The Light of ANAS

Why did you change ??

The trip to the top that was so jammed did not upset or upset or badmood the three female passengers in this car, instead they are very happy and continue to laugh until singing as if nostalgic remembering the past.

“Eh, you want no, back then we had a vacation to the top, and along the way you sang a song up and up to the top of the mountain, because you think the peak is the end of the mountain of all the mountains" said Bu Rahmi.

“Yes yes I remember,, keep singing there are replaced lyrics, because look at strawberry tree and tea tree”, Raline also commented.

“Hahaa,, and I was the one who was angry to change the lyrics, instead blaming the creator of the song, haha”, Naz turned out to be grim since childhood huh.

“Raise up to the top of a high mountain once

Climb up to the top of a high mountain once

Right left I saw a lot of strawberry trees

Right left I see a lot of tea tree.”

“Hahahhaaa….. “.they sang together and laughed together as well, while Papa instead fell asleep and strangely was not disturbed by the very noisy passengers. Hardi is still concentrating on driving because the road is so crowded, yes it is only natural because it is a new year holiday and also a long weekend, which usually only takes an hour and a half, due to traffic jams they only arrived after three hours of travel.

They arrived at a villa owned by Opa Harfi located in Cisarua, Bogor. The villa building is so spacious with a swimming pool and outdoor area, and there are 5 rooms where from each room equipped with large glass windows that provide green views around the villa. The dining area and the place to relax is also with a semi-outdoor concept, so that the cool air is felt throughout the room. The rootof area presents a view that spoils the eye with the beauty of the natural scenery around it.

They also entered the room prepared to rest for a while while storing their goods. Raline and Naz decided to go for one room and choose a room with two beds. Mr. Syarief is certainly one room with his wife, while Hardi is alone because he does not have a bobo friend.

Naz and Raline were so excited, they were like little children who had just met again after a long time apart. Run around and around occasionally judging Papa or their Brother, while Bu Rahmi was heating up a meal that was previously brought from home for their lunch with the help of a housekeeper who had been caring for the villa.

After everything is ready, they also eat together by sitting down while enjoying the beautiful scenery of nature.

After eating they return to their respective rooms continuing their rest. Unlike Raline and Naz they are busy telling stories about school and so on, except about men because they are heartbroken. Naz who is in trouble with Arfin, while Raline who had a crush on Nervan and had been close but now no longer because Nervan's wife turned out to be back.

***

The night they had a BBQ party even though only four of them, but the warmth of togetherness with the family was so felt. This is what Naz had dreamed of, being able to gather with his biological parents and get affection from them, what a great happiness for him. They also continue to capture every moment with the camera phone, both photos and made videos.

The night at the top was cold much different from in the capital, after eating, they returned to their respective rooms because the day was late. Raline immediately nyungseb on the mattress that seems to have been very sleepy, while Naz who has not been able to sleep instead played his phone to see the results of the shots and videos since last afternoon. Then he opened a chat, which there was only chat from Father, Mother and his three best friends, while the expected did not contact him whether it was chat or phone call, he said, even when he looked at the list that saw the post he did not find the person, but when he saw his last contact online an hour ago.

“Did he really not intend to explain anything to me? Never mind to contact me, see my status just no, but that's what he often does every time I update the status,, Bang Evan just see all my WA status from morning to just now”, muttered Naz inwardly as he stared softly at the screen of his phone.

“Why did you become like this?? I miss you so much, I miss you so much, hiksh”, hewed while looking at photos of their togetherness on the screen of his phone that he had stored in his email, until he fell asleep.

It turns out that the hatred he spoke of only as an expression of his anger and disappointment for a moment, actually in his heart was still very much in love with the man who had been his girlfriend for three months. Either because both are stubborn, either because Arfin feels guilty or Naz who feel prestige not to contact first.

***

The next day, early in the morning after breakfast Naz with his family went to the tea plantation, and there the three of them played around taking pictures, his parents visited a tea factory that belonged to the Harfi family.

At least the trio kwek-kwek Naz, Raline and Hardi went to the flower garden, and many colorful flowers there.

After that they buy souvenirs to take home later, including some special foods from there. Naz really enjoyed his vacation, although occasionally he still remembered the Arfin he missed.

They decided to go home at dawn because Naz and Raline had started school the next day, so they could rest at home all day.

They arrived home at 7 a.m. They immediately had breakfast and Naz was escorted back to Mother's house, because he only promised to stay 3 days at her Mama's house. With a heavy heart, Ms. Rahmi also allowed Naz to go home, even though she still wanted to linger with her daughter.

Arriving at Mother's house, Naz immediately handed by-by to Mbak Iyem who was helped brought by Mr. Udin because quite a lot.”Ma'am, Mother where?”, asked Naz.

“Mother is in the room, again ready-ready”, she replied.

“Againly ready ?, where are you going?”, wondered Naz wonder.

“She wants to take Bude Hafsah to hospital”, replied Mbak Iyem again.

“Eh,,, yes, I haven't taken Bude yet, either, I want to come ahh, I went upstairs first huh Ma'am, this is all laundry huh, hehee”, I'm going to go, naz said, handing over his suitcase, and then he went up to the second floor.

Tok tok tok,,,, “Bundaa,,, “, shouted Naz.

“Log in,, “, says Mommy.

“For Mother, where are you going?“ , asked Naz pretending not to know.

“Eh, have you returned to Dek? Mommy wants to go to the hospital, go to Bude Hafsah, just to stop now this is “, replied Mommy.

“I come, yes, I have not yet staggered again, even though Bude has been treated for more than a week”, said Naz.

“What's not tired? Just returned home already want to come out”, asked Mommy.

“No, no, anyways take a car not on foot,,, hehehehe, I take a shower and keep ready first ya”, said Naz who then left and went into his room. He kept the bag and picked up a towel and a change of clothes and rushed to the bathroom.

After finishing bathing and changing clothes, Naz combed his hair and put moisturizer on his face then put powder, and applied liptint on his lips. Naz pulled out the contents of his bag and then moved his goods to another bag, such as a wallet, liptint, powder, wet wipes and mini pack dry, as well as a cellphone that he had not turned on after a night on the charger. When only a few minutes are turned on directly there is a call vieo call.

“Hallo,, assalamu'alaikum mistress Emir, hahaha”, greet Naz.

“Wa’alaikumsalam,, fucking lo, who is already the mistress of Emir”. Kiara straight away.

“Hahaha,, still haven't ngaku also ya lo, Ra…. How is the holiday, fun not?”, asked Naz.

“Yes that way, where are you anyway? Lo number was inactive-active, yesterday was not active also”, Kiara asked back.

“Sory sory,, the story is very long,,, the question until losing the phone twice know not... ehh it lo again where the hell?”, Naz saw many people sitting in chairs lined up.

“Gue again in the hospital,, the three of us were going to the house you nganterin by-all the stories, because yesterday we were in a severe shock because the new active lo number again suddenly upload a photo with Raline,, uh it turns out my sister who is pregnant there is bleeding and immediately taken to hospital”, Kiara explained.

“Yes very sad,, now what are the conditions Ra?”, asked Naz concerned.

“Alhamdulillah only light bleeding, so my brother is just as good a baby, just that it should be bedrest and can not do activities first. oh yes, yes, earlier I also met Bang Evan here, to chat too and ....”, not finished Kiara speaking, cut off by Mother's voice.

“Dek, ayok, later to hunt noon”, said Mother who arrived suddenly came.

“Oh, yaudah if so, babhay too, wa’alaikumsalam.”, replied Kiara ended the call.

Naz and Mommy left for the hospital where Bude Hafsah was treated.

“Bude tea is still young the pain is chronic so pity,,, “, said Mother while driving.

“Yes, Mother, where there is no one, thankfully there is Maira and her mother came from Jogja”, said Naz.

“Padahalah mah age is very much under Mother, if not wrong mah just 38 what 39 years old is that, just yes was the same marriage that had a home udah umuran like her husband, because her husband is called Pakde, so Hafsah is also called Bude, when it suits her mah is called Dede if the Mother,, hehe, but yes she is the one who asks everyone to call her Bude, she said, although her husband's tea is dead, ”.

“Pantesan,, I also wonder, why everyone calls Bude, until Mother, Mama, Mami also call Bude, even though you are older than Bude,,,”, Mama, said Naz who just found out. “Emmm,, oh yes Mother,, by the way Mother has met Mami?”, asked Naz expectantly.

“Not yet, deck, yesterday we had a chat on the phone for a while, he said he was again busy taking care of the newborn baby Atikah, so he went back and forth to Depok, he said, Mas Latiefnya also again in Surabaya, so there is no time to meet Mommy, anyways not good also if they are happy with the presence of new grandchildren, we continue to discuss this issue,,, “, said Mommy at length, "Indeed Arfin has not contacted you?”, asked Mommy.

Naz shook his head with a sad look on his face, “Already, maybe you guys need some tea to calm down,, and maybe Arfin also follow busy mami nganter her back and forth Depok while taking care of the other two ponakannya, they are also small, we positive thinking only Deck,,,,”, and so on,Mother gave advice to her son.

Mommy stopped by for a while to buy fruit parcels as a hand, then returned to drive his car. After a while they arrived at the hospital.

Mother and Naz are now in the room where Bude Hafsah is being treated, there is Mina and Bu Dasimah, Maira's mother. Mommy can only talk to Ms. Dasimah, because Bude is resting. “How is Bude doing now? Sorry I just visited, yesterday my sister-in-law was also treated, so I accompanied her”.

“Alhamdulilah doctor said it has improved gradually, Mom, thanks Mom has taken the time to visit my sister”, said Bu Dasimah.

“Naz said that the disease is chronic yes?”, asked Mommy.

“Iya Ma'am, even though my sister is young,, her late mother was sick like this, Hafsah this is my sister from another Mother,,, but we were very close even though we had not met for a long time, just communicating through hape”, Ms. Dasimah explained.

“Mom alone keep it here?”, asked Mommy.

“Iya, sometimes there is Nak Arsyad come here, usually after work must come, but it has been three days tumben has not been here again, may be busy”, said Bu Dasimah.

They continued to talk, while Naz just sat there listening, and after a while, Mother and Naz said goodbye. Then Naz invites Mother to go to the mall to buy her school equipment that has run out, and Mother also grants her request.

Not the name Naz if to the mall not to the game rides after finishing shopping, “Kamu mah ya, aja high body like a model, age 17 years, already, etdah still likes children's games like gini”, Mother grumbled when Naz was done playing, then they walked to find a place to eat because they were hungry.

“Biarin aja,, it's quite mama can refresh the brain,,, eliminate fatigue”, he said while looking at,” Mommy, we eat there yuk”, Naz pointed to his favorite feeding spot, and, and they went in and sat down.

“Dek, Mommy to the toilet first yes, the food order is the same as you, the important thing is to use nasi”

Naz had already chosen food from his menu book and was waiting for his order while playing with his phone.

Suddenly a handsome man approached, “Excuse me, alone Miss, may I sit here”, say and sit down immediately.

Naz did not answer just look at him once,”Dih,, what the hell is a person, not yet adulterated already sit aj”, grumbled Naz in the heart.

“Known, my name is Gerar,,, what is your name?”, he said reaching out to get acquainted.

“Hadeuh,, this person so great prowess I know,, I work ahh”, Naz murmured in my heart.

“Kok from earlier did not answer anyway, beautiful, “, asked the man.

“ a’mah ? nga’mu ngo’mong her’ma nyayah (what? You talk to me?”)”, said Naz in a tone like a gago while chopping lips like a person had a stroke on the lips.

And sure enough the man was very surprised to hear Naz talk like that and was unable to say just words just cengo, “Hah,, crazy, beautiful-looking was gagu,,, I think he had a mild stroke until his lips were like that,, ihhhh”, he murmured in his heart while shuddering in horror because of ilfil.

“eh mas,ngo maya niem nyih, na’ni nanyak ny’ni ni’em a’nyah (eh mas, kok even diem anyway, just reached acquaintance, ko so diem ajah)”, ko, Naz spoke again with his laughter.

“Sorry, sorry Ma'am , I was wrong, excuse me...”, said the person and immediately left Naz even out of the place to eat with a bit of beer while shuddering.

After the man was no longer seen, Naz finally let go of his laughter that he had been holding,”Rasain lo, hahahhahhaa”, Naz laughed while smothering his mouth loosely.

“Dek, you tea why laugh that way ? like a madman, oh, my gosh, not because again Arfin you tea turned crazy ihh,,,,, no,,, amit-amit Bunda mah do not want to have a child geulis-geulis but gelo,, ararubbung teuing ih “, cerocos Mommy while shuddering in horror, then Naz also explained the incident earlier, and then,uh even Mother laughed out loud and became the center of attention of people.

“Mother, do not laugh like that, shy to know, later called Mother crazy slanted gelo,,, hahahhaa”, Naz returned the words of Mother while laughing at her. Then they ate, and after they finished eating, they went straight home.

***

The next day Naz returned to school, because the holiday period was over, and he missed his three best friends who had not met for two weeks. During the break Naz recounts everything he experienced during the school holidays from the mission of uniting Nervan and Maira, meeting camer, to meeting camer, mama's accident until they find out the truth of Naz's biological parents and he can reunite with his biological mother who he so desperately longs for, even until he can make up with Raline. But the problems he was facing with Arfin, he still kept secret from his three friends, because he did not know what kind of clarity.

***

Days changed, it did not feel almost a week Naz returned to school and activities as usual, and during that time Arfin never contacted him or came to see him. Heavy days like this also repeated to him, the difference was that he deliberately avoided, while this time the two of them seemed to avoid each other, although in fact the longing was very torturous. Just looking at the photo can treat longing as well as give more pain to the obscurity of their relationship.

This Saturday when the school house looks quiet, Naz immediately went to his room and mcharger his cell phone that has run out of battery and it turns out he had been to school carrying a cellphone in a state of death. Naz then took a shower and changed clothes and ate in the dining room.

After that he went back to the room and turned on his phone,,, just turned on already many incoming messages,,,, “Hah,,, a lot of incoming messages,, “, , Naz then saw one by one, and how surprised he got a message from Mother, Mina even his three best friends.

“Innalilahi wainnailaihi rajiuun,, Yes Allah, Bude,,,,,, hiks hiks ,,,,,huhuhuhuhuuu...hiks hiks”, Naz who felt shock immediately cried, then he ordered an ojek online to go to the cemetery, and, in the message, they went to the funeral. Naz changed clothes and wore a black hood, then immediately went down, while continuing to wipe his tears.

After a while, Naz's order came online, and they were immediately transported to the cemetery according to the address Naz gave in the application. Arriving there Naz immediately ran towards the crowd who were burying Bude's body, when he arrived there Naz immediately approached Mother who was in the crowd of mourners.

“Mother,, when did Bude die? Didn't the doctor say Bude has gradually improved”, Tanya Naz whispered while hugging his mother

“Mother also does not know, he said earlier dawn died, “, he said while rubbing Naz's head.

After the funeral procession was completed which was closed with prayer and reading yaasin together, the mourners one by one released themselves to return home, even with Bu Dasimah who continued to cry on the ground by two people from the orphanage.

Naz accompanied by Mother approached the tomb of Bude, then Naz crouched down and hugged the wooden tombstone while crying,”Bude,,,, Bude,,,, the hymn of the hymn,,, huhuhuhuhu, why Bude went this fast,,, hiks,, I'm sorry I haven't seen Bude again,,, hiks, if Bude goes later if I go to the lake and the orphanage I confide in who? Hiks hiks,, huhuhuhu.. I love ude,, huhuhu”.

“Dek,, have not cried anymore, can not cry in the grave kayak gini, you must be sincere so that Bude can go quietly, ayok already yaa”, you must be sincere, Mother held both of Naz's shoulders from behind to get him up.

Naz removed both hands from the wooden tombstone, then wiped his tears while looking down at the grave ground studded with flowers. Then he saw two new men coming and standing right in front of him who were blocked by Bude's grave, and all Naz saw was their feet.

Slowly Naz stood aided by Mother, and as he lifted his face that had been looking down at the grave, how surprised he was when his gaze was straight ahead, he looked at the man who had been missing him for a week.

“Arfin Skirt,,, “, flowed in heart, smile

m happiness is engraved from her sweet lips, her face that was once covered with sadness is now radiant, and her eyes are unceasingly looking at the idol. But his happiness did not last long, seeing the look on Arfin's face that seemed ordinary and seemed indifferent, which he then crouched down to pray for the late Bude Hafsah, who was still in the air, without returning a smile from Naz and seeming indifferent to the existence of Naz. Surely it makes Naz again injured, as if the previous wound was re-watered with salt water,,,

“Deck,,, “, invite Mother by embracing Naz, and she began to stretch her legs without letting go of her eyes on Arfin who was crouching and bowing his face, tears flowed back down Naz's cheeks.

“Hinda, we first ya”, Mommy say goodbye to Bu Hinda who accompanies Arfin, he un nodded with a sad look.

“Deck,,,”, said Mother again, and Naz turned his body walking with his mother to the parking lot.

“Why is Brother Arfin like that ? why does he think of me as nothing?” you're so changed ", Naz asked in his heart while wiping away his tears that continued to fall.

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