The Light of ANAS
Forgive Me
Naz, who was shocked to learn that Arfin was in the parlour, made him very sad and hurt, only crying that he could do at this time to vent his grief.
“Huaaaaaaaaa.. huaaaaaaa,, have the heart of you, I could not help but be alone in the cafe to meet Nala and Kak Maira,,, huaaaaaaaaaaa”, Naz grumbled while crying.
Naz continued to cry out his grief and pain until he fell asleep hugging his doll.
The ringing sound of the phone woke Naz from his sleep, he opened his eyes slowly which felt swollen effect of crying, he said, then he looked for the whereabouts of his cell phone which turned out to be overstretched by his own butt and when he saw the name of the caller Naz just let him not intend to raise the call. “Yeah five o'clock, I have not prayed ashar”, Naz said when he saw the clock on his phone and he immediately got up from his sleep rushed to the bathroom to take water wudhu, then he performed the Ashar prayer. After finishing the prayer Naz prayed and asked to be given instructions to solve the problem he was facing.
Tok tok tok.... heard the sound of knocking on the door from outside the room Naz, “Neng, eat first, from this afternoon did not eat, later his stomach ulcer can relapse loh”, and, mba Iyem said half-screaming from behind the door.
“Iya Mbak,, in a moment I go down”, Naz replied to Mbak Iyem's shout and he folded back his face and his alphabet and stored in his original place. Naz rushed out of his room to go down to the dining room.
“Neng, the food that was brought would be in angetin?”, asked Mbak Iyem.
“Do not make me, I do not want to eat it, I want to eat Mbak aja” cuisine, said Naz while taking rice and side dishes, “Home dwellers at where is Ma'am kok deserted anyway?”, asked Naz.
“No one came home Neng, last time the phone mother later returned home the night because there are more orders he said,, Neng, the Mbak noticed his eyes why the swelling so, Neng cry out ya?”, Neng, ask Ma'am Iyem.
“This is because over time sleep aja Mbak kayaknya,, hehe”, said Naz make excuses and he ate his food until it runs out, nangis Naz lost a lot of energy and liked to eat a lot, then Naz washed his dishes and returned to his room.
Since Father, Mother and Dandy have not yet returned, Naz also prayed magrib and isya in his room alone is not named’ah as usual in mushala. Naz is still thinking about what steps he will take regarding his relationship with Arfin going forward.
Since the afternoon Arfin continued to contact him through chat, phone and video calls, but Naz continued to ignore him until his phone was wiped so as not to make noise. It seems that the pain and disappointment Naz felt was too deep, even though he forced to toughen up, but the tears continued to come out without stopping.
Naz turned off his bedroom lights and just turned on the sleeping lights so that he was thought to be asleep, because he knew very well if Naz was difficult to contact, Arfin would definitely contact Mother or Dandy asked for their help.
And sure enough, just a few minutes Naz turned off the lights, Dandy suddenly knocked on the door of his room.
Tok tok tok,,, “Dek, said Arfin pick up his phone, he disturb Brother mulu nih,,, “, he, Dandy shouted from behind the door of Naz's room with a phone that was temple in his ear and then came back knocking on the door, “Dek, you've slept yes ?”, he asked again but never got an answer.
“Crazy lo ya, if yelled his phone awayin dong from your mouth,, go all the sound of your screams into my ears”, Arfin grumbled annoyedly.
“Hello,, dear Mr. Arfin, it seems like I'm sleeping, the lights are dead and I'm screaming and unanswered, too,, so you should also sleep let you meet in the dreamland there,, “, said Dandy half annoyed and then he went down the stairs and walked towards the dining room.
“Tumben hour is as soon as you sleep,,? usually also sleep at nine or ten o'clock at night”, asked Arfin astonished.
“Yes where I nyaho, like he was going to sleep at what time also, time yes people have been sleepless I forbid to sleep,, already ah I want to eat this, really laper ,, bhay”, Dandy immediately disconnected his phone.
***
The next day after dawn prayers Naz called Mr. Udin to tell him to pick him up early, and it turns out that Mr. Udin said he wasn't going to pick up Naz because Arfin had contacted him last night that he was going to pick Naz up. Knowing that Naz immediately thought of something so that he did not need to go with Arfin, because he did not want to meet Arfin first.
At half-six in the morning Naz was ready with his uniform and he immediately went down to walk into the dining room, Naz took the rice and ate it with the cow's eye eggs that Naz had previously called Ms. Iyem before the bath had asked to make cow's eye eggs, he had ordered a taxi online.
“Dek,, the clock is ready so, already breakfast anyway?”, asked Dandy who wants to brew coffee.
“Emm,, there is a group task that has not been completed so it must be very morning to his school”, said Naz lied. ”I left first yes Kak,, assalamu’alaikum”, Naz greeted Dandy and rushed out of his house because he had heard the sound of a car horn. And sure enough the online taxi order has arrived, Naz immediately approached and boarded it after making sure it was the taxi order.
Naz arrived at school at six o'clock less and was lucky the gate had just opened. “But very early Neng came,, “, said one of the school guards while Naz just smiled and passed him walking towards his class. Upon arrival in front of the class Naz did not enter, he instead sat on the floor of the classroom terrace overlooking the school garden which had its ornamental fish pond and took a textbook from his backpack and read it. After six o'clock more, the students began to appear.
***
While at the Naz residence, Arfin who had been dressed neatly had just arrived at the gate and he got off his car which was parked on the side of the road. Arfin walked into the courtyard of Naz's house and when he got to the front door he immediately pressed the bell button,,, ting nong….. and after waiting for a while someone opened the door from inside the house, ”Assalamu’um, Ms. Yem,,”.
“Wa’alaikumsalam,, Eh, Den Arfin,, want to meet Neng Naz or Den Dandy?”, he asked Arfin.
“I want to pick up Naz and deliver him to Mbak Yem's school,, Naz is ready?”, Arfin expressed his intention and purpose came so early.
“Neng Naz has departed half an hour ago Den, he said there is a group task that has not been completed, so departing in the morning really”, Mbak Iyem reported.
“Oh so yes Ma'am, yes already then I say again aja aja , thanks yes Mbak,,, assalamu’alaikum”, Afin who felt disappointed immediately rushed away and back up his car.
“Why ya Naz seems to avoid me constantly from yesterday,, is he angry that I just left him yesterday at the cafe?”, is he mad, Arfin had his own dialogue and he started his car and drove it to the office.
Arriving at Arfin's office, Arfin walked into his room and told OB to buy him breakfast, because he had not had breakfast so eager to take Naz to school which turned out to be his first time doing after being with Naz, but unfortunately a thousand times dear he was late, he was late, the person he was referring to had already left for school before he came.
After breakfast, Dewi the secretary had arrived at the office and immediately approached Arfin in his study, then the two of them set out together towards a new project of his company that traveled a distance of about an hour more. They also arrived at TKP and held a brewing with the field team, and after that they began to work.
When he saw his watch Arfin remembered with his beloved adoration, “It turns out it was ten o'clock more, Naz must be in the canteen”, he said, Arfin had a dialogue of his own, then he took his phone out of his pants pocket and dialed Naz's contact number.
Tuutt.
"Sorry the number you are going to do not answer, try a few more moments, sorry the number you are calling not answering, please try again”, Even the operator who answers automatically.
Arfin kept calling Naz until the fifth one was picked up.
“Hallo ,, Assalamu’alaikum dear, how long did the phone answer,,,? “, Arfin instantly greeted.
“Wa’alaikumsalam..”.
“Darling,, how did your voice change?”, Tanya Arfin wondered.
“Sorry Den,, this is the same Ma'am Iyem, hape Neng Naz missed and was lying on his bed,,,".
“Oh yes if that is Mbak,, thanks,,, assalamu’alaikum”, Arfin immediately ended his phone call after Mbak Iyem answered his greetings across there.
“Why is this, not usually Naz teledor with his phone, usually anywhere always carry a mobile phone, even when BAB he likes to carry a mobile phone,, is he really avoiding me??,,, ahhhh already, tomorrow I am off work so I can meet with her pick up school”, Arfin back to talk to himself, then he continued his work again.
***
While in school the lesson hours have run out, because today is Friday so finished learning at 10:45 WIB, so that the hours go home from school earlier than usual day. Naz and Ruby return to Kiara's house by taking an online taxi while Kiara as usual rides her favorite motorcycle. Actually this is one of Naz's tactics to avoid meeting with Arfin who certainly will not give up after he failed to take Naz to school.
Arriving at Kiara's house, the three of them went straight to Kiara's room while the Andes went home first and after returning home Friday he promised to follow. Kiara held a carpet on the floor of her room for them to sit back while chatting and eating snacks that Kiara had bought at the mini market on the way home earlier.
“At last can be relaxed like this after a tiring day mostly doing my brain tasks until smoky tahu gak”, Ruby nyerocos while sitting selonjoran and leaning on Kiara's bed.
“Yes, not to mention next Monday we will face the semester test, start locked up in my house, can not be wandering ntar with Umi..”, he said, Kiara also grumbled while Naz from earlier was just silent and occasionally smiled.
“Naz,, lo why the hell diem aja, I noticed in class also earlier you a lot of daydreaming until you get reprimanded teacher,, lo again there is a problem?”, asked Ruby with a serious face.
“What problems ? why don't I know Ra?”, asked Ruby wonder then Kiara told the problem that Naz was facing about Arfin, his ex and a little boy named Syanala, “What…? O em ji ,,, is this really?? I'm not wrong with horror, right?, but where could Kak Arfin like that, ahh I don't believe Kiara”, Ruby was very surprised to hear what Kiara told me.
“Gue is also the same as lo,,, shocked and incredulous By,,,”, Kiara expressed what she felt when she heard Naz's curses the other day she looked towards Naz, “Naz,, she said,, how have you spoken with four eyes Kak Arfin discussed the problem?”, asked Kiara curiously.
Naz shook his head while bowed, ”Then yesterday I wanted to talk about it when Brother Arfin picked me up to school and ate outside, but I haven't had time to talk him away so I left at Cafe”, said Naz who seemed to refrain from crying.
“Hah,, ninggalin lo at the Cafe, how can?”, asked Ruby wonder.
“When I want to say he received a call from someone, then he left he said there is an important thing that makes him have to leave immediately, I was very sad at that time, I was very sad, because I can't leave him alone for anything important, and after I get home, I'll, I called Bude Hafsah to ask about his health condition because I had not seen him after he came from the hospital, and you know, it turns out that Arfin was in the orphanage because he said Nala was sick,,,, and,,, hiks,,,,”, Finally Naz can not hold back his crying anymore.
“Naz,,,,”, Ruby then moved her seat to the Naz side so did Kiara so Naz sat in the middle of them.
“It hurts my heart By, Ra,,,, hiks hiks”, said Naz who cried without a sound and only while looking down as if enduring the pain that was so deep because only his sobbing was heard while his tears continued to flow profusely, Ruby immediately hugged Naz and Kiara rubbed Naz's back with a sad look.
Naz let go of Ruby's embrace and spoke again, “I thought about it last night, and I've decided to back off, because Brother Maira and Shanala need Kak Arfin by their side more, and,, instead of continuing like this, he silently met them and ignored me, it was more painful,, hyks hyks hiks”, hik, said Naz while continuing to wipe his tears with the tissue provided by Kiara.
“Naz,, we will support whatever is best for you, but have you thought about mateng-mateng without asking what really happened to Kak Arfin?”, asked Ruby curiously.
“Iya Naz, Ruby is right,, do not let you make a wrong decision, it will be more sad if it turns out after you are not together again and in the future you just know the truth,,, especially if it turns out that you separated just because of misunderstanding,, do not let you regret later in Naz”, Kiara advised.
“Genesis yesterday has convinced me Ra,,, especially when Bude said Nala who since last night high fever continues to deliriously call Kak Arfin then after he came Nala's condition improved and Nala did not want to be separated from Kak Arfin's sling,,, what try is the name if it is not an inner bond,,, hiks hyks,, “.
“All decisions are in the hands of Lo Naz, if it can indeed make you not sad anymore, we will support your decision,,, I also once thought about how hard it was to decide to break up while my feelings were still very big on the guy, but gradually over time I was able to eat him, and you can also be like that Naz, at first it will be heavy and painful, but rather than you being tormented like this will be even more painful,,, if it is the best way out for you, then you can choose to retreat,, “, Ruby said.
“Naz,, the nature of you who like to think more about the feelings of others is still attached to yourself, but it is easy to choose this path can make you happy later in life, because your intention is very noble that is to give happiness to others, I am proud of lo”, said Kiara terbaru, he even joined in crying and the three friends embraced like Teletubbies with a blue cry from the three.
“There are many, many, you are my best friend,,, hiks hiks”, Naz said after they took off their arms.
“Kok we so termhek-mehek gini yes,,,”, said Ruby while wiping her tears with a tissue.
“Iya same I also so follow sad,,,”, Kiara also took a tissue to wipe her tears.
“Keep what steps you will take to carry out this lo naz” intention, asked Ruby.
“Since yesterday afternoon I have started avoiding him, do not open chat him, do not pick up his phone and video call, he said, also this morning he who intend to urge me to school was I managed to avoid by leaving early,,,”, Naz sighed for a moment and then continued the conversation, he continued,
“Monday we'll take the semester exam, and I'll make excuses so he doesn't call or see me first, well maybe I think of this as training for myself to get used to having days without her, without her voice, without talking to her, without chat from her, without meeting her,,,,, without,,, so that in the future I can get used to life without it”, this time Naz sighed heavily as if to let out a feeling of tightness in his chest.
“Naz, at first it will feel heavy, but we are sure you will be able to go through this,, we will always be there for you,,,, we will be,,, if necessary we will nginep again kayak first so that you do not feel alone face this all”, said Ruby.
“No need By,, I don't want to bother you guys, later if I need to vent for sure I will run to you guys kok”, he said smiling and they also hugged back to strengthen Naz.
***
Later that night, Naz calls Arfin and tells him that he is going to do his semester exams at his school, so he asks Arfin not to see him or call him first, because every exam Mother will prohibit Naz from playing mobile phones in order to concentrate on learning, although Arfin initially objected but after Naz gave him another explanation and reminded his promise to Naz's parents not to interfere with Naz's school, Arfin finally willing to comply with Naz's request.
***
A week has passed, the semester exam has ended and Arfin fulfilled his promise not to contact and meet Naz during that time. Naz has gotten used to having days without Arfin and it is true Ruby said it was very hard and painful for him at first, but now he is getting used to it.
Arfin who had missed Naz so much was still unable to contact and even meet Naz even though the exam was over. During these few days Naz kept avoiding him, his cell phone was still inactive, left school early and after school he would go to Kiara's house by taxi and go home before magrib, he said, because during that time Arfin always tried to drive him to school and pick him up, but never succeeded as if Naz was playing cat-kissin with him.
After dinner, Naz will stay in the room with the lights turned off to be considered asleep, she hasn't slept yet because Arfin calls Dandy every night to ask for help in talking to Naz.
***
Arfin was frustrated with Naz who continued to avoid him, so some days he vent his frustration to his employees even though they only made small mistakes, but Arfin will scold him completely.
And sometimes after entering his study he often daydreamed or lamented his grief.
This Saturday afternoon Arfin went to Naz's house and when the door was opened by Ma'am Iyem, he said that Naz was not home, but he couldn't believe it and barged in and went up to the second floor, and sure enough he found Naz who had just come out of the bathroom, but he immediately ran into his room when he saw Arfin just finished climbing the stairs.
“Naz,,, “, Arfin stepped up to approach Naz who ran to his room.
Ceklek ,, Blam, Naz got into his kakamr and then closed the door and locked it.
Tok tok tok ,, “Naz ,, open the door,, we need to talk, why do you keep avoiding me like this”, Arfin said as he continued to knock on Naz's door.
Naz did not answer and instead cried behind the door.
“What should I do,,, is it time, why does it feel so heavy,, is this the end of my story with him?”. Lirih Naz in her heart while smothering her mouth because she did not want the sound of her crying to be heard by Arfin.
Tok tok tok ,, “Naz, baby, I beg you to open the door, I miss you so much,, I can't stop thinking about you, let's talk outside”, let's talk outside, Arfin was still trying to persuade Naz to open the door even though he had no answer.
“Naz, what's my fault until you keep avoiding me like this, come on baby open the door, if I won't break down the door” Arfin said threateningly.
Czechs …. Naz opened the door slowly and after opening Naz ventured to look at the man he loved so much, who smiled happily because he had not been able to see Naz for two weeks.
“I want us to break up,,, “, Naz said in a firm tone, it made Arfin very surprised and his smile disappeared instantly, he just silently stared as if getting a shock so terrible that it broke his heart.
Blam,,, Naz just shut the door.
"It's all over,, hyks hyks.it's best for us,,, forgive me,,, ", cunning Naz slowly.
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Will Arfin accept Naz's decision,,, ??
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