syama mama”, said the boy.

“Mama,,,,? Do you have children? Are you married again? Aren't you officially divorced from Bang Evan?”, I asked in my surprise.

Maira sighed for a moment, “After three weeks I left Nervan, I felt nausea vomiting and did not enter any food, so I checked with the doctor and it turned out that I was pregnant,, “, , Maira back sobbing.

I was more and more surprised to hear it,“So the boy,,, his son Bang Evan?”, my question and Maira also embraced it.

“Mama,, what is ciapa?”, asked the boy.

“That's his name Om Arfin”, replied Maira.

“Om Apin it upin ipin really right?”, the boy even equates my name with the cartoon duo tuyul.

“Not dear,, Om Arfin was a mama acquaintance like Om Doni”, he replied chuckling.

“Hi sweet boy,, whose name are you?”, I asked to try to approach him but he looked shy and hid in Maira's arms.

“Jawab dong nak, whose name he said..”, he even shook his head and was still hiding, “His name is Syanala commonly called Nala”, Maira introduced her son.

“Does he know who Bang Evan is his father?”, I asked.

Maira shook her head,” I haven't told her yet, because I'm confused if she asks where her father is”, she said as she stroked her son's head.

My heart is saddened to know that such a small child does not know who his father is and does not get the affection of a father since he was born even in the womb of his mother, and surely this is very heavy for Maira, Maira, she was pregnant, giving birth to raising her child with her limitations.

I also began to approach the boy named Nala who turned out to be my nephew and gradually he wanted to talk and play with me. It turns out that he is very active and cheerful, and he calls me by the title like a cartoon character he likes to watch, Om Apin Ipin, sounds strange indeed, but nothing important Nala happy.

The next morning, once in the morning, I came to the orphanage with a doll and some toys for him, he whined to ask me to accompany him to play, but I wanted to take Naz to school, but even stuck there, finally afternoon I invited him to play to the playgroun in one of the malls and we played until the afternoon.

Flashback off

“That's the story of Naz,, “, Arfin said.

“Terus why on Sunday you said you wanted to go to Depok even in the orphanage when I was there and Nala did you Papa”, asked Naz.

“Sunday morning I set off to take Mami to Depok, and it turned out that Mami was not long, so that at 10 am we were back. When I said Bude was sick, Mami took me to visit him to the hospital, and there we met Maira's mother who was looking after Bude while in the hospital. Mami was very surprised and happy to finally meet him, and finally he told Maira and Nala about Mami. Since Bude was already allowed to go home, we drove him home to meet Maira and Nala. Mami talks to Maira while I invite Nala to play, and strangely after Mina says that I am her friend Maira, Nala calls me Papa. But after that I explained to her that I was not her Papa but her Om, and she came back to call me Om Apin Ipin”, Arfin explained at length.

“So so the story, sorry I already thought that is not-not”, said Naz lowered his regret for his actions.

“Darling,, if you hear anything about me from someone else, you confirm it to me right away, because the name says that person could be A being B, or B being C, or, it can be reduced or exaggerated, and sometimes what you see and hear is not necessarily the real reality, or,, almost our relationship was destroyed just because of a misunderstanding like gini”, he said holding Naz's chin and raising his face bowed, “Listen dear,, he said,, in my heart there is only you and it has been padlocked patent, I just love and love you, there is no place for other women besides Mami ku”, he said chuckling.

“I'm sorry,,, I love you too, I'm so afraid of losing you, I've been, for two weeks, so hard for me to keep trying to avoid and stay away from you, I'm sorry,,, and,,, sorry me, hiks, hiks.”, said Naz regretting and crying.

“Ehh,,,sssstttt have not cried again yes, I am also sorry not to explain all this to you until you can misunderstand like this”, I said, Arfin wiped away Naz's tears by putting his two thumbs on Naz's cheeks then he hugged her and they hugged each other, “Means we didn't break up right?”, asked Arfin who still hugged his lover.

“No,, I pull my words again, if I don't want to break up with you, and we become a” again, Naz said in a spoiled tone.

“Hahahaa, yes, we made it again,,,”, said Arfin chuckling.

“Astagfirullahaladziim,,, what are you doing together in the room while hugging like that!??", suddenly there was a cry of someone who had just entered through the door that had been open since then, sontak Arfin and Naz immediately let go of their embrace to each other in surprise.

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