The Light of ANAS

Arfin Finds a Hint

Arfin received an envelope containing a letter from his mother, then unfolded the letter and read it. There was written by his wife's hand, he read word for word in every sentence in each line.

After reading all the contents of the letter, the pain was so heart-wrenching as an arrow that was instantly plugged right into his heart, adding to his ever more endless sense of regret. How not, he who is guilty has snapped and accused his wife who is not-no, even Naz who repeatedly apologized to him.

He walked backwards until his body stuck on the glass window of the room, he reduced his body to lying on the floor leaning against the glass window, lamenting his sorrow with regret, the tears just fell without excuse.

Miss Hinda who saw the state of Arfin like that, immediately approached her and took the letter that was still held by Arfin. He read it and opened his mouth because.

To my husband,,,,, the,,,

Aa,,, maybe when Aa reads this letter, I'm not in this house anymore.

I'm sorry, but I didn't mean to leave you, I didn't leave because I hated you or I was angry with you. I don't blame you for being angry at me, either, because I realize it's part of my mistake to cover up something that I think is just a spele thing, but it hurts your feelings. The reason I left was none other than because I needed time to calm down.

Forgive me, if all this time I have not been able to carry out my duties as a good wife and fully devoted to you.

Forgive me for courageously stepping my foot out of the house without your permission. I'm just afraid I won't be able to accept your anger anymore, even though I know you're angry not for hating me, but for loving me so much.

Forgive me for not being so forthright about my childhood friend, if because it made me hurt you, but I really have nothing to do with him as you accuse me, even I always avoid it, I always keep my distance from other men, because I am well aware of my status as a wife and will soon become a mother.

Believe me in my heart there is only Aa and our future child. And it hurts so much, it turns out that Aa still doubts my love and loyalty.

I'm sorry if my conversation with my three best friends offended you. I laughed because they wanted to share a name for our future child, but the name they gave was strange, not because it was about that person.

One of my requests,,

Please don't look for me, because for now I just want to be alone, and I promise that if I feel calm, I will return by myself. Maybe with the distance between us like this, can make us introspect each other.

Aa take it easy, I am in a safe place and in good condition, as well as my womb. I will always take care of myself and my son. I hope Aa also always take care of herself as long as I'm not beside you, take care of your health and don't forget to eat. Sorry, I can't feed you anymore when I'm away from you.

^^^Your wife, who always loved you.^^^

Rheanazwa Eleanoor Harfi.^^^

“Al, how can you accuse your wife of cheating? “, Miss Hinda deduces from what she read.

“Your path is Al,, look at this, you hurt her, but she apologized to you, Mami didn't think of you Al, she deserved to leave you, she said, and he should not go back to stupid men like mu”, Miss Hinda was angry.

Mr. Latief, who heard his wife's words, asked for a letter that was still in his wife's hands, and then he read it.

Mr. Latief sighed heavily then shook his head,

"Now what are you going to do, Al?? looking for her or following her request not to look for her?”.

Arfin who was still in shock at the contents of the letter he read, only fell silent and only occasional sobs were heard as he continued to bow his head.

“Pi, do we report the police only..,”, Miss Hinda who is very worried about Naz also gave advice.

“Don't Mi, we should give him time to calm down as he asks, if forced to bring them together, fearing that it will be bad for his psychological and also on his content,,, and,, after all this is a household affair, embarrassed if it is known by many people”, Mr. Latif rejected his wife's proposal by giving reasons.

“Then what should we say if Naz's parents ask him where he is?”, Miss Hinda remembered the iron.

Mr. Latief again sighed heavily, “Look, for now you should not tell them first, if they do not question Naz to Arfin or to us,,, for now,, and we give Naz a week to calm down. If after a week Naz doesn't tell Arfin or us or his parents, then we'll look for him together, and we tell Naz's parents the truth about this, and the problem in the future how the response of Naz's parents in addressing this, Papi raised his hand”.

“But Pi, is a week not too long,,? Mami is really afraid of something happening with her”, Miss Hinda seems to object.

“There is no choice, other than to obey Naz's request and trust him that he will take good care of himself, and he also says that there is someone in a safe place right?", Mr. Latief reminded his wife of the contents of Naz's letter, he turned to Arfin who was still sitting down while crying with regret.

“Wake Al, so that man do not cry and do not be a coward,, rather than lamenting the departure of your wife, you better start to improve yourself and your attitude to make amends for the mistakes you've made with your wife, so that when your wife comes back, she doesn't regret living life with you,, and one more thing, throw away your temperament attitude. ”, he said giving advice.

“Iya,, Al, come on, wake up,, Ma'am Retno said you haven't eaten anything from morn”, Ms. Hinda who is still very upset with Arfin, too, I can't bear to see his son like this. As if there was a fear if Arfin was depressed again like when he broke up with Naz first.

“Your wife, said you have to take care of your health, right,,?? come on get up, you eat first,, do not let your wife come back later, you are thin and dry, it will make her very sad,,,”, he said.

Arfin who heard the words of his parents then rose and wiped away the trace of his tears. The three of them came out of the room. Arfin instead of walking towards the dining room, he stepped his feet in the other direction.

“Al,, where are you going? The dining room is here, why do you want to go there?”, said Bu Hinda while pointing at the direction with her index finger.

“Al want to go to the room first Mi, have not prayed, all mencharger mobile phone, two-two out of battery”, he explained.

“Two?? Since when do you use two phones?”, Miss Hinda was surprised.

“This one is Naz's phone, he left his phone when he left, so Al can't track him at all, Al to the room first Mi”, he then went into his room.

“Iya,, then follow ya to the dining room”, Ms Hinda also let her son go to her room, her,

“Ayok Pi, he said that Papi was very hungry”, both of them walked to the dining room.

Ms. Hinda took the rice and the side dish and served it to her husband,

"It's called a afternoon lunch, dinner too early,, “, Mr. Latief chuckles. “Mami didn't eat?”, he asked.

“Mami doesn't taste Pi,,, Mami inget Naz continues, she has eaten what hasn't ya?”.

“Mi,, Naz will say that he will take care of himself and the baby in his womb,, as sad as he is, surely he will force himself to eat for the sake of his baby”, he said, Mr. Latief is positive.

“Mami still can not be calm if you have not met him, Pi”, said Ms. Hinda.

“How do we want to meet him, our people just don't know where he is, even he left his phone here,,, better convince Mami that Naz is in good condition as he said in the letter, now Mami eat yes, this afternoon we only eat a little at airport”, so we only eat a little at the airport, wheedled.

“Mami will eat it”, still refuse to eat.

“Already, Papi also later mkan”, Mr. Latief also let the food that has been presented before him.

“Eh, it will be served, it will be cold not good loh”, Ms Hinda protest.

“More unpleasant if Papi eats, but Mami does not eat and even sad so,, what would you like to eat a plate together?”, he offers.

“Ih, Papi what the hell, like aj” dating people, Bu Hinda immediately refused.

“Emang we are every day like dating, right, at home just two, the children are already in the household and have their own home, how? My beautiful wife like an angel of kahyangan is not bribed with Papi?”, persuasion was issued.

Bu Hinda grunts annoyed, “It turns out mukidi sombalan the elder brother from Papi ya”.

“Ya from whom else? Time from the neighbor,,,”, he said with ease.

“Iya, yes, because Papi was his ex-girlfriend sealaihim, until the arrival of Mami there was also the former Papi”, the former everything discussed.

“That's a ngaku, Papi people never dated,,,”, Mr. Latief denied.

“Iya not dating, but gebetan much.”, Bu Hinda do not want to lose.

“That's because they were fascinated with Papi”'s good looks.

“Iya handsome in his time, if now mah enggak”,

“Not reduced yes Mi, good looks,, hahaha”.

“Udah ah cepetan eat, Papi if you already narcissistic hard in rem”, Bu Hinda even upset.

“Mami also eat ya”, persuade her back.

“Iya, yes”, finally want too.

When the two finished eating, Arfin just arrived. Miss Hinda returned to get food, but this time she served it to her youngest son.

“Let's eat, Al”, he thrust a plate containing rice and side dishes.

“Iya, Mi,,,”, he said in a lazy tone.

Arfin ate the food that had been served by his Mami, although in fact he did not taste, but his stomach felt hungry, because since morning just entered the bread, he forced himself to eat. And it turns out this time he can eat without nausea vomiting even though not fed by his wife.

While Ms. Hinda continued to watch Arfin as if watching a child who had difficulty eating was being forced to eat by her mother, and each time Arfin intended to stop by putting a fork and spoon on her plate, she reminded Arfin again, that his wife would be sad if he did not eat, Arfin also spent food that tasted bland on his tongue, even though it was a good food.

Mr. Latief just smiled and shook his head to see the behavior of his wife, when Bu Hinda was difficult to be told to eat, and now even forced his favorite son.

After eating, Arfin returned to his room, Miss Hinda was the same, but Mr. Latief did not follow his wife, but instead to Arfin's room. He entered after knocking and was welcomed by Arfin.

Hearing Mr. Latief's footsteps approaching her, Arfin who was sitting on the bed continued to bow his head, as if preparing to receive his Papi's anger again after he read the letter written by Naz.

Mr. Latief was sitting on the same side of the bed with his youngest son, so now they are both sitting next to each other.

For a few moments no words were spoken from the two who seemed to be silent with their respective thoughts, only the sound of the roar of breath was heard in the room that felt silent.

“Papi apologized, it's out of control until you slap,”, Mr. Latief opened a conversation between them, a look of regret so visible on his face. How not, it was the first time he slapped his son.

Arfin smiled at him, “Al deserved it, Pi, even Naz should have done it to Al”.

“Maybe it's the toughest test in your household, Papi can't go too deep, If it's your wife's wish not to look for it, then Papi won't look for it either, and for now Papi can only try to believe that he can take good care of himself, but it's up to you, if you want to keep looking for him, please, please,, it's just that Papi suggested that if you have found his hiding place, you should not immediately meet him, maybe you can watch him secretly, afraid if he is not ready to meet you, he said, he'll go further and further away from mu”.

“Iya Pi,, thank you, sorry for giving you a non-wearing welcome while visiting here”.

“Papi is sure you can deal with all of this, And if she is back, treat her very well, never scold her or yell at her again, let alone she is pregnant with your child,, and,, the pregnant woman is very sensitive and needs more attention, because will often experience discomfort either the feeling or on the body changes”, Mr. Latif then rose from his seat, he said,

“If Naz really intends to return, it means he still gives you a chance to change, then improve your attitude”, Mr. Latief sighed deeply, saying,

“ rest, you must be very tired after a day looking for your wife”, he said then patted his son's shoulder, then left the room Arfin.

Arfin laid his body on the bed, his eyes staring blankly at the sky-sky room with his mind still fixed on the wife who now does not know where she is. He could only hope that Naz was in good health and in a safe place as he said in the nature of the letter.

“You where dear,,, Aa misses you so much,, I'm sorry, forgive me...”, she is sad.

Ting Ting, there was a sound coming from one of the phones on the charger on his desk.

Arfin got up and then moved to look at the two phones, and it turned out that the sound came from Naz's phone, then he pulled the phone that had just reached 40% battery power%. Opened whatsapp application on his wife's phone, and it turns out there are many messages there. Arfin felt confused as to what to do, retorted back or let it go.

Arrived – arrived his phone rang indicating there was an incoming call, and how surprised he saw the caller namely Mother, who is his mother-in-law.

Fear just arises, because he knows what kind of nature Mother, if he misspoke or slip, then it will be a long business. He let it go, but his phone kept ringing. And after his third ringing, he finally ventured to lift it.

“Hallo, Assalamu’alaikum, Dek,, how long did you really lift the phone?”.

“Hallo, wa’alaikumsalam Bunda”, Arfin replied carefully.

“Eh, where did Arfin go, where did Naz go, Ar?”.

“Eng,, that's Mommy, her Naz again bathe”, she said lying.

“Oh, another shower yes, but Naz tea is fine right?”.

“Iy yes, Mother Naz is fine”.

“Since last night the Mother's feeling is not good, have been called all the children Mother's tea, fear something happens, and thank God they are fine,,, uh,, from noon Naz number meuni difficult tea pisan contacted, right Mother tea so worried, Mbak Rahmi also nanyain number Naz same number you tea why not be active since this afternoon, Mbak Rahmi,, and not usually chat unanswered, make us worry know no, We are afraid Naz tea sick or why-not, have already started college, where else pregnant young,,”, cerocos Mother.

“Eng, Naz is good enough Bunda”.

“Alhamdulillah atuh if that is mah, inget ya Ar, you tea must be a husband standby and protective same Naz tea yes, do not let Naz and your future children tea until why-not,, yasudah oruh yes, Mommy sends greetings to Naz, assalamu’alaikum”.

“Wa’alaikumsalam”, Arfin also ended his phone call.

He was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief for now, but in the future, I don't know what other reason he would use to cover Naz's absence in his home, if Naz's parents call him as long as Naz hasn't returned. Because it is not possible every time they call, Arfin continues to give an excuse, long-time they will be suspicious.

Since then, Arfin who holds Naz's phone can only reply to incoming chat, it's only on his family, if the chat his friend, he rarely reply, he rarely reply, at least with yes or no. If anyone contacts him by phone or even video call, he will not pick him up, just send a message if he is on campus, eating, or ketchup and want to rest, he said, and other reasons.

**

Two weeks have passed, but Naz still has not returned home, let alone news, until now Arfin still does not know where Naz is. Arfin was still patiently waiting for his wife by living the days that felt empty. It's like having a wife but it's like being a widower.

During that time every morning he would go to the campus hoping Naz was there because the lecture had already begun. Even he even assigned Uje to stay on campus every day, like the campus guard, came home early in the afternoon, but still never found Naz. He also could not track Naz from his debit card, because for 2 weeks, there were no signs of the card being used, and that further added to Arfin's concern for Naz, how could he eat if he never took money from his ATM, he thought.

Arfin who initially had difficulty eating because he was not tasteful, after being persuaded by Mbak Jumin, said, saying,

“If Den Arfin hard to eat, fear that the baby in the womb Miss feels the same way because there is an inner bond with her father, so it makes Miss will be difficult to eat anyway”. Finally, he always forced to eat, for fear that the words of Mbak Jumin would really happen.

Arfin who just finished bathing is now opening the closet to pick up the clothes he will wear. Having just finished dressing, Retno knocked on the door and entered after being allowed to leave Arfin, she brought along a basket of freshly ironed clothes.

“Mbak, how much is his shirt? It does not iron how many days?”, he asked to pay attention to the contents of the basket.

“Anu Den, three days ago my hand sprained, so the laundry for a week I just had time to iron,,”, he said expressing the reason, for fear of being mistaken he was lazing.

“Udah diobatin not yet, Mbak?”, asked Arfin.

“It's done, Den”, he replied.

“Thank God, then, you know, the feeling of the shirt I haven't had time to wear, how was it ironed? that one too, this shirt I look for can be in the laundry, right I have not worn?”, Arfin felt strange while pointing at the clothes in question.

“Ndak know Den, I took the dirty laundry in the basket from this room only, I kept washing and iron”.

“Oh, yasudah, maybe I forgot,,”, seems to miss his wife so much he forgets that.

Day after day he passed without the presence of the wife beside him, sleeping hugging the bolster and waking up just hugging the bolster that he wore his wife's clothes. But after making up his bed, he would take his wife's clothes off the roll, because he did not want his ART to know the crazy thing he did that he deikrenakan miss his wife too much.

**

A month has passed, Naz still has not returned and during that time Naz's phone became quiet, probably because Arfin had never returned a chat or even picked up a phone call on Naz's phone. Even Mami and her Papi who always ask if Naz has come home or not, now do not ask anymore, maybe they do not want to make it sadder and better wait for Arfin to tell them.

Arfin continued to wait for Naz who never came, and now he can only resign to whatever will happen with the fate of his new household for the rest of the corn. Arfin who did not want to continue to dissolve in sadness for holding back longing for his wife and future children, and lamenting endless regrets, could only vent him on the job, he said, and every day he always comes home at night, not even rarely the weekend he will work, whether it is in the office or go to the project.

This morning Arfin was about to retrieve his company's important documents that he kept with the securities in the pruning that was in his bedroom closet.

After he took the document and he was about to close it back, he felt something strange, there was one item missing from there.

“Loh... why can't it be here?”, Arfin went back to check it and it's true that it's not there, right,

“Who took it?? this safe is using code and who knows only me and _____ “, Arfin muttered and did not continue his words.

“Naz,,,?? did he take it??”, he said with a surprised look that then smiled. Then he took something and opened it, he was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief.

"I will eventually find you with this clue, dear ", he said expectantly with a glowing face.

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