The Light of ANAS

Get Rest again, yesss

The late night increasingly shows its beauty, the darkness of the night is illuminated by perfectly rounded moonlight, also decorated with starlight scattered randomly twinkling up there, there, even those who form constellations as if patterned by themselves further beautify the view of the sky that is so vast without limits. The atmosphere of the night seemed to describe the feeling of someone who was flowering, his heart felt like dag dig dug ser when he heard a nurse think that the video call with Naz was Naz's girlfriend, and it makes him smile himself as if he lost a little sanity while staring at the mobile screen showing a photo of a girl who hugs a doll which is a photo of WA profile girl adoration of his heart.

Arfin POVs

”Naz ,, have you considered me your lover”, I murmured in my heart. It certainly makes me happy, meaning that Naz has the same feelings as me as what Mother told me when I confessed my feelings for Naz to him in Bandung the other day. And made me think that I love you much more was actually for me because he was ashamed to admit it so he said that it was for his mother. Evidently when in Bandung he was angry with me because he thought that my secretary Dewi was my girlfriend and he was so jealous of Dewi, but after he found out my cousin Dewi he returned again to be sweet.

When I was beaten by his brother he defended me and scolded Arsen who looked so fond of him, even he took good care of my wounds and made breakfast for me until his hands were hurt, and I ate it even though I knew it was very dangerous for me. He looked so scared when I was short of breath because of my allergy to cheese that he cried, I couldn't stand to see that and I kept my tightness by constantly smiling at him, until I get the handling from Dandy.

Lucky that day we quickly returned to Jakarta because I knew for sure I would end up in the hospital, and sure enough when he arrived at home I was immediately rushed to the hospital because my tightness came back again and the itching of the spots that arise so tormenting me, but I told Dandy not to tell Naz about my condition for fear that he would feel guilty, and I also left a large doll parcel that I had ordered for Naz as a replacement for the doll that was brought to Surabaya.

But I didn't think that whether we had an inner bond or anything, he found me in the hospital while he was taking Bude Hafsah to see me, he cried at me for seeing me lying weak and certainly feeling guilty. I had felt it was a dream but it turned out that he was really in front of me, even he did not want to go home when Bude took him home, then he fed me and forced me to eat all that bland hospital food, but because Naz fed me it was delicious.

After I recovered I never saw him again for a few days and I missed him so much, I finally invited him to lunch together, but all that was not done because his sister, Eris had to be operated on, and I went there to accompany him. But when he came he was crying sitting alone, and when I greeted him he immediately hugged me and cried even more because Eris died. It seems like my embrace has become the most comfortable place for him to vent his grief. And it turns out that I miscalculated that having hugged me four times meant that he still owed me two more hugs......

I was surprised when Om Sharif came to Eris' funeral, and Naz called him Papa.

Flashbacks

Dandy

“Arfin, when it is finished with your work, awaited yes in Solaria ordinary place, I am here the same children want to talk SMA” Residential.

I got a message from Dandy, because I had some free time and work was done, I went to Dandy's invitation, and it happened to be a mall close to my office. After a while I got there and someone shouted my name by raising his hand, it turned out to be Nadine my old high school friend who was sitting with three other friends including Dandy. I approached and unfortunately when I shook hands with him he stuck his cheeks on my cheeks alternately, and more unfortunate I got a seat next to Nadine who since High School chasing me. Actually I feel uncomfortable, because he kept mepet-mepet and the other three friends even tease us, finally I only lasted a few minutes there I already want to go from there.

When I turned my gaze to my right side, how surprised I was to see Naz who gave an angry look at me as if he had caught his man cheating, I immediately stood up intending to approach Naz, nadine stood up and held my arm in a pampered manner, Naz looked increasingly upset, and he stood up and just walked right past me. I who had been silent pegged immediately realized, then say goodbye to the others when I intended to pursue Naz. But I couldn't catch up with him, it seemed like he was walking very fast, I finally tried to reach him while walking towards the parking lot, but none of my calls were raised. “Argh, shit, where should I go after him”, I murmured annoyed.

I got into the car and drove it without a clear purpose, finally I decided to go to Mother's house, and after a while traveling, I decided to go to her house, arrive next to the gate of Mother's house and I get out of my car. “Assalamu'alaikum Bund, greet me approaching Mother who is sitting on the terrace chair.

“Wa’alaikumsalam Ar,, you did not attend the meeting with Dandy for the reunion event?”, Mother asked me.

“Just finished from there Mother, oh yes her Naz is Mother?”, I asked while throwing a smile.

“Loh, tea was not the same as Dandy to the mall want maen game he said, indeed you did not meet Naz tea there?”, Mother even asked me back.

“Iya, look at that, I thought I had gone home”, I replied as if, and suddenly the sound of a car stopped in front of the gate that was about to enter the courtyard of the house , then Mother called Mbak Iyem to open the gate, and after the car was parked in the yard , came out a few people from the car , a pair of grandparents, and, Syarief and a girl of Naz's age. We greeted each other, then I said goodbye to go back to find Naz's whereabouts. When I saw Om Sharif I remembered a place that Naz might stop by right now, and I drove my car to that place.

When I got there I parked my car near the mosque, then I got out of the car and walked towards Ms. Mira's house, I knocked on the door and then the one who opened it turned out that the woman who yesterday at the funeral kept hugging Bu Mira,” Assalamu’aikum, Bu Mira there?”, I asked kindly to the person.

“Wa’alaikumsalam,,, Sorry, his Mira again to the tomb of Eris with his son half an hour ago”, he said telling the whereabouts of Bu Mira, and I believe the one with Bu Mira was Naz.

“Kalo as soon as I follow up there, let's Bu, Assalam'alaikum”, I rush to the public cemetery which is located about 1 km from the residence of Bu Mira, I drive a car to the cemetery. Arriving there it turns out that Ms. Mira was seen praying with someone, then I approached, it turned out that Elsa was not Naz that I was looking for.

“Assalamu’alaikim Bu Mira, Elsa”, I greet them.

“Wa’alaikum salam,,,”, they answered simultaneously and Bu Mira seemed to look fixedly at me like remembering something.

“Loh Brother Arfin,, this is the same Sister Nanaz?”, asked Elsa to me.

“Not Elsa, I came here to look for Naz, I think it's here with Ms. Mira,”, I replied.

“Kakak has returned home this afternoon picked up the driver, he said later in the afternoon to come here again to join ba’da magrib later”., Elsa explained to me.

“Nak Arfin, thank you very much for your help, I'm sorry to bother Nak Arfin yesterday, and I'm sorry also new mom had time to say it”, Ms. Mira started talking to me.

“Gak what Mom, do not hesitate like that, I am happy to be able to help, I do not feel bothered kok Bu”, I said smiling.

“Nak Arfin seemed to be very close to Nanaz huh,,, “, Bu Mira's words made me feel clumsy, and I only replied with a smile.

“Let's go in Nan Arfin, sorry mom's house is only a patch and there is no air conditioning just use the wind boils from the fan of course”, he said when we entered, I also sat cross-legged carpeted, while Bu Mira took me to drink and food , “Please drink and this is a little cake “, , I was also welcome to enjoy the treat and sure enough it did not rain for long.

“Thank you, Bu”, I took a sip of tea served to me.

“Sorry Nak Arfin, yesterday I noticed you seem confused by the existence of Sharif called Papa by Nanaz,, “, Bu Mira opened the conversation.

“Iya Ma'am, but I dare not ask Naz because yesterday he looks still very sad”.

“It looks like your relationship is very close, yes, last night I heard Nanaz and Elsa talking about a man who was close to Nanaz, and,, Elsa keeps raving questions to Nanaz about her closeness to Nak Arfin”. Said Miss Mira who made me very nervous.

“Nak Arfin, previously Nanaz had never been close to any man other than with his best friend Andes, did Nak Arfin like Nanaz?”, he said, and finally the question of the point as you asked was also thrown from the mouth of Ms. Mira.

I took a deep breath and exhaled it to neutralize my nervousness, “Iya Ma'am, I like my mother's son, Rheanazwa", I finally threw it too and Ms. Mira also seemed to smile with relief hearing it.

“Why do you like it ?, ,, Will you still like it despite knowing its true identity and maybe it will make you embarrassed if it stays with him?”, asked Bu Mira who made me wonder.

“What mother does Bu mean?”, I asked back.

“Jawab first my question, I will explain”, he said again asking for answers, and of course this feels more scary than facing the Brutal Boss.

"Relax Arfin, this is not much compared to later I have to face the same question that will be posed by Om Syarif or Om Rizal”, I murmured in my heart.

“I like Naz because she is a sincere, jovial and kind girl even though sometimes like ignorant, I already know many things about her past Mom, I will accept her for who she is, Mom, because he also does not mind my lack”. Said explained.

“Alright, you may be wondering why Sharif was called Papa by Nanaz, because he is the real Papa of Nanaz. We used to work in one company, and one night after a party with a business colleague, because we got drunk we made a mistake and some time later I got pregnant while he did not want to be responsible for his wife, because of his wife, Rahmi is pregnant too. At that time I hated Sharif, but I kept my pregnancy and I hid myself from my family by pretending to continue college. Until I gave birth to a daughter in a hospital, and it turned out that in the afternoon Rahmi gave birth in the same hospital. Then the next day I brought my baby home quietly ,, at that time I did not have a fee because it turned out that my account had been blocked by my Papa who already knew the lie and my pregnancy”, Bu Mira's words stopped because she could not resist her crying.

“And at that time I was caught in security but lucky I met Anita and Rizal, they helped pay for my delivery, but fateful when Anita who was 8 months pregnant fell on her stomach, and then she fell on her stomach, he immediately got treatment and had to have a Caesarean section. At that time I continued to accompany Anita and Rizal, because it was unethical that they had helped me, while when they were hit I left. I kept holding the baby waiting in the nursery for Anita, while she was in surgery”, Ms. Mira sighed for a moment.

“After a few hours Rizal came to the room where I was waiting, he cried because it turns out that the baby died and Anita's uterus was removed due to complications due to impact when falling. Rizal is confused as to what to say to his wife who is still in the recovery room and continues to ask her for the baby, until suddenly the nurse brought Anita into the room with eyes open but with blank stares and tears continued to flow, the nurse said Anita already knew the baby died because she kept asking. Anita's condition was very worrisome, finally with a heavy heart I gave the baby who was in my lap to them, because I was also confused not to have the cost to take care of it”, because I was also confused, she said while wiping her tears.

“After a year of that incident I married my longtime lover who had disappeared, and I had Elsa. Seven years later we moved house and Elsa also moved school which turned out to be one school with Nanaz. I always drove Elsa to school, and I was surprised to see Sharif dropping off two girls at the school. I investigated it and it turned out that it was her daughter and niece who turned out to be the children of Rizal and Anita. At that time I only knew that Rizal was Sharif's sister. I hate Sharif so much, even when they hold Nanaz and Raline's birthday, I deliberately came there to dismantle the rot of Sharif in front of his family by saying that Rhenazwa is my son and Sharif and not the son of Rizal and Anita”, Bu Mira almost stopped the story, Rhenazwa said, looks like regret.

“At that time my target was Sharief, but I forgot it turned out that I had hurt Anita and the boy, hurting 10-year-old Nanaz. After that incident during school I always observed him secretly because I did not dare to appear before him, he was always ridiculed and insulted by his school friends because of Raline's incitement, but luckily his three best friends always stand up for Nanaz. Because I could not bear it, I secretly threatened to report to the police the children who mocked Nanaz, and they never mocked or insulted Nanaz again, while Raline always acted arbitrarily when before their relationship looked very good. Nanaz never fought Raline, she was a very good boy, but the more her once fat and bulging body gradually became thin, perhaps she was experiencing inner pressure, and it was because of my fault, my mistake, hiks hiks”.

“When he entered Junior High I could not see him again because of Elsa's age and she was two years adrift, and for a year I never saw her again, until one day my husband had an accident and he had the intention if he died wanted to donate his organs to those in need, and it turns out that Raline suffered from heart disease and had to do a heart transplant. Syarif got the information from the doctor that there are those who intend to donate the heart and are critical. Sharif came to me and begged to prostrate himself, but because of the great hatred for him I refused him, but when Nanaz pleaded with me holding both hands and resting before me, my heart was broken, and it was the first time she called me mother”, she said, smiling in her tears.

“Since then Nanaz accepted me as her birth mother and she often visited me and played with Elsa and my second child Eris who was a toddler. But Anita did not like it, for fear that I would take Nanaz back, she always forbade Nanaz from approaching me, so Nanaz always kept quiet if she wanted to meet us, to keep Anita feeling. After my husband's death I sold the house and some of the assets we had in order to survive, and I bought this tenement house for us to live in, while the rest for the children's living and school expenses, he said, but a year ago Eris had a heart disease and it cost me a lot, I ended up using bpjs for her treatment, and Nanaz slalu helped our finances even though I rejected her a lot, but she, always clean hard because I only work as a restaurant waiter, and it turns out it is a help from Syarif because it once helped Raline.” Said terminating.

“Sorry Mom, because my mom is so sad like this”, I said feeling guilty.

“Nothing, it would be better for you to know it directly, than from others who do not necessarily know the truth”, he said as if relieved.

“Thank you mom for trusting me and telling me all this.”.

“I'm sure nak Arfin is a grown man who can assume seriousness in the relationship, I hope you don't play tricks on Nanaz's feelings, I really love her, so please if you really love Nanaz, keep him from making him sad and happy is he “. Mom Mira's words can only be nodded by throwing a smile, I don't know why these lips feel funny to say the word.

The rain had subsided and I managed to contact Naz, thank God he was at Kiara's house. Finally I say goodbye and I can go home with a feeling of calm and happy because I have pocketed the blessing again yess.

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