The Light of ANAS

It turns out he's Shanala's father

Syanala little girl who was just two and a half years old was already exhausted playing and finally ended her activities on the playground and took Mina to approach Maira who was sitting alone in a long chair with several bags the groceries are stored next to it.

“Mama,,, Nala cape,, want minyum,, “, Nala holds Maira's hand while hugging her new doll and asking for a drink.

“Sini, Auntie get her drink yes,, “, Mina take a bottle of drink that is in Nala's carrying case, then open the bottle cap and give it to Nala, then Nala drinks it, “Mai,,,, and then,,, Naz where ? wasn't she with you here ?”, asked Mina who didn't see Naz.

“Tadi said he wanted to go to the toilet, but it's been a long time since I came back, huh, ??”, Maira asked back.

“Maybe she is having stomach pain time yes, I briefly tried to contact her, she was afraid why-why ”, Mina took the phone from her bag then looked for Naz's contact number and then called her, just now he put a cell phone to his ear Naz came up to them. “Naz, where are you from,,?? I called you, uh even nongol”, Mina turned off her phone and asked Naz who just came back.

“So I ran out of the toilet, kept meeting someone , uh so chat deh, sorry brother, I was long ago left Kak Maira alone here”, said Naz who turned to Maira, said, “It's done playing??”, asked Naz to Nala.

“Already Sister, Nala cama poneka has been playing transparent cape, Nala wants to go home”, he said with his lisp.

“OK, alright beautiful princess”, said Naz smile, “Let's Kak we go home, “, said Naz, Naz invites Mina and Maira to go home as well and they rise from their seats carrying groceries. Naz carries a part of the grocery bag while guiding Nala, while Mina carries another bag of groceries while guiding Maira although she walks with the help of a cane for the blind but still Mina can not let her walk alone.

They had been in the car after Mr Udin had picked him up, Naz sitting in front next to Mr. Udin, while Mina, Maira and Nala sat in the passenger seat. It seems that Naz started to avoid being close to Maira when he left when he sat with Maira and Nala in the back.

After traveling for a while, they arrived at the orphanage and Nala fell asleep, apparently due to fatigue playing so Mina did not have the heart to wake him up, then they went down. Naz who saw Mina seemed troubled finally he helped carry Nala who was still sleeping, then they entered with the help of Mr. Udin to bring his groceries, while Mina led Maira.

Naz takes Nala in his carrier into the room and is followed by Maira behind him because he has started to memorize the location of his room, then Naz put Nala to sleep slowly on the bed and he took off Nala's shoes. It seems Nala felt her sleep was disturbed and changed her sleeping position to the left side then back again stretched out and her hands continued to move fumbling as if looking for something.

“Kak, Nala is sleeping so yes, like being restless”, Naz asked Maira because she felt astonished.

“Oh, my goodness, Nala if she sleeps must use her baby blanket,, Naz may I ask you to please take Nala's blanket in the plastic cabinet next to the wooden cabinet ”, please, Maira who sat on the edge of the bed asking for help Naz and Naz rushed to the closet where Maira mentioned, then looked for the whereabouts of Nala's blanket. “The blanket is pink and there is a cap shaped head rabbit”, Maira tells the characteristics of Nala's blanket.

Naz opened one by one the drawer of the small closet, when opening the top two drawer Naz found something that made him surprised as if to be proof of the truth of the words of the Embe and Nadine to him.

“It turns out to be true,, Sister Maira is her ex-boyfriend Kak Arfin”, Naz murmured inwardly as he looked at the photo of Arfin and Maira togetherness, as if there is pain that he arising in his heart, although in fact his former name is the past let alone it happened seven years ago long before Naz knew Arfin.

“Naz,, how is there a blanket?”, asked Maira who did not hear Naz's voice open the drawer or talk to him again.

Naz was surprised by the voice of Maira who called him and disperse his daydream, then he opened the third drawer and he found the blanket in question,,“Iy yes Kak,,, this is there,, “, , he answered, taking the blanket from the drawer, and then he returned to the bed to cover Nala.

“Poor nala,, it's a pity you haven't met your father,, “, , Naz spoke again in his heart while rubbing the head of Nala who was now sleeping soundly as if feeling comfortable because it was enveloped.

“Nala is now sleeping very well yes, no more bolsters Kak,, “, he told Maira.

“Yes,, I don't know, maybe because since the baby put on the blanket, he didn't want to go off if he wanted to sleep, and this morning the blanket was just washed, and,, it looks like after it dried and folded it was put directly into the drawer of the small closet by Mom before going to the hospital last afternoon,, “, Maira explained, “Naz,,,,,, ,,,, thank you very much for everything, “, he said again.

“Sama-sama Brother, oh yes I accidentally saw there is a photo of Kak Maira with four other people in the drawer, what is an old photo?”, asked Naz began to kepo.

“Ayok,, we chat outside, fear Nala woke up, because if she was not full her sleep later like fussy,, “, , Maira invites Naz out of her room and they walk together to the living room, then they sit in the chair that is there,,, “, Oh yes, you asked for a photo yes,,, which photo, Naz?”, asked Maira.

“Iya Kak,,, that's a photo of the five-year-old Kak Maira on the beach, who some people wear white “, Naz described the photo to Maira.

Maira sighed for a moment and then she spoke again, “That's a photo when one of my high school friends celebrated her birthday on the beach, and we stayed at her villa there, and we stayed at her villa, at that time we just finished UN,, ”, Maira replied with a sad face but she could still smile.

Ting ting,,,, Drtttt drrrtt, heard the sound of a mobile phone accompanied by vibrations from inside Naz's bag indicating there was a message, then Naz took the phone from inside his sling bag and then he opened it, there is a message from the heart.

Aa

“Megan,, “

“Where to?”

“Mother says you haven't come home since school”

“P”

“P”

“P”

“P”

“Cock not bales, again busy huh?”

“P”

“P”

Naz

“Again in Panti from after school”

“Beginning to go home kok”

“Hadeuh,, this is a joke if his chat is not directly in reply to the hobby spam”, Naz grumbled slowly.

“His girlfriend is Naz ?”, Tanya Maira.

“Hehe, yes Brother, “, Naz replied with a whimper as he imagined how Maira's expression would be if he knew that Naz's girlfriend was Maira's ex-lover, “Emm,,, Brother Maira used to be in High School ever show, too,,,? people say that the time of High School was the time when ABG children began to know the name in love, hehehe”, Naz was still curious about Maira and Arfin.

Maira smiled at the question from Naz, “ Yes,, indeed people often say that, but in fact not a few who experience it, including me,,, “, , Maira answered yes indirectly.

“What was Kak Maira's boyfriend when SMA was in the photo I saw?”, Naz even more kepo.

Maira smiled again, “Iya she was there , , because she forced me to come to the party,,, in fact I did not really like the name of the party,,, but he managed to get permission from Bude by all means and help his three best friends to take me to the party”.

“Three of his best friends,,,, ?? it means it is true that the man he just told me is Kak Arfin, kok nyesek ya taste “, Naz murmured in his heart.

“So Kak Maira is dating a school friend huh?”, asked Naz pura-ura not to know.

“Iya …. “, Maira replied then smiled as if remembering her good times that had been missed, “First,,, all I thought about was really studying because I could get into that high school with a scholarship, so I had to keep my achievements,,,,, I,,, But when I got to third grade she expressed her feelings for me that she said she had been quiet since first grade, whether it was a prank or a reality,, or something like that,, but he can conquer my heart with his perseverance and earnestness, though we are like the heavens and the earth which are impossible to unite, because he is the one who is, whereas I was just an orphanage child living with the mercy of others”, he said then bowed his gaze and sighed as a child.

“But love changes everything,, she assures me with her love and we keep in touch,, she really takes care of, protects and is always there when I need a backrest to complain, he also always gives me a sense of comfort with him that I never get from anyone else,,,, even when he was studying abroad while I was studying here we still had long distance relationships if the slang LDR, and it lasted until we both graduated college,,,,,, and,,, and when she came back after her graduation, I left her instead, because I realized I didn't deserve her with my flaws,,,”, because, maira said with a look of face that seemed to regret something in the past so that she did not feel her tears fell down her cheeks, and she immediately wiped it with her fingers.

“What the hell,,, I'm happy to be able to tell this story to others,, as if the burden in this heart is reduced,,, all this time I've always been haunted by guilt to him,,,, as if,, I'd like to apologize to her, but it's impossible,,, she doesn't want to see you again and hates me so much,,, “, Maira again sobbed, “Sorry ya Naz ,, I talked about being wandering everywhere, all this time I had no friends to share my sadness,, I could not if I had to tell Mom,,, was afraid to even add to the burden of her mind,,, thank you Naz, already willing to listen to my unek-uniku... “, said Maira while continuing to wipe her tears, he told Naz as if he could read the mind of Naz who wanted to find out about Maira and Arfin.

Naz looks at Maira and there is guilt in his heart for scraping Maira's old wounds, “Where is this,,, ? because my curiosity even opened the old wounds of Brother Maira and made her sad like this,, I became bad,,, arghhh,,, stupid really me,,,,, I, you know,,, why also nanya-nanya kayak gini, anyway it is not my business and only their past,,,, ”, muttered Naz in heart.

“Kak,, don't be sad anymore yes,, I feel bad even make Brother Maira sad like this, I'm really sorry Brother, “, said Naz regretfully.

Tin tin tin tin,,, there is a sound of car axons sounded three times, “Ngapain Pak Udin light all horn?”, asked Naz astonished.

Ting Ting,,, drtt drttt,,, Naz's phone that was still in his grasp rang back and shook.

Aa

“Honey,, let's go home”

“I'm already in front to pick up you”

Naz is shocked to read a message from Arfin,,,

“What,,,? he's here, right,,,? yasalam,, when did this man come home, why was he in front of me,,,, ?”, Naz grumbled in his heart.

“Kak, sorry yes I have been picked up,, I go home first yes, after all this is afternoon, can-can my Mother wrath later if I come home late ,, hehehe”, can-can, Naz said goodbye to Maira and then he stood up.

“Iya Naz,, be careful, yes, thank you very much for everything”, said Maira who stood up.

“Sama-sama Brother,, I came home yes,,, Assalam’alaikum ”, said Naz.

“Wa’alaikumsalam, heart and heart on the streets of Naz”, said Maira, Naz smiled and then left the living room headed out after Maira answered her greeting. And it turns out that Arfin's car was parked on the side of the road in front of the iron gate of the home. Naz immediately approached and got into the car Arfin sitting in the front seat next to his lover who only wears t-shirts and shorts.

“Aa when to go home?? He said Sunday home?”, Naz who just sat down and closed the car door immediately asked.

“So the morning the work was done and Aa took the flight at half-ten this morning, so still staging the Friday at the mosque near the airport”, he said, “Mau go straight home or where did Miss?” go first, ask her.

“Ajid ah, we chat at home aja yes,, “, replied Naz with a smile.

“Oke ,, put on her seat belt was a sweet boy, ”, said Arfin smiling at the lover he missed so much, then he turned his face towards the parlour and how surprised he was when he saw someone standing at the door of the parlour and he kept looking there, “Humaira.....”.

“Hai,, let's go,, I've installed a seatbelt nih”, said Naz but not digubris by Arfin who is still looking at the home through the glass door of his car, but, then Naz looked in that direction and immediately smothered his mouth with his palm.

“Gosh, so he was looking at Maira, why all the way, I said he didn't hear”, Naz muttered in his heart and then he sat back down on the seat.

“Kok nyesek gini ya it feels to see Kak Arfin looking at Kak Maira with all his, as if forgetting me who is next to him”, shriek Naz in the heart.

Naz looked annoyed and jealous to see Arfin who was still looking at the orphanage, “Kak Arfin, so I did not go home anyway, if I did not go home with Mr. Udin just”, so I did not go home, naz said in an annoyed tone and it was able to resuscitate Arfin from his reverie.

“Ah,, yes dear,, already installed yes seat belt,,, we leave now ya”, Arfin looks nervous.

“Again see what the hell? Khusyu very, until I talk from earlier not digubris”, said Naz still with a annoyed tone.

“Sorry baby, I'm just a little tired really,, “, said Arfin lying and he turned on his car and drove it. There was no talk between them all the way. Both seemed to dissolve in their minds, Naz who thought of Arfin's attitude when he saw Maira, while Arfin thought of Maira's whereabouts in the parlour.

Until it does not feel they have arrived at the gate of Naz house, “Honey, sorry I did not stop by, yes,, earlier had talked a lot with Mommy and by-by for you I have been tipped to Bunda”.

“Kok that,, do we want to talk, Aa just came home from Singapore, is it not the same? After half six of this responsibility is soon magrib”, Naz objected.

“Kangen dong,, really miss even,, so pick you up because you want to meet, but talk tomorrow, yes,, I feel tired, like I need a break,,, like,, later if the genocide in the street just look for the mosque aja”, said Arfin reasoned.

“Had you done that,, be careful, yes, later when it has reached the house I say yes,,,”, said Naz then opened the door and got out of the car, then Arfin immediately drove back his car, while Naz walked into the gate of his house, “Kok my feelings are not good gini ya,, ahh,, have it,, have it,, it seems like I also need a break after going through this tiring and stifling day”, Naz said as he walked on the porch of his house and opened the door that turned out to be unlocked and entered his house.

***

After the incident Naz and Arfin have not met again and they only communicate through chat or video call only. Arfin promised Naz to take him on the road this Sunday, but at dawn Arfin canceled it suddenly on the grounds of his Mami suddenly asked Arfin to take him to Depok to visit his sick relatives, finally Naz did not go anywhere and just stayed at home, even though he had missed his lover very much, maybe because of the effects of the malarindu virus that makes him lazy to do anything including lazy bathing and just sleeping in his mattress.

After the prayer, Naz received a message from Mina that Bude had been allowed to go home from the hospital today and he was very happy. Naz immediately took a shower and then dandakarnya to go to the home to visit Bude.

Because so happy, Naz forgot to contact Mr. Udin, finally he ordered an online motorcycle taxi to go to the orphanage. After waiting for 15 minutes the order taxi arrived and Naz who had been waiting on the porch chair of the house immediately approached the order motorcycle and boarded it, they departed.

When the ojek he was riding just arrived in front of the Elementary School where Naz used to be, he saw Mina had just entered a stall and Naz asked the driver to stop there.

After Naz paid, he approached Mina.

“Sister Mina,, how come it's here?”, asked Naz.

“Eh Naz's... Yes again buy sugar, earlier when you want to make tea turned out to be his sugar out”, he said then pay to the owner of the stall that has thrust a bag of crackles containing 1kg of sugar, “thanks ya Bu,,, ayok Naz “, Mina invites Naz to walk with her to the orphanage.

“Sister Mina didn't tell you that Bude wants to come home from the hospital? I can pick him up”, Naz asked as he walked.

“Then I also want to say,, uh it turns out that there is Arfin to visit Bude and really Bude allowed to go home, so all delivered by Arfin”, said Mina.

“Hah,, Brother Arfin,,?”, asked Naz in surprise because Arfin was to Depok.

“Iya,, Arfin who often plays to the orphanage, he and his family are regular donors in this home”, said Mina who did not know that Naz is Arfin's girlfriend, Arfin, “So lately he has rarely been here, busy with his work he said, but since last Friday night he went to the home every day until today, and it turns out that he and Maira were once…..”, Mina has not finished talking Naz who feels surprised accidentally cut off Mina's conversation.

“Kak Arfin.....?”, Naz was surprised to see Arfin playing on the front porch of the parlour while running around with Nala and when Nala yelled to call Arfin, Naz was even more surprised,,, he immediately smothered his mouth.

“Papa,,, Papa,,,”, shouted Nala who ran small chasing Arfin.

“Sister Mina,, it looks like I missed something, I go first ya”, Naz who has reached the gate was alone, said, then he went running as fast as he could down the street with tears streaming down his cheeks and a broken feeling." It turns out that he's Syanala's father", she says in between her cries.

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